Random . February 2017

Thank you, M.

Oh hello again, hometown.

Fan girl!!! Omg. My GDY is here!!!

Why am I attracted to authentic? Haha.

The shocking part of today. I'm amazed of how it was so easy on me.

I have some personal shit again and I want to write this phase of realization but I don't know how and where to start. Maybe not yet the right time to talk about it but this personal journey will never be forgotten so I know when the right time comes to write this I will still know every detail about it.

Staying on YouTube for hours in not helping on my writings. Haha.

It's really about how you left an impact to others.

Chikababes tomorrow!

Baking is now a hobby. Yes.

My mind is so cluttered that I can't compose a proper note/letter/blog post but in a good way. No major complain. :)

Thankful for so many things despite of some bad vibes.

When you never complain for so long because you enjoy it but it feels like you want to lately because of someone's unappreciated self.

This is why we need off days.

When you didn't grow up around him, you don't have any idea on his philosophy.

Doing this particular task, you have to put yourself on their shoes to totally understand. Forget your selfishness, look at them right on the eyes not just looking down at them.

Thankful for the arrival of the plugs. Haha

I hate that it's becoming my lullaby.

Another day that I'm missing the calls.

We haven't been to the middle of this month but why it feels like February is about to end?

One step at a time but I'm already excited for this. It's already 80% sure. Omgggg.

Why does S Club 7 is being played here at SM. Huhu. Teenage life. ❤

It was bringing me down at some point earlier but thankful that there are few people who stays to believe. #mantra

Playlist on shuffle and the perfect song played at the right time. Sick Of It by Candy Hearts saved me multiple times already, for years. Forever thankful for music and despite of what I'm feeling for the past weeks, there are a lot of things to be thankful for. Even I'm isolating myself and trying to escape at the same time.

When I was just about to question it, he will do his part unexpectedly. ❤ 021217

Happy Valentines Day! Spread love all year round. ❤

Aww. The simple gestures. ❤ 0214

Be careful on what you're spreading most especially when you don't know a single truth.

When you lie, you may affect other people that can still be fix but the damage that you are doing to yourself will never be.

If ever I let this go, I know I don't need to worry on what others will think because I already left a mark in there for the past years and I will be worried for them. I might looked defeated but what they witnessed will never be altered and we all know the truth. Lie to yourself and to others so you will be once again praised by people who doesn't have any idea on what's the real deal. Enjoy the hype, it will not last. 0214

One day, those words will just slipped into my mouth. You may not believe it but I don't care I know what I saw in his face are his current expression towards you.

This song just take me to another level of happiness.

Less than a month!

People should learn not to broadcast every plan that they have. It's irritating and the other will start to compete through words.

Surprise!!!! / Aww. Thank youuu. 0221 ❤

When people are being shady, I start to question my instinct towards them.

As much as I want to isolate myself from the outside, I think it's time to conquer it even it's nerve-wracking. Haha. Introvert problems.

Why does government employees do act like shit? You are asking them nicely since you don't have any idea about it but they will answer like you should know it? I will definitely not waste time if I already know what it is.

Dreaming of the sea calls for a much needed trip again. Hopefully soon.

You have so much hatred in your heart that it starting to spread all over your body and I think that's even worse than any sickness that we are all afraid to have. Those people who has been sick for so long even look in life with so much positivity while you are choosing hatred that doesn't do any good.

Some people are just good on starting something but they are not good on maintaining it. They will just pass the responsibility to others until they doesn't care anymore.

Sometimes, I don't have any choice just to see it with my own eyes.

Never stop learning most especially from other people.

So good to know that there are still people who have positivity eoutlook in life.

Congrats, Baby Tams!!! The last time they won vs NU again was 2012 when I forced Keith to watch with me and that was one of my favorite game since it was my first time to witness a 3-OT game. Such a pure basketball game. #BeBrave. 0224

Challenging as always. 0225

Same place at the same time! Why are you doing this, Megamall! Haha. 0225

This is why I recommend the usual place. There's too many distraction in here.

#mantra for the nth time until unknown.

Such productivity time, I was able to edit a movie while on my way to Megamall again. Haha.

Avoiding jejetrolls is one reason why I love staying in bed on a Sunday than being in the mall. Pucha. Haha.

For me, there's a bitterness and satisfaction on commuting.

Bragging about something will not do any good to you.

When being hyper about anything is our quality time. No one will understand that.

Going around town makes me miss so many memories. Franklin ♫. 

