Thursday, April 30, 2020

Random . April 2020





Hopefully this will be a better month than the last. 

Do you wish to have an invisible cloak in this time a quarantine just to go out?

As much as I want to plan the things that I want to do or what I want to eat or where to go after this quarantine, I just want this to be over so we will all move on and adjust to the new normal / new routine. 

It is already hard to decide when everything was normal what more when everything is literally on hold.

I’m avoiding to watch the news but looks like I still need to be updated for the sake of everyone. 

Obviously it’s a harassment. 

My critical thinking is on vacation. Wait till the comeback. 

This new song from Hayley !!!!!!! #OverYet

This stress caused by other people will end me. Really.

I’ll let you do what you do but when it comes to fixing the things that you failed to do, don’t leave it to me to fix it.

If I ditched one, I usually do it to everyone. 

It’s hard to decide on things if you have limited resources. 

Carbonara was almost a success. 

I shouldn’t be watching a love story but I finished two movies.

Don’t assume that after this lockdown, we will quickly go back to the usual normal. We need some time to adjust.

People in the wrong decisions.

I put Parmesan cheese on everything.

I was supposed to have a scheduled something today that I will for sure end up in Megamall. I dreamed of roaming around the mall and maybe I will be able to schedule to cross out that #2020goal. Got to wait a little bit longer.

I want to include a note or a quote that will strike you into your inner conscience but that will never have an effect.

When you badly want to change the battery even it is still working.

When you wanted transparency but you unconsciously make it more hidden.

Don’t we just miss the hype.

I was living a daily routine before the lockdown and now it was cut into half and got so many time for other stuff.

I’m not sure if “thank you” will make you feel better if you’re so anxious for a month now.

Baking. Lol. Fail. Oh wait. Somehow success. 

Twenty One Pilots once again save me with #LevelOfConcern

So thankful for music. 

For years that I’ve been cutting my hair, I was really doing it in a very wrong way. I got a good tip and end up trimming my hair at 5 AM. 

With all the cooking that I do lately, feels like dad was in me. I miss you daddy and somehow I wish you are with us during this quarantine. 

Cubao, I miss you. 

Raining on Easter. 

If you ever started to question, I suggest to just look in the mirror and ask yourself. 

I think I’ll breakdown soon. 

I just wish people will always keep an open mind most especially during such situation. 

When we were young, we always say we want to be a doctor to help cure the sick people. Right now, it’s just all about the money that so far to the thinking when we were kids. #SadTruth

When you try to show off to people but on the other side of it, there’s harassment. 

This day started as shit and might as well end it the same. 

Maybe the day that I will breakdown. 04.15.2020

When their level of understanding is way much higher than you are. 

Basic and people are already complaining. How we will survive the complicated ones if we are like this. .

I get it, the effect of this lockdown to people like changing temper and understanding but boy I wasn’t prepared for some people's bullshit.

Maybe when I thought I’m already at my worst state, the universe is telling me differently.

Was it worse than the bullying before? Maybe not. Probably there’s few new ones roaming right now.

I’m a believer of talking for better communication but if you’re willing to seek for answer or explanation please do keep an open mind.

A little understanding will not hurt and I also 100% understand the frustration but you could’ve been nicer.

I’m too tired to argue, kids. Let’s talk whenever you’re cool.

I don’t want to be a bitch to all of you.

I cried. It was for being happy, sad, for the frustration, fear and anxiety but it was a good cry. 04.16.2020 

Apple announce the new iPhone SE!!!

Hayley Williams will release a new song later!

Don’t make me upset about something because I might do a retail therapy that I don’t need. :-)

I badly need some hugs, the tightest one.

Why am I at least expecting something like a backlash but if that happened, I’ll be shocked or maybe not that you step down to that level.

A little bit of understanding and patience. Some people don’t even have anything.

Time to face another day and I do expect that you moved on from yesterday. 

Unplanned call end up with talking for almost one hour that I once again laugh. Thank you for the time, M. 04.17.2020

This new song from Hayley!!!

We should be sleeping on a bunk bed in a hostel in La Union tonight. #Chikababes

For now, let us just dream about La Union

Silently wishing for a total lockdown just to escape and to make some thing to stop. Also for this increasing of numbers of positive cases to at least be stable or decrease. 

I really do feel bad but for now I think we should depend on our current reality. #M21 

Should be the last day of a weekend in La Union. I miss the beach. I miss traveling. 

I’m actual thinking of posting something about my previous vacations but I’m still unsure on what are the specifics that I should be and shouldn’t be posting. I’m still in doubt about it. 

2 days in a row for grocery shopping. I love grocery shopping even before this lockdown. 

I don't even care on how I look if I’m just going to the grocery store. 

omg. I'm so happy. Got my supply of eye drops!!! 

Milk tea fix! :)

Here we go with people’s patience

If you weren't able to receive any, it’s a government issue. Welcome to reality. 

