Dark

 

You were my escape

You were the reason

For the smile

For the contentment

For the happiness

For almost positivity

In this lifetime

But then I lost you

In a snap

And everything 

Became dark 

Again

08.15.2024 04:54

Random . March 2026

 

“it makes a difference if someone cares” - 911 S09E01

I just want to talk to you. #72 03.01.2026 02:57

What a way for March 1st. Home invasion mid 3AM. Fuck. Good thing I’m home unless I lost some gadgets

Oh shit.

The world is crazy at the moment

Being reminded about time once again

So paranoid knowing you’re being watched from the front but I never knew about fear knowing someone is watching you from behind.

We won today! yay

Why do we need to be uncomfortable on our own home. :(

Hello insomnia 

Paranoid

will always be my fathers daughter

still disoriented.

Once again heartbroken.

Empty

Oh well. Gotta move

How many “I miss you” do I need to type before I don’t feel missing you #72

It dig way deeper than just what you thought was the only cause

A day later and I’m hesitating to do it. #72

Perfect time to read a memoir. Will I finish this early than end of the month?

Can’t stop thinking of how it will turn out. Ugh #72

Fucking Monday

one major thing down, spilling the tea later. lol

The tea is spilled and I’m not holding back.  Lets do this. 03.10.2026

just realized that I still have some time to kill before sending these

I hate how your photo made it to our chats. Lol #72

*** you are so hard to navigate from afar. Lol also as if I’ll be joining a gym to look for one #72

The government is blocking tumblr for gambling?? Fck I can’t even access it on my data provider! My account!!!! Uggh

Panic upload here we go

can't think straight as of the moment

I don’t mind waiting for so long so I can write my thoughts or read up

catching up on podcasts

Personal consequences. I guess we don’t have the right to go anywhere this weekend. Lol

Anxious until the unknown

Very anxious and reading a memoir about running before bed makes me want to run too right now. Lol but still a good book

Trying to sleep but the trauma of what happened first thing this month is haunting me. Fck

Tears. Will try not to have some coffee today. Ugh

coffee today. I had to

e m a i l . . . .

Follow up email on schedule

I honestly hate how this is ruining my original plan

I hope I can sleep tonight

Life choices and priorities, cram later. Lol

So is it good that I didn’t watched this game live? Lol

Just 3 sets? Wtf happened. Lol

One more email.

Sent. Here’s to nothing. 03.15.2026

Last straw tonight. Another moment for nothing or something. 03.16.2026

Kettlebell 03.17.2026

30th. 03.18.2026

Someone is trying to hack my instagram

Damn because of it I might start a new collection. Haha

my brain is already on holiday

99% sleep score. 03.21.2026

Volleyball weekend. Sadly looks like I can’t watch any game on the 2nd round

5th book, done!

Uninterrupted yoga on a Monday.

“Love makes you believe you can rebuild anything if you’re willing to bleed enough times for it” - The Confidence Blueprint | Maggie Wilson

“Once the foundation is hollow, no amount of love, forgiveness, or endurance can hold the structure upright” - The Confidence Blueprint | Maggie Wilson

“Survival becomes rhythm not a choice” - The Confidence Blueprint | Maggie Wilson

Craving for some good long conversations. I miss you. #72  03.24.2026 03:29

Still a water person. Yay for today that I was able to swim even just for fun not as a workout. 03.24.2026

There’s a black hole inside me

“Mahal na mahal . . . .“

A hundred notifications and not even one is from you. 03.25.2026 00:43

I crawl until now so they can all run

Mcdo again

Do people appreciate the sky

Catching up on another podcast

man, I just became sleepy. lol I think I need coffee

2 hours and counting - catching up with a friend // end up almost 5 hours. Lol

Volleyball weekend

Back to 7 hours and as the sun shines in there, I hope you will be not hard on yourself. 03.30.2026 01:08

extra phone on reset and I regret it after. Lol

6th book for this year, done!

Butterflies and Ghost

02.17.2026

It all started of course by just a message from JT and the cousin wanted to get some new ones and asked me if I can go with her of course will I let it pass seeing JT without me getting any? Lol 

Not on my original plan but I still have some on my list but for an impromptu decision, I still want to think about it for me not to regret it. 

Good thing no one is on schedule today and we are on by 6PM and I still have some hours to think about what I’m getting or where to put them. 

- Butterflies 

For so long I’ve been eyeing butterflies for a reason of what happened in Palawan last 2024. For placement, I wasn’t sure where to but my left forearm still has some space so I want to fill those and it worked out perfectly. They’re so cute. 

- A rabbit being a ghost 

There’s an inside joke between me and someone about a bunny but then when I was looking up on Pinterest there’s the thought of “Death inspired me like a dog inspires a rabbit”. I quickly played heavydirtysoul by twenty one pilots and checked the lyrics. Now we have a new meaning for getting this rabbit. Why ghost? Misguided Ghost by Paramore. duh. Lol 

As usual I’m craving for physical pain once again and everything is like a perfect timing to get the tattoo. There’s so much meaning about it with my recent realization and break down. 

Also, I already saw the announcement of a music video for Drag Path, and I really don’t get hyped up about it because somehow I’m no fan of music videos and probably it’s just going to be a continuation of the lore. 

02.18.2026 - notification that the music video of Drag Path is released. 

MAIN CHARACTER - A RABBIT. 

“DEATH INSPIRED ME LIKE A DOG INSPIRES A RABBIT”. 

omg this tattoo, twenty one pilots. It’s just on the right track! 

Love my new stickers. They’re so cute too.

Let Me Go

 

What if I’m ready 

To move forward

And you are the one 

Who’s holding me back

Even you ghosted me

Let me go

You’ve already been

Long time ago

Why still holding me

Until this day

 

07.23.2024 03:34