Sane.

At some point twice a month at work, there's this day where I don't wear contact lens because I need to use the computer the whole day, no make up too just because, but I bravely wear Mulberry lipstick from Sleek sometimes. 

Its also a forget-the-outside-world and finish the major stuff that's been on my desk for the last two days. Its also the messy-desk-day I love doing it because it keeps me sane. Its also the day where my ear hurts so bad because I was wearing my headphones for hours blasting whatever playlist is on shuffle or better catch up on some podcast.

Whether people appreciate it or not the most important thing is, it keeps me sane. 

So just because I'm on my writers block, here are some selfies. 

"I'm good enough for me and all the things that I want to be" - Good Enough | Candy Hearts 

Rant . Insomnia

what keeps me awake in the middle of the night

How am I typing a rant for this year? Well, maybe it doesn't matter if its a new year or not but some things are on my mind so I guess this will be a start that may or may not published on the month of January. Who knows. Well its January 7, 2014 02:07.    

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Basically, everyone gain weight after the holiday season and I think its rude that the first thing you always say to me is that I'm fat. (Thank you!)

Stacy of The Plump Pinay posted this and this and thank goodness for people like her and her twin and the other Plump Pinays and even the other people out there who accept the different body types that other people don't know exist. 

How many new years do you need before changing your attitude?

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Some people are unfair.

You treat other people better than the other when both need to be treated fairly. Maybe your not appreciating who's in front of you and just focusing on the people who you believe are better so you'll treat them special than the other one.

But I have faith that even they are not appreciating what's in front of them, those things will be appreciated. Maybe not now but eventually they will be.

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Fixing yourself is the first step but don't be stuck there, socializing to people should be the second step of thousands. If you will not reach the 2nd step then learn how to get there. A friend, your parents or guardian or anyone can teach you that even not directly. You have to keep walking, you need to.

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Sometimes, you don't need to believe on other people. You all need some faith. Believe to yourself. Accept whatever it is. You don't need to pretend.

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People will not always believe you but as long as you're telling the truth then let go of it.

Some people avoid seeing familiar faces, ask yourself why.

We are all people who may or may not having a common ground but it doesn't mean that we are both living the same life. We have different priorities, daily routines, different situation so don't expect that we are the same.

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2013 really taught me a lot of things. 

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Hopefully, one day the clouds will parted and I'll see the the straight path along the way.

I wish that the un-notice will be notice, the people who deserve a different taste of attention will be given and hopefully, after all the hard work (in any kind) it will be paid off.

Let's just keep faith and everything will fall in the right places.   

1st month of this year and this is how I feel. WHY.  

Wrapping 2013 with a Fancy Ribbon

I'm thinking if I should do this but I guess at some point I should...

Looking back to this year, something still don't change, but some does.

January - the month I created capturedbyaeivrynrv but I rename it to byaeivrynrv | We went to Enchanted Kingdom and it was my first time to ride a f*cking roller coaster!!!!

February - one of the best month? Because I saw Paramore for the 2nd time and I was super close to the stage! I miss them. | And I also went back to my secondary school and saw a bunch of familiar faces. I always miss high school.

March - Exactly a month after the Paramore show, I saw them live again via livestream of SXSW and it was also the first time that I saw Tegan and Sara and Twenty One Pilots played and I fell in love with them. | I also spent time with some good friends.

April - I got my green docs! and my hair was blue-violet. :D | 'Paramore' was released and once again saved my life.  

May - the month that I started my 'FYI, I'm a Girl' series and started to hoard make-ups. Yes, I'm a girl. haha

June - when I started to collect NYX products and my Real Techniques Collection (Yes this is important) lol. And it was like Christmas morning in June :D

July - when I felt so buried 6ft under the stars. | We were united via UAAP Men's Basketball! :)))

August -  my dad's 2nd death anniversary. | I went back to FEU with my cousin who took up entrance exam. | There were road trips | I changed my hair style.  

September - I started my 'On Repeat' series. | I did some re-touch on my hair.  

October - My favorite TV shows came back!!! | I discovered Californila. | One year mark of my 'Hair Dye-ary' series and I dyed my hair yellow.

November - I started this month with family. | I learned one important thing that I was supposed to learn 2 years ago. | Some of our favorite players were drafted in the PBA. | I saw Tegan and Sara live!!!!  

