Random . July 2017

Hi July. How come this year is a bit faster. 

A part of me is sad about this Hayley and Chad. :(

Oh you didn't do anything wrong, I just don't like pa-cute people. Lol 

How busy we all are, always find a way or make a day for rest. We might not need it but our body needs it. 

Don't forget to take photos to boost your online status sht.

There's only 10% of reality on every post you make. 

Yeah. Just take all the credit to feed your self-esteem.

Come on all your plans are shit. I don't want to entertain it. 

Why not invite more people for more witness? Oh yeah so you can get all the credit. 

Man, you can't hide. You're not good at it since you love attention. Lol 

When ideas are coming at the middle of the night. 

While doing this project, it help me to be motivated to do our LA Union trip video. It's been a month and few weeks and it just hit me. 

Time to make them amazed to all of your story. Make them believe on everything. They may buy it but don't fool yourself, we all know the truth. 

I guess it was a success. 

Why am I feeling I'm the youngest. Maybe I am? 

Editing photos for my Tumblr. 

If only it's easy to spill it all out. If we do spill it all out what will you do? Judge, obviously you will not care on the why's and you will never get my reasons. 

It's not that I'm protecting the reputation it's that we got to save someone from your judgement. 

Tumblr is good until December maybe. Yes! Haha. 

Can't wait to hangout with the bebe gurl this weekend! 

Appreciating the down time. 

Stay there. 

Just being on our normal hyper night. 0712 

That is included since everything matters. 

Sometimes we just got to protect ourselves and the closest from the judgemental world. 

Low profile. Lol. 

Done for the week. 

How I've missed Lhea. :)

Jeeptrip past midnight is one of my favorite. 

I realized that I need at least once a month mall trip with or without anyone. Need some outside inspiration to write. 

Good thing I don't witness it. 

I asked you. 

Come on. Don't make bullshit reason when I know it's not that valid. 

If I could just do it. Haaay. #mantra 

What a timing. F #mantra 

Got my extra phone back. Yay. 

I just feel like crying for this insecurity hitting at 2am.

Thinking of letting go of my social media account as well as to some people but then this song came up. #TheBreakup 

Trying to impress me by talking about my band? Don't go there. 

Oh F. 

Oh yeah even if you found me online, you will never know everything. 

Hunting for that platform. The hype is f real. Hahaha 

Hey home court. Hi. Bye. 

Impromptu meet up for the nth time. Thank you for understanding and influencing me the hype. Lol. 

Amazing race just for the platform. Worth it. 

Heartbreaking to know another musician ended his life. It's just so sad that we can't save the people who literally save and help us to go through our own. I've been thinking about this all day. :( #RIPChesterBennington

Some people just don't know how to play the game. 

So good to have a natural laugh because of a movie. #KitaKita 

I already plan to go home but it started to rain. Maybe the universe is telling me to stay away for a little more time from hometown since I'll be stuck in there maybe until end of the month. No complain I love being in home court. 

Haaaaaay #mantra. 

Opportunistic. 

Some people just really don't think. 

Hehe. OA mo kasi. 

Oooppsss. Zipping my mouth shut. 

Everything is really f in this country.

Ranting online should be controlled. Seriously. Collect your shit. 

Do yourself a favor and stop stalking people as your past time. 

When I'm not in earphones, I eavesdrop a lot. Lol

Why people always look for someone who's not in front of them? 

Linkin Park is my jam ever since the news about Chester and it's somehow becoming a cure of heartache. 

When you know you don't have patience in your body don't volunteer. 

Some people don't really appreciate things? They are literally ate by hatred.

Of course it should be self first than others. Man you don't fit in there. Smh

Why do I expect you to understand? I don't even have to explain. Just deal with it if I say I can't. 

When on my dream, you're still the one missing on movie night at home court. 

You think you know everything but what if it's all lie since you don't experience it first-hand, it's just all hearsay. 

I've been out for the last 2 weekend, why am I being angry not being out there today. 

Mind is tricky most of the time. 

I stop midway so I can give way to emotions. I miss you, daddy. :( 

I love that CSI Cyber is on re-run on AXN.

I think its time to catch up on NCIS 

Whoa. It shouldn't be broadcasted!

Some people don't really know how to handle specific situations.

