On Repeat . Full Frontal

One night I finally decided to start listening to a podcast that was been on my library for some time now, its the Full Frontal with Alex Gaskarth and Jack Barakat of All Time Low. I thought it will be a boring radio/internet thing but I was wrong and I regret on not listening to it last year. They even recorded S02E01 here in Manila, some episodes in Australia and the early episodes in Germany, London, etc.

I just love how can they talk just being themselves not like most dj's on the radio. Though they recorded the episode earlier than the stream they still make the most of it. I love the feeling that it feels like we are hanging out talking about anything though they're just the one who are talking and I'm just doing side comments.

The laugh of Jack and Alex are too much to handle! Hahaha.

I love their different segments, I appreciate their comments on every news and fun facts that I'm laughing too hard! like the horse who climbed on the roof! Hahaha insane!!!! I wish I have guys like them around.

Season 2 Episode 8 is up next for me and I know I'm down with that and the Christmas special and I'm just gonna say that I'm going to miss them. But wait there's more! Just yesterday, I read that there will be a season 3 and it will air next week! I'm not gonna be able to listen live but at least I'm not gonna be a year late. :))

"I just have the fact sheet and not the answer sheet" - Alex Gaskarth | Full Frontal S02E05 

Paramore x Charlavail

January 24, 2014

With all cheesiness and only the truth, don't judge.

In 2013, I tried to get my 3rd tattoo before hitting the 1 year mark of my 2nd tattoo unfortunately, it didn't happened. There are 2 (a and b) concept that I really like and I can't make up my mind which to get first until I make a condition to myself that if I don't have a boyfriend on my birthday then I'll get the A but if I have then I'll get the B.

I recently let go of my first ever Dr. Martens and I promised to myself that it will be my budget on getting my 3rd tattoo because I just don't want to put the memory of that docs to something I can't keep and I'm itching for new tattoo.

Even before getting my first tattoo, I already heard of Paulo a tattoo artist who lives in this town. I added him on Facebook but still, I get my first on P&P in Eastwood. He recently got sick but he is now recovering and he's already at home. His girlfriend, using his account on Facebook posted that she is willing to tattoo with a size of 3-4 inches and at the same time its your help to Paulo for his medication/s or anything they need and I asked her details and we arrange my appointment.

Good thing Nikka was free so she can be my company for the 3rd time. :)

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Charlavail once put this font that she made on her Tumblr and since I want this tattoo to have more meaning I decided that it will be the font that I'll use and she's so creative that she have this awesome ideas and inspire a lot of people. Charlavail is a friend and also a look-a-like Hayley and since I wanted a 'Paramore tattoo' I tried to figure out for so long on what will be the first out of 4 albums, some covers and even some line that they said on interviews. Out of nowhere, I can't remember when it hit me that the lyrics I want is from the song 'Hate to See Your Heartbreak' from the 4th album. (And I'm also planning to get a 'Last Hope' related tattoo, I just need to figure it out on where to put it.)

The line that I really wanted is, 'Love, happens all the time to people who aren't kind and heroes who are blind' but I decided that I'll just get the 5 words that are important because its not just about the people who aren't kind and blind but love really does happen all the time.

I doubted love sometimes because I don't believe in it, that it doesn't exist but then, at some point last year Hate To See Your Heartbreak, some books, songs, people I looked up to and interacting to people changed that. Though sometimes, I still put it on doubt hopefully, having this tattoo will make me believe it more and more each day.

This new tattoo means a lot now since I was able to help Paulo, Charlavail made the font and the heart was from the logo of her beanies, its a line from a Paramore song and I think since my first tattoo means 'I let my heart go its somewhere down at the bottom' from Monster followed by 'but I'll get a new one come back from the hope that you've stolen', the money from my Dr. Martens, a reminder for myself and for others who will read it that love really does happen all the time.

I put it on my back (upper right side) because when I stand sideways, I can see the heart on my inner ankle as well as the heart on this tattoo and it feels like I really got a new heart and it gives justice to the Monster lyrics.

fan girl ...... *_*

It healed in a week  and maybe I'll get a new tattoo in weeks the B this time. I don't reveal it yet but it has a connection to this and no, not the 'Last Hope' tattoo yet.

If you want to get inked and want to help Paulo, please comment to this post with your email so I can help you to contact Igin his girlfriend who did this. 

Thank you Igin for this and please do my 4th and so tattoos. Be strong Paulo! :)

something hidden and holds too much meaning (as always).

"Love happens all the time" - Hate To See Your Heartbreak | Paramore

Book . Nothing Left To Lose

Nothing Left To Lose by Kristy Moseley

O.M.G. I love this book, it hurts that I'm missing Ashton and Annabelle as my company every night. :(

How many times I imagine that the book I read will be a movie but the scenes are better by your own imagination on how you play scenes on your head and creating the character itself.

