hometown

Why am I somehow expecting to see you

That you are waiting for me at the airport

Being in here is weird

I’m having mix feelings

Though not the same when I entered Expo

Maybe because at the back of my head

This place is huge as well

And there’s only 1% or less

That I’ll see you

This province is your home

Its special to you

And I can feel you in here, honestly.

I just wish we were able to go here

I guess I just have to

Make my own memories in here

Coming here is a huge risk

For my own wellbeing  

But I’m here now

05.04.2025 16:43 

Random . August 2026

 

weekend rest

what is this film that I started to watch. lol

"always :)" #72 08.03.2026 01:02

Apple Pay!!!! Finally!!!!

Cardio core

And Apple Pay works!!! 

Always a good conversation with you. #72

Rainy weekend and a black out curtain. Love it.

yoga on this rainy day

a few hours with no rain, lets walk.

you thinking out loud can somehow create chaos when you don't see how it work.

15 years.  I miss you. #dad 08.10.2026

cramming but thankful for extra days but not for stress. lol

if you really let them know then I wonder what they think or maybe not anymore. doesn't matter anyways.

family dinner

have to figure out this time management this week. it's been draining.

getting a help from someone I dont trust? uhmm I'm not so sure about that

so how many more days with this rainy weather

it's been raining for days and "The Last House" is still the no. 1 show on Netflix. go figure

I want to avoid it but it also makes me curious but my anxiety says no. Can I still say no?

if you know his effort will you still avoid / hate him

manipulated might be the right term than "played" #5

Errands today so tomorrow we somehow chill

I almost slipped, twice!

somehow there is still good in this town

Thursday cram

It’s official I can’t risk to close my laptop anymore

The level of comfort on these conversations. 😅 #72 08.15.2026 10:23

#dream The stare that can kill and can … #72 08.14.2026

finally the sun is out after a week of rain - 08.15.2026

After weeks of not being able to walk outside because of the weather, we did 2KM. - 08.15.2026

Happy Birthday to my favorite person. 🥳 - 08.16.2026

1KM walk when there’s no rain with Gray for the 1st time. - 08.16.2026

Such disrespectful but it also just show how you are so narcissistic. So don’t wait for my response or else you can for some days or weeks. Lol #5

And it’s raining again.

6% of my book after half a month of not reading is good for now.

a n x i e t y. . . . . .

no chill Monday.

#dream demanding for some catch up! #72 08.18.2026

oh you finally ask the right question. lol #5

2 on going chats? a much needed distraction from the narcissist!!!  lol

what a weird weather. it is already sunny and now rain with strong winds? what is happening and now it is sunny again.

blocked. #5

I just appreciate the small packaging of chips or anything that should be consumed moderately

Cleaning up my mess #5

Don’t bring a plus one if they aren't invited. Don't even ask permission of course they will say it is okay even it is not. Boundaries.

here we go with your games and I don't know what will be the next move

awkward, confusion and frustration #72 08.22.2026

Feels good to be able to write something again.

Finished #SterlingPoint today. Next #BreakingBad

I’ll just binge watch anything so that the urge to buy something unnecessary will be killed. Lol

Do I even have a rest day

Why do people on their phone all the time. What do you actually do still Facebook? lol

I will be dreaming of that hug forever. #72

I used to shut down everything and I’m doing it again

last chapter of my current book. yay! I'll choose something page turner for the next one. 08.24.2026

letters on draft!

"a relationship where flirting doesn't stop just because we've already fallen in love"

12th book, done! Finally after a month and so. 08.24.2026

And just like that you are being buried alive

The curse ?

I typed a possible blog post but I don’t know what happened it got deleted. Maybe not meant to be written.

August - you never fail to make me hate you a bit

Power outage and a cranky data. Great.

perfect time for replying! #72 08.27.2026

procrastination . . .

all nighter it is

deep.

6 hours call with the bebe girl

Yoga!

Finally I got to see the Gilas game tonight and it makes me miss MOA Arena and some live basketball game. 

“Are you crazy?” Yeah crazy for you. Lol #72 08.30.2026 21:22

Can’t wait for UAAP 

one month of not posting on tumblr!

UAAP September schedule is out!

what holiday?

Book . Grief Is Love

 

Took me a while to finish this book because it feels like a very slow phase and I got distracted with TV series. I plan to have my next book something page turner or some easy and interesting read.

This book is what you need if you are experiencing losing something or someone at the moment. Well even you haven’t lost anyone, you could read this just so you get an idea on what to do if you are grieving something. It somehow feels so redundant at times but it does make sense in the end.

Rated this 3 stars on Goodreads just because it took me a while to finish.