Again, I'm thankful for my TV series. 

Overheard

I was in line and two persons in front of me the guy was watching PBA on his phone..

Guy: hindi na yata 'to kumakain puro basketball laman ng utak

Girl: Sino?

Guy: Si Nash Racela.

Me: 😂😂😂😂😂

I badly want to laugh out loud that time but I was alone so I just looked down and smile and let out a small laugh.. hahaha

COACH NASH!!!!

On Repeat . One More Light

One More Light by Linkin Park

Should've stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can't keep

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out
If a moment is all we are
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out
Well I do

The reminders, pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need, oh
And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair
Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out
If a moment is all we are
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out
Well I do

Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out
If a moment is all we are
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out
Well I do
Well I do

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— LINKIN PARK (@linkinpark) July 20, 2017

Chester Bennington (March 20, 1976 - July 20, 2017) 

On Repeat . LANY

LANY by LANY

It's obviously very hard to beat the fame that brought by one song and I somehow expected more from them that I know I shouldn't at the first place. I mean they are new and knowing a bunch of bands and artists who had been there and done that, you somehow get an idea. 

Lyrically most of it was sad though there's like a positive stanza, one line or it's hidden on every song. I think Dumb Stuff and ILYSB are the only whole song that's positive and personally if I were them, I will not release ILYSB again. I mean it was on their Make Out EP and it's an opportunity for new listeners to dig up their previous EP which are good too. 

Don't get me wrong but I still listen to this a lot I wonder if it's because of the rhythm and arrangements. But as days go by it slowly growing in me! Haha. Some intro are familiar too but I swear when I used a headphone for this album I was like "wow" (jaw drop). insanely good. 

I know there will always be a reason on why such things are written and the meaning behind might be said on interviews or not. Whether we discover the real reason or not, the way we can relate to songs or just music in general is always the game changer.

I even want to skip ILYSB when this album is on shuffle but the stripped version will always be the winner. So I guess you still have reason to dig up for the previous EP. 

I watched a recent live performance of The Breakup and I'm not happy with it. :|

Dumb Stuff is my favorite since it's so us, even he hates rain and the sound effects just make it a lot better. :)

M also said that this album will be so good on a road trip while you're just at the backseat going to the beach or should I say just being at the beach. 

My favorite line from this album might be one of positive line on each song or I just can relate to it or I just like it. 

Dumb Stuff - The way stay up late and talk about dumb stuff

The Breakup - It's never the same love, yeah, after the breakup

Super Far - Waking up to nothing when you're super far from home

Overtime - This can't be the end / If it ends like this, you win

Flowers On The Floor - Cheap excuse, no time

Parents - Jake's mom is so cute! 

ILYSB - Oh my heart hurt so good / I love you, babe

13 - Where did we go wrong?

Hericane - I love you still, I always will

Hurts - But now that you're mine / The more I love, the more it hurts

Good Girls - Baby, come back / I know my way around your heart

Pancakes - Pick up the phone I swear to God I miss you

Tampa - I can do better than this

Purple Teeth - But I sleep in my clothes cause I'm too scared of us 

So, Soo Pretty - ♥ 

It Was Love - It was love I know you know that

They are probably new but it's worth listening and according to live videos on YouTube, they are good live too and I think I can personally judge that if I will push through on seeing them here first week of August. 

(until this is not published, my thoughts about this album is always changing most especially when I'm listening to it. I edited this a couple of times now and I think I will always change my point of view to this album. Maybe because I love the misery behind all the words.)

Oh my god, I think I'm in love
The way we stay up late and talk about dumb stuff

Bragging. Life . Social Media

photo from google

We are going to talk about social media? Again? Yes, even I'm so exhausted on how it affect our daily lives. 

Don't talk like an expert if all you know is Facebook. I can talk anything about social media all day. I'm not an expert to it but I know, so don't talk like you know everything about it. Social media is not just Facebook and I'm happy that I'm improving on how less I'm using it for the past month. I hangout on Twitter and Instagram mostly. 

People are still using Facebook as a main source of gossip even assume more than what was the true meaning of the post. 

If you posted something remember that there will always a reason on why you post it. It can be just for your own pleasure, you bragging whatever it is, posting something that will caught attention because you want to be noticed, you post it because you see someone posting constantly and you want to join the bandwagon, you want people to know or be aware of your greatest hits.

