Sunday, May 31, 2020

Random . May 2020



May, will you be a better one than the previous? 

Doesn’t matter on how it helped you with this current reality, we are all affected anyway. Just don’t forget how it helped you even without this virus. Also remind yourself why you are living that way.

We shouldn’t bring the past back but living that way in the past brought us here in the present.

Why do people trust an unbranded USB drive. 

When I encountered a laptop problem during quarantine. 

I need to read a book but I also want to watch five full season of different TV series. 

I’m trying to recall what was life before quarantine which feels so long ago. I can’t almost remember. 

How naked you need to be in public just to let them know you are empty inside. 

Now that we are somehow over the lockdown period, why do people go back to the usual so fast when we are all just recovering from what we lost. 

I can’t almost relate to the podcast episode that I’m listening that was published earlier this year. 

I don’t want to put some faces on names that you always mention. 

Some people will really rejoice on your failure. 

My frustration over other people is too much. 

For other people they already excepted it as their duty but for some it’s all about the money. I get it we all work for that but sometimes you got to do what you need to do with or without the money.

Why do some people go back to normal as if nothing happened. Our enemy is really just waiting for us to lose our patience. 

Will my anxiety and frustration make me sleep tonight? Who know. Good night. 

Everyone is really returning to the usual normal when we shouldn’t. 

Most people are generous this days and went from losing their patience and frustration. 

I want to do something but I don’t know what it is and it’s already 1 AM. I’m so hype and I’m so screwed.

I wish I am also living on the same village with my friends.

Can all smart phone just have a speaker on the side because it’s much better.

The reason of me not answering a phone call is none of your business. There are a lot of reasons why someone can’t answer a call. Don’t assume. 

Personality over.

Invest in your home or house or just what’s inside of it because you will never know when you will be stuck for a month or two. 

First stop after ECQ will be the dentist. 

It was a productive day that I was able to fix my other hard drive. That was so satisfying.

Good thing I didn’t gave in on buying some unnecessary stuff that I don’t have to think about it right now.

One thing I do when I go out is to observe people, maybe it will be fun to observe the new normal with social distancing and people wearing masks in public.

The only thing that’s preventing me to read a book is the release of Petals for Armor this weekend.

Days are just passing by quickly.

Happy birthday Papa. I miss you so much. 

Now I know why I didn’t like you before when I saw you for the first time.

At this day of quarantine I really wish we have a pool in the house. That is a total dream.

If that wasn’t clear enough for you, I’m not sure how close minded you are. 

I cooked three meals.

There are a lot of things to write but my head is wrapped up on Petals for Armor. 

I am once again preventing to express some feelings but Petals for Armor part three is pure expression. 

I am ignoring writing all of these feelings for a while now. 

The other day I was thinking of what was life before quarantine but now everyone is just like back to normal. Which is a little bit strange. 

So good to spend time with cousins once again. 

Too much distraction on one silent night. 

I’m sorry to give in to upgrade but if I start to think critically, facts can’t hide and I can’t run away from it. 

If it happened a year ago, we can make a way to solve it. If it is happening right now in the middle of a pandemic, I think you should be considerate. 

When I prepare the right words, it just escaped me and I will end up not writing anything at all. 

Made a chocolate chip from scratch. It was almost perfect until I ruined it. Trial and error. 

It pains me when people are frustrated that I can’t do anything about it. 

Its hard to make people understand or look at your own perspective because they also have their own. 

I watched 10 season of The Walking Dead and I think that’s too much to handle

If I decide to be too honest, will you take it all? Will you really understand?

This is also the time where people should accept their previous life decisions. Been there. 

Maybe we fail in such but guess what, maybe we all screwed up. 

Missing the hyper doggies. 

One reason why somehow I’m not being fully affected is that we both know personally that sometimes when you asked, it’s automatically granted. 

What if I quit. 

Dark times. 

It was a though month to write or writers block. 

Anxiety attack

I stress eat today. 

It’s been a while since I ordered something online and now that I have ordered, I can’t wait to get them. Its taking so long. Lol

Took a moment to listen to 26 I think I needed that. 

I almost screwed up. Fck. 



Tuesday, May 19, 2020

On Repeat . Petals for Armor III

Petals for Armor by Hayley Williams



Can it be considered if I have no words for this album? 

There are a lot of very nice reviews about this album and I will be for sure biased as I’m a huge fan of this woman. 

Petals for Armor is one reason why I was able to survive the past month with this pandemic and I will be forever thankful for that. Isn’t it cool that Hayley Williams finally gave in on releasing her own album and it was released in a middle of pandemic. Memorable. 

The last 5 songs are released on May 8th and as we already indulge the first 10 songs, we are very well prepared for the last 5 songs. Hayley released it by part on purpose and after it was released we understand why she did that. It was nice to have something to look forward every week during quarantine. 

So for the last five song, my rank will be 

Crystal Clear
Pure Love
Watch Me While I Bloom
Sugar On The Rim
Taken

Not sure on when will I put the full album maybe soon and it’s going to be a while before I’ll move on from this part. 

Petals for Armor is almost out for a month now. If you haven’t listened, stream it now.


“I won’t give in to the fear” - Crystal Clear