December - We watched PBA again and celebrated Marielle's late birthday celebration. | the GIANTS reunited | brought my 600D some company | I'm was sick on my birthday! | my cousin was here | Some bad memories was filtered with a good one.  

When a new year just started, December is seems so far away as well as the mid-year but as I look back to 2013, everything seems like a blur. Here we are facing another year, even we had different f*cked up moment this past year but we still have hope to a new chapter of our lives, having that hope that this next year will be a better one than the past. Some people might lost someone they love while some gained new friends along the way.

I'm always aware of the run of a month, December just passed by I can't believe its already the 31st of December and in a few hours its another year. I'm always fascinated by how I woke up in another year then will sleep unto a new one.

I'm looking forward to 2014 and will definitely make some changes since I  can. So many things to look forward to and as I'm terrified at some point, I'm also stoked!

Thank you 2013! You taught me a lot of things.

There will be changes. I'm claiming it.

Happy New Year!

xoxo

Birthday

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Let me get this straight. I get too emotional when people remember my birthday. I always try my best to say thank you with a smile but deep inside, my heart is having happy tears.

I'm not a popular person for everyone to remember so I really really appreciate and I feel special somehow when people out of nowhere will greet me 'Happy Birthday' (yes even though you're my "friend" way back to my teenage days, I still appreciate you). My birthdate is not visible on facebook because I think its stupid that people just greet you because there's a reminder on their news feed then your friend list will all greet you 'Happy Birthday'. Duh, my ex-"best friend" doesn't even greet me on my birthday. Haha

I'm happy really but I'm just missing my dad so bad. I don't know how long I'm holding this tears but I just need to let it out now. I remember there was this day when he lay beside me and greeted me when I woke up.

Every year was surely a roller coaster ride but this one was different. There were days that I feel buried defeated by certain people and I don't know where to hold on so that I can keep my head up high so I will not sink in. I do know how to forgive people but I can't accept their bullshits just for them to ruin someone and for them to be good to the people around. My 2nd tattoo is not that perfect but it saved me from the days I feel buried.

Sometimes, I even doubted people around me. I don't know if I should continue to trust them or not. I posted a lot of rant this year and I feel relieved in some ways.    

I can say I changed over the years and people might not see that but at least I know and I'm aware. I don't care if you are not open to changes. IDGAF

Enough. 

My birthday feels like new year since I gained another year of existence with a lot of emotions and stuff and 23 was mostly fucked up but as every birthday, I always look up to the brighter side of things and hope that things will be more good for the coming year.

I want to thank people who are still believing and trusting me with certain things and stuff.

Thank you to the people who will never forget to greet me even without that birthday reminder on their news feed on facebook.

Happy Birthday to my birthmates Nikka, Michael, Hayley Williams from Paramore, and to you if we are celebrating our birthday together :)

Thank you to everyone who greeted me whether they saw a common friend greeted me or they just really know. HAHA Thank you!

I just stayed at home with my bed and mom because I'm not feeling well. On my birthday, is it just so great? Haha.

And while watching the news earlier, sorry if you lost someone today.  

"Be at your very best to be the very best" - Dada Alvi

Prime . Zoom and Filters

Its been a year with my 600D and it was a very long journey. I love having my camera with me on special occasion even though its heavy and bulky but at the same time I'm having a love and hate relationship with my kit lens which is 18-55mm.

Fortunately, my uncle own a couple of lens and I already experienced using a 50mm 1.8 and a 18-200mm but its also time to own a zoom and a prime. In a span of a year, I know what I'm going to get because I feel so upset couple of times for just having a 18-55mm and luckily DB Gadgets offers lenses that its cheaper than anywhere else.

Prime . 40mm aka pancake lens

I read couple of reviews about this and its a good to go lens than the 50mm 1.8 but still the nifty-fifty is on my list. 

you can check my photographs using this lens here.

Zoom . 55-250mm

I was a bit confused if I should get this or the 75-300mm but once you hit that on google, people will advice you to get the 55-250 rather than the 75-300. And I listened to them and because of IS since its a very big factor when it comes to the pictures.

Wheel of Filters from Photojojo that I purchased via Californila

If you know the story in here then you'll know what I'm pointing out when I got this despite of buying any lomo camera because its a little out of my budget as well as the film and developing part but I admire lomo users and I'm still have one film camera.

