Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Random . October 2017


Sometimes you really gotta let go of some. 

Wasn't able to get out this weekend maybe staying in will be inspiring too. 

When you plan to be productive but the universe wants you to just chill. 

Superhuman starts now. 

Aaarrggh I know dreams are always the opposite. So close yet super far. #mantra 

Mentally drained. 

When you need to be a team by yourself. 

It was scary to hear it but it's scarier now that its closer. 

Sometimes I still wonder why people love to browse Facebook from time to time. 

You gotta know what love is before asking for it. 

Sometimes you just have to trust the process and stop accusing. 

I can't believe that your trust issues are bigger than mine. 

If waiting in line will be my excuse to rest my brain, I'll take it. 

It's better to be mentally drained after a productive day than being drain from all the bad vibes. 

Mentally and physically drained. Can it just be one? I can't handle both. 

Tears from being so f tired. 

Hehe. Your point of view doesn't fit in there. You're such a huge fan of fantasy. 

You have to reconsider a lot of things. It's not always about what we see on movies. 

Overwhelmed with everything. 

When people still say stuff but they don't know the real deal and how you handle things. 

So busy that I don't have time to write that I rather use free time to rest my brain. 

I want to say you're just a misguided ghost but I think you are completely useless at this point. 

Losing my coolness. 

Respect. 

Don't use your personal issue against specific people. 

Once again drained and tomorrow is another day. 

Walking unorganized in a grocery store is a proof that I'm so unorganized these days. 

You can't dictate the people who to trust. 

I know you will never understand how you form a traumatic experience with other people. I wonder how you can all sleep with every inch of hatred in your body. 

As much as I like to do it on my own, sometimes the demand of people are too much. 

No matter how many times you asked for it; how much time you spend looking for it; how loud you shouted about it, you will never find love if you are full of hatred. 

I don't want to deal with people already. 

Please understand me being me because of unending to-do list. 

Tears are so close but I won't give up. 

Thankful for busy days and the responsibilities because I chose to put my energy on the important things than to deal with your nonsense shit. 

12mn. I think it's time to stop now and leave all these for tomorrow

Even with busy days, I recommend to chill for a day. Give yourself and your brain a break from everything. :)

Two weeks of being a super human. 

Sacrifices. Lessons. 

When you wanted to give up but you can't. 

I want to apologize for all his bad things to those people but I'm just no one so who the f cares. 

I want to protect all of you, fam. 

I miss when my brain do the talking. 

I really don't know how to comfort people. I'm just a listener not a good talker. 

When people choose to support a wrongdoing because it comes with power and they're still happy because people suffer. 

Dreamed of another out of the country trip. Now I'm badly craving for one. 

That's it. I'm done explaining social media on my blog. 

All of the things that I've written before is very useful at the moment. 

I want to write. 

I don't care on what the content is. 

I cried not because of that it's because I'm missing my father. Just one of those night. 

This is why I don't want to go out. I don't want the sympathy. 

Sht. This game is so close! Can I run to Araneta? Lol

Can I get a tattoo today. Craving for a pain. 

Oh go ahead. Stalk more. 

Half of me wants to get out today but I think I'll rather catch up on my TV series. 

Here we go. Going back to step 1 of recovering. 

Cyberbullying. At its finest. 

When you see Coach Nash on the TV. Ehehehe. 

I want to write it all but I don't need to. 

I can't believe people tolerate this kind of action and they will say it's the right thing to do. 

Thank you, YouTube for the impromptu therapy. 

For now, I rather catch up on my TV series than write. 

Is it easier to survive in a zombie apocalypse than this reality? 

Even there are things that you want to stop believing, there will still be tiny bits that will remind you not to stop. 

One of these days, even breathing will be criticized. 

If your trust issue is bigger than mine then we got a huge problem. 

If you can't appreciate just don't say anything. 

I want to write but I'm avoiding it. 

Missing the sky, clouds and the open sea. 

This "Nineteen" version of Hayley Williams. Wow‎

The most challenging month this year. 



Monday, October 23, 2017

On Repeat . Caught In The Middle (Live)

Caught In The Middle by Paramore




I can't think of getting old
It only makes me want to die
And I can't think of who I was
'Cause it just makes me want to cry, cry, cry, cry
Can't look back, can't look too far ahead
I got the point, I got the message

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
I try to keep going but it's not that simple
I think I'm a little bit caught in the middle
Gotta keep going or they'll call me a quitter
Yeah I'm caught in the middle

I was dreaming life away
All the while just going blind
Can't see the forest for the trees
Behind the lids of my own eyes
Nostalgia's cool, but it won't help you now
A dream is good, if you don't wear it out

And I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
I try to keep going but it's not that simple
I think I'm a little bit caught in the middle
Gotta keep going or they'll call me a quitter
Yeah I'm caught in the middle

No, I don't need no help
I can sabotage me by myself
Don't need no one else
I can sabotage me by myself
I don't need no help
I can sabotage me by myself
Don't need no one else
I can sabotage me by myself
I don't need no help (all the glory days are gone)
I can sabotage me by myself
Don't need no one else (it's over now I'm on my own)
I can sabotage me by myself
I don't need no help (all the glory days are gone)
I can sabotage me by myself
Don't need no one else (it's over now I'm on my own)
I can sabotage me by myself

And I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
I try to keep going but it's not that simple
I think I'm a little bit caught in the middle
Gotta keep going or they'll call me a quitter
Yeah I'm caught in the middle

I'm caught in the middle

Saturday, October 21, 2017

On Repeat . 26 (Live)

26 by Paramore


Man, you really know how to get someone down
Everything was fine until you came around
I've been chasing after dreamers in the clouds
After all wasn't I the one who said
To keep your feet on the ground?
Man, you really brought me back down

