Random . April 2017

There's something magical on waiting. Yes, it's a waste of time for others but try to look at the good side about it. 

It's not that we are just seeing the bad side but it's how we see the process and predicting the future effects. 

Hehe. It's just another food bazaar, nothing fancy. 

Avoiding twitter since I don't want to read spoilers from the season finale of The Walking Dead. 

"It's always for someone else" - Abraham #TheWalkingDead S07E16

Can someone explain how did Jenna know what my inner self thoughts are? Seriously this didn't happened just once. #WorldAway

You can't get anything from me, I know what your intentions are. 

Calling this, the chronicle trip. Haha

You will know by observing. 

Sometimes I underestimate the lining up until today. #chronicletrip

My once in a while craving of Tokyo Tokyo is now satisfied. 

Wasting too much. 

Your reasoning is below zero. Stop using names! 

Are you wondering now on how we did it before? 

There's no 1 and 2 in there because there can only be one. 

Thankful for this kind of people. ❤️ 

Your innocence makes me realize that sometimes it's good that you don't know the real struggle. 

When I want them to understand but I don't want to hurt myself all over again by just explaining then at the end they still don't get it. 

Just another day that I want to curse because it's unfair but at the same time you want to prove to yourself that you can survive. 

At the end of the day, however long my rants are, I gotta do what I have to. 

I'll be visible. 

I want to explain that side too but there's anger inside me regarding to that. 

I think I need a dose of NCIS tonight. 

OMG. Thank you, M. ❤️ 0411

When I got too much to say but I wasn't able to type it or at least tweet it, it was suddenly forgotten. Good thing, I guess. 

I woke up from a call and I will now sleep hearing the breathing that at some point is relaxing. ❤️ 0414

Hahaha. Bitter self. #mantra

It will never be the same again but at least I was able to appreciate this hometown today. 

Spending time with my little cousins are the best. Hahaha we ended up laughing so hard all night.❤️  

13 Reason Why (the series) is somehow disturbing. I will read the book next. 

Nikka will be here later! Yay! Let's do the late dinners again. 

I've missed this moment, when my head is the only one talking and I'm just typing everything. 

The crisp sound of a new zipper. 

This is so absurd. I was number 18 but the fuck that you have to entertain first number 20 since you probably know him already. This is why one reason why you shouldn't expect so much in this country.

Am I ready for the new Paramore song that will be out later tonight? OMG. 

Hard times, I got a lot of that. Thank you, Paramore  

Just like the old days, I went home at almost 5am after months. 

The perks that I wish I have. #mantra 

04.21.17 

Why am I always hungry. 

Life. Gotta deal with all the paths including the small ones that hurts the most. 

Missing a lot of things and people all the same time and it's heart breaking. 

Oh I shut off earlier today. 

Sometimes, I open social media at the wrong time. 

I don't post any rants anywhere anymore except on twitter and here. 

Social media is bad for my mental health. 

Is that strong feeling, coincidence or it just supposed to happen? Whatever it is, I like it. :) 

We all need to respect each other regardless of your life status. 

You don't deserve all the credit when all you do is watch. 

My weekly trip to the other town is helping my zero social life to at least not crave it.

Back to our hometown where everything seems normal and nothing has changed than being in a foreign land where every single thing is so strange. 

Oh no. ... oh yes. Haha. 7th. :)

People complain so much. Why just enjoy the down time. 

Yes, you can caught me baby talking to our dogs. 

Some people just don't care when they should be at least know a little detail. It's current events, people. 

One of those days that I just don't want to deal with the outside world.

What long weekend? Pretty much just an ordinary weekend to me.

I just realized that I've been doing this monthly-random-rant post for 3 years now and reading what my post 3 years ago, some of them make sense but I can't remember the reason behind those words.

Cathing up on my series are pretty much my version of long weekend but to be honest, its just another weekend to me.

This seems legit so bye for now.

For someone who is having a bad weekend going out for a while is too much but I'm glad I did.

Reality

What if I did not hesitate?

