It Will Never Happen

I've been telling that to myself ever since January and the last time Gem and I hangout she mentioned that out loud and I laughed. So funny that in the middle of our walk (on our way home) I almost freak out and I told her that it's the exact words that I've been telling myself lately we almost stopped in the middle of a busy street. 

There are certain situations in our life that we wanted something specific to happen or at least a different outcome on things but (fuck but) of course, this is REALITY. Reality where there's no fairytale and we will never know what will happen next. 

If only all of the things we wanted will be done by ourselves there will be a minimal problem but if it involves another person or depends on time and on certain situations, we all need to wait for the right time and we need tons of patience. 

It's not easy, results doesn't usually happen overnight it can take days/weeks/months and even years. All we can do is sit tight, hold on and continue our daily lives even we can't see results yet. 

If only we can write whatever we want to happen, it will be so perfect and it will also be a perfectly messed up fairytale. 

Gem and I are living differently, we do have different choices and decisions but we do undergo on the same serious stuff lately that we want to entertain at least, but it also depends on other people and situations. As much as we want some new things in our life the universe is telling us different. 

It will never happen

Maybe at some point it can but what if our decision contradict the situation, will it be our fault? 

Reality is unfair sometimes but maybe if we wait patiently the result can or not be on our side. Who knows. We are still living this life. There are things/situations in our life that we wish can turned out differently but we don't have a rewind button in life. It's okay to regret things but learn from it. The only thing that we can do is continue living because life goes on. Time and day will not wait for us, they will literally leave us if we decided to stop or take a break. 

So whether the things we want will happen or not, continue living the life at least you will not regret living. Eventually, the result will happen in this lifetime so all we need is live patiently, accept the highs and the lows, it's part of it. 

Sad things happen to all of us. - Eve | How To Get Away With Murder S02E14

03.15.16