I told you that I will never be on your side. I think I made that clear but you make yourself believe differently. 

I feel so overwhelmed with all the connection of these songs! #DeadHorse 

I can’t also imagine what she’s been through all those years. 

4 years ago. Araneta Coliseum. Red Gate. 04.22.2020

This new ATL album is making me smile. 

Don't make this current reality an excuse because even without this crisis, you are already living that way. 

I don't ask for too much. I guess time is really gold. 

Was being defeated naturally is way better than be killed by one? 

If I'm going to lose you for being honest, then I'm going to live with that.

Feel so sorry for people who are hooked up with teleserye for life. Lol not really. 

Two months of quarantine. Two months of my normal life. Few more weeks of anxiety. 

People introducing their self the way that they shouldn’t. You should be recognized by the way you do and not like this. It was so bad. 

I love testing people’s patience. It just show their true color. 

There was a little guilt trip from that but you screwed up yourself. Lol 

I got some facts while you got your attitude. 

Summer nights

People who doesn't have an inch of consideration in life. 

Will it still be my fault if I already warned you?

That's pretty obvious but I will not ask question, you should know what to do. 

I was trying to understand that dream but I could recall it.

People have trust issue and I get that. 

When people make me doubt myself. 

Domino effect. 




Friday, April 24, 2020

On Repeat . Petals for Armor II




Unlike the first installment for this record, I didn't listen much on each song not until 4 songs are released. I played it a couple of times during release but not putting it on repeat after. 

I enjoyed it that way because I didn't feel sick of the first release unlike when Simmer was released, I listed to it non-stop and by the time Petals for Armor I was released, I kind of hate listening to Simmer.

I was also listening to Best Coast while waiting for the full release of this second installment. 

Current favorite rank as of typing this ... 
Why We Ever
Dead Horse
Roses / Lotus / Violet / Iris
Over Yet 
My Friend



now time to put this on repeat while patiently waiting for May 8. 

My Friend - was also released the same day and time as "Level of Concern" by Twenty One Pilots and I wasn't able to handle that but luckily I much need that TOP single than My Friend. 



"Sorry for freakin' out"




Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Say You Won't Let Go





Shifted my music from love song to angry ones
Decided to stick to crime series and ignore the drama
Guess what, it didn't work I end up crying. Again. 
Three nights in a row, I've never done that for years
You might be super loved

Neon grave stones are calling my bones
I just don't move, I just stare in the dark 
Waiting for you to save me
While questioning a lot of things
Why this? Why that? Why?
I was so close on sending you a goodbye message
Just a short one with “thank you”, “sorry” and “I love you”
Thinking if that will be easy on my part
Maybe on yours too.
So no one will demand for your time
Lying in a dark room, letting myself to cry a little bit longer
Then one song played from my shuffled playlist
I cried harder

10.18.2018 

Friday, April 10, 2020

On Repeat . Level of Concern

Level Of Concern by Twenty One Pilots




[Intro]
Need you, tell me
Need you, tell me


[Verse 1]
Panic on the brain, world has gone insane
Things are starting to get heavy, mm
I can't help but think I haven't felt this way
Since I asked you to go steady

[Pre-Chorus]
Wonderin' would you be my little quarantine?
Or is this the way it ends?

[Chorus]
'Cause I told you my level of concern
But you walked by like you never heard
And you could bring down my level of concern
Just need you to tell me we're alright
Tell me we're okay

[Verse 2]
Panic on the brain, Michael's gone insane
Julie starts to make me nervous
I don't really care what they would say
I'm asking you to stay
In my bunker underneath the surface

[Pre-Chorus]
Wonderin' would you be my little quarantine? (Quarantine)
Or is this the way it ends?

[Chorus]
'Cause I told you my level of concern
But you walked by like you never heard
And you could bring down my level of concern
Just need you to tell me we're alright
Tell me we're okay, yeah

[Post-Chorus]
Tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay, yeah
Tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay
Bring down my level of concern
Just need you to tell me we're alright
Tell me we're okay, yeah

[Bridge]
'Cause I told you my level of concern
But you walked by like you never heard
You could bring down my level of concern
Just need you to tell me we're alright
Tell me we're okay
I need you to tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay
Need you to tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay
I need you to tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay
Need you to tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay
Need you now
I need you now

[Chorus]
'Cause I told you my level of concern
But you walked by like you never heard
And you could bring down my level of concern
Just need you to tell me we're alright
Tell me we're okay, yeah

[Post-Chorus]
Tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay, yeah
Tell me we're alright, tell me we're okay
You could bring down my level of concern
Just need you to tell me we're alright
Tell me we're okay, yeah

[Outro]
In a world where you could just lie to me (Need you)
And I'd be okay, we'll be okay (Level of concern)
We're gonna be okay (Just need you to tell me we're alright)
Tell me we're okay, I need you
Need you, tell me
Need you, tell me