Will it be too much?

What will be your reaction?

What will you say?

That night was still in my head

It was a good picture

It also getting blurry

But it's clearer when I close my eyes

04.26.16

Aftermath

Whatever the outcome

I already accepted it

It's you who will make the major decision 

I'm just going to depend on it

It can't just be me

Just don't leave me hanging again

Tell me if this is over

I will stop

Even I don't want to lose you

I will let you go

04.26.16

On Repeat . Hard Times

Hard Times by Paramore

All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I'm alright
That I ain't gonna die
All that I want
Is a hole in the ground
You can tell me when it's alright
For me to come out

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don't know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom

Walking around
With my little raincloud
Hanging over my head
And it ain't coming down
Where do I go?
Gimme some sort of sign
Hit me with lightning!
Maybe I'll come alive

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don't know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom

Tell my friends I'm coming down
We'll kick it when I hit the ground
Tell my friends I'm coming down
We'll kick it when I hit the ground
When I hit the ground

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don't know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom

On Repeat . As U Wave

As U Wave by Halfnoise

Last night your rhythm stopped
And if I can't believe it
I might well I'll try
Hold on, you're going down slow
Oh no
I don't know you're going down so slow
Oh no

As you wave
Your hands goodbye
As you wave
Your hands goodbye

[Hayley Williams]
And dreaming was easier with you
But sometimes this life leaves you blue

Is there rhythm in your heart
Is there rhythm in your heart
That leads me down here
Is there rhythm in your heart
Is there rhythm in your heart
That leads me down here

As you wave
Your hands goodbye
As you wave
Your hands goodbye

As you wave
Your hands goodbye
As you wave
Your hands goodbye
As you wave
Your hands goodbye
As you wave
Your hands goodbye

On Repeat . Life

Life by Ivy Sole feat. Dave B 

[Verse 1: Ivy Sole]

When the midnight comes the stars will help you guide your feet

And if it's meant to be, you will end up right here next to me

All I have is love and love is all I have to give

Take a chance, it's worth it all if it's what we think it is

When the daylight comes, the stars will turn right back to dust

But rest assured you'd be the one that I'm thinking of

I was waiting for the day when it would all come true and

Then I went and realized it's nothing if I don't have you

[Chorus: Ivy Sole]

Life is short, life is simple

Life is joy, life is pain

Life is wonderful, and terrible

But it's beautiful, and love's the same

Life is short, life is simple

Life is joy, and life is pain

Life is wonderful and terrible

But it's beautiful, and love's the same (love's the same)

[Verse 2: Ivy Sole]

Having discussions with the maker of tomorrows, investigating where sorrow lies

Waking in a cold sweat to find I'm dwelling in borrowed time

In a body that's mostly water, mostly human, mostly hurting

Look around this broken vessel to see everything is burning

Turning planets with her hands she told me:

"Take a breath and wait. If it's heavy, then you're ready for the path you need to take"

She took a list of my fears, like loving you always, and

Running in circles and being someone's everything

She said "face 'em, face 'em or they'll chase you forever

Stand up tall and give your all, they'll erase all your treasure

If you need me just call me, if you need me look within

Give this love that I gave you don't you ever give in"

[Chorus: Ivy Sole]

Life is short, life is simple

Life is joy, life is pain

Life is wonderful and terrible

But it's beautiful, and love's the same

Life is short, life is simple

Life is joy, and life is pain

Life is wonderful and terrible

But it's beautiful, and love's the same (love's the same)

[Verse 3: Dave B]

Life is like that box of cocoa, binge on all the way down the soul though

Griffey to the locals

I'm not loco still got much to know though

You don't get it, you don't get it

I know you're afraid

You don't get it, you don't get it

I feel just the same

My heart don't love no more

These scars don't heal on they own

Drink just to feel some

Talk bad just so you can tell me I won't get away with that tone

But she loves how I play with that song

You was right couldn't right that wrong

Spend the night let's live one time

I'll take, wanna give one time?