If you want to check my photographs using the filters, you can check it here

You can read on how I got the Wheel of Filters here

I got the 40mm and 55-250mm and my 600D from DB Gadgets

"If your photographs aren't good enough, you're not close enough" - Robert Capa

In the middle of the night

The worst thing when you came home and sleep your ass off, you are awake in the middle of the night. I'm telling you its worst than my usual sleeping habit.  

One thing that I love everyday is, I realized new things. It doesn't matter if the realization came from a small or big thing the important  is, you came to that realization and you learn from it, you started to appreciate things that you have thought you will never appreciate.

The downside is and probably the one thing that I'm hating every single day is, the close minded people. I can't change those people and mostly, I really don't care anymore for me, as long as I seize the day I'm happy with it. Slowly, I'm learning not to regret things I still do sometimes. I guess its part of the life. Its also funny and sad at the same time that, we do certain things, sacrifice some thing for other people but they don't appreciate it and maybe when its our funeral, it will be the only time they will appreciate that.

I'm missing my dad so much lately as well as papa and ikong.

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Every single day, I discover the pros and cons of a specific thing. Its good to know it because there is this reminder in my head in case I feel bad or I'm just hating everything around once in a while.

I still believe in other people and sometimes I really want to help them.

There was this moment when I felt papa by my side tapping me at the back for something I know he's proud. I miss him so much.

Rachel Berry said on the 'Quarterback' episode, "I talk to him a lot, I can still see his face and I can hear his voice so clearly. Do you think that I'll never forget it? Because I'm afraid one day I will". I passed this phase already (I think because sometimes, I still cry) but as we all go along I think its possible that we will forget their voice as well as their presence but not their face because pictures are everywhere.

Life is short. You will never know what will happen. Don't carry baggage that are too heavy most especially if you just need clothes for 2 nights. You will be the one to suffer because no one will be so willing to carry that for you too. Common sense people. Please think before making a move.

"We're always a half a second late and one word short of what we really need" - Finding It | Cora Carmack 

7th Degree of Confusion

I honestly don't know what I wanted to do these past days.

So confuse...

I want to drive away and take photos

I want to go shopping

So confuse with what my 3rd tattoo will be

I just want to have some movie/series marathon

I need to retouch my hair soon

Is 24 hours enough for a day? There's so many thing I want to do and I think 24 hours is not enough and then here's the 'but' that make us doubt some things that we want or need.

I'm hating some things.

Why does life so unfair some time or should I say most of the time?

I want to travel and see new places and take photos

Why do I feel so suffocated?

Why do I feel incomplete?

I think I need some strangers in my life right now

Do I overthink things?

Whatever.

Nothing has changed

FYI, I'm a Girl . because I have girl problems

Omg. I never thought I'll see the day. As of the moment I'm typing this, I wish that another package from MAP Shop will arrive tomorrow (because another package arrived earlier.... Hehe) but its Saturday and I'm not sure if there are deliveries on a Saturday. Yes. I ordered a bunch of NYX again (sorry, oh not really. Haha) and I can't wait to try it. I ordered an eye brow pencil, 2 eye liner, 3 matte lipstick and 1 round lipstick, I didn't ordered soft matte and I have no plans on ordering them again soon.

Yes I know, I just ordered a month ago and here I am waiting for it to arrive and if they don't have delivery on Saturday then it will probably arrive on Monday.

As my friends know me "before", I'm the one who don't like to speak about make ups. Okay fine, call me a late bloomer or whatever but seriously that's a fact. 

And by the way, my expensive season is here! Hello UAAP! But as of the moment I have 3 tentative dates to watch and I just chose the game that you don't want to miss the live action. Maybe I'll blog about it but unlike the way I blog about UAAP last season (I'm a little grown now, you know). And I can't wait to hangout with Gem and to see some friends again! But darn, F21 is sale until the 14th! Hopefully, I can control myself not to shop. Hahaha

And with UAAP on schedule, I'm thinking if I can order some eye shadow palette and 2 more tubes of lipstick but hopefully by mid-July I can get those because I'll be banned on buying make up thingy by August because THIS IS INSANE. Haha. 

AaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!! 

I really didn't see this coming but where's the thrill if you saw it right? HAHAHA

****I typed this last Friday night and yes, my package arrived last Saturday and there will be a FYI, I'm a Girl post soon and a Hair Dye-ary update too. ;) 

"People are really soft, except for their bones" - Dr. Temperance Brennan | Bones

A Little Update

I love wearing those arm candies lately unfortunately the green one was taken by my aunt and she gave me a ring in return. 

