Random . 2022

I never really thought of looking back for the whole year until now prior on typing this. 

Thinking of what happened early this year. 

I’m being speechless and amazed how this year we were able to go back to normalcy but still with some restriction. 

There was really no major happening early this year but campaign season for the national election. 

• UAAP S84 happened during summer and we were able to finally watched live again mostly in MOA.
• Pasay rally for the Leni-Kiko campaign after watching a late night UAAP game 
• Lhea was able to finally go home again here 
• Huhu. I was able to travel again to Palawan and somewhat be off from my own real world. I still do daydream about that El Nido trip definitely one of the best.
• I was able to see some college friends and did a museum hopping in Manila
• I received a bouquet of sunflowers as a peace offering and that’s what I wanted it to be called. 
• I keep on reading books and I was able to do 10 this year. 
• First ever concert again and it was the Happier Than Ever Tour of Billie Eilish
• Second concert - I was able to see The Maine again and I was able to meet them up close but I don’t know where to see those photos (hello, pulp!) 
• Paramore released This is Why and the new album will be out by next year! 
• UAAP S85 happened and probably the worst season for us after so long
• Maximized weekend of October because Kit is set to leave late that month
• Made a closure tattoo for October aka my 2022 tattoo session
• Third concert for this year, LANY!!!! 
• I realized that there are just few drink at Starbucks that are caffeine free 
• Saw Cheats for the first time and I was able to finally meet Saab in person. It was quick but still 
• Paramore released The News 
• We lost a few people 
• Finally had a coffee date with Nikka, Jesse and Jaden 

Wow that was a lot and my anxiety is getting worst. Lol 

There are still a lot of things to processed from all the happening for this year, a part of me is still in March 2020 and feels like the other part of me is just traveling to the future. 

Restarting on 2023 even though that the future is scary and fear of the unknown exist on my self. 

There are a lot of realizations as well but as of the moment, I don’t know how to write it all down yet. I do keep a digital diary as well where I tell it all but to blurred some of it just to publish it online, I don’t think I will get there anytime. I promise myself that I will still continue to write it all down just to let it all out and “expression is survival!”

Happy New Year! 

Random . December 2022

12.01 - 2 years free from wearing eye glasses. 

Finally I was able to do a peaceful yoga 

I’m not that prepared to be lining up on the bank for hours today. 

Done with #Wednesday 

When there’s pressure everywhere and you thought that everything your doing is not as good, there will always be something to prove that you’re wrong. 

Can’t thank some people enough but so good to see the kindness that they passed on

Podium - Megamall - Trinoma - Cubao 12.03.2022 

Didn’t even plan to go to Trinoma but also I don’t want to go home yet. Lets maximize being outside and see one of my favorite local band for the first time. 

First time on seeing Saab and I’m thankful for the mask for hiding my kilig and anxious self 

Front row at a Cheats gig. Lol 

My sister is officially back home. 

My adventure yesterday might be my last for this year. It is very exhausting out there. Lol

“Don’t meet your heroes they all fucking weirdos”. - Halsey

Thank you so much, Jojo. 12.04.2022 

Adamson!!!!! #FinalFour #UAAP 

I can’t sleep. Pending works are haunting me. 

Now I know why I’m having a hard time sleeping last night. #21

One down but lets make it two this week. 

Is this the feeling when they say “I have nothing to lose”. 12.05.2022 

Feeling so numb from everything. 

Took 2 mela last night and I feel good today. 12.06.2022

Not sure if I’ll be pissed or feel good about it. #21 12.06.2022 

You maybe planned months for such then when truth hits you, you cannot accept it. Wtf! 

Headache these days sometimes are because of screen time. Don’t watch too much k-drama and stop blaming other people. 

For now, you make noise by after the adjustment period, there will be more democracy for them.

There are certain things in life that will never be favorable on our side and I think you should know that especially now that you are bragging about your age. 

Missed the Final Four games today. Huhu. Hopefully I will not miss the Finals Game 1. Yay. Battle of Katipunan!!! #UPFight!!!! 

“Para maging happy naman sila :)” 

I want to finish everything that I need to do right now but first, sleep. 

Super busy that I can’t keep up on socials. 

My routine the past week is so messed up and it will take some time to be back on my usual. 