“You need to accept the shittiness of the present moment in order to experience joy in any form”

Grief Is Love | Marisa Renee Lee

just be honest

3 words in our native language

5 if you will translate to english

My question is was it really from you

Or its just a product of my conscience

I don’t want to be hopeful

It will not be worth it for sure

Its been way too long for this

Back and forth game

I’m on my way forward

Just be you if its you

Say it without hesitation

Don’t hold back 

Just be honest with me

04.22.2025 02:56 

Time

Why am I wishful thinking That you still have time To make things right When I already believe You already ran out of time I really wish you will I wish you still have time But that will make me Hopeful for nothing I miss you tonight Maybe just tonight Pop up in dreamland I’ll meet you there Hug me tight.

03.03.2025 03:13

 

On Repeat . What If It's Right?

 

On Repeat . Good Reason

 

Random . July 2026

 

That’s when I can’t help you with

july 2nd.... it's been a year since that follow. #72

Not looking forward for a weekend work.

Hopeless

Project Hail Mary now on Prime!

Wrong move

haha dafuq. I shouldn't disturb my own sleep. misread. make it CAPITAL NEXT TIME. haha

lazy Sunday

silent Monday or chaotic

#dream Bicol

yeah, this is major reason why.

Again, wrong move. Lol

For all people you will be the one to do it first?? Wtf.

“Are you okay?” Is like the weirdest question these days.

Hype hype. Lol

Jeeptrip after a while.

Clubhouse!!!!! 😭

I should stop doom scrolling.

Coffee after a month?

some people just want to keep their pride high even it means a very long route. Always against on an easy route

Errands

Everything just making me so anxious

Raining

its yours not just solely mine

I'm tired of saving you

As much as I want to be lazy with this bed weather I also need to move.

Oh that’s why I’m anxious today.

I hate waking up anxious on a weekend.

Ex bestie in dreamland.

no rest on a weekend then. ugh

stressful week ahead. can we survive self?

I can't with this kind of morning.

here we go with crunch time.

If only I knew that you will all bail out, I shouldn't have stayed.

maybe there will be some kind of satisfaction by staying but what comes after?

Is my favorite person back after 5 months? Huhu #72 07.14.2026

#dream never ending catching up with  you. #72 07.15.2026

and I'm not done yapping for what happened the last 5 months. #72

Still feeling so calm which is weird

Dejavu

12th book for the year

Calm as well today but we also have to move

Real talk 101. #72 07.16.2026

Then she got cold.

At the end of the day you only got yourself

The Mentalist season 6

snail mail . . . .

5kg already?  Wow

Just facts #72 07.19.2026 

Less talk, less mistake

counting down the days to a break or an end of an era. #tumblr

Can’t sleep.

well, I dont need to ask becasue I already know what will be the outcome.

a very smooth travel to Shang

Early dinner with the dude

Raining . . . . hope it stops in an hour

I guess it will not stop soon. lol

When you are somehow in a rush and people in front are so slow

why would you kill a main character few episodes away from the series finale. #TheMentalist

#nowplaying Daughter In Hell by Gracie Abrams

will try again to read few pages everyday so that I can finish this book #GriefIsLove

Last episode for #TheMentalist

I badly regret not leaving 10 years ago when I had the chance.

8 years later, Malibu Nights - can still hit the right spots. Every single time. 😢

when you never noticed how messy it was

I don't know how you wanted to play the game

Why it took me this long to give #2BrokeGirls a try.

After 2 hours and so I'm back in MOA

Me-time

It rained while I was out but I didn’t open my umbrella and I didn’t get rained on. Lol

Thank you to one of my favorite Salad Stop for making me stay a little longer. Lol

ending a conversation with just emoji is sad.

Leg day

Got no sense of time today. What is happening am I just busy or not.

All my jeans have to be replaced. Lol

such a pain in the arse

now where to start. lol

Logged out 07.29.2026

I can’t do it while being so distant and cold with each other. #72

I may know but no power over those.

Overdue yoga. It’s not always rush like a cardio so a little slow down today.

#dream I had some courage to talk to you and we talk for a good amount of time. I miss hearing your thoughts and I believe it will be a while for you to get back on sharing whatever your opinion on certain things. #3 07.30.2026

Anxiety

See I keep on forgetting things.

When you thought you got the safe space back but then it was just for a brief moment. #72

coffee today is a little too much than usual. will it be bad or not

well some people can't or avoiding reading between the lines . . . .

Yeah that coffee was a little too much for me today.

If only giving way is benefiting the good than the other.

Possible free concert gone just because I chose the wrong date. Lol

maybe we will survive today. 

I'm against it and I only have 20% or less to fight the rest