Life has been busy always, still there are those lazy days and productive ones. I've been re-watching NCIS from its first season and I'm almost on Season 3. 'Reckless' by You Me At Six is playing while I'm typing this part right now (wait I'm going to sing along first its my favorite part) and I have new artists and songs on my iPod. As I was moving on from listening to 'Paramore' the album, The Maine released 'Forever Halloween' and that's what I'm listening to lately and I have more time to listen to some new artists and songs and read some new ebooks. Finally I gave in and I decided to listen to Tegan and Sara and I'm loving them so much probably my favorite song from them will be The Con. I remembered that I first listened and saw them play via live stream when I was waiting for the set of Paramore in SXSW last March 14 and speaking of SXSW I also saw Twenty One Pilots that day I think it was before the set of Tegan and Sara and now I'm also listening to their album Vessel and my favorite from that album will be Car Radio. I do also listen to Demi Lovato's new album 'Demi' and I don't have a favorite because I can't pick one! Lol. Cassadee Pope also released a new single after winning The Voice S3 and somehow, I can relate to it big time listen to her new song Wasting All These Tears. Somehow, I still want some new tunes from Hey Monday I miss those days. Miley Cyrus also released a new song We Can't Stop as well as Avril Lavigne with Here's To Never Growing Up and so far I love listening to new music and I'm happy about it. I'm just going to share to you my current favorite Paramore show. Enjoy!

Paramore's full set on BBC Radio 1 | Big Weekend

When I was not listening to music or watching an episode of series or movies or concert videos I'm reading a book. And since I opened up about it from my last post I think its time to be open to talk some rant about it. I was having a book hiatus since the end of April then Stealing Harper was released in the middle of May and I was freaking happy to read it because of Brandon and hell yeah the point of view of Chase! Though it still ended that way I still love it and I'm happy to know what he was doing when he was missing on Taking Chances (Taking Chances by Molly McAdams). After reading Stealing Harper I continued on Taking Chances and after that I waited for Entwined With You by Sylvia Day (from the Crossfire series) and I was disappointed because it didn't end there and the whole book runs just a few weeks -_- I read some comments from readers and they are pissed about it too and I read that there will be 4th and 5th book to it and who knows when it will be release probably after half a year then the 5th one will be after a year. And from a cliff hanger ending of Entwined With You, Forever Too Far by Abbi Glines was released and it was the perfect ending for that series I can't wait for the next book of Twisted Perfection. 

say hello to my fading hair 

What will be the next thing to post. I have FYI, I'm a girl post soon maybe next week and my Hair Dye-ary will still continue, I'm just waiting for my hair to be longer so I can cut the ends and make some new changes I actually sick of my hair color right now while some says the faded blue and violet are nice and I highly doubt it, most of the time. Maybe I'll post our family swimming too but not too soon.  

I bought this last Monday because it was the last Ash Blonde and I like the orange one but I'm just keeping this for now. I'm serious when I say I have plans for my hair. Hehe. And I still have a jar of Electric Banana and I'm planning to buy an Electric Lizard soon. Hehe and secretly, I really want to try to shave a part of my hair. Haha

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One little package for me is on its way here (I hope) and its been a month and I'm worried. I don't care if I need to pick it up at the post office or it will be directly sent here, it will be a first time for me to get an international package and I was excited but now, I'm worried, I'll blog about it once I got it on my hands but for now, I'll be thinking about it just like before :(

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UAAP's first round schedule is released! And as always Marielle and I are planning to watch and hopefully, her schedule will be on our side so we can watch a Wednesday game (fingers crossed) and I'm a little pissed because most of the games will be at MOA Arena. Here we go with my expensive season but I'll make sure that I'll just watched the most awaited opponent to fight with. Hehe. I still need to fix another computer at the office so it will be my live stream tv if I will not watch live most especially on the opening. And by that, I'm going to save some money and I'll be on my way to get the third tattoo that I really need since whenever.

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BonChon opened at SM Taytay and I've been there for 2 Mondays already with Daphne. Hehe. Some people are just discovering it while I first tasted their chicken a year ago. And since I'll be around MOA again, probably I'll be at BonChon MOA for couple of game dates again. Hehe.

