Friday, March 31, 2017

Random . March 2017


Starting this month very tired from yesterday but listening to this playlist can lift me on some chill level. 

Don't trick me. You will never be prepared for the bounce back. 

Oh people, act accordingly. 

The song that plays right on cue. ❤ 

No bluff. Haha

LANY will be here this weekend but watching alone will not make sense. 

I did it. 

Another day in a month that I want to do a road trip or to travel. It feels like I'm being trapped that I just want to escape and to appreciate life again. 

When I once again question myself there will be other ways reminding me not to. 

Life and it's complications. 

Surprises are not your forte but still you manage to make one once in a while. 0305

When you both understand even you mentioned just a few words. :)

Kids fighting for a candy. 

Can't explain the feeling of seeing old hand written dates of my uncle and my dad. 

Do you have any idea how old papers and writings can bring so much feelings? 

Seeing 8 years ago notes of myself gives me so much feels and its reminding me of something. 

Knowing it now makes me want to ask questions, I know it's none of my business. 

The missing piece of myself lately was my TV series. I need to catch up on some. 

It will be here this weekend!!!!! 

I hate waking up having palpitation. I don't have any idea why. 

Things we do ... but why does it hurt sometimes. 

How to? I miss you already :( 0310 

It's here!!!!! 

HAHAHA. It's so funny! Hahaha I will definitely laugh about it for days. Hahaha. Can't imagine that a thing that was so annoying can make me laugh so hard. Hahahaha. 

Come on its not just a simple paper! Hahaha. I will not ask questions since I'm very much aware that you are not a huge fan of the word "process". 

Well I'm very much aware too that not everyone will get why I'm laughing about it. 

So much thought but I don't want to entertain it yet. Is this meaning of living in the present? 

When there are people who live another day just browse Facebook. Hahaha

One sign that telling me not to easily let it go. Confused. 

Bragging is not my thing but why does it feel that I need to brag everything I did for them to appreciate my presence. 

Haha. Hey you, I'm the killer of you illusions. 

Why there are people who are surely not going to do good in this community. 

Music is saving my confused-self at the moment. 

With this new interview with Hayley Williams, I can stare at her all day. 

Been listening to a lot of Avril and Westlife so I made a playlist with a name "Avril x Westlife". Haha.

Wtf! There's more to life for that kind of worth!

I call them friends but they don't understand. 

Time to be offline to reorganize my thoughts and hopefully be done with another blog post. 

Thinking of the next but to level up the "how" is more challenging than the "what". Hahaha but definitely not sooner. Hahaha. 0321

Yes take that as a sign for a new one. Hahaha as if. 

I love that it's raining tonight

I finished 7 episodes of Riverdale in a day. Haha I need some light series sometimes. 

When you are waiting in line and witnessing a very good-hearted person. 

Making it to reality. 

When people reminds me of the meaning of purpose

Built a minimal hatred to dreamland but mostly, I love you

Actions can't be manipulated but words can

That was a nonsense thought of yours. Hahaha

The actions of people around makes me want to brag a lot of things. Good thing that's not my thing. Let the timeline do the talking

People are actually surprised that I don't update Facebook. There's more life outside Facebook!

BURN. Hahaha. I don't have anything to do with that! Hahaha

All Time Low is coming back!!!!! Can't wait to see the boys once again <3






Tuesday, March 28, 2017

On Repeat . Here Tonight

Here Tonight by Hale 


So long to you my love
Dont be afraid to run away
I know you'll be okay
Just take your time to find


But I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here, tonight


Made up my mind on this
Too late for me to hold you back
Maybe too short or dumb
To cry for you but I will anyway


Cause I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here
tonight...Oh,oh...


Its all my fault
To feel this way for you that day
I know I am and I will
Though its wrong, so wrong


Cause I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here


I need you, I need you
I need you here inside
I need you I need you
I really, really need you here...


