zero

 

Sent you a photo from a year ago

Some way, somehow

You written something

The words that you wrote

Feels like the words in my head

For a very long time

I refuse to write

Because what are the chances

That it will happen in real life

08.04.2025 21:12

whim

 

Is it possible

To miss you already

Even we are just chatting

Is it allowed as a reason

That I miss you

Or I just crave

Someone to talk to

For so long now

My other question is

As much as I’m enjoying

Having conversations

With you

Is this one

Will last

Or it will be gone

In a snap

Maybe I’m ready

To take risk

And gamble

Even my walls are still up

08.03.2025 20:02

inked

Maybe it’s just me

But was it possible

That the cupcake

Is an idea from Mayon

When you were explaining it

I’m honestly thinking

About Mt. Everest

Never the Mayon

But I told you about

Wanting to see it in person

And when I saw it

I just have to say it

On my own

Damn, that’s my cupcake

Or its just a resemblance

Of any mountain

Thank you for this

Never regretted

Getting it inked

 Love you, always

05.08.2025 23:35 

closure

 

Maybe I’ll be crying from the plane

But this is for sure

The version of closure

This time

I fell in love in your province

Maybe the same love

I had in you

I have so much words

Time will tell

On when it will be out

05.08.2025 23:30

truth or lie

So many scenarios

Playing in my head

I know I will never see you

The last thing you said

You are going here in the province

This is not exactly your hometown

But I’m here

Just couple of hours away

I can’t be near there

It might break me

I may discover the fact

That you may be lying to me

All those years 

Or you were telling the truth

05.07.2025 23:12 

hometown

Why am I somehow expecting to see you

That you are waiting for me at the airport

Being in here is weird

I’m having mix feelings

Though not the same when I entered Expo

Maybe because at the back of my head

This place is huge as well

And there’s only 1% or less

That I’ll see you

This province is your home

Its special to you

And I can feel you in here, honestly.

I just wish we were able to go here

I guess I just have to

Make my own memories in here

Coming here is a huge risk

For my own wellbeing  

But I’m here now

05.04.2025 16:43 

just be honest

3 words in our native language

5 if you will translate to english

My question is was it really from you

Or its just a product of my conscience

I don’t want to be hopeful

It will not be worth it for sure

Its been way too long for this

Back and forth game

I’m on my way forward

Just be you if its you

Say it without hesitation

Don’t hold back 

Just be honest with me

04.22.2025 02:56 

Time

Why am I wishful thinking That you still have time To make things right When I already believe You already ran out of time I really wish you will I wish you still have time But that will make me Hopeful for nothing I miss you tonight Maybe just tonight Pop up in dreamland I’ll meet you there Hug me tight.

03.03.2025 03:13

 

Crystal Clear

You fucking give me so much sign

That I don’t know what it means

One thing I’m sure

You are clearly reminding me

That you are thinking about me too 

I get that crystal clear

You owe me

Much explanation

For once give me a little longer

We both know that I deserve it

You can do it even in a single day 

But please make it much clearer

I’m already tired of the guessing game

09.21.2024 19:21 

Dark

 

You were my escape

You were the reason

For the smile

For the contentment

For the happiness

For almost positivity

In this lifetime

But then I lost you

In a snap

And everything 

Became dark 

Again

08.15.2024 04:54

Let Me Go

 

What if I’m ready 

To move forward

And you are the one 

Who’s holding me back

Even you ghosted me

Let me go

You’ve already been

Long time ago

Why still holding me

Until this day

 

07.23.2024 03:34

What Exactly

 

Do I ever want to see you again 

Just to regret it later

And what for

Blame you for everything,

Hurt you physically,

Hear an apology,

Get an explanation, 

Cry on your shoulder,

Beg for attention, 

Hurt myself more,

For me to believe 

Or to feel something

Once again

Or maybe just

For a simple closure

Was it really that necessary 

06.13.2024 / 04:41 

Back and Forth

On a random moment of a day

Somehow I caught myself stopping

Realizing how I’m moving without him

Then silently I wish he’s right beside me

Wishing that we are driving through

This life together

I still wish that somewhere 

Along the road

We were able to be together longer 

02.15.2024 00:48

Sentimental

I want to overwrite these feelings

And probably some of the memories 

That I’ve been repeating in my head 

Just so I can forget 

Seeing my memories from last year 

As well as the writing that I did 

Made every trigger in me to remember him

Probably a sign that I should take seriously 

To delete every memory of him on my phone 

So there will be no trigger again 

 01.12.2024 00:50

Distraction

I stalked you on Instagram 

I know you are noticing 

But do you stalk me back 

I somehow wish you do 

I’m too shy to start a conversation 

Because I know 

That you will not engage 

Just don’t block me

Since you are 

My current distraction

12.10.2023 18:47 #03

Scam

 

I feel like I’m being left behind by everything

I did lots of work but it wasn’t enough 

I did sacrifice a lot but feels like

Its just for nothing

Was it a sacrifice 

Or just lousy life decision

Seems like I was scammed 

Apparently this is real life

If this is what I deserve 

After all these years

Then this life is really a scam 

11.13.2023 04:43

One to Three

You are in my dream

Maybe for the first time ever

You finally agreed on talking

despite of ignoring me for so long 

It looks like it was your birthday 

Or maybe some random occasion 

You still didn’t smile

At some point I feel appreciated

#03

10.03.2023 12:50

3 Months

Despite all the sad and happy moments

The last 3 months without you,

I'm still figuring out how to go on

Wishing you show up unexpectedly

Somehow wanting to call or text

But nothing

I think this is the longest of nothing

And it's just a start

Caught myself on random days

Revisiting a memory

Most days, I'm good

Getting used to days without you again

After years of having you or not really

For now, I'll count

Maybe until this year ends

Eventually I will stop 

Without even noticing 

09.29.2023 10:28

WRU

Where are you

Do I still want to know or not

Maybe not anymore

Since the universe tells so 

Maybe I just have to accept

That you went home to Bicol

For good and you will never

Coming back in Manila 

Maybe that's the lie

I have to believe

As part of closing

This chapter

Still processing it all

Hopefully I will fully accept 

As this year

In a few weeks

Come to an end too

11.13.2023 04:41

Save Me

 

I need you to save me

Wrap your arms around me

So I will not be bothered by them

Once again claim me as yours

And never let me go

With all the preys around

I don't want to be eaten alive

I only want you

But what if you don't want to

What if you don't like to 

What if you think it is not worthy anymore

07.20.2023 12:01