Not So Fragile

Why do I always forgot to chill?

I'm so used to have a very fragile day every 27th of December but once I was out there today, it totally disappeared. I already accepted that I can't have a me-time today since there's a lot in my to do list most especially this week so, I really convinced myself to play it cool even it was hard at first.

I'm not as emotional as I was before maybe because one of the lesson this year and I was able to apply is it to be chill at all time. lol (even on the last hours of today, I really tried!!!)

I disabled my Messenger notification because I don't like responsing as fast as they sent that message. I don't like the effect of social media on me most especially today. Thank you Facebook people for being a keyboard warrior sending me birthday greetings and spreading the message that other people should greet me too. lol (I really hate that)

For a few years now, I don't look forward to gifts anymore because as we all employed people know, we can buy treats for ourselves once in a while for the whole year. Maybe the thing that I was looking forward to are the "Christmas miracles" it's not because I was super duper busy for the past months, sometimes it's just the family time.

Same as today, I don't really look forward to any material things just a good me-time or family time since most of my friends are not in Manila. We will do a late celebration for sure (fingers crossed for this because it will be super duper late celebration).

Anyway, since I turned off all my social media notification most especially Facebook I will just response to all of you in a few minutes or hours. lol It was refreshing to stay away from social media most especially today.

Thank you to everyone who knows my birthday by heart (as always) or by seeing it on other people's post, thank you.

To the very chill person I know, thank you! I really appreciate it hope you didn't get a flat tire! :D


And if you're one of the people I'm celebrating this day with, happy birthday to us! <3

Sane.

At some point twice a month at work, there's this day where I don't wear contact lens because I need to use the computer the whole day, no make up too just because, but I bravely wear Mulberry lipstick from Sleek sometimes. 

Its also a forget-the-outside-world and finish the major stuff that's been on my desk for the last two days. Its also the messy-desk-day I love doing it because it keeps me sane. Its also the day where my ear hurts so bad because I was wearing my headphones for hours blasting whatever playlist is on shuffle or better catch up on some podcast.

Whether people appreciate it or not the most important thing is, it keeps me sane. 

So just because I'm on my writers block, here are some selfies. 

"I'm good enough for me and all the things that I want to be" - Good Enough | Candy Hearts 

Rant . Insomnia

what keeps me awake in the middle of the night

How am I typing a rant for this year? Well, maybe it doesn't matter if its a new year or not but some things are on my mind so I guess this will be a start that may or may not published on the month of January. Who knows. Well its January 7, 2014 02:07.    

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Basically, everyone gain weight after the holiday season and I think its rude that the first thing you always say to me is that I'm fat. (Thank you!)

Stacy of The Plump Pinay posted this and this and thank goodness for people like her and her twin and the other Plump Pinays and even the other people out there who accept the different body types that other people don't know exist. 

How many new years do you need before changing your attitude?

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Some people are unfair.

You treat other people better than the other when both need to be treated fairly. Maybe your not appreciating who's in front of you and just focusing on the people who you believe are better so you'll treat them special than the other one.

But I have faith that even they are not appreciating what's in front of them, those things will be appreciated. Maybe not now but eventually they will be.

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Fixing yourself is the first step but don't be stuck there, socializing to people should be the second step of thousands. If you will not reach the 2nd step then learn how to get there. A friend, your parents or guardian or anyone can teach you that even not directly. You have to keep walking, you need to.

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Sometimes, you don't need to believe on other people. You all need some faith. Believe to yourself. Accept whatever it is. You don't need to pretend.

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People will not always believe you but as long as you're telling the truth then let go of it.

Some people avoid seeing familiar faces, ask yourself why.

We are all people who may or may not having a common ground but it doesn't mean that we are both living the same life. We have different priorities, daily routines, different situation so don't expect that we are the same.

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2013 really taught me a lot of things. 

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Hopefully, one day the clouds will parted and I'll see the the straight path along the way.

I wish that the un-notice will be notice, the people who deserve a different taste of attention will be given and hopefully, after all the hard work (in any kind) it will be paid off.

Let's just keep faith and everything will fall in the right places.   

1st month of this year and this is how I feel. WHY.