Random . September 2017

Morning call. Then 10 minutes hours later. :) 

Letting go of some clothes. It's no big deal but it feels good. 

How can you explain to other people the capacity of your brain? 

Stressed and insomnia. A very bad combination. 

I hate that part of life. Why do I need to deal with it. -_- 

I want to write something but again it's full of hatred and anger that's why I rather not start anything. 

I definitely know how it feels. 

Breaking down realizing how it all affect me so much. :( 

It's not about how or why you said it anymore, it's more on how it is already in my system. 

It's heart wrenching every single time. 

UAAP S80!!! Such a great opening and I'm so surprised to see TR again. :) 

This is why I'm avoiding to write. 

Lately has just been so stressful. 

Much needed rest. 

Bed weather but too much to do. 

I really need an order name. Where I can use when restaurants are asking for names. I think I can us AV or AE. Lol

The guy sent a picture of his baked cookies and I'm now craving for some cookies. And I also want to bake again but I'm saving energy for work life.

Super tired. 

I don't complain much because I know there's a perfect timing for everything. 

When a stunning sunset photo is waiting to be seen on my inbox. 

Music doesn't make me stop thinking about it. #mantra

I really miss Coach Nash. :( I don't get the strategy of Coach Olsen. 

Always being my happy pill. Hahaha. 

When your number one reference is Facebook. Who's online 24/7? 

Bitter than I am? People, if you just watch basketball as a past time, don't make a big deal out of it. You don't know everything. 

Chucks. :( 

Are you sure? 

You have to consider a lot of things. 

Oh what's the point of ranting very specific on social media? 

People who complain too much while waiting in line. Tsss

Writers block. 

If you can't wait, leave. 

A question that I think you should ask yourself first. 

Writing from scratch! 

I have this idea in my head but it's hard to construct. 

I want to write but it's making me confused. 

To be able to catch up on my TV shows is already a productivity for me.

Hehe. No way.  

You should not slap that on their face every single time. 

It's funny how stranger cares than you are. 

I want to write something but I can't think of any topic right now. Hehe 

When people talk too loud on their phone in public. Tsss

m a n t r a . . . .

All Time Low Live in Manila 2017

It was announced months ago but I decided to get tickets few days before Tuesday (08.22). Grabbing the opportunity that I'm free that day and a much needed me-time before hectic schedule and probably my last solo flight before UAAP season. 

It was worth it because new album was just released then I haven't seen them in 2 years and I just need another concert in my life. 

I already search the setlist and compare to the US setlist, they just didn't play Time-bomb. I think it will be fun if they did so fans can get up on stage. 

I was looking forward to "Therapy" and to the new songs most especially "Good Times". Dang I think I film the whole thing. Haha but even I did film it I was able to enjoy it. 

I even brought my old TX5 and my mom's H70 to capture it but it was beaten by my iPhone. Haha. Though I also wanted to try to capture nice pictures from the Sony cameras, unfortunately it was fail so I end up just filming. 

I'll try to make a video out of what I got or I haven't decided yet but I might upload some full video. 

I also didn't buy some merch since I think I'm done with merch. Practicality. 

The only think that I really want to try is to capture it. Dang I love concert photography. One day I'll do it. I'm not as good as professionals but there's an urge in me to want to do it because it's challenging and beautiful, the lightning, the movements. Can I be assign in a band to take candid photos? Please?! 

Anyways. Going back to ATL. 

The setlist that night:

Last Young Renegade

Damned If I Do Ya

Runaways

Backseat Serenade

Guts

Dirty Laundry

Nice2KnoU

Missing You

Cinderblock Garden

Vegas

Something's Gotta Give

Therapy

Weightless

Life Of The Party

Lost In Stereo

Good Times

Kids in the Dark

Drugs & Candy 

Dear Maria, Count Me In

So good to see the boys for the third time. :) 

See you again soon! 

Reminder 2.0

In regards with this post, I did my first ever me-time. Movies are becoming my excuse but it was "Pista ng Pelikulang Pilipino" and I've been supporting local films ever since MMFF 2016. I'm appreciating every single thing I've watched since then and maybe I can recall everything but maybe not. lol. 

This trip was very last decision. I purchased my ATL ticket earlier today and I'm having a hard time thinking if I will go to watch 2 movies alone or not since I'm about to watch ATL on Tuesday. 

I already decided not to go out but then our TV is busted, the movies I'm planning to see will last almost 2 hours and it got pretty good reviews. Mom was saying she have to go to Megamall then I joke that I will be leaving too and I did. 

It was raining but very manageable when I left the house and even on a Saturday the traffic is horrible. Took me 2 hours to be in Santolan Station usually it's just 1 hour or 30 minutes at midnight. 

I almost take the rain showers as a sign not to leave but it stopped so I left. It didn't rain until I arrived in Cubao. I still have less than two hours before the 7pm screening and I have to kill time so I went to National Bookstore where you can kill time all day. 

The two movies was super worth my time, it didn't disappoint. 

I was stuck in the movie house for almost 4 hours until midnight and when I went out, it's raining. 