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Students are back in school and I'm missing the first-day-of-school hype. But its different now so I'll just sit in here watch everyone do their thing while I do mine. ;)

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Who in this world haven't heard about Candy Crush? I'm on level 167 now.

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I think I haven't mentioned that the whole Season 1 of The Mindy Project is on my iPod.  

I started wearing colored contact lens this week.

I love red, pink and a little of orange lipsticks.  

I'm ditching both of my Tumblr lately but I'm going back there and I'm giving my Buzznet a life.

Well, do I need to change the title of this post? It doesn't mean "A little update" anymore. Haha

I'll back at you in a couple of days or sooner, I just need to fix my pictures because its a little messy.

"Its time to stop thinking and start doing" - Mike Franks | NCIS S10E24

Beware .....

because I WANT TO BE ON A TATTOO SHOP RIGHT NOW.

call me crazy or whatever but I want a new tattoo ASAP. I don't know but I'm itching to have a new one lately. Believe me, if I'm not on a tight budget right now I'm probably on a tattoo shop as I'm typing this. I was thinking of this next tattoo for a while now and I'm too eager to have it because I think that will be the answer or at least the one thing that can save me from this mind set of mine or the state of mind that I'm in. Its hard to explain but pretty much I just need/want a new tattoo (yes, that's a need than a want but at some point they go together even they shouldn't).

I don't want to spill it yet because I think it should be a secret for now. Hehe. I'm also thinking of going this time without anyone when I walked in on tattoo shop and I know its kinda selfish when some people around me  want to witness someone they know on getting one and I'm willing to take some audience so they will finally see me or at least my reaction when being inked because the only thing that people asked is "does it hurt?" Well, of course it does but as I said to one of my friends before, it hurts but at the same time its a pleasure.

Why does tattoo are so fucking addicting. 

Somehow, it brings me back to the teenager me when you are depressed or when things around don't go too well and you just want to eat a whole bar of chocolate then you feel better (I still do that sometime) but knowing that it will just passed by for a while it does change my perspective to that and on the present me tattoo are like chocolate, it’s a resolution on a situation but unlike the chocolate the pain will be there for some time and it will be there for so long that you need to tear your skin off if you want it gone.

I think that makes me realize even there are so many fucked up things around I'm still lucky to feel that pain and somehow reminds me that I'm still living in this world / I'm not totally numb after all. And by that, it makes me realized to continue this life even there are fucked up things around and ....

Life/problems/fucked up situation are just like having a new tattoo you can feel the pain/pleasure, it will take some time to heal but it will be part of you no matter what and that makes you grow up then afterwards, you will look at it happy or not but you go back on realizing the same stuff you realized before and it makes you go on again in the cycle of life. Its definitely a reminder where have you been at one point in life and it feels good to know that they are not going anywhere and they are there to remind you every single second of the day.

I just want to share this, sometimes when I'm in a hurry on preparing for a day, sometimes I plan to wear a specific accessory that will be good on my outfit but then again as I hurry I totally forgot to wear a ring or my watch or a necklace, then on my way to wherever I'm headed on a specific day when I look at my right arm I'll be reminded that I can go on through the day because I got my very sentimental/reminder tattoo that will always with me no matter what and I will not go bat shit crazy all day because I forgot to wear an accessory.

Tattoo are meaningful unless you just want to be "on the loop".

"Tattoo are like potato chips, you can't have just one"

APHS 2013

I went back to my high school grounds last February 7 and 8 for a pageant, where my cousin joined and won 2nd runner up the photos are on her Facebook page .

I will not spam photos from the album but I got photos that I never uploaded on my facebook or anywhere else. I just want it to be here on my blog. selfish much? yes. lol

A little introduction, I don't know who will be the judges but I know that it will be some celebrity and since I do avoid being addict on a certain local TV show lately I don't do fan girling over local celebrities. I'll be more starstruck if I saw these bloggers in person. Rich Asuncion appeared and I didn't do anything I just stared at her for a second then I don't care anymore if we are on the same ground. BUT when the emcee called the HOSTS, I STARTED FAN GIRLING AS IN WHO CAN STOP YOU WHEN DIVINE LEE AND VICTOR BASA WAS ON STAGE???? SERIOUSLY.

I suddenly remembered my good friend Rachel who introduced me to read Divine's blog and ever since I followed her on Tumblr . I think that was 2010. If I knew Divine and Victor will be there I should invited Rachel because I know that she love them dearly.