Busy all week and it is just start. 

That 4 points difference. #UAACDC2022

Why not just be thankful that it still came. 

I can’t even process my own shits. Why would I read your rant. You finally show your true colors which I’ve been blinded before, now I know. 

I’ve decided to give most of today to myself before another busy week. 

I understand the frustration but I also reminded myself that I have nothing good to say, I rather shut up. 

Game 1 for UP!!! 

Surprise killer. That’s why you shouldn’t be trusted. 

I don’t think I will be able to read one more book before this year ends 

Lazy Monday morning 

Then I realized you are part of the problem. 

When I forgot that “latte” have coffee then realized it hours after finishing that free drink.

Busy day done, on to the next batch of work load 

How to get this caffeine out of my system. 

I was supposed to meet Gem today but I guess we’ll see each other next year. 11.14.2022

When life is unfair, you have to do some things to at least feel it is fair. Even it might never be. 

When will you ever do something voluntarily. 

I guess no rest day for today. 

Empty on a Sunday, YAY less day to waste 2 hours on a Monday. 

The line that separates the entitled from reality. Clearly a one sided story and for sure they are not open for negotiation.

Most people work hard as well maybe much harder than you but why isn’t on the same level? Life is just so unfair, I guess. 

If I’m lousy and not thinking of my baggage, I’m leaving immediately. 

I guess, I’m still not used to this and probably will never be. 

Will I be able to get this birthday gift? Hmm. / Got it!! Huhu. Happy birthday, self. 

If you think that I will be all good just because of Christmas Eve, you are wrong. Making jokes about something is not always fun. This is the last time that I will at least try. Sorry but not sorry. Good thing that other people was able to enjoy, like and appreciate. 

Merry Christmas! 

Sick and tired with your commentary which are mostly unnecessary. 

I don’t know why but I just mostly ate salad during Christmas eve and on Christmas day. Love my greens and just like that Christmas is over. 

Avoiding socials on this holiday season.

Decided to finally watch the first Avatar movie after so long. Happy Birthday, self. 

An email woke me up that my Amazon order have a shipping fee when it says on my prior order form that it was a free shipping. Wtf. Haha but I hope it will be reimbursed. 

Can’t even open messages yet because I have to act like it is a normal day on my daily routine. Work out first before sending my thank you’s to a few. 

I’m having an anxiety attack just because of the new group chat that was created and I just saw it through email. 

Dinner with the fam. Thank you sis for the cake. 

Whiners. 

Almost done for today. 

At SM today and if it’s not because of meeting Nikka, I will not dare to be in here at this time because there are too much people. 

So good to catch up with Nikka after not seeing for a year and so.

What weekend and last day of the year. 

Just like that, December is over and here we are minutes away from 2023. 

Happy New Year! 

Random . November 2022

Down time. As much as I know how busy this week is, today is rest day and day to spend at the cemetery. 

What if the stress reliever doesn’t work anymore. 

Send me all your stress that I will be the one breaking down even you don’t have any idea. 

Fan of the PBA but you still don’t know how it works. 

So much to write so little time. 

3 games of basketball and hangout with my dude at home court. 

Happy Birthday, Daddy. 11.06.2022

Can it be a wrong decision if that means you helped someone? #21

The pressure around me it’s getting high will I be able to survive this shithole. 

My responsibilities and sacrifices it’s a lot but don’t ask me about it. 

My sacrifices that doesn’t matter to anybody. 

Wrong calculation of time. 

Happy Birthday, sissy. 11.07.2022 

That can’t be the last episode of #Manifest 

We came to the point where I need to be reminded by an app of all the things that I should do. 

If only you know how I envy other people just because it seems to work to you so well. 

Errands. 

Why am I having anxiety walking around town. 11/10/2022 

MOA today for LANY!!! 11/11 

I’ve been to MOA once in a while since April but it’s just my first time to ever enter IKEA in here. Love it. 

That perfume by Billie smells so good. 

LANY. 11/11 as another closure. 

Tons of things to do this weekend. Coffee date with cousins later! 

I had a break last Friday and then there’s a lot of work load. So much to do so little time. Stressed but thankful. 

Expect delays but I’m trying to catch up. 

