Sunday, September 30, 2018

Random . September 2018

It's been a week since Jakarta. I miss it already. 

I'm somehow ready to write everything about Jakarta but my throat aches and cough. I've been too busy as well as soon as I came back early this week so I'll just rest then maybe on the next days I will be able to. 

One more lined up vacation this month. Hopefully it push through. 

11 days of jetlag shit and a little post concert depression. 

Arts + Friends. :(

Nashville is really one of the on-the-list-state-to-visit in the US. 

Oooppss. I also cut my hair. Yay. :)

Another quick hi-hello-bye. #21 091018

Shoot. I totally forgot the detour before leaving. 091118

3 weeks after the Paramore weekend and I'm just going to try to write that madness just now. I will try. 

Still on writers block but I'm missing one of my best friend tonight. Hi Pot, I miss you. 

I'm really having a hard time to let out my thoughts on all aspects. I'm trying this weekend so I'll have something for this month. I also need to let go of the Paramore experience since it's been a month!

Emotionally unstable. 

Done with writing about last month. 

Supposedly we should be out of town this weekend but really it's okay. 


You will be missed Tita Bing. Thank you, tita! Palawan visit will be different from now on. 

When I caught myself singing along very well on a new Avril song after few plays. Connection. Lol

Waiting but all good. 

The guy felt pressured after so long. 

Just like that I'm back in Palawan. 

Thursday, September 27, 2018

Indonesia 2018 . Jakarta 2.0

After Manila show, I was able to catch up with friends that I wasn’t able to meet since February and while they keep on sharing their SG experience and just really reminiscing what was just happened inside MOA Arena. We are just laughing the whole time. 

We separate ways at like 1am since I still need to get my things at my sister while Dex and Harry will be flying out on the night of the 24th, Ginnie will be my travel buddy again on this flight and we are staying together also with Diana. YAY! Diana was supposed to be on the same flight as ours so we can still explore Jakarta once again but there was a conflict so she wasn't able to make our flight but she will be on the same flight with Dex and Harry. 

Ginnie and I stayed at the airport from 2am and our flight was 8am. Ginnie and I are tired but nothing compared to Ginnie since she has been to Singapore then stayed in Manila for maybe less than 48 hours (not sure) then flying again to Jakarta. At least we have a free day before the concert although I somehow wish that I explore Jakarta that afternoon instead of sleeping. Lol but I still have to wait for Diana who will arrive at midnight and when she arrived at 2am, I didn’t sleep already. We catch up on a lot of things while Ginnie was sleeping. Diana was just telling me about their flight and on how she was able to talk to Dex and Harry since we weren’t really introduce each other in February since we are all exhausted. 

Plan is to leave our Airbnb and line up as early as possible. We are in the city, 1 hour away from ICE and we left before 6am.

PARAMORE LIVE IN JAKARTA - on a different post

After the show, we planned to eat at the nearby Mcdonalds but it was full and all of us were really tired already we all just want to sleep. We didn't eat up together and we are still going to travel for 1 hour to get on out Airbnb and we are trying Grab Food again but nothing so, I end up eating the bread from Family Mart while I browse my pictures and videos and while my 2 roommates went straight to bed. 

Slept at maybe 3 am and woke up lunch time while Dex and Harry were already on their way to pick us up so we can go to Monas. It was a Sunday and I really wanted them to experience Kota Tua but not enough time since original plan is to climb up Monas but it was closed then maybe another sight seeing but changes. One of the original plan was Museum Macan if Diana was on the same flight but no. Haha 

Dex, Harry and Ginnie will be leaving Sunday night while me and Diana will be leaving Monday morning and we asked them if they want to see the Yayoi Kusama exhibit at Museum Macan and they searched it and good thing they loved it. 

After Monas, we went straight to Museum Macan and we definitely enjoy the exhibit and after we separate ways since Diana and I will try to shop at Grand Indonesia while the three of them will be heading to the airport for their flight. 

We even bumped to Gilas players (Belga, Almazan and Trollano) at Grand Indonesia who was there for the Asian Games.

Diana and I really do bond this time, before when it was time to go home in Tangerang with my one hour travel from the city I really felt alone and lonely at my hotel room good thing we planned to be together this whole trip after doing a little shopping, ate at our favorite restaurant as last customers and we stayed at a coffee shop after just talking random stuff until we got home and it didn't end there! Haha I slept at 4am and she didn't sleep at all afraid of missing our flight. Haha

We left the Airbnb at 8am and had the best Grab ever. Hahaha what an experience!!!

We bought chocolates then had breakfast at the airport while waiting.

It was indeed a memorable trip. 

We ate early dinner when we got back in Manila and guess what I just poured a glass of pineapple juice on my shoes, good thing I was wearing Dr. Martens. Lol 

We didn't plan much on sight seeing for this trip since we already did that last time. Though we still wanted to see a different side of Indonesia, Yogyakarta to be exact but we don't have much time. 