Hold on to hope if you got it
Don't let it go for nobody
They say that dreaming is free
But I wouldn't care what it cost me

You got me tied up but I stay close to the window
And I talk to myself about the places that I used to go
I'm hoping someday maybe I'll just float away
And I'll forget every cynical thing you say
When you gonna hear me out
Man, you really bring me down

Hold on to hope if you got it
Don't let it go for nobody
They say that dreaming is free
But I wouldn't care what it cost me

Reality will break your heart
Survival will not be the hardest part
It's keeping all your hopes alive
When all the rest of you has died
So let it break your heart

And hold on to hope if you got it
Don't let it go for nobody

Hold on to hope if you got it
Don't let it go for nobody
They say that dreaming is free
I wouldn't care what it cost me


Friday, October 20, 2017

Generic Question

"Where is the love?"

People always ask such question because they feel so unloved but the thing is, for the person who is asking do you know what are you asking for? 


It’s a common mistake to ask other people but not asking ourselves first. Remember we should love ourselves first before we can love others. Love is such a huge word that it covers all the positivity on earth such as kindness, courage, strength, happiness, forgiveness and a lot more, its not just a simple question on where the love is.

Its easy to just ask or to say those words but it usually hard to convert it to actions. I did question myself about it couple of years ago trying to figure out on why I don’t feel loved and questioning if love exist. Apparently it is real and the first move that we should do is to love our self. Cliché as it is but it should start there.

It usually starts with yourself then you have to spread it like Nutella to the people who are surrounding you on your daily lives.

When I read it I started to wonder why you are asking such question. Are you begging for it? Are you literally just like me who doesn’t believe in love at one point and asking where is it? Do you feel unloved? Worst, your question can just be nothing.

Its hard to have the answer to the question most especially if you are focusing on the opposite. It will always be easy just to hate everything than make an effort to spread positivity, love, happiness, kindness, forgiveness. You can’t just ask for it and it will pop up in front of you, it takes a lot of courage to make love work.

Sometimes, we are just too busy building hate inside us that's why we can’t welcome love or maybe there’s no more space for love because of hate.

Love is not just about saying ‘I love you’, it takes a lot of pieces to build and its no joke.

I asked about it before and I’m very thankful for the universe that helped me to accept things and let go of hate. It’s a bit funny because my answer to your question is already written in my body for 3 years now.

Remember, it always start within us and it got a lot of work.

First things first, let go of hate and learn how to accept things.








Saturday, October 14, 2017

Quitting Social Media


I came across with some YouTube videos about quitting social media like for a month or a year and I'm intrigued. 

I'm always so close on quitting but I just decided to control my usage. 

Probably I got no one who constantly reading my blog so just a recap, I'm hating people who just use social media as a source of gossips and at the same time, I hate how a certain post can make me angry or jealous instantly. 

Can I quit social media? 

No. I tried to lessen Facebook but I admit, once in a while I still end up browsing but it's lesser and some online shop got Facebook page so, I really can't quit in there for real. I can't quit blogging since this is my outlet, I can't quit Twitter since I do get instant news in there, I can't quit Tumblr since I do share my photographs, I can't quit Instagram since I can deal with some post there unlike Facebook and I love stories. I can't quit YouTube because sometimes we gotta need visual on reviews or vlogs which is better than TV. ;) 

I'm really trying to use it very wisely. 

Social media will forever going to have its advantage and disadvantage it's just how you will use it. 

It's also a lifesaver when you are alone in a crowd and just killing time. 

I can't quit social media but if you think I'm addicted to it, think again. I got a lot in queue, though. 

Friday, October 06, 2017

UAAP S80 . FEU Tamaraws






New season. New coach. New set of players. 

Don't expect too much. 

Don't be much bitter that the team and the original 6th man. 


"Go For Great" 
UAAP S80 



Thursday, October 05, 2017

UAAP Season 80





It's going to be a month since the opening day this weekend and why is this season phasing so fast? 

Well this is the season where our plans will happen like lessen the live action, been saying that for 3 years now. Why? beacause, reality and adulting. lol 

I still make time for it since it is an escape for me and I miss cheering and everything a live basketball can offer. UAAP will always be special.

We don't have game on opening day but my mom wanted to watch since my sister and my cousin will be part of the opening ceremony and our tv is busted. lol 

I say okay but I have to watch the 2 games after the opening since I don't really know what to expect on the teams since most of the star players have graduated already and some new coaches but there are teams like ADMU and DLSU that still have a strong line up. You will never know what to expect this season. 

Lets talk about the opening ... 

My contact lens are a bit lower now than my real eye grade and I have astigmatism so I can't really see v clear. (trust me it matters on my story. lol)

I was able to sneak in my DSLR and my zoom lens since I want to shoot my sister but apparently I the lights are a bit busted and we don't have any idea on what part they are in.

It was a very good idea and theme for this season 2 videos on top is the documentary and the opening ceremony. 

Upon the entrance of each school, I was a bit confused if I'm really seeing Alyssa Valdez since I know that she already graduated until I used my camera and confirm, it was her. I was so slow that I didn't realize that some of the alumni are part of it. FEU was the last to be introduced with special entrance since, host school! And then ... TERRENCE ROMEO WAS THERE together with RR Garcia, Mac Belo, Rachel Anne Daquis (which I never noticed since I saw TR!) I never knew since my sister and cousin didn't inform me because they were told about it. I was surprised because for all the alumni, he make time for it as in him in the flesh!!!! LOL

The opening was amazing not being biased since I'm a Tamaraw. 


UAAP S80: Go For Great