I can’t even do the little things anymore so be patient with me. 

Dumped some photos on my ig as a “proof of life”. 

So lazy to workout today 

Raining at night and I’m just hoping that it will not rain later in the afternoon because I will be running some errands. 

Delayed some errands to today so hopefully, it will not rain. 

I was trying my very best when I’m just in town not to give in to my cravings even they are just few steps away. When I was out with Gem last Nov 5, I couldn’t even dig in to my cravings as well. I knew I shouldn’t control much when I’m craving food so here I am weeks later pigging out much every other day. It’s bad I know so now even with a little craving I give in and I will try to control it the next days. Lol but maybe it is stress eating again. 

When your phone passcode is just a bunch of zeros. Lol 

Dogs are being clingy. 

The time of the year where I ask the universe if I will survive the rest of the year. 

Disney+

I’m trying to process a lot of things right now that I can’t even leave the house. 

Due to the current situation I think everyone will understand the delay. If you will not then wtf! 

I can’t even decide with this matter. Ughh. 

Excruciating time. 

Hello and Bye, Manila! 11.21.2022

My airpods gave up. 

Everyone seems to move on and catch up with reality and here I am somehow still stuck to 2020. 

Asking myself on what should I do when literally I’m already doing what I can. 

Tito Ramon . 11.22.2022

Happy Fiesta, Angono!

Errands 

Ughh fck this stomach ache

The cycle of life. It is either you repeat it or break it. 

I believe that they understand that I have to go on just because this world doesn’t and will never stop for anything. 

Busy day. Can’t believe we are just few days away from December. 

That is one reason why I don’t ask too many favors from other people.

#TheWalkingDead marathon 

Still trying to process all of the things that happened the past months and I can’t help but cry with the season finale of #TheWalkingDead 

One day that I will be able to process everything, the day that I will cry like a baby. 

Jojo . 11.29.2022

What an unforgettable month

Still hoping for a good year-end. 

Random . October 2022

Tattoo ideas. Where to put them. 

UAAP Opening day! 

Basketball all weekend. 

Life questions. 

Off the socials. 

I’ll take 2 so I will not cry like a baby all night. 

Can’t have too much backlog so I can go out on the weekend. 

Back to reading. Huhu that chapter made me tear up

Finished another book. Wow. Just wow. 

Brobabes this weekend!!! 

Workload is done. WEEKEND!!!!! 

YAY! Got Patron tickets for later!!!! Home court here we come!!! AHHH CUBAO!!!! 

Such a fun Saturday spending time with friends and basketball! 10.08.2022

Might as well feed the stalkers then cut them out. Lol 

Back to reality for the week and maybe another weekend with friends. 

Weird dream and so awkward #tv 10.12.2022

Taking a break from reading a book this week because I’m busy. While on break I’m already planning what to read next or I’ll choose randomly again. 

Reminder why I can’t have a tattoo on my left shoulder / back  

I never had a chance. I wish I did. #mantra 

Why does it feel that it is not valid when people are being too much. 

Entitled. 

As of this time, I think I’m letting go of Avril for the sake of tattoo and this month full of hangout with friends. (Might still change last minute) 

Why does it feel like that I just want to hide. 

The anxiety that you gave me years ago. Wtf. 

Why am I not too excited for today. I’m going to see friends and watch another basketball game with them but then I’m not as excited as last week. 

2 months after that weekend of Billie Eilish and All Time Low, I’m back in MOA. 10.15.2022

Another Saturday with friends and I miss them already. See you next week!!! 

I’m not surprise that Avril was postponed again. It wasn’t on the website ever since. 

Word vomit didn’t happened when I was outside today so, I guess I have to do it tonight. 10.16.2022 

Why do we have to explain people stuff. Why can’t they wait. Ugh. Monday frustrates me so much. 

Silent treatment. You deserve it. #21 10.17.2022 

Dream that I wish to be real. #21 10.18.2022

Things that I can’t say out loud. 

Frustrates me so much when you still believe and praise the current government but then will hear you complain on having no changes at all. Kindly fix your own issues before praising them. 

Global warming and climate change does not even depend on our political beliefs it’s because of how we live.  

These people need to go out more often than watching or listening to nonsense stuff. 