I just need to mention this: when I first read the name Ashton Taylor, I couldn't help it but think of Brandon Taylor from Taking Chances! Ever since I think of them as cousins. :D

Everything was very detailed, and I think I hate that the main character become my buddies at night then the action happened and here comes 'The Epilogue'. Epilogues are such a cookie cutter.

I do watch crime series and one of my favorite will be 'undercover' assignments. In this book, I had a hard time creating Ashton in my head but when he called Annabelle 'Baby Girl' duuude! That's Derek Morgan (Criminal Minds)!!! But then there are scenes that Ashton may also be Tony DiNozzo (NCIS) on how he was so sweet and Seeley Booth (Bones) on how hot he hold up a gun and he's so protective. Same to Carter but since I just think of someone who I really hate on those series, I think he can be Pelant from Bones being so possessive and powerful.

I'll be on a book hiatus again for so long just so I can get over with this and I don't know how long it will be. I'm slowly, recovering.

I hate that those book are so good that we don't want to return to reality.

I'll give this book 5 stars. I love it.

"Don't assume the worst all the time" - Nothing Left To Lose | Kristy Moseley

        

Driving Diary 101

0200 11.22.13 - I'm pretty nervous and excited for the 0900 lecture before actual driving. So YAY! I'll be documenting my 5 days experience with driving school.

There are reasons why I want to learn how to drive and I may not have my own car but I somehow hate it when I'm depending on our driver if I have to go to a certain place to meet friends or watch a basketball game or a concert. It doesn't mean I don't want to take public transportation anymore as far as I enjoy it, I don't want to be useless when there's only one person who can drive when he/she also need some rest for an 8 or so hours of driving. And I love the fact that I can also call a driver to take me around or when all you need to do is go down the car and enter the mall without thinking on where to park or whatever. And if there will be some emergency hangout or what somewhere, I don't need to wait for the driver. That's my reason or maybe a few from the whole box but I'm pretty stoked for it. Hopefully a 2 hours for 4 days will be the best. Day 1 of actual driving will be on the 26th.

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1200 11.22.13 - I'm sitting here at BonChon in Metro East. The orientation was good. And my order just arrived.

And I'm pretty hungry right now. I just ate 2 bread earlier before I left the house. So going back to the orientation, I wasn't late, the instructor was cool beans and his name just remind me of Gem instantly and the very first Ping I know. (Hi Ping!) Haha. I'm just going to pick up my Tegan and Sara ticket for Monday then I'll go home but maybe I can roam around for a while.

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0141 . 112713 - My day 1 of actual driving is done well, technically it covers 2 days already since I enrolled to 2 hours per day for 8 hours. I'll be finishing by Friday. Dang I got "more practice" grade and remarks. That's what I get when I studied the hardest (manual because automatic is easy) naks. Haha but my muscles are buzzed! Hopefully later will be a good one and I hope I remember what Sir Mark taught me. Hahaha! Nervous but excited so let's do the rest 3 days kicking and they also masters of patience so I know they don't have the right to get angry. Haha! I need some one-on-one with the clutch and I need to put my multi-tasking skills on my foot work and hands while driving. I can do this. See y'all around.

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0137 . 112813 - Whew! I survived parking and maneuvering but I got 'more practice' grade. Haha (its not that I'm laughing out loud but I find it funny ok). There are only 2 hours for it what more if I only have an hour I don't think I can be better that fast and I'm not practicing in an actual mode when I got home (I have stuff to do too!). So far this week I can't see a free day for me but I'll find a way and I'll ask our driver to tag along hopefully next week. I don't want this learning process go to waste but I'll be grateful if I'll drive an automatic longer than manual! Haha! But I'm thankful that even I have a love and hate relationship with the pedals most especially the clutch, I'm learning the techniques that I need to know with parking, turning, and most especially learning the manual transmission. Later will be my 3rd day, hopefully I'll improve with my foot work (aaaarrrrggghhh!). Night! :* 

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0054 11.29.13 - What the! We just went to a place where it is perfect to capture a perfect sunset! I love that place now. (Thanks Sir Mark!) Haha. I'll be forever  a huge fan of sunset and the sky itself. We studied, hanging and defensive driving and if I'm going to grade my self it will be 'Not Bad!'. Hahaha! Bias! I know the huge world of the word "process" and "practice" so I'm not a bummer who will be defeated when I get a 'more practice' grade. Tomorrow will be my last day, hopefully it will be Sir Mark (please!!!!) because, I don't want to adjust on my last day using another car! Huhuhu.  

Busy day ahead. Night :*

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0148 11.30.13 - My last day was yesterday! We went to C6 (no big deal) hahaha! Because we were talking about the road the other day and I mentioned C6 (I think I know different ways just to get where you want because of our drivers! and of course seating in front is a bonus and I think he was curious about C6. HAHAHA) and when we were leaving the town he said we will go to C6! Haha. If I got all the afternoon time we'll probably went to Tagaytay (my favorite place and Sir Mark suggested that! Hahaha). I'm also thankful that Sir Mark was my instructor for my last day. Good thing I didn't had a different instructor and a car to handle. I still got 'more practice' grade but I know I improved but I also agree with that grade. Haha. But I will practice my parking and other stuff so I'll know it perfectly.