You can't reason out to me that it's just nothing. Come on, I'm not a total idiot to believe you. Even just sharing a post, there will always a reason whether it's just sharing a funny video, a news or a diy video. 

We are all free to share and to say opinions about certain post but please act accordingly. Respect whatever it was posted by someone. If you don't like what you see just continue scrolling or better hide it so you will not see it on your timeline again. Don't use it as a source of your fucking gossip when all you can see is the post and not the real deal. Well sometimes it's a good source of conversation but when it's serious stuff please just don't. Don't post something related to a previous post that you just seen and talking shit on your own comment section, post it somewhere else. Be a grown-up individual and maybe ask personally by sending a private message on why this and that. Do you have any idea on how your personality reflect on whatever you post? 

Some of us just talk on comment section where every single people on your friends list can read it too. You guys look so stupid by posting and just continuing the stupidity by talking on the comment section. Again, it's a reflection of your own and not whatever you are tackling (at least for people who are open minded and for people who are so good that they connect the dots). Geez. Grow up. Oh wait your are a totally grown-up individual. Nice to know you, btw. 

Too bad for people who just want to share an achievement or just want to share a personal realization in life.

Posting something about self is okay but dang if you post because you just want to brag something or just wanted to let the world know about your doing, it's a whole different story. Taking all the credit where you will be praised, obviously but that's just social media. People who know the real deal will not believe everything in it. People still interact with each other we are not living behind cellphones and computers, even without posting people know which is the truth and the lie. 

You can't just rant online and not do anything to change it. Not doing something about it is just adding something on your negativity. If it's just a simple one then for sure you can do something about it but if you can't then that's something else. Just continue ranting for sure it will also make a difference on your side. Geez. 

Also are you aware of the manners of everyone in social media? As well as the language? No? Uh-huh don't ever try to be an "expert" again. 

Manners and Language 

It's probably not a big deal but if people are starting to judge by your post on social media, manners and language are big deal. 

There are keyboard warriors, trolls and just people who just bash anyone most especially a public personality or maybe your neighbors and worst some relative. 

Most people always misinterpret a single post anywhere. If you don't get what was he/she was saying then just don't comment, if you don't get the humor behind it then probably it's not for you, don't waste your time. Mostly people are the opposite they will say more shit even they don't get your point and the humor behind it. Why not just continue scrolling so you will not be able to waste time too? Let save each other and mostly yourself from the worst. 

The language too is very different nowadays. Before there's just "brb" "gtg" now there's a lot that sometimes even me can't get it anymore so I have to search about it but abbreviation is not just the language that I'm talking about. 

The way we do caption and mostly just the humor or any playful words we use. I'm not saying it's wrong it's fun actually because when we post most especially on our own page, we don't f care on whatever they will say whether they get the humor or the sarcasm. The worst is when they misinterpret that and they start to judge you when at the first place they don't get the point.  

Maybe there are 2, 3, 4 or so kind of people on social media and it is always different from one another. Whatever I'm trying to say in here doesn't fit to everyone. 

We don't need to react or like everything that we see on our timeline. Save yourself from stupidity but if you got lots of time in your hands that you will not care if it still morning or night, then do yourself a favor and investigate more by asking privately why this and that. Never ever jump into conclusion. I think we all learned that from science experiments. 

photo from google

We can say that I don't f care on what your post, comment or your violent reaction but please consider the people who will be reading it with the same size of your brain or maybe way smaller than yours. Let's lessen the fake news that's been on our feeds everyday. It's not about hiding or not speaking for the truth, it's more on how you will respect other people and yourself too. People who knows the truth will not always waste time being a defender to people who are close minded instead they will do little things for it to be improved or at least give help if it's needed. 

Think before you click, always.

Yes / No

If you are caught in the middle what is the best thing to do? 

Did I made the right decision? May not maybe yes but I followed my gut this time. I know its crazy that I followed my gut but some people can’t just understand how I see things or situation. Sometimes we all need an outsider to see it differently. Mostly because its for a lot of people and not for self interest. Sorry but I’m really not anyways.