My Photographs: Jakarta 2.0

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Paramore Live in Jakarta 2018

When we arrived at 7am at ICE, there are people who are already lining up but still good. We split up, Diana, Ginnie and I lined up for the ticket redemption while Dexter and Harry at the entrance.

So first, we have to change our online QR code for the physical ticket which is cute, btw. So, the ticket redemption booth will open 11am and we are already there at 7am (waited for 4 hours). After 20 minutes, we already got out tickets. 

We transfer on our spot at the entrance, where we met some of the people who Dex, Harry and Ginnie met in Singapore then we also met another Filipino who was beside me all along the whole show (Hi Mariae). 

We were at the entrance line at 11:30am until they opened the venue entrance by 4pm where we were burned up under the sun. Thankfully it didn’t rained and they gave us free water but no bathroom break!! We also did ordered via Grab Food with Mcdonalds but fuck no bathroom break since there were no portalet and we're about to explode!!! Even I was thirsty I can’t drink anymore since I badly need to pee. I even got tan lines just by lining up and we are already messaging the promoters so we can enter the venue early but nothing. 

Since they already posted instruction that open gate will be at 4pm where there is a very good air condition plus food stalls, bathrooms and the merch booth but they did let us in about 4pm then waited again and have free time to retouch, do make up, eat some food and lined up on the restroom then they let us in the pit at 5pm (waited 5 hours and 30 minutes just be at almost-barricade). 

Dang it. When we got there, I thought everything will be okay like we can literally stand there and wait patiently but while waiting for the show to start until the end of the show, we weren't able to have a mini-personal-space as in people are just pushing towards the front the whole time.

While we are waiting I literally slept for a few minutes even Mariae and Diana was able to take a nap while standing and not bothered if we are going to fall since we are in front and people are pushing us there’s no space to fall. Lol 

Kotak was the opening act and it was a local band and we literally didn’t understand a single thing but we were amazed on their performance but I really wish the vocalist have a guitar, so she will not just air-guitar the whole time. It was fun though we were hyped up for the main show. 

Then it was time for Paramore.

After the Manila show, I’m really looking forward to be dancing with my friends just like how we did in Manila but with no space really it was hard. Maybe its ok if we are really in barricade but were not and people are in front of us too and we don't want to push them or else they will crash. The worst, girls are the one who are not stopping on pushing, as in. 

Same setlist and I was able to sneaked in my camera since Diana have a big bag. Hehe and fck it, I got good shots!!!! 

The good memories are:

  • Hayley saw me no doubt in that with Steal my Sunshine on my hair how come she will not recognize her own hair dye? Lol
  • There are moments where I believe she looked at me in the eyes while she’s there standing in front of me singing. :( 
  • I was literally at the middle right in front of her. (For the 2010 and 2013 show, I was always on the opposite side of Taylor. I told myself that if ever I'll end up on the side it should be on Taylor side but guess what, I was in front of Hayley!!!)
  • I got good photos and videos but audio is not as good if you are near the stage

The bad ones: (I can totally rant with everything but I’m just keeping it simple)

  • No personal space. Come on, no one will be stealing our spot just for the people at the back to be in front. We are good runners and we got friends and we will make that waiting game worth it.
  • We weren't able to dance freely - no space!! 
  • The crowd was freaking wild! I watched couple of live on Youtube but I don't see them pushing each other when they already got the spot. 

I can go on with all my rants but the root of it all was the space and girls who never end up on pushing, that's just it.

I watched different festival and artist on Youtube but never in my life that I will experience first hand where people will be picked up by security to be out of the crowd since they passed out. 

The first five song were intense. 

Crushcrushcrush was at the first five song and there was this girl beside Diana who was complaining even before the show starts then suddenly she was just “I can’t breathe” while she was just making her way to the barricade then she got picked up by security. 

Actually when Grudges started to play, I’m not sure if I will be able to hold myself up to finish the whole set so I did not really dance hard first since I also needed some air to breathe and calm myself, we waited for hours and I’m not going to let myself break down. Dex, Harry and Diana don't even have enough sleep and Harry wasn't feeling good since he got fever and waiting under the sun is also not good for him but we all know how to calm ourselves and we waited and we deserve this spot. Thanks to the security who was distributing water mid-show! 

Re-watching my videos and comparing the Manila show and Jakarta;

Manila crowd: We love you Hayley!! …. Return to your seats!!!! 

Jakarta crowd: ……. Hayley, water please! 