That’s why I do it so I will have an idea. 

Week long anxiety is killing me already. Basketball is saving me at the moment. 

I have trust issue. 

Nope. I don’t want to. 

The trauma you gave me is fucking real. That’s one reason why I don’t and will never forget. 

Blocked and unblocked. Part 2 10.20.2022

Huhu. Thank you!!! This lessen my anxiety 

If they totally ban kdramas then I think that will be the only time that they will get angry. 

I know I shouldn’t make that as a reason. 

Making time for whatever I missed. 

Friday errands. Glad I made it to weekend. 

Another weekend with Brobabes. 

Haven’t had enough sleep the past days and I think I was able to do it today. 

Booked my tattoo appointment for Friday!!! 

Adjustment. Week 1. 

I have trust issues ever since. 

Non-stop rain. Can’t remember the last time it rained all day. 

Panic attack is fucking real. 

Catching up on podcasts

People come and go. I should’ve get used to it by now but no. 

Just trying to help even for a little. 

Still believing with humanity. 

Why am I doubting this tattoo and why am I not excited. 

Errands but I don’t like when it rains. 

Tattoo time aka therapy. 

This electric flickering is delaying my work right now.

Don’t be fooled with the looks. 

Full plate for the rest of the year

Random . September 2022

 

#dream Palawan, you are missed. Hopefully will be back soon. 

Sometimes I wonder what if I’m living with just suitcases and just traveling from here and there. 

This month is quickly passing by how come that it is already the 4th of September. 

Always lost in dreamland. 

Finishing a limited series in a day. #DevilinOhio

I hope you didn’t make it so awkward for all of us. 

Stress eating 

Wtf happened. Tss 

#AppleEvent 

Why am I somehow not convinced with the new line up hours later. #AppleEvent

RIP Queen. 

Rereading Taking Chances 10 years later just because Molly released another book for the series. Huhu my Brandon heart 

Papa, I’m here visiting you! I made it! There are times that I neglected visiting you for the past years but it didn’t rain today which is a sign for me to go visit. Its been 14 years Pa, I miss you everyday. 09.11.2022

Welcome to my weird trips in life, sister.

Reminding myself that I can’t bleach and do general cleaning lately because of my allergies. 

One small problem to another. 

Some people don’t really think things through 

Done with busy days

High school, why am I coming back to you in dreamland. 

Read 2 books. Back to back. Haha 

Well, some people will never really learn and will never ever going to look in the mirror. 

Just like that I’m flooded with tech videos to watch! 

#dream. A front seat at a TOP show, catching up with someone and almost a fucked up situation. What is happening. 

After the 2 books I read, time to catch up on my favorite tv series and maybe some movies. 

#NCIS S19 for the weekend

#dream. Quick trip to MOA with unexpected companion 

Frustrating stuff. Ugh can you please cover everything up when you will bring a visitor and not just depend on others. 

Change is the essence of life - Ducky #NCIS S19E05

Our pain is a small price to pay for his peace - Ducky NCIS S19E05

That funeral for the Queen 

Free days but choosing to stay. 

Sometimes you will realize that the guilt feeling and the concern for other people is not worth it. 

Toothache is the worst 

Maybe being so innocent is good sometimes. 

Apathy. Maybe this time I will not apologize. 09.22.2022

Maybe there will always be two sides. No matter what. 

Maybe I will stop caring for other people. 

The pandemic really fucked up all of us. 

2 movies and finished my book on a Saturday 

Ondoy was 13 years ago today and the same situation is currently happening. 

You know that I don’t care about your small drama shit in life, right? 

Not giving in to my cravings just because saving for that unannounced tour yet and diet at the same time. Haha. 

Just like them. #21

So much music stuff this week! 

Being so hyped that in less than 24 hours there will be a new Paramore song. Ahhh. 

New album by Feb 2023 then a possible tour. Hmm 

If they will never try to learn from you then do it in reverse. 

Have to pause my reading just because music will for sure consume me the rest of the week. 

THIS IS WHY … huhu jaw dropped and goosebumps!!! PARAMORE IS BACK!!!! 

Then reality hits. 

Oh, TAYLEY. 

Done with everything for this week and for this month. 

UAAP Opening tomorrow!!!