Saturday, September 05, 2026

truth or lie



So many scenarios
Playing in my head
I know I will never see you
The last thing you said
You are going here in the province
This is not exactly your hometown
But I’m here
Just couple of hours away
I can’t be near there
It might break me
I may discover the fact
That you may be lying to me
All those years 
Or you were telling the truth

05.07.2025 23:12 

Thursday, September 03, 2026

hometown


Why am I somehow expecting to see you
That you are waiting for me at the airport
Being in here is weird
I’m having mix feelings
Though not the same when I entered Expo
Maybe because at the back of my head
This place is huge as well
And there’s only 1% or less
That I’ll see you
This province is your home
Its special to you
And I can feel you in here, honestly.
I just wish we were able to go here
I guess I just have to
Make my own memories in here
Coming here is a huge risk
For my own wellbeing  
But I’m here now

05.04.2025 16:43 

Monday, August 31, 2026

Random . August 2026

 



weekend rest


what is this film that I started to watch. lol


"always :)" #72 08.03.2026 01:02


Apple Pay!!!! Finally!!!!


Cardio core


And Apple Pay works!!! 


Always a good conversation with you. #72


Rainy weekend and a black out curtain. Love it.


yoga on this rainy day


a few hours with no rain, lets walk.


you thinking out loud can somehow create chaos when you don't see how it work.


15 years.  I miss you. #dad 08.10.2026


cramming but thankful for extra days but not for stress. lol


if you really let them know then I wonder what they think or maybe not anymore. doesn't matter anyways.


family dinner


have to figure out this time management this week. it's been draining.


getting a help from someone I dont trust? uhmm I'm not so sure about that


so how many more days with this rainy weather


it's been raining for days and "The Last House" is still the no. 1 show on Netflix. go figure


I want to avoid it but it also makes me curious but my anxiety says no. Can I still say no?


if you know his effort will you still avoid / hate him


manipulated might be the right term than "played" #5


Errands today so tomorrow we somehow chill


I almost slipped, twice!


somehow there is still good in this town


Thursday cram


It’s official I can’t risk to close my laptop anymore


The level of comfort on these conversations. 😅 #72 08.15.2026 10:23


#dream The stare that can kill and can … #72 08.14.2026


finally the sun is out after a week of rain - 08.15.2026


After weeks of not being able to walk outside because of the weather, we did 2KM. - 08.15.2026


Happy Birthday to my favorite person. 🥳 - 08.16.2026


1KM walk when there’s no rain with Gray for the 1st time. - 08.16.2026


Such disrespectful but it also just show how you are so narcissistic. So don’t wait for my response or else you can for some days or weeks. Lol #5


And it’s raining again.


6% of my book after half a month of not reading is good for now.


a n x i e t y. . . . . .


no chill Monday.


#dream demanding for some catch up! #72 08.18.2026


oh you finally ask the right question. lol #5


2 on going chats? a much needed distraction from the narcissist!!!  lol


what a weird weather. it is already sunny and now rain with strong winds? what is happening and now it is sunny again.


blocked. #5


I just appreciate the small packaging of chips or anything that should be consumed moderately


Cleaning up my mess #5


Don’t bring a plus one if they aren't invited. Don't even ask permission of course they will say it is okay even it is not. Boundaries.


here we go with your games and I don't know what will be the next move


awkward, confusion and frustration #72 08.22.2026


Feels good to be able to write something again.


Finished #SterlingPoint today. Next #BreakingBad


I’ll just binge watch anything so that the urge to buy something unnecessary will be killed. Lol


Do I even have a rest day


Why do people on their phone all the time. What do you actually do still Facebook? lol


I will be dreaming of that hug forever. #72


I used to shut down everything and I’m doing it again


last chapter of my current book. yay! I'll choose something page turner for the next one. 08.24.2026


letters on draft!


"a relationship where flirting doesn't stop just because we've already fallen in love"


12th book, done! Finally after a month and so. 08.24.2026


And just like that you are being buried alive


The curse ?


I typed a possible blog post but I don’t know what happened it got deleted. Maybe not meant to be written.


August - you never fail to make me hate you a bit


Power outage and a cranky data. Great.


perfect time for replying! #72 08.27.2026


procrastination . . .


all nighter it is


deep.


6 hours call with the bebe girl


Yoga!


Finally I got to see the Gilas game tonight and it makes me miss MOA Arena and some live basketball game. 


“Are you crazy?” Yeah crazy for you. Lol #72 08.30.2026 21:22


Can’t wait for UAAP 


one month of not posting on tumblr!


UAAP September schedule is out!


what holiday?


Friday, August 28, 2026

Book . Grief Is Love

 


Took me a while to finish this book because it feels like a very slow phase and I got distracted with TV series. I plan to have my next book something page turner or some easy and interesting read.

This book is what you need if you are experiencing losing something or someone at the moment. Well even you haven’t lost anyone, you could read this just so you get an idea on what to do if you are grieving something. It somehow feels so redundant at times but it does make sense in the end.

Rated this 3 stars on Goodreads just because it took me a while to finish.


“You need to accept the shittiness of the present moment in order to experience joy in any form”
Grief Is Love | Marisa Renee Lee

Wednesday, August 26, 2026

just be honest


3 words in our native language
5 if you will translate to english
My question is was it really from you
Or its just a product of my conscience
I don’t want to be hopeful
It will not be worth it for sure
Its been way too long for this
Back and forth game
I’m on my way forward
Just be you if its you
Say it without hesitation
Don’t hold back 
Just be honest with me

04.22.2025 02:56 

Monday, August 24, 2026

Time


Why am I wishful thinking That you still have time To make things right When I already believe You already ran out of time I really wish you will I wish you still have time But that will make me Hopeful for nothing I miss you tonight Maybe just tonight Pop up in dreamland I’ll meet you there Hug me tight.

03.03.2025 03:13