Good thing my uncle let me borrow one of his lens and gotcha. I got decent photos.

D + V

and some of the photos will be posted on http://capturedbyaeivrynrv.tumblr.com/

I just want them in this post. Good Vibes . :p

Here are some more photos from that night.

sisters

with our Ms. APHS 2nd runner up

with the proud baby sister, Apples 

with Mae!!!!!

Mae was a good friend of mine way back in high school. We might not be as close as we are before but its really nice to see some familiar faces that knows you when you are still on stage of innocence. I suddenly miss Judy and Anne ... 

with Ma'am Alvea

Meet my adviser when I was in 4th year high school. She's one of the best teacher and she love me because I'm behave in her class. HAHA She even told me (in front of my mom) that she didn't recognize me (almost). *blush*.

Maybe I really left high school in the past but it was one of the best experience of my life. There was good and bad experience but that's what that stage is all about. Believe me, if there will be a time machine, I will choose to go back to high school. I will not change everything about my high school life I just want to make some more memories because some people are not the same after we left high school and that makes me sad.

"The world is changing" - Eli David (NCIS S10E11)

February 1st . Random update

Hello! I've been so busy lately and almost got no time to be online ... its good sometimes but maybe bad for my dying blogspot. lol

anyway, I haven't edited our picture from Enchanted last January 3rd and its now February! Well, there will always be backlogs on blogging (you can't avoid that).

A little update ... I've been watching some movies for the past week and I also read a book series and a book (awesome stories, I can't even move on most especially on books than the movies). I prefer books over movies if they have book but if they are not based on book then I prefer the movies. I'm also update to the my favorite series! Oh no, you don't want to know how I'm so connected with those series and books.

There are few things that I'm looking forward to this month, just to mention the anniversary of APHS, where you'll see bunch of familiar faces from high school and will be on that school next week where mostly I'll imagine what happened to that ground when we are still there; High School Grand Alumni, in which I'm not planning to attend; and  Paramore live in Manila 2 where I'll stalk for them and to be watching with some friends.

I'm still a little broke from the holiday season but I'm still looking forward to see some college friends although we planned to see each other last month but most of us are busy so no final plan about that.

Last night, my "ex - best friend" was in my dream, I don't know what that means and maybe tonight I'll forget about it already but when a close friend of his asked me one question, I only answered her with "seriously?".

Earlier this week and last week, I hang out with my birthmate/babes/sister/cousin, Nikka. We might do simple things in life but we're happy. We actually should be hanging out one of these days but we unfriend the guy who will be celebrating his birthday tomorrow (Happy Birthday to you btw). Belated Happy Birthday to Nikka's boyfriend and to the "ex - best friend".

After visiting Enchanted earlier last month, I haven't got the time to shoot or just do some photo walk.

I miss my friends ... Seems just like yesterday when we are just fooling around the university corridors. I always missed those days when you don't have to think complicated things just thesis, quizzes, exam .. but now we are in the "real world" where everyone seems to be your enemy and everyone is trying to put you down, where you will be only with no one but yourself.

Its Friday night and I'm confused again with movies and e-books. I guess creating my own setting in my head is better than the movies but sometimes I can't see the right characters ...

"The things you do means something to people --- Gibbs (NCIS S10E13)"

Just me .. being Bipolar

Long time no blogging...

I just got too busy the past week and trying to get back on the grid. Nothing special on this blog entry, I just want to share some things that I've done for the past week and this might consist of some Instagram photos that I randomly posted on ig (thanks Tricia Gosingtian for the idea), some TV show that I'm watching lately, and maybe more random stuff that will be under this paragraph.

I've been so stressed lately, work, home, work, home but... I still know some things on how to distress myself like sleeping, watching my favorite tv shows, eating (but controllable), just watching some videos on my iPod and listening to my playlist/s. Unfortunately, I know that's something or someone is missing, sounds weird but yeah I don't feel complete right now. I feel so drained and I'm not liking it. Oh men, can we just be kids again, where you will never think some complicated things? I hate times like this. -_-

I don't know what to talk about now ... Maybe I can start about my November, as in my November 1st.

It was my cousin's 6th birthday and we usually celebrate his birthday at the memorial park since its All Saints' Day and he get used to it but maybe a different day for his 7th birthday next year. :)

I can't believe he's 6 now, Happy Birthday Mong (well, belated!) <3

Spent my 2 days talking about life with these people

Listened to some funny comments and words from kids

and Nov 1 is over. I miss you daddy :|

Moving to the next day ... 