I was again being emotional when they sang Misguided Ghost and really tears in my eyes when 26 was played. Tears plus sweating, not a good combination. Lol 

I wish there were more small talks but when that girl started the pulling out by security in front of Hayley, they know that this crowd was wild. Taylor even rushing fixing his guitar while Hayley was started to do small talk but you will notice they are rushing to end this because there are couple of girls who are passing out the whole time. Even the one who was in front of us earlier that day was pulled out nearly end of the show because she passed out hanging on the barricade.

No space! We can't even properly raise our hands because for sure you can never put that arm down since, no space!!! 

Misery business came and if the girl in front of me, V (I think) wasn't in a Still-Into-You UNIF jacket then maybe I was able to do MizBiz. Lol

That moment when Hayley said “YOU” pointing at us but I knew it was V who will be picked up but really, I died a little and was stunned. I wish I was able to do it since I can be on stage, sing and hug and say hi to everyone on stage and to the crowd. At the same time, I don't want to since I will not be able to finish the whole set in front. 

The show went well, we are all dead hungry and thirsty and can't even walk properly after the show but it was fun. I'll do it again if ever but I’ll be much prepared. Hahaha. Though my friends said that they will not do it again in Jakarta. Hahaha

V, the one who was chosen in MizBiz was somehow in front of us too when we are lined up inside and she asked me if that’s Adora the MizBiz girl and told her yes. I was telling this to friends and Dexter said that my reply should be “and you will be next” lol as if we know!! 

(Silently fan-girl moment when I saw Adora and we have common friends now but we weren’t introduced properly. After the show there was a chance and a picture but dang so tired) lol 

After the show, I literally lost my friends and with signal being jammed, its hard to contact everyone. Mariae and I sit on the gutter while waiting for the others and after maybe an hour? We are complete. 

What an experience, it was my first time to be in front and to experience a wild crowd. 

And that's the Jakarta show.  

My Photographs: Paramore Live in Jakarta 2018

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Paramore Live in Manila 2018

Months ago I was really frustrated for not having ticket to the Manila show. How am I going to miss the show in my own country. I can't handle that. That's why when it started to sell tickets and became sold out after few minutes (yes, minutes not hours) in November and December  2017, it was frustrating. 

I booked everything and decided to see them in Jakarta and stay there until the day after the Manila date in February. The show was cancelled for Jakarta and Manila and rescheduled for August. 

Giving me time to still hunt for the Manila tickets. I was still hopefully then they announced an additional date which was SG but as cheap as the tickets are, SG is already expensive just the plane ticket alone, how will I survive. Lol. I checked plane tickets and compute the possible budget that I need plus the Jakarta show and I realized that I will not be able to make SG possible. 

When the show was cancelled in Jakarta (February) I told my friends that if it's possible to make an Asian tour then we will at least do it too. We'll, didn't work for me but my friends did it SG-MNL-JKT. Next time. Next time. 

One more option is hunt for Manila tickets. Due to the reschedule date, some who already got their tickets can't make it already or they are just going to another shows since new concerts were announced. I still wonder how these people who got tickets to the show will not somehow make it a priority. Well, the distribution of tickets in Manila most especially MOA Arena is the worst. 

Side story, I’m not sure if I told this already but when the show in Jakarta was cancelled I check SM Tickets and guess what, 1st row of VIP tickets in Manila are on sale. Wtf right unfortunately, my card won’t work that time for security purposes. 

I always check tickets availability even on some online seller even they are selling it double the price or some are for triple. When I realized that I really can't make SG possible with the needed budget, I somehow told myself that it's okay to purchase a ticket that's at least lesser than a SG budget. I can't missed the Manila show, I just can't. 

I think it was July when I remembered about Stubhub. I was checking tickets there before and there, 2 or 4 VIP tickets for the Manila show are available. There are 2 which was being sold separately but the other 2 was on pair. The separated tickets are on double the price and to be honest, it will be much better than missing it, I'm already missing the SG date and I just really can't miss the Manila date. Yes, I bought one. 

I think it was exactly a month before the show when my ticket arrived and I was surprised that the SM branch where it was purchased was in Davao. I was somehow worried that it might be fake but Stubhub is an international platform so I trusted that. Being a holder of bunch of MOA Arena tickets (because of UAAP), I know it's legit but for my anxiety to go away, I already wanted to pass by the entrance gate just to know my ticket is legit.

I literally based our flight ticket after the Manila show (Aug 23) so we got to leave on the morning of the 24th, Jakarta show will be on the 25th and I just don't want to arrive on the day itself of the concert for us to have time to line up and at least experience barricade. 

So when I left the house on the 23rd I already brought everything. Problem is that my Flytpack didn't arrive on the 22nd! One of their agent called me and asking if I have a Manila address where they can send it right away and I gave my sister's dorm address in Sampaloc where I also decided to leave my bags before going to MOA then I just get it after the show and go straight to the airport. 

Manila show. 