After La Union trip its been exhausting once again. I badly want to escape hometown again even its not been a month after that trip. Our Airbnb got a very nice view there was a glass wall with the ocean as the view. I once again shut off everything by just staring at it anytime of the day. I love the ocean, always and as much as I love it I don’t want to ruin my excitement about being in the beach if I got easy access to it. I don’t want to take it for granted.

I was pretty amazed that I can shut off things when just staring at the ocean, the clouds and the sunset. I seriously want to go back to the beach, soon but I’m all aware that escaping is not the answer. I just wish I can sometimes do some random drive away just to have a regular-mini-escape since I’m already running out of outlet. I want to do it for sometime now but I can’t do it so just have to deal with what I can. 

Home wasn’t feel home too sometimes but at least I still have my room as my daily escape hopefully it will always stay like that.

Escaping is not the answer but I wish I can travel more than just the “once in while”. 

Just today, the yearly crave of new ink hit me and I can’t wait to have a new tattoo this year even I don’t have any idea on what to put first from my top 3. 

I’m also torn if I should stress eat again or not but somehow I’m unconsciously doing it.

I was also so close on having a quick trip to my home court earlier but I’m still on a very tight budgeting so I just decided to stay home and do a a movie marathon. I don’t even have someone to hang out with in there and I don’t know where to stay until morning.

It was the usual busy week and I can feel I’m being too fragile again this weekend but it was a different demon this time. I still try to fight this demons in my head since at some point I know where they're all coming from and then I just feel the unfair side of this life but then I have to change my mind set after.

At the end of the day, I’m still thankful for having an open mind maybe not with everything but as far as my life experience is concern. Taking risk sometimes even I don’t have any idea if it is worth it.

I don’t want to hate reality much as well disappear from my own responsibilities but all I want is just for people to act according to the right thing and I hate complicated things when we can all do uncomplicated once. Seriously, why does it have to be complicated.

Mike Franks once again remind me to “Admit that there are good reasons why you did the things you did”. #NCIS

Also thankful for music and of course my happy pill. 

This post is so random that I typed a month or so but I still want to put it in here for some unknown reason of my inner self. Well, this is me having random thought on a weekend night. 

On Repeat . hopeless fountain kingdom

hopeless fountain kingdom by Halsey

To be honest, its hard to listen to another new album when you can't stop listening to your favorites. After Laughter has been my jam since it was released but good thing I found a way to listen to this and I was slightly moved from AL. I love Halsey and during the talks when this album was released I can't totally relate to whatever the fuss about hfk. 

I re-watched her interview with Beats1 and there I somehow understand and I was amazed on how her brain works. I'm not a huge fan of literature and maybe I didn't pay too much attention to it but this album makes me want to dig more, that's why I can't stop listening to it. She do tweet a lot about the album and even I can't still follow on some, I can get it now. Ahhhh.. I just want to listen to her explaining this album for the whole day. 

I do understand writers hiding some real messages on songs or on any writing or art form but the way Halsey did in here fascinates me so much. Can we be friends in real life? Someone who got a whole universe in her head and looking into life openly with everything.

I can't personally relate to her songs on this album but all of the hidden messages are making me to love it all maybe at some point I do relate to it.

I wasn't able to make a list of my favorite lines from each song but if you love Halsey so much you really can't choose a favorite most especially from hfk. Not to mention the sounds and her voice!!!! 

I put the interview and the album below and I don't know what to recommend to listen to the songs first or watch the interview. Maybe interview first then songs then interview again. hahaha. Either way, enjoy :) 

Cause you know the truth hurts

Secret kills

Can't help thinking that I love it still

Still here, there must be something real 

On Repeat . Everywhere

Everywhere by Paramore (Fleetwood Mac cover)

Can you hear me calling

Out your name?

You know that I'm falling

And I don't know what to say

I'll speak a little louder

I'll even shout

You know that I'm proud

And I can't get the words out

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

(Wanna be with you everywhere)

Something's happening

Happening to me

My friends say I'm acting peculiarly

C'mon baby

We better make a start

You better make it soon

Before you break my heart

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

(Wanna be with you everywhere)

Can you hear me calling

Out your name?

You know that I'm falling

And I don't know what to say

Come along baby

We better make a start

You better make it soon

Before you break my heart

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

(Wanna be with you everywhere)