Thank you Sir Mark!!!

No regrets on learning the manual and I'm not hating it now. Hehe.

Next step license. 

I'll treasure this experience and thank you to my grandma for changing her mind.

I'll miss driving around in the morning .......

See you around. :*  

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1045 01.08.14 - I've been here in LTO for 2 hours now and its a little terrifying waiting for your name to be called. I just had my picture and now another waiting game. Probably, one or so hours to go but its okay this day is really allotted for this.

While waiting, the best thing to do is observe the other people who you don't usually interact with. I don't know if I can finish like before 2pm so I can still go to my dentist or else I'll do that tomorrow.

Its been a while since I observe people. Its a little refreshing and terrifying because I still have this fear of people staring and silently judging but I'm over coming that (baby steps). I drove last night roaming around our village and hopefully later again.

Driving is fun but as to what I learn during my seminars, you should be aware and be careful from the people around you because it doesn't matter if you are a good driver there are a lot of reckless drivers in this place who never learn from the different news on tv or on papers.

Geez the waiting game in here is insane.

After this I'll get my refund and my savings will be good again or not. Hehe

I don't want to be cut during lunch break..... But looks like I'm going to be cut by lunch time.  

Its lunch time and we're waiting for the written exam room to be cleared. I hope they will not cut it anytime soon. I'm starving and I'm the only girl in here.  

So when I was about to take the written exam, there we're so many boys and as I'm being friendly/good person, I told the guy who was seated to my right that we need to write our names on the 2 attendance sheet and he wasn't listening he even ask the instructor again and he wasn't even a gentleman to pass the other sheet on me instead he passed it in front when he was aware that I haven't write on the 2nd attendance. What a douche bag. I'll admit, the day before I get my license I check the reviewer posted online and everything I read was in there and well, I took up the defensive seminar as the last part of the driving school requirement and we reviewed there and I still remember what was discussed. I think we were 20 in the room and he was called maybe on the first 10 and I was called 2nd or 3rd to the last and when we were answering the exam I'm proud to say that I know my answers are correct and I finished first between me and the douche bag and I can say by the way he was acting that he was having a hard time with it and I'm proud to say that he was trying to look at my paper. Don't mess with a psych graduate who watch crime series and applies what she learned from it. Hahaha ;)

And yes, I got my license.

Now what to drive?

"Good ideas are hard to let go" Not That Kind of Girl | Siobhan Vivian

Missing This Place

I really miss this place so bad. I got so many memories here but at the same time, I think I took this place for granted.

0930 of 01.12.13

My cousin and sister are taking the entrance exam here in FEU and I wish they pass just like Alaine. It wasn't plan to be with me it was supposed to be my mom to go with them but they like me to go with them so... (Again, just like Alaine) haha. No regrets, I love this place, I miss this place and I wish I can still be here everyday. Before, all of our problems are just quizzes, exam, thesis, projects, etc. now? My gosh, our problem is money to survive a day.

Working here is a nice choice or to do masteral but I'm sure I'll take this place for granted again.

I studied here for 5 years. I experience good/bad weather, I was here when Ondoy hit Manila, I was here until 19:30 because of my last subject and sometimes until 22:00 because of a concert every foundation week, I was here early in the morning attending my English class then after a few days that section was dissolve because MassCom students are more of a night person than a morning one, I used to be alone in the quadrangle because I don't know who are my classmates in PE. We used to go the the 8th floor via stairs or lined up on the elevator because we're tired. I was here when my (ex)best friend texted me with some news, I used to live in the library when I was 3rd year because I have a 3 hours break. I met some of amazing people here, some of them changed, some of them are no-where to be found, some of them have families now, luckily, some of them are still my friends but mostly, I miss them. I miss the time we spend here. I miss those memories.

I think I'm still lucky to experience being an irregular student, I was in a class full of PolSci, MassCom, English, Math majors. I learn a lot on those classrooms, met some awesome professors. Heard different stories from different professors mostly some stories that was untold while some are words that we need to hear just to realize we are not below than the other students from different universities who usually downgrade us where in reality we really don't care about them. This place is a paradise in the middle of Morayta. Love this place so much it hurts that I don't see this place regularly anymore.    

Just imagine 5 years, that's too long, so many memories (good and bad).

We'll be leaving in a couple of minutes and I'll miss this so much but the memories and this place will be treasured forever.

ps. Obviously, we still support FEU in the UAAP. Hahaha! Can't wait for the the basketball season. :)) and I was just here last Friday for my TOR and Diploma after nearly 3 years.   

I'm such a tourist. HAHA

you can check the photos that I took that day here.

"We'll treasure within our hearts the FEU" - FEU Hymn