Hair Dye-ary . GOOD DYE YOUNG

Omg. Haha. How to start this. 

So, GDY started last year and I was planning to purchase it asap but upon check out, my country wasn't on the list. 

I inquiry on their customer service about it but they said that they will add it up soon since it was just first time and I totally understand it.

Few months later, Philippines was added to the list but I wasn't able to prioritize it since my Romblon trip was up for the next month, UAAP season by September and the SG-KL trip on December and some impulsive buy in between. 

After all the December festivities, I finally decided to try it. 

Merch are added in the store too like shirts, cap, enamel pin, shower cap, pillow case, towel and other accessories. 

I only eye some merch, specifically the dad cap and the enamel pin since I was really planning to get all the hair dye. 

The down side, there is no other option for the shipping and it was costly though it arrived fast. I ordered it January 17 and it arrived by 2nd of February. 

It's so good that I can stare at it all day. So in love with this and finally I was able to have these. 

To be honest, I love the packaging but I don't like the tube because you will not able to squeeze everything out unless you will cut the top of it and I don't want to cut it. Haha. I just transferred the Ex-Girl to one of my empty Manic Panic. 

Little problem was, despite of I don't know what to use first my hair is not cooperating. My hair is still short and as I'm afraid to over bleached it, I eventually wash it already before it even turned white. It still the usual orangey color so when I tried to use the few Manic Panic Cleo Rose mixed with Cotton Candy Pink, it didn't turned pink. All I thought was because it was more light a week later, I was excited to use the Ex-Girl since it's more pigmented but still no effect. I decided to use the Enchanted Forest instead even it's darker and it stained too much. 

Too sad that I might need to outgrown my hair again before I can use GDY but that's okay I still got a lot of time to use it I just need to wait. Will do an update once I did. 

Doing my own hair ever since is no joke and if I start to use GDY, I want it to be perfect. So using Manic Panic in between is not bad since I can get it locally.

DYE HAPPY. 

FYI, I'm a Girl . Dry Shampoo

This cost PHP215.00 at SM Hypermarket

Lately, I've been hearing a lot about dry shampoo and I wanted to try it but I search first about it on how to use it. 

I was roaming around the grocery one time just killing time and I end up at the shampoo section and I found one kind of dry shampoo I forgot the brand but I suddenly saw the Dove one. 

I was excited to use it since there are days that we just don't feel like washing our hair in the morning since lately our weather has been nice. But as we all live in this tropical country, we are much aware that we can't pass a day without washing our hair. 

Dry shampoo promotes that your scalp will not feel oily for a day or days and your hair will not be flat when it was used. 

When I was able to use it, I wanted to experience what it truly promotes but I wasn't satisfied with the result. My scalp wasn't oily but my hair is so dry after, I tried with and without  ironing after using dry shampoo. It feels like it was dry for days even I just used it once. 

I'm not sure if it was with the brand or not but I will still recommend it even with this weather but for sure not during summer. 

Also the smell is too strong for me I feel like I'm walking from here and there and I'm leaving the smell of it even it literally wasn't. (maybe it's just me)

No regrets anyway. I still have it and maybe use it whenever I feel to use it again. 

Some other brands are more expensive but I'm not so sure if that will make your hair dry too and if the smell is strong but it's worth a try. 

On Repeat . ILYSB

ILYSB by LANY

M made me listen to this and I fell in love instantly! It's so perfect. 

Happy Valentines Day! 

Spread love all year round not just today. :) 

Ain't never felt this way
Can't get enough so stay with me
It's not like we got big plans
Let's drive around town holding hands

And you need to know
You're the only one, alright... alright
And you need to know
That you keep me up all night, all night

Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad
Oh, oh my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad

Mad cool in all my clothes
Mad warm when you get close...to me
Slow dance these summer nights
Our disco ball's my kitchen light

And you need to know
That nobody could take your place, your place
And you need to know
That I'm hella obsessed with your face, your face

Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad
Oh, oh my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad
Oh, oh my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad

And you need to know
You're the only one - alright, alright
And you need to know
That you keep me up all night, all night

My heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad
Oh, oh my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad...
So bad, oh
Oh, my heart hurts...
Oh, my heart hurts...
Oh, my heart hurts...
So bad, oh...

On Repeat . Cherry

Cherry by Moose Blood

There's only one place that I wanna be,
It's home with you, girl, so I can hear you breathe.
With your hair up like you do,
And that face that you give me when you've missed me.

