Monday, November 30, 2020

Random . November 2020

 

It’s the time of the year to see familiar faces but I guess we have to skip this year. 


If it is normal season, it’s so good to wear some Dr. Martens. 


I can’t help but swear every time I realize that another month passed. Sht. 


Every time I’m about to check out a footwear, I always end up canceling. I have no where to go even that was 35% off. / ok I gave in to just one pair. 


As much as I really want to go back to reading, I might really have no time for it as real life stresses me so much. 


Should I skip all the planning for the rest of the year? I’m stressed out. 


Why does my ex-best friend checking up on me? #dream


I don’t want to point fingers anymore but sometimes you got to dig up hard to see the root of the problem. One’s clumsiness can lead to a disaster. 


Just hanging by a thread. 


I miss playing with lipsticks. 


Sometimes, I really just don’t care anymore. 


2 done, few more to go. 


There are arguments that there will never be a winner. 


One can’t understand the other. Maybe they will never just going to see your point.


A healthy conversation turns to be a toxic for some. 


Sometimes, you just got to be selfish 


There will always be a healthy arguments but if someone take it too seriously or way too far from the point itself, it will always be the killer. 


When you stop caring for other people, will they even notice? Or they will just say that you don’t care at all, when you stopped because they don’t listen and appreciate?


A private chat will never solve that for me and a facebook thing will never be appealing to me. 


Kids needs socializing as well unfortunately due to this pandemic they are forbidden on that. Though when they had that, somehow they can also be mingling with the wrong crowd. 


Gone are the days that it will surprise us. I wish it will be back soon. Praying. 


Convincing myself that it wasn’t my fault. 


It all went wrong when they force to put the unnecessary characters. 


Typhoon. And we don’t have electricity. 


No electricity then when we decided to check socials, we were shocked 


Ondoy memories are creeping back. 


Trying my very best not to indulge on social media even I’m getting updates from the effect of the typhoon, for now, I will focus on what I need to do for this week. 


Just trying to be reminded what happened earlier. 


I was traumatized by Ondoy that I didn’t left the house for a week and seeing the same situation happened earlier, it's hitting me hard. 


This pandemic and typhoon is giving me so much anxiety. 


I don’t expect anyone to be as OC as I am but how hard it is to be a little organized


I have to decrease my screen time but everything is being updated on socials. 


Just going to catch up on my TV series. 


I can act being drunk even without being actually drunk. 


I have a very specific post that I thought of early this week but then with all the circumstances that happened I think I will not post it anymore. 


With the size of iPhone 12 mini, I hope Android will do the same after that 2 years old s10e


Still waiting for that USB-C iPhone 


Now I’m guilty that I shopped during 11.11


The past few days since the weekend, have been so terrible. I badly need to lessen my screen time starting this week. 


Will this be the time? Hopefully. #2020goal 


Self, please be reminded that there is still a pandemic 


Hoping for an opposite result but it somehow frustrate me so much thinking that I may never gonna achieve this goal ever just because of that 5%


I’m so anxious 


Got my “go signal”. I’ll take the 2 weeks for more improvement 


Today will surely feel like a Monday. #Friday 


“Eligible” is the word. 


That’s too much socials. Time to stop. 


Trying to balance things out but at the end of the day, I asked myself if I’m doing the right thing. 


Happy Fiesta, hometown. 


This is for me and not for anybody else. Call me selfish. Idk


Life can be so frustrating. 


How come we are surviving this year 


When you’re teaching other people a lesson but they are not getting the idea. 


Sometimes I still can’t understand how life works. 


Yup, I don’t use Messenger much. 


This crazy times changes everything, why expect the usual habit? You haven’t informed about the pandemic?


Sorry well not really that I’m not a fan of group chats. 


I still got a lot of questions. 


I can tell you but you will never understand. One word, pandemic. 


I hate the idea of the vision in my head. 


When you wanted to start a new or revamp things up but the pandemic happened. Is it still an acceptable reason these days? I guess, people are really not fan of long process. 


How come i missed that pink sky. 


How can we go through this. Help me not to give up. 


I know it's also my problem but I don’t want to drown myself to that because I learned. For the sake of my own mental health, I chose not to. 


There are few reason why I bake. 


Sometimes, you got to do it by yourself 'coz no one will do it for you. 


Maybe I want to be back in Boracay once again just for a beautiful sunset. 

Tuesday, November 17, 2020

On Repeat . Honesty

 Honesty by Halsey 



I had a vision and I watched it come alive
And now I'm wishin' that I had a bit more time
I have been achin' in my bones at night
Conversations with my bloodshot eyes
Hard to focus when the pressure makes you blind

All I wanted was to make some art, talk some shit
Didn't really care about getting rich
Now they make this hard
Tryna make me quit
Maybe for the thrill of it

Baby, hold me
Looking for a little bit of honesty
Take me, slowly
Give me just a little, baby, promise me
There's a hollow in my chest
And you can take whatever's left
Baby, maybe
You could give me just a little bit of honesty

I've been sleeping in a bed too big for me
Can't remember what's like to get some sleep
I've fallin' victim to a homesick life
Got a cravin' that I just can't buy
God, I wonder if I'll ever make it right

All I wanted was to make some art, talk some shit
Didn't really care about getting rich
Now they make this hard
Tryna make me quit
Maybe for the thrill of it

Baby, hold me
Looking for a little bit of honesty
Take me, slowly
Give me just a little, baby, promise me
There's a hollow in my chest
And you can take whatever's left
Baby, maybe
You could give me just a little bit of honesty

Give me now, give me now
Give me now, honesty now
Give me now, give me now
Give me now, honesty now
Give me now, give me now
Give me now, honesty now
Give me now, give me now
Give me now, honesty

Baby, hold me
Looking for a little bit of honesty
Take me, slowly
Give me just a little, baby, promise me
There's a hollow in my chest
And you can take whatever's left
Baby, maybe
You could give me just a little bit of honesty

Give me a just a little bit of honesty



Thursday, November 05, 2020

On Repeat . Be Kind

 Be Kind by Marshmello and Halsey



Wanna believe, wanna believe
That you don't have a bad bone in your body
But the bruises on your ego make you go wild, wild, wild, yeah
Wanna believe, wanna believe
That even when you're stone cold, you're sorry
Tell me why you gotta be so out of your mind, yeah
I know you're chokin' on your fears
Already told you I'm right here
I will stay by your side every night
I don't know why you hide from the one
And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
I know you need, I know you need
The upper hand even when we aren't fighting
'Cause in the past, you had to prepare every time, yeah
Don't wanna leave, don't wanna leave
But if you're gonna fight then do it for me
I know you're built to love, but broken now, so just try, yeah
I know you're chokin' on your fears
Already told you, I'm right here
I will stay by your side every night
I don't know why you hide from the one
And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
I know it's hard for you, but it's not fair
Going sick in the head tryna get you there
And I know it's hard for you, but it's not fair
It's not fair
I don't know why you hide from the one
And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
Ah
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah



Tuesday, November 03, 2020

On Repeat . Halsey x Magnum

I can't find the whole one video of her performance but here are her performance individually which I hope will still play in the future. 


This is a total eargasm.

Hope she do more like this. 


Here's the setlist: 

  • Bad at Love.
  • Without Me.
  • Finally // Beautiful Stranger.
  • Graveyard.
  • Alanis' Interlude.
  • Be Kind.
  • Strangers.