I love the rainy days since it's been a while since we got rain but I somehow hate it most especially when I'm commuting though it's a reason to stay longer outside. Going to thank again 24 hours fast food chains and gotta give homecourt some love. 

I know this rain will not stop anytime soon and I will be going home while it's raining. Appreciating life and the simple things. 

I don't know when will be my next me-time since UAAP will start in two weeks and without a very nice movie as an excuse, I need something to do when staying at coffee shops. Hahaha. 

For now, ATL concert on Tuesday and I hope it will not rain since it's MOA and it's Tuesday! 

I'm so proud that even I love the idea of Uber I still know how to commute and I already know the drill out here. It's somehow scary to be out but we don't have to be stuck in hometown most especially it's stressful there. 

Sometimes I just love being a nobody in a place full of strangers. 

Time to leave homecourt and I'll see you again very soon. 

08.20.17 01:40 

Back in my bed and I don't know why I feel that there's something missing. 

Goodnight. 

LANY Live in Manila (Video)

Our view from our position 

It's been a month now since we saw LANY and thankful for our internet that's so slow that I was able to finish this video.

From the photo above, you might ask me how did it happen that I was able to capture nice photos and to make a very nice video, I used my Canon 600D with a 55-250mm lens.

My original plan was to make all 21 minutes video to make it 4 - 8 minutes and I'll just use one song maybe "Super Far" or any other song but upon editing, I just decided to make a snippet of each song that I was able to capture since every footage is so good even you can't barely hear Paul singing but lets be honest that I got hq vids.

Unfrtunately, some parts are cut because at some point I do click it for a photo in a middle of recording  which it will be stop in a few sec while saving the photo.

I'm happy that I brought my DSLR that day and I'm so satisfied with this video. :)



My Photographs: LANY

LANY Live in Manila

A post shared by Aivrin Villamayor (@aeivryn) on Aug 13, 2017 at 3:29am PDT

It was merely a last decision to push this through with my sister and cousins. My sister really wants it but I'm somehow hesitant since it will be 2 mall show in a day that it will be probably a short one and I told her that I will depend on the setlist. 

They did the 1st show the day they arrived and it was on my Twitter and IG feed and the crowd was so insane! 

Knowing that it will be a mall show, I somehow know the drill since I also watched Twenty One Pilots in Trinoma. 

Random LANY song also played even my iPod is on shuffle and I took that as a sign. Yes. Hahaha. 

Let's push it even it's Sunday and because it's free! Though they can really fill Araneta or MOA Arena but thankful it was free that I was able to experience it with my sister and cousins. It was a first time for us! Yay! More girls night please!

A post shared by Aivrin Villamayor (@aeivryn) on Aug 6, 2017 at 12:40pm PDT

Someone care so much to upload a list of the song that they played the first mall show and I like it since it consist songs from the previous EP and the new album. 

Since it's a go, good thing we are four, some can buy food first then we can stay on our space. Though we were on the top floor and the speakers aren't that good enough there, we still enjoy it. It wasn't disappointing despite of that issue but if you really like to hear Paul's voice the way he sings like on the ILYSB Live in LA, they should have an arena show and it should be an acoustic. I want to hear that, I want to hear him singing just like on the recorded songs since his voice is magical. I know singing back at him is one of the best, it will be insane if we can hear his sweet voice most often. 

And by the mall show that scheduled that weekend, you will easily notice that they're already tired but I hope that they really enjoy their time here. 

I was thinking if I should bring my camera too until last minute and I'm so happy that I brought it and got some few nice shots and a couple of videos which will be published on my Tumblr late this year or early next year (too many on queue) lol. 

We thought that Super Far will not be played since it was 2nd to the last song on the previous setlist but they changed it. 

My Photographs: LANY

Tumblr Collab

Just like anyone in the interwebs, I want to do collaboration but since I'm not a huge person online it's impossible. I do get random message about surveys and nonessential ones, though. 

I do talk to people online most especially if you don't creep me out. I tried to be nice since there are few people appreciating my photographs on Tumblr. 

Christian of lendmeyourunderbelly messaged me about his project and gave me links on what was it all about. 

To be honest I was hesitant at first but I was able to understand it more when I viewed it in a computer. Basically he was collecting a 1 minute video of anything that will fulfill every minute for one whole 24 hours and he was doing different background music for each video. 

I started to wonder what will be interesting to document from my daily life and we exchange message he told me that it's not necessary to be a new one just a video that is one minute. Upon understanding the concept, I tried to look on my phone a one minute video that I have and he also put a list of available minutes to know what is it still available and for people who will start to contribute. 

He said that it started as a personal project but he realized that he also want to see a different point of view so he started to ask people to contribute. 

I found 2 videos I took in LA Union and I'm glad that the time of that videos are still available. I sent it to him and just a few days later he send me a link and it's already up on his YouTube and Tumblr. 

He told me that I can still send him some more so I'll probably check his link of time availability since I still want to contribute. 

I'm looking forward for his project to be done since it will be sick! Just imagine having a collection of a 24 hours video from different places. Isn't that amazing? 