Some GPOY ... haha

Wore my pink Dr. Martens 

I also tried Alaine's black docs

with some stolen photos from Mom's camera 

After November 1 and 2 ..... 

first time to wear my docs with that kind of socks .... and I liked it :)

and by means I liked it, I have to do it again but with red socks because it will be Christmas time soon :)

Bought some Dunkin Donuts :p

and wished that I can have some of this in real life ... haha!

Went to the mall on a Monday with Dap and Dewey and ate at McDonalds ...

and be the Nutcracker .. :p

Wore some girly stuff earlier this week ....

Celebrated my Grandmother's 80th birthday 

Worked overtime with Tomi ... 

Thanks Tomi! <33

and to end my every day life ... I have to watch good TV show or spend my night on the internet and when stressed ... the only thing you want to do is end the day right with some positive people and wish that you have some people like them around.

Watching my favorite series at night particularly The Walking Dead Season 3, Bones Season 8, Criminal Minds Season 8, New Girl Season 2 and NCIS Season 10. 

Hi Gibbs! I miss your rules. :)

"You have to focus on the good" - NCIS S10E01

About Me

Hi! I'm new to blogger but I do started blogging on tumblr and I'm still on discovering something here. I'll try to update here more often but still I will put links on my tumblr and since I'm very sentimental person, I'm thinking of having some flashback day on here where I'll repost a post from my tumblr to here or just put a link or maybe just start something new in here. HAHA

From my tumblr "About Me" link ... here's a little introduction about my self (edited).

Hi! My name is Aivrin Villamayor. Some of my friends call me Aiv or whatever hilarious nicknames. HAHA I live in the country where it’s sunny every day except for the monsoon (Philippines) Where in the Philippines?! I’m proud to say that I’m from the “Art Capital of the Philippines” (Angono, Rizal).  I’m a middle child. I was turning 19 in a few weeks when I started this blog.  Last April 2011, I graduated at Far Eastern University where I took up Bachelor of Science Major in Psychology.

I’m just a person who wants to blog and I really want to learn photography (I just have a Sony TX5 and planning to get 2 more cameras in the near future). I’m a drama queen (I’m sensitive), I sing on the shower (yes! Who doesn’t do that?) I’m definitely not an entertainer at all (I better shut myself when I’m with other people but it’s different when I’m with my close friends) I just love to observe. 

I am passive aggressive, OC, I can be a bad girl if someone hit my bitchy temper button. We can be friends but please don’t freak me out. Sometimes I’m a lazy and I can be unproductive but I work faster than you are. Somehow I cannot see my importance but I think when you know they trust you it’s more important.

I know a lot of people but I only have few close/true friends. I had a best friend way back in high school but I guess we are just friends now (but hey thanks you make me love basketball) HAHA.

This “blog” consist pictures that I’ve taken wherever I’ve been, pictures of myself (GPOY  FTW!), blog entry on what I’ve done for the past week (because I usually update late!), as a proof on my drama queen side there are few entries that are so dramatic. Once in a blue moon, I also post something about food.  

I have love for gadgets because I’m an introvert. HAHAHA I usually have my cell phone and iPod. I listen to All Time Low, Amoric, Avril Lavigne, B.o.B., Bee Eyes, Britney Spears,  Bruno Mars, Callalily, Cobra Starship, Demi Lovato, Evan Taubenfeld, Hey Monday, Jimmy Eat World, Juris, Katy Perry, Ke$ha, Kelly Clarkson, Kitchie Nadal, Lady Gaga,  M2M, The Maine, MCR, Nicki Minaj, Paraluman, Paramita, Paramore, Parokya ni Edgar, Rocksteddy, Silent Sanctuary, Taylor Swift, Three Thumbs Up, VersaEmerge, You Me at Six … those are just few from 330 artist on my iPod. Once in a while I read books (I want true to life story, Mitch Albom is one of my favorite author). I became addicted to series because of Aiza (my friend in college). I love watching NCIS, Bones, Criminal Minds, Body of Proof, Monk, The Walking Dead, and New Girl.

I don't know if someone read my blog but this also serve as a diary to me. 

I am invisible because people refuse to see me but always a daddy’s girl and can be one of the boys.

♥

AEivryn :)