[Pre-Chorus: Ivy Sole]

I'ma break every wall like Kit-kat

And the moon still fresh as Tic-Tac

Intact, how my heart beat even when you say I start things

And I know you don't need me no more

But I've grown, so sow these seeds with me

Got so much life in store

So much life in store

[Chorus: Ivy Sole]

Life is short, life is simple

Life is joy, life is pain

Life is wonderful and terrible

But it's beautiful, and love's the same

Life is short, life is simple

Life is joy, life is pain

Life is wonderful and terrible

But it's beautiful, and love's the same (love's the same)

On Repeat . Therapy

Therapy by All Time Low

Wishing to hear this song live again this year <3

My ship went down
In a sea of sound.
When I woke up alone I had everything:
A handful of moments I wished I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade.

In a city of fools,
I was careful and cool,
But they tore me apart like a hurricane...
A handful of moments I wished I could change
But I was carried away.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can keep all your misery.

My lungs gave out
As I faced the crowd.
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous.
I'm flesh and bone,
I'm a rolling stone
And the experts say I'm delirious.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can take back your misery.

Arrogant boy,
Love yourself so no one has to.
They're better off without you.
(They're better off without you.)

Arrogant boy,
Cause a scene like you're supposed to.
They'll fall asleep without you.
You're lucky if your memory remains.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can take back your misery.

Therapy...
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can choke on your misery.

On Repeat . Remembering Sunday

Remembering Sunday by All Time Low

All Time Low will be here in a couple of months and as the hype began, it's starting to sink in my system and here's one of my favorite ATL song whether its the original track or live. Since I can't choose which version should I put here, I'll just put my to-go videos when it comes to this song.

The last video was my personal video that I took when they first came here in 2011 and I still wish that next time that I'll hear this song live will be with Cassadee Pope. Fingers crossed to that! but what if they got Cass as their opening act this time?? Still dreaming of that. Who knows. :)

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be

[Juliet Simms:]
I'm not coming back (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just (You're driving me crazy, I'm)
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head

[Alex Gaskarth:]
Well I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home

On Repeat . Dragonfly

Dragonfly by Sponge Cola

Maybe I'm a little addicted
Maybe I just can't get out of this
Maybe it is just too soon to say

I've seen you blow right past my window
You flew away and I was left inside
Without a clue
But if you think I'm too stoned to write
Don't think twice
Free your mind
Don't let me down
We'll find a way to make it go away

I went ahead without direction
A form of semi-self-mutilation
Dragonfly collides with truth
Why can't you see me like I see you?
Can't you feel me like I feel you?
Can't you be with me tonight?

I'll make it go away
(my dragonfly)

On Repeat . Underneath The Waves

Underneath The Waves by Hale

The stars beneath the sky they tell me you're a secret.

And every time I wake up in the morning

Rain is falling down on me; I feel free.

You caught me by surprise. I asked you to believe me.

Without a lie we'll never have to say and feel we're sorry.

Don't say we're sorry. Soon you'll see.

I'm learning, I'm learning you now.

Stars fading, free falling into you

This time I'm sure of what I'm looking for.

And that's what I want you to know.

And I won't ever let you go, let you go

Underneath the waves,

I can feel you underneath the waves.

I'm learning, I'm learning you now.

Stars fading, free falling into you

This time I'm sure of what I'm looking for.

And that's what I want you to know.

And I won't ever let you go, let you go.

It's all been said and done to me, I know it.

Just let me have the chance to prove my cause.

And I don't know what lies ahead for us.

In any road I'll let you come my way.

This time I'm sure of what I'm looking for.

And that's what I want you to know.

And I won't ever let you go, let you go.

And I'm ready for you now,

I'm ready for you now.

Be ready for me now,

Be ready for me now. . .

Show me love.

Letters

You like and love them

Maybe not close enough

To beat your rides

To beat your drunk self

To beat your sleepy head

Or maybe it is

I don't know what's the effect in you

Consider these as my love letters

The unspoken words

The feeling that I can't explain

04.27.16