And I've missed our girl so god damn much,
I've smoked a lot and I feel so rough.
Guess this is just what I wanna do,
Keeping half-smoked smokes and singing to half-filled rooms.

I was young and irresponsible 
About a year ago and it's impossible to tell
If my hands will ever warm up
I don't believe in growing up but 

Look at me now, I'm engaged to be married,
I'm only 23 and I've got myself a family.
She's not mine and she never will be,
I'm reminded every day.
She's not mine and it fucking kills me,
She won't look at me that way

I was young and irresponsible
About a year ago and it's impossible to tell
If my hands will ever warm up
I don't believe in growing up

Random . January 2017

Happy New Year! 

I love spending time with my babies, I wish more moments like this for 2017. 

Don't worry Mom, I'm very much aware. 

Why does sometimes going home makes me sad? 

Someone is visiting us. I know it's just between you three or maybe it's all of you in one butterfly. I miss you so bad. ❤ 

Mom, have you ever imagine that the 3 of us will be watching cartoon at this living room at this age because I never see this coming! This is now one of my favorite moment and this is only the beginning. Huhu I miss you, Alexander! :( 0102

Claiming our cuteness. #21

Why does it have to be the main reason. It's so sad, disappointing and heartbreaking at some point. #mantra 

So nice to see you today even for a very short time. Thank you. ❤

Wearing long sleeves and my tattoos are hidden, I feel a different person. Haha 

I really miss being a stranger in a foreign country. And I'm having dreams about it. 

Finally a time to clean my room and transferring photos but I'm already running out of space on my hard drives. 0107

I decided not to continue keeping a diary this year. I just don't want to be pressured every night to write. 

Another year, old you. New year doesn't mean you automatically change most especially if you stuck yourself in the past. 

Most of us moved on from the past, currently living in the present and maybe looking forward to the future but what if someone/something is pulling us back to the past where we already left things behind and accepted our failure. 

For someone who is craving for sushi for a month now, Tokyo Tokyo will do. 

Some people will never be contented in their lives. 

If not because of the way all of them think right now, that reward is probably given already. #mantra

I think I can't publish the SG-KL trip as well as the video not until I'm done fixing the photos on my iPhone. Still need to delete some and put up on my Tumblr. 

Maybe I don't want to share my previous trip because I need more time to let myself believe that it already happened.

Why am I searching for cameras when all I really need is a laptop. 

At a very uncertain time, the idea for SG-KL video is sinking in me. Can't wait to do it after my busy days. Haha. And I still got a blog post to think of! 

I should learn how to dress up even just going out in this town. Haha. My comfort zone is so high that I can't beat it up. Good thing I'm not over dressed up or under dressed. Haha. Anyway, Alexander should be the one that's here. 

All I thought this a bad idea but it's refreshing. Reminiscing the good old days. 

This place doesn't even have songs. Breakeven is on repeat for 10x now. Haha. And probably I'm the only one who was noticing it. I'll be sick in this song after leaving this place. Haha

Happy birthday, M! 

The guys on the radio is making sense about this current situation of this country. 

I don't go to the mall for nothing. ;)

Doing what I do best to escape. 

One year, who would have thought. :) 012117

This level of anxiety is what I hate the most. 

Thank you!!! ❤  012617

When they argue but it's obviously a no-brainer move. Hehe. 

Kuala Lumpur 2016

Kuala Lumpur 2016

(link to the video)

Day 1 | Day 2

I don't want to beat my 19 minutes video ever, as in never again but I almost did one. Who knows maybe next time when I had a longer vacation than 5 days or to lessen it when I learned to let go some pictures and video clips. 

This was not hard as making the SG video since this is my favorite. The arrangement of events is as fresh as like it just happened yesterday. 

The thing is I got more video from Batu Caves, Ramaya Cave and Petronas that's why I almost beat the 19 minutes of the SG video. 

The music was just on the spot because I know what I want to use like Slowtown since it felt like we are always on the rush most especially during Singapore and I Miss You because the chorus fits in. The other songs was just picked randomly but I already made a Playlist prior on making the 2 video. Surprisingly, the song on the SG as well as the KL fit perfectly and some lyrics fell on a perfect scenario/picture. I love it. 

I really don't know if it's possible for me to shortened both video since I also want to make a summary for myself so when I want to go back to those trip I'll just hit play than digging on my hard drive. Even there will be just handful of people who will patiently watch the whole thing. 

