Let Me Go

 

What if I’m ready 

To move forward

And you are the one 

Who’s holding me back

Even you ghosted me

Let me go

You’ve already been

Long time ago

Why still holding me

Until this day

 

07.23.2024 03:34

What Exactly

 

Do I ever want to see you again 

Just to regret it later

And what for

Blame you for everything,

Hurt you physically,

Hear an apology,

Get an explanation, 

Cry on your shoulder,

Beg for attention, 

Hurt myself more,

For me to believe 

Or to feel something

Once again

Or maybe just

For a simple closure

Was it really that necessary 

06.13.2024 / 04:41 

Back and Forth

On a random moment of a day

Somehow I caught myself stopping

Realizing how I’m moving without him

Then silently I wish he’s right beside me

Wishing that we are driving through

This life together

I still wish that somewhere 

Along the road

We were able to be together longer 

02.15.2024 00:48

Book . The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo

 

First off, I love that I was able to finish this before February ends. So proud of myself because this is my 4th book of the year! Yay. 

When I was picking my 3rd book, I was going back and forth with The Housemaid and this and I read first The Housemaid because it’s always on my feed and I already decided that I will read this next. 

I don’t have much expectation with this book and I’m not sure if it’s worth the hype since this is also everywhere. 

I love it. I rated 5 stars on Goodreads

Upon the last part of the book I think I was somehow rushed some parts but everything makes sense on the end. It feels like Evelyn Hugo is part of all of us if you ever read the book.

The book was very well written and hopefully some books of Taylor Jenkins Reid will not feel repetitive. I’m not going to read another book by her for now but definitely will be reading some of her works again maybe one more or so this year. 

“she wanted to be pleased instead of being desperate to please” 

The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo | Taylor Jenkins Reid

Sentimental

I want to overwrite these feelings

And probably some of the memories 

That I’ve been repeating in my head 

Just so I can forget 

Seeing my memories from last year 

As well as the writing that I did 

Made every trigger in me to remember him

Probably a sign that I should take seriously 

To delete every memory of him on my phone 

So there will be no trigger again 

 01.12.2024 00:50

Random . February 2026

We take what we can get 

when you prioritize the facade and the fun instead of the important ones

the damage you've done that you still don't take the responsibility of it

So overwhelmed with all of the notifs! Imagine if the number don’t disappear #72

“…. it’s ok” - 02.05.2026 #72

4? I almost got a 7!

Oh well good luck on making it happen

Hair dye retouch - 02.08.2026

hate making decisions that involve others

feels like 2020 again

damage  . . . but

"massively" - 02.10.2026 #72

it's like a murder mystery

#nowwatching All’s Fair and I love Sarah Paulson

Almost Friday

Leg Day

Volleyball season

Baby sitter

Trigger

Oh wow. Just wow. I’m speechless with all the realization. Fck

Crazy how I’m writing the same shit 3 years later and yes still no progress. Sad life

“Sometimes reality crashing down on you” - The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo 

Bye for now socials. Hibernating.

Wearing M’s shirt to sleep. Good night will be spending some time offline with my book.

just don't want to cling on you because you might leave again #72

This is me shutting down

Dry eyes after crying all night

To be alone with my thoughts.

I just realized that only few people knew what happened to me 10 years ago. That somehow still affects me until today.

Ohh Collide was in 2014 not 2016.

I'll try to be offline for I don't know how long and you might not even notice

tattoo session today!!! haha 02.17.2026

Almost at 50% on my current book!

Arm tattoo means no weights for a week or so. If only it's planned I should've done arm workout today instead of cardio core. 02.17.2026

Anyways. I got some cute butterflies and my ghost bunny #tattoo 02.17.2026

Damn this app got a glitch and deleted what I typed. Ugh.

heavydirtysoul

I’m an introvert can’t mingle with people all week and my social battery is at the lowest.

I just need some night off from socialization

I’m not good on comforting people but sometimes I wish I’m being comforted

Am I feeling much better now? idk.

Errands and now waiting.

When people do selfies in public worst if video. Please be considerate to others.

Another 2 months? Damn. Oh well then I have more time to write and read 02.20.2026 20:34

Malibu Nights still hits the same after all these years when it randomly played on my playlist. brb crying 02.21.2026 02:03

I bet you will never find that easter egg or will you? Hmm

Of course the day you told me you need some weeks off, I cried nonstop. #72

My opinions can be brutal so I rather just write it down than saying it out loud.

I hate how you making me wait in here. Ugh

The sweat will tell you how long I’ve been waiting

Pet Expo year 2

Ball python are such tempting today but still, not yet

Ikea

At MOA and the volleyball game is just a few steps away but I don’t want to jinx it. Lol but the agony of waiting an update!!!! / Almost!!! Congrats NU

Hot instant ramen for some comfort

So what happened when …..? Thought you are …. Oh well

People ruining my weekend

I hope that people will never get tired of saving me because I can't save myself.

When a man tells you to listen, listen. Lol #TheNightAgent

Throw some stuff today

Fucking Monday

Wasted minutes

It’s just 9am somewhere

#dream you changed your gym. Wtf 02.24.2026 9:23

Man, there’s nothing to be proud of that.

hate when people brag

Just so you can be "in" you ask for it but don't know the real deal. lol

Officially summer.

Undercut or no

Thankful that I can read on my phone and make progress even without my kindle. I was able to read while waiting earlier 

4th book of the year, done! What’s next

#dream you are setting up the JBL speakers and being hype about it. Thanks for the visit, M. 02.26.2026 08:57

High sleep score but there's something missing. #72

Leg day

Eventful Saturday