Random . December 2025

 

Too much feelings always at the first day of the month. I feel so hopeless

I’m fully against it so I may not go with that ? Hmm

Stress eating and then I’ll regret it after. Lol

MOA with the Chikababes

What’s the point ….

“The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on so long”

Fighting the temptation to buy unnecessary stuff hopefully I will win the battle. Haha

There are reasons why at some occasions alcohol shouldn’t be invited

This book series never fail to make me tear up.

The universe is testing my patience today. Haay

Finally a resolution that I wish will work and last for a long time

This reality is fucking tiring.

Coffee today might be a wrong idea

Tell every single human being how bad I am as a person. I will not fight this time as I'm so fucking tired

Sometimes, you just don't want to hear the voices anymore

I'm forgetting something today and I can't figure it out

Anxiety is killing me today.

If blah blah blah ... then probably it will happen

I walked 10KM with 2 hours of sleep, I’ll be fine today. Lol

The world when it’s 5AM

Hello, Manila

First time in CEU and coming from a very strict FEU, I’m surprised how easily you can enter here and with some friendly guards too. Hehe

Quiapo

Still choosing rest over some things. Lol

GAME 2. ANIMO

Working while watching Game 2 was not the plan today. Goodluck to me.

GAME 3 !!!! what a season. Congratulations, DLSU! 

Why is it raining today. I'm so lazy

My favorite person is back. huhuhu 12.15.2025

Apparently I don’t need coffee to be awake today. - 12.18.2025

A very busy week

Busy Friday then maybe I can enjoy a little bit of the holiday season

Somehow you don't have the right to feel bad because if you are willing to do it, you could've done it long time ago even with baby steps

Hopefully I will not mess up the next 3 hours. lol

Hate the holiday rush

First weekend without collegiate basketball

Someone will be so ecstatic. Omg.

Busy days before the holidays

Why am I regretting not going to The Eras Tour now that I’m watching the documentary

Time with family

Merry Christmas 

What a way to end Christmas. Lol 

Sneaky sneaky. #72

Writing some life realization not just from this year but from the past too. Thank you really for having the interest and for reading all my recent weird realizations. #72

Good time with few people welcoming the 27th. 

Happy Birthday, self.

“Uhm I think you need to get me now to ____?” Lol

Will my birthday wish be granted? 

Also, Happy Birthday to the one and only, Hayley Williams. Thanks for the mini concert in dreamland. 

Just thankful that today is Saturday but still at the end of the day people / situations will still shit on your day. Lol

During the pandemic one of my concert regrets was not seeing Taylor Swift when she wasn’t this big. Now watching The Eras Tour on the screen, I’m regretting not going!!! But in all honesty EU was one of the best since Paramore was the opener

Mind is already on a very long holiday season. ughh

Happy Birthday, Lu. 12.29.2025

What is 2 days compare to 2 months and a half? I’ll be fine. #72

Hello BGC

Bury It played from my random Spotify playlist while I’m about to read the last part of “Before Your Memory Fades”. I’m not sure if you are sending me a sign. You are never forgotten really I just wish you happiness. - #21 12.31.2025 02:54

7th book for the year, DONE and it still made me cry. Huhu

For so long, I know some of the chaos are still inside my head or somehow they still haunts me endlessly but there is somehow inner peace somewhere this time. I somehow know why but it still a long process to take in everyhting. Hopefully this is the start of some plot twist I deserve and hopefully 2026 it is more for myself than other people. I also unlock the hidden personality on my other dimension.lol . Crazy how this year is ending and I never been hopeful for a while because it is always heartbreaking. Anyway, some of my thoughts and all of these might change tomorrow. Lol  

Happy New Year! 

Book . Before Your Memory Fades

Book 1 | Book 2

I decided to read 2 books from this series back to back for a reason that I don't want to forget the charcters but obviously, you can still read each of them even you haven't read the first one of the series. 

The past 2 books, I have different thoughts if I am given a chance to go back on the past and go to the future this time, I have a different thought. 

Originally, I think there was a scenario in the book about on what I'm going to type but maybe it is also a little different.

I should’ve been done with this book mid-December but then eveything went chaotic and I really want to finish this before the year ends do I finished the last few pages by the 31st. 

Just a thought, on the cafe you can go back in the past and somehow go to the future. I wonder what if you want to talk to someone who has been to the cafe but already dead and you want to know their current opinion on whatever you want to share with them. It’s a long shot a very long one of course it is impossible but this is fiction what if. Somehow it is kind of brutal that we want to get their opiniion on something but you can’t talk to them anymore. Or what if you love how they look on things and their opinion mattered but they are not here anymore for you to know. 

Just what if I can still talk to my dad and know his current opinion on things.

Not sure on where the story of the rest of the series but I plan to read the next one maybe next year but I have to change course on my genre and try a lot of books and hopefully I will be very into reading again next year. 

This series never fails to made me tear up. 