Here's the finish product of our collaboration. Naks. lol 

My first ever collab from someone in the Internet. 

I was surprised that he did also put the link of this blog!

Thank you, Christian! Will really try to send you some more soon. :) 


If you want to know more about it and maybe you want to contribute to this amazing project, 
you can check it on "A Soundtrack for Every Minute".

On Repeat . One More Light (Album)

Giving you permission to tell me that I'm just joining the bandwagon.

Ever since the news about Chester, my heart was broken. I don't listen to Linkin Park but it somehow hit so close to home for me. We know that they've been famous when "In The End" was released and I love that and singing/rapping along with it when it plays. Who didn't do that? Teenage years. 

Even I don't listen to them they are part of us. I don't know what they've gone through all these years but respect to them and to the fans. 

The only way I know how to cure my broken heart is to listen to their albums. I know it could be more heartbreaking for others hearing his voice but for me it's a cure, somehow. I hate losing people in life whether just the relationship ends or when they're gone. It's heartbreaking but most especially it's life changing, it will turn you upside down. 

Mix emotions while playing LP on the background and realizing that it will never be the same since his voice will never be heard again but thankful for their albums and live videos on YouTube. 

Upon researching, I just realized too that they just released a new one last May. Read that some bashed the album and them for making something not heavy (by sounds) just like their previous ones. 

I wrote "The Irony of Choking on a Lifesaver" and I told you, it's better to deal with changes but not a change like this. :( 

Chris Cornell also was taken away from fans and family early this year and they said that he was a big influence and a good friend to Chester. Losing Chris made a huge impact to Chester and he died on the birthday of Chris. 

Depression is one main reason. Bottom line, we should really not take mental health issue for granted. 

Make someone feel loved today and let them know that you care. 

I relate to this album in a way because of the lyrics. I can see myself singing some of it loudly because it really do happen to me. 

This probably will be the last album of Chester or maybe LP (I can't imagine LP without Chester in it). 

I know it's not as heavy as their previous albums but enjoy the down time, it will never be the same. 

Reminder

Stuck at hometown sometimes are good but just last week I realized that I need to get out with or without a friend to meet most especially that basketball season is still a month away (as of typing). Schedule is still busted too since I'm just planning to see just 2 games for the 1st round. 

Last Saturday I realized that I need to get out of hometown other than my weekly trip in Antipolo, I need to be at least be somewhere I used to know for until pass midnight. I think I just need a me-time version outside the house and my room. It's good to be inspired to write and to be reminded that my hometown is not just my world. 

When I was about to enter college, news about rallies are all over and it's making me scared just watching it. But being in the street of Morayta mostly everyday, or just experiencing life out there, the news is somehow too much that it's making everyone scared. It's still the same thing until now so I'll probably stop watching news again. 

Lately, some big news are happening just outside hometown and it makes me realize that it's not even safe here (well it's not safe anywhere). I get paranoid sometimes when I think about it and it makes me scared for my life too. I mean even I'm just me, its still scary as shit. 

Another weekend that I decided to hangout with a friend at north and no regrets with the almost last minute decision and the movie we just saw was great, I had a good laugh. 

Even we do this few hours hangout compare to our usual, I do cherish it most especially that she's about to leave the country. After hanging out, I of course decided to have my me-time until pass midnight (jeeptrip are always better after midnight). I'm thinking to write but I decided to finish putting tags on my pictures on Tumblr so they will be on queue, I was thinking of reading but I don't think I can handle reading in public so after fixing Tumblr, I just watched YouTube. It somehow gives me time to write for my blog or just write anything but I don't have anything in mind. Let's not call it a writer's block because my head is so clear just like the moment I got when staring at the beach in La Union. 

It started to rain when I'm about to leave home court, I think the universe is telling me to stay a little bit more outside hometown since I'll be stuck in it most likely until the end of the month (July). 

There are things that I really wish I can do besides of being alone and having me-time. I don't complain on my current sht but sometimes it's a good thing to have a vehicle so I will not be stuck in a specific coffee shops. Lol. I will also not hesitate to carry my laptop and maybe do some editing outside if that's the case. 

This is totally not a writers block since I can't help but type this on my way home in a jeepney. Yep. Hahaha. For the first time I did not hesitate to bring out my phone and almost write the whole trip. Technically, I just chill at the coffee shop earlier. 

Last week I was out too after months and when I got home I made 3 letters for my guy and it was insane! It made me realize that I should get out to be inspired and not be a scary cat by the news happening around. Living without regrets (still trying to apply that). 

The problem when getting out is my expenses. Hahaha. So if I will be doing this most especially when it's basketball off season, I should plan on where to go and eat and where is it okay to have me-time. Who knows it may convert to an out of town trip furthermore. Yikes. 

For now, basketball season is just a few weeks away so lifestyle will be different by then if we will decide to watch a weekly game but as far as the 1st round is concern and maybe the 2nd round, it's impossible to happen. Or maybe I'll schedule to watch a game alone. Lol. 

Gonne get off the jeep now! 

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