I also included some street photos by Gem as a product of her bad mood and I became so proud with her shots. Haha. 

Good thing that I got an iPhone to use as an extra device to capture moments and the apps such as Boomerang and Hyperlapse as well as the feature of the camera which was the slow-motion that I just used for the first time and even the video. 

Not sorry for the too much pictures since we do make sure that everything wasn't the same. Haha. And I hope we left them a lesson to never be afraid to make wacky on pictures. That's what we always do and it's fun. More photos more fun so be sure to have huge memory for photos and videos because it's fun, really. 

Upon completing this video, I felt sad that Jesse wasn't able to join us during this trip I wish he was with us so he will be included not just on photos but on the videos that I made and to memories, of course. 

I wish I'll be able to steady the GoPro next time so it will not be as shaky as it is most times. Haha. Believe me, I myself experience the dizziness while watching because I do watch my videos on repeat for weeks. I've done handful of videos but still, I never learned. Haha. Next time which I don't know when. Haha

Kuala Lumpur is really my favorite even for a short while, it so good to experience a strange place with just my own research. 

No plans yet but I can't wait for the new places to explore this year. 

Both videos were edited on iMovie on iPhone6. 

My Photographs: Kuala Lumpur

Do yourself a favor, plan that trip.

Singapore 2016

Youtube muted my video because of copyright on the music I used so I tried Vimeo but unfortunately I can't put it here directly so I'll just put the link

(https://vimeo.com/200183016)

Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3

All of my post about the SG-KL trip was posted now but I haven't fix the photos for my Tumblr but I will soon when I'm done with the KL video.

This is the hardest video to make to be honest. I got a lot of photos from 4 iPhones, GoPro and my DSLR not to mention all the other photos from Gem that I haven't get.

One more reason that this is the hardest was because when we got back it was the holiday season and we have to be here and there for family reunions to maximizing the vacations of the kids. Usually when I get back from vacation, I give time to unpack my things, tidy my room up and then fix the photos/videos from the trip but this time it was different, it took me so long.

I regret just earlier last week on not buying extra battery for the GoPro or a least a trusty power bank to re-charge it. I only had a few videos that's why I included bunch of photos on this video when I really prefer to do a full-length-just-video like my Romblon trip. Not to mention I was really torn which to prioritize with the GoPro and the SLR since I haven't shoot for a while with the SLR and of course for the sake of Tumblr but seriously, I miss using it manually. I wasn't even satisfied at some point with the photos but its all good since I don't have decent photos for a while and I was in a new place why not capture everything I can.

The GoPro was just there waiting for me to use her but at some point it doesn't even feel right to use it maybe one major reason why I didn't prioritize using it.

I had a struggle doing this video that I don't want to share it I just want to keep the experience with me and let myself absorb that this year-planned-trip was already over. I really had fun with friends out there but I think one thing that lacking was we weren't able to sit down and just had a good time with just talking with beers but doing the scheduled activities wasn't bad at all. It was tiring with all the walking but I wish we were able to not had a good sleep and just be awake all night.

With all the available pictures, I don't know what to put in the video. Mostly taken with an iPhone and knowing the quality it doesn't pass my standards but thankful for front cameras, I was able to join the pictures when I was mostly the one behind it.

This is my longest video to date and I still got struggles because when I was making videos, I want to share everything although the walking from here to there are not included but still I wish I was able to share what I want to send to all the people who will patiently going to watch the 19 minutes video.

I also got some struggle on choosing the songs that I'll use since I want to put my personality on my videos and luckily it hit me. 2 weeks before completing this, it was the first time I checked my GoPro and I don't have any idea on how will I do this video since I can't envision what I want to do. The struggle is real. Haha.

The original plan was to make a SG-KL video but due to the time of this video I decided to separate the KL and hopefully when I start that later I will not have the same struggle but I was just fixing the pictures earlier I think I still want to include everything.

I just have to speed up the some video clips even it will make you dizzy but still I hope you understand. Its not as easy as doing a slideshow most especially when I'm trying to send a message or I want to make you experience what we saw and where we went.

Whatever on how people will analyze the video I just did that for the satisfaction of myself and hopefully my friends liked it. Anyways, I believe there will be just handful of people who will make it to the last millisecond of this video.

photos from me or from friends ... more photos on my Tumblr soon

My Photographs: Singapore

This video also means I'm sending you a message to book that trip and enjoy