On Repeat . Joy Next Door

Book . The Confidence Blueprint

 

Such a good read.

I’ve been a fan of Maggie Wilson since forever but also I have a different approach when I said “fan”. I’m not the usual fan that goes crazy when I see someone I admire from afar. 

We might be born on the same year but her life is far from mine. She was quiet for a while and I’m happy that she’s breaking her silence starting on some social media posts and now this book. 

An easy read since it’s also PDF file but somehow I always have a hard time reading PDF on my kindle. I knew I will still finish it soon enough though I started this while I was still reading another book so it took me a while. Then I read 40% in one sitting but I had to put it away for a few days. 

The issues on this book hurts so much as a woman in this country. Luckily I’m not married but you don’t need to be married or even have a son or daughter to not feel how unfair our laws are. I remember getting teared up on some parts of the book. How unfair the justice system to everyone. How money and power can work and somehow just be almost inhumane. 

She can’t even communicate with his son for years and how long it will be before they see each other again? How inconsiderate is that? Yes it’s sad but also it will make you angry. Angry how this is our government and our laws. 

Sad reality 

It’s worth reading even you don’t know her. Can’t wait for the 2nd book. 

Gave this book 5 stars on goodreads.

“You are never starting from zero. You are starting from wisdom”

The Confidence Blueprint - Maggie Wilson

Book . What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

I enjoyed this book and even I’m not sure how Haruki Murakami on his fictional books. I chose this book randomly as I always do unless I want to read something specific. Not even sure if I’ll choose this as my first Murakami book but I’m glad I read this probably on the right time because it distracted me from my over thinker self. 

Although I read this at night I honestly wanted to run. Lol unfortunately we don’t have nice pedestrian or a good sidewalk.  

I’m open to read other works by Murakami  but as of the moment I don’t want to repeat an author as my back-to-back read. I just want to read books from different authors this year for a change.

As much as I wanted to run or even just walk there are certain conditions to consider like a nice pedestrian, a field or even an uphill that’s safe. Without those, I really consider buying a walking pad but still that’s different and I’m not sure if I’ll be going to maximize it. 

Anyway, gave this book 4 stars on goodreads 

“As long as I continue to live I’ll always discover something new about myself” 

What I Talk About When I Talk About Running - Haruki Murakami

Crystal Clear

You fucking give me so much sign

That I don’t know what it means

One thing I’m sure

You are clearly reminding me

That you are thinking about me too 

I get that crystal clear

You owe me

Much explanation

For once give me a little longer

We both know that I deserve it

You can do it even in a single day 

But please make it much clearer

I’m already tired of the guessing game

09.21.2024 19:21 

Dark

 

You were my escape

You were the reason

For the smile

For the contentment

For the happiness

For almost positivity

In this lifetime

But then I lost you

In a snap

And everything 

Became dark 

Again

08.15.2024 04:54

Random . March 2026

 

“it makes a difference if someone cares” - 911 S09E01

I just want to talk to you. #72 03.01.2026 02:57

What a way for March 1st. Home invasion mid 3AM. Fuck. Good thing I’m home unless I lost some gadgets

Oh shit.

The world is crazy at the moment

Being reminded about time once again

So paranoid knowing you’re being watched from the front but I never knew about fear knowing someone is watching you from behind.

We won today! yay

Why do we need to be uncomfortable on our own home. :(

Hello insomnia 

Paranoid

will always be my fathers daughter

still disoriented.

Once again heartbroken.

Empty

Oh well. Gotta move

How many “I miss you” do I need to type before I don’t feel missing you #72

It dig way deeper than just what you thought was the only cause

A day later and I’m hesitating to do it. #72

Perfect time to read a memoir. Will I finish this early than end of the month?

Can’t stop thinking of how it will turn out. Ugh #72

Fucking Monday

one major thing down, spilling the tea later. lol

The tea is spilled and I’m not holding back.  Lets do this. 03.10.2026

just realized that I still have some time to kill before sending these

I hate how your photo made it to our chats. Lol #72

*** you are so hard to navigate from afar. Lol also as if I’ll be joining a gym to look for one #72

The government is blocking tumblr for gambling?? Fck I can’t even access it on my data provider! My account!!!! Uggh

Panic upload here we go

can't think straight as of the moment

I don’t mind waiting for so long so I can write my thoughts or read up

catching up on podcasts

Personal consequences. I guess we don’t have the right to go anywhere this weekend. Lol

Anxious until the unknown

Very anxious and reading a memoir about running before bed makes me want to run too right now. Lol but still a good book

Trying to sleep but the trauma of what happened first thing this month is haunting me. Fck

Tears. Will try not to have some coffee today. Ugh

coffee today. I had to

e m a i l . . . .

Follow up email on schedule

I honestly hate how this is ruining my original plan

I hope I can sleep tonight

Life choices and priorities, cram later. Lol

So is it good that I didn’t watched this game live? Lol

Just 3 sets? Wtf happened. Lol

One more email.

Sent. Here’s to nothing. 03.15.2026

Last straw tonight. Another moment for nothing or something. 03.16.2026

Kettlebell 03.17.2026

30th. 03.18.2026

Someone is trying to hack my instagram

Damn because of it I might start a new collection. Haha

my brain is already on holiday

99% sleep score. 03.21.2026

Volleyball weekend. Sadly looks like I can’t watch any game on the 2nd round

5th book, done!

Uninterrupted yoga on a Monday.

“Love makes you believe you can rebuild anything if you’re willing to bleed enough times for it” - The Confidence Blueprint | Maggie Wilson

“Once the foundation is hollow, no amount of love, forgiveness, or endurance can hold the structure upright” - The Confidence Blueprint | Maggie Wilson

“Survival becomes rhythm not a choice” - The Confidence Blueprint | Maggie Wilson

Craving for some good long conversations. I miss you. #72  03.24.2026 03:29

Still a water person. Yay for today that I was able to swim even just for fun not as a workout. 03.24.2026

There’s a black hole inside me

“Mahal na mahal . . . .“

A hundred notifications and not even one is from you. 03.25.2026 00:43

I crawl until now so they can all run

Mcdo again

Do people appreciate the sky

Catching up on another podcast

man, I just became sleepy. lol I think I need coffee

2 hours and counting - catching up with a friend // end up almost 5 hours. Lol

Volleyball weekend

Back to 7 hours and as the sun shines in there, I hope you will be not hard on yourself. 03.30.2026 01:08

extra phone on reset and I regret it after. Lol

6th book for this year, done!