Sunday, March 19, 2017

On Repeat . Quit

Quit by LANY



Can you chill stop freaking out for a second
'Cause it's hard to think when you're losing your mind
And I know that you've got like 10,000 questions
And to be real I actually don't have time

'Cause we could fight all day about the future
But I don't even know where I'll be next week
Or we could hang all day forget the future
I'm here right now just be here right now with me

Quit running away you're running outta room
You and I know that's not what you wanna do
Quit running away quit running away

You've been hurt but come on nobody's perfect
And I'm tired of hearing how they did ya wrong
'Cause I'm not them you're not with them can we drop it
How good would it be if you'd just move on

'Cause we could fight all day about the future
But I don't even know where I'll be next week
Or we could dance all night forget the future
I'm here right now just be here right now with me

Quit running away you're running outta room
You and I know that's not what you wanna do
Quit running away quit running away

'Cause we could fight all day about the future
But I don't even know where I'll be next week
Or we could hang all day forget the future
I'm here right now just be here right now with me

Quit running away you're running outta room
You and I know that's not what you wanna do
Quit running away quit running away

I won't let ya quit
I won't let ya quit
I won't let ya quit on me

Friday, March 17, 2017

Exhausted.


I use to escape this town once a week or every other week to see a more crowded place but at the end of the day, I still see myself going back here. Most people are busy with their own life and here I am stuck with my own.


I'm not complaining that I'm stuck in here it's just that some people think we personally don't need to be out there. I love it here, promise but sometimes staying is exhausting. Too many times I'm telling that this wasn't the town I used to know years ago. People left and change as well as the environment. There are times that I ask myself if I'm already left behind since I decided to stay or maybe advanced since I have experiences from a few different places. Or maybe I made wrong life decision other than staying since people my age are constantly upgrading their lives.


The last few weeks has been tough to face because I'm questioning myself with the decisions I'm making since other people are still fucking comparing and because they judge me for who I am. I know we can't please everybody but I can't help but be hurt and isolate myself from the outside world. Shit happens and it's fucking real. Challenging as always but we gotta face it even a tub of ice cream, a slice of a cake and couple of chocolates can't do the magic they used to have to make us a little bit better.

Adulthood is really hard. Some gave up while some people are fighting to have tomorrow and for us who still have it should not take it for granted. We need to survive. I need to survive.

Some people will not understand this kind of situation because for them we should just live each day the way we should but they will never try to understand why we need to just stay in bed all day just to reorganize our thoughts and ourselves.

Time and day will always leave us since at some point these two doesn't know what rest means.

I don't even know what's missing that I can't also figure out  what is happening. One thing for sure, I need to get out of this town and I'm craving for some travel because I'm exhausted.


"Kids are super easy. Its being an adult that's hard." - Girls S06E05

Monday, March 13, 2017

On Repeat . Where The Hell Are My Friends

Where The Hell Are My Friends by LANY



Where the hell are my friends
Home alone, not again
Friday, wine, and the internet
The only love I seem to get

And I don't, and I don't, and I don't know why
I don't have anyone on a weekend night
Where the hell are my friends
Where the hell are my friends

Am I starting to hate California 
Why am I in LA
40 million in California 
No one cares if I stay

Am I starting to hate California 
Why am I in LA
40 million in California 
But, god, I'm so in love with this place

Where the hell are my friends
Out without me again
Friday, wine, and the internet
A life I wish I could forget

And I don't, and I don't, and I don't know why
I don't have anyone on a weekend night
Where the hell are my friends
Do I have any friends

Am I starting to hate California 
Why am I in LA
40 million in California 
No one cares if I stay

Am I starting to hate California 
Why am I in LA
40 million in California 
But, god, I'm so in love with this place

Am I starting to hate California 
40 million in California 

Am I starting to hate California 
Why am I in LA
40 million in California 
But, god, I'm so in love with this place

And I don't, and I don't, and I don't know why
I don't have anyone on a weekend night
Where the hell are my friends
Where the hell are my friends

Friday, March 10, 2017

On Repeat . Anything but Ordinary

Anything but Ordinary by Avril Lavigne


Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I 
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see 
that this world is a beautiful 
accident turbulent suculent 
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it 
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.