“Something I strongly believe is that we mustn't allow the death of a person to be the cause of unhappiness. The reason for that is simple: if we let everyone who dies be a cause for unhappiness, that would mean people are being born to become unhappy. But the opposite in fact is true. People are always born for the sake of happiness.

Yukari Tokita, Author” 

 Before Your Memory Fades | Toshikazu Kawaguchi

 

Random . November 2025

 

Exactly a month. Not that I’m counting but I also asked for a sign and you delivered. #72

I need to be alone before I burst my anger to you. 

It’s heartbreaking to remember how broken the inside is

Yoga this morning to charge my social battery 

Not everyone is doing it the same way

Dependent on social media today which is actually too much from the usual 

“Us being honest with each other, even when it’s difficult, that’s something I haven’t been able to do in any of these other relationships” - Noah | Nobody Wants This S02E04

How many times I’m heartbroken and no one knew any of them. 

Feels like 2015 all over again. 10 years. Same feelings. Same vibe. Why. Why. Why. 

Brought the kindle just n case

Yay! A win! Congrats, Tams! 

Just like that it’s already November 3rd. 

Sometimes you got to find some things to do so that your mind will not wander

Bad is different from dirty, right

Played a movie thinking that I’ll watch but I slept

“But the world is exhausted and the only wealth we have left is love” - Pillow Thoughts

“Perhaps it’s just easier to smile and pretend everything is fine, rather than admit my heart’s a little swollen from losing something that wasn’t even mine” - Pillow Thoughts

Somehow I’m still craving that conversation. I wonder if we will ever have one again and assuming that there will never be breaks my heart. - 11.5.2025 03:54

Early lunch and no coffee? No problem. Lol

Grown ups acting like kids. When will this end?

That was 2 lousy play in the last minute, UST!!! 

Want to update phone but I’m seeing no reason why I should. Lol

“Where do I go when a lover and a friend becomes a memory and the dead end?” - Pillow Thoughts

If I buy an Android phone, at the end of the day I know that I will still pick up my iPhone. 

Happy Birthday, Dada

Happy Birthday, Sis

Well, don’t ask me about it because I will give you an answer that you might not be able to accept. My number 1 “what if” regarding with that matter

Yeah, hate me for it

I wish I didn’t put my wall down for him. I wish I didn’t give in, but somehow my rule for this is be myself and no regrets on being myself. 11.08.2025

Landers

The amount of tears that no one knew about

Some of the “assuring” words from you echoed in my head while watching the last episode of Nobody Wants This S02

“I like watching planes, take off, fly overhead ad disappear into the clouds. I pretend I’m up there too, on my way to see you” - Pillow Thoughts

“It’s okay to close some doors, hell, it’s even okay to lock them” - Pillow Thoughts

“I dreamed of love and it gave me too many sleepless nights” - Pillow Thoughts

“We are all born with softness, and it’s important to grow into it. Do not let the world turn your heart cold” - Pillow Thoughts

Wasted an hour trying to grab a steal deal but no luck. 11.11.2025

I want to talk to you again and I’m missing you a little extra today. 

A productive night to write

The fuck I forgot to change that! Ugh

“If you love someone, you always see their face” - Joel | The Last Of Us S02E06

I’m back, Araneta. 

White shirt’s playing dirty with their 6th man on the floor. Lol

WE WON?? HOW??? HAHAHA

Work break since I need to write this down. Lol

I should stop watching the last minute of that ball game. Lol

Ex-bestie, a flip phone, the dude n a day beach trip? What. #dream

I should stop experimenting on drinking coffee

Now I’m not sure if it’s just anxiety or caffeine. Maybe both. 

Uninterrupted leg day. 

Noise pollution. Lol

If you are on the same level, there’s no valid competition

I hate waiting for the end game online and that’s one reason why I decided to make the fan account but what if I’m the one need some game update. Lol

YAY ADAMSON!!!!!

Another tattoo session this week? Hmm

1 game day down, 3 more to go. #UAAP

So frustrating when there’s a vehicle parked at the pedestrian lane

Seems that coffee is part of the routine now. 

So far so good for today and tomorrow

Badly missing you a little extra today. #72

surprise? 

That’s why you have to be nice to everyoe

Another win. One more game

The now what? #UAAP

That’s me saying “no” this time and choosing myself. 

Tattoo session, done!!! 

Someone is back,became a stranger and I’ll let you enjoy being a liker. #72 11.23.2025

Badly wanted to message you or just give a hint about something but I’m controlling myself. 

Than you, DLSU for not giving us a chance. Lol #UAAP

MVPasaol. Just wow. Deserve.  #UAAP

Badly need coffee but this anxiety is already killing me. 

My minimalist self just can’t. Lol

I’m against it so don’t be pushy. 

Becoming the person I didn’t want to be. 11.27.2025 19:17

One of those days that I don’t know what’s next. 

Weekend with the bebe gurl 

Geez I miss doing nothing on a weekend and just being locked up with friends

I was so excited to share it but I can’t start to talk about it then I thought “what’s the point it’s already over” #72

Slow Sunday

That bittersweet feeling of going back home 

Time calculated gone wrong