I arrived in MOA like 5pm nearly 6pm and I just badly need to pee and go to my friends who are already in line but when it's MOA and have seat number, believe it they don't do that for nothing. Not fan of lining up if I got seated tickets I was thinking about this so I'm against lining up then Hayley posted an IG story when Reese was doing sound check and boom, there's chairs. Lol. Notified my friends about it then I just decided to eat first before going at the venue. 

I finished my early dinner and Dex told me that they're already inside the hall but still on line and they are on the first line I went inside and I was already on maybe the 10th row of the line where the staff are checking tickets if it's VIP 1 or 2. I called Ginnie and told her that I'm already there and then she was just talking to me and grab me and bought me on their spot. That's just line kids, we are going to be seated anyway. 

When we entered, we all ran but of course security got us no to barricade, go to your designated seat number. Classic move, MOA (but to be honest, I appreciate it. Safety purposes).

Then we just wait and chill inside. Due to lack of time, I wasn't able to publish one post (On Repeat. Bonnaroo) and I just edited there while waiting. 

When Reese opened the show, fans panicked thinking that they will be able to go in front but nope, MOA Arena and security!!! I was able to join my friends on their seat but after the set of Reese maybe 15-30 minutes before Paramore and I was just standing there. Good thing the security didn't mind me being not on my seat.

Then it was time. 

Paramore on stage opening with Grudges just like the Tour 5 setlist. Ever since Tour One, I can't imagine the "cry hard, dance harder" thing sure, I can dance and cry when listening to After Laughter but how to do the "cry hard, dance harder" at show?

Thankful for the friends I met because of the Jakarta show even it was cancelled, I made new friends turned as family and met some of their friends too mostly from Malaysia. 

Thankful for them I was able to dance harder during the show and somehow cry by myself during “26” which I was surprised since I'm not into crying but ever since "Last Hope" I know it's possible to cry at shows. 

One unfortunate side of having seats, some just stand on their seats and we did too even I was scared a bit if the chair can hold on. Haha then there's security again making us go down, we all followed anyway as long as no one was standing on chairs in front. 

I watched concerts alone before and I know that the dancing might not be the same when you have friends around most especially on a Paramore show but whatever, even I will be alone on a Paramore show, I will still be able to dance along.  

I got a hard time to share the experience as there's too much to share and I just want it all by myself and now, I'm having a hard time to remember details. One thing for sure, I was jumping and dancing for the first 5 songs and was so tired immediately. Hahaha old Paramore fans which was by the way thanks to the chairs, I can hold on to them and to the very good air condition of MOA Arena. Lol

Then Fake Happy with all the fake happy logo flying during the last stanza. 

I was really looking forward to acoustic session. Acoustic is one of my favorite on all shows. Never planned on which song to record on beside the acoustic and I wish I record more but I was also jumping, dancing, singing along the whole time too.

I haven't shared anything from the Manila show except 2 photos on my Instagram but you can search bunch on Youtube which was great quality, btw.

I'm happy that I was able to experience that with friends.

Manila was fun, memorable and special. 


My Photographs: Paramore Live in Manila 2018

Friday, September 21, 2018

On Repeat . Head Above Water

Head Above Water by Avril Lavigne

I've gotta keep the calm before the storm
I don't want less, I don't want more
Must bar the windows and the doors
To keep me safe, to keep me warm

Yeah my life is what I'm fighting for
Can't part the sea, can't reach the shore
And my voice becomes the driving force
I won't let this pull me overboard

God, keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees
Don't let me drown, drown, drown
Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown

So pull me up from down below
'Cause I'm underneath the undertow
Come dry me off and hold me close
I need you now I need you most

God, keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees
Don't let me drown, drown, drown
(Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown)
Don't let me drown, drown, drown
And keep my head above water
(Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown)
Above water

And I can't see in the stormy weather
I can't seem to keep it all together
And I, I can't swim the ocean like this forever
And I can't breathe

God, keep my head above water
I lose my breath at the bottom
Come rescue me, I'll be waiting
I'm too young to fall asleep

God, keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees

Don't let me drown
Don't let me drown
(Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown)
Don't let me drown
And keep my head above water
(Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown)
Above water

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

On Repeat . All That Love Is

All That Love Is by HalfNoise

There were holes in the asphalt
So I went outside to take a look
Like the holes in my heart
From all that you took

See cause
All that love is
Is a feeling that'll leave you down
All that loves been
Empty corners inside this town
What if I can't make it?
You know I can't fake it
I always just regret it
I know I can't have you
And every second
The memories of our love
Are just a feeling that'll leave you down

I looked for ways to forget you
But I'm not sure there is one
And the harder that I try
The more that I come undone

See cause
All that love is
Is a feeling that'll leave you down
All that loves been
Empty corners inside this town
What if I can't make it?
You know I can't fake it
I always just regret it
I know I can't have you
And every second
The memories of our love
Are just a feeling that'll leave you down