Random . December 2019

December!!!! 

Daddy!!!! :( #justadream 

Favorite month but seems just normal. 

Online shops leave me alone!!!! Haha 

Still craving that Macao Milk Tea and Pepperoni Pizza from SnR

Feels like I’m traumatized with the book last month. Lol. Jk. Been catching up on series from the first half of HTGAWM to the half of TWD to the season 9 of AHS.

I’m not sure when will I feel the Christmas spirit but I’m thankful for people who are making effort on decorating. Maybe I’ll feel it soon. 

Busy week is almost over. 

Sorry people my minimalism and practicality is affecting people. Haha 

Looks like it was a success, on to the next. 

Thankful for little things that reminds me of living life. 

Even it’s just for fun, you did just introduced yourself to people. 

I really do miss you. 

After months, home town friends unite. 

Macao Milk Tea - ✔️

SnR Pizza - ✔️

Back on busy days. 

We can laugh on jokes but fucking know the boundaries. 

Whoever thought that end of the year is fun, well it’s not. 

Maybe this part wasn’t the very well thought of. 

I still choose the busy days than year-end travel chaos. 

I should really start to read the book for this month than just scrolling online stores and the newsfeed. 

Joker was a little bit disturbing but mostly sad. 

Weekend rest before another busy week. 

Daddy. #anotherdream 

Lets just keep that at bay. I will can never imagine where will my frustrations take me if such encounter. 

Maybe I’m a grinch or maybe it just feels a normal day. 

Merry Christmas. 

Whoa. Another tattoo courtesy as a gift from my brother! Yay. 

I believe in the power of prayer and hopefully everything will be okay. 

I know that that rejecting all the feelings and emotions for the past months will be resulting to a day or two breakdowns. Happy birthday, self. 

Early-work-alarm on a day that I just want to procrastinate. 

Chill night with hometown friends. Happy birthday to us, Nikka. 

I really hope you are okay. #21 1228

14th and a little retouch before the year ends. 

Glad to hear an update from you and to know that you are okay. #21 1229

Random . November 2019

November 1. I’m too emotional that I can’t wait to visit daddy and some family that I’ve been dreaming lately. Will be there in few hours. 

So good to wake up without thinking of anything. 

My kind of weekend but have to keep going to visit the family. 

Passport renewed. 

It’s quite sad that I don’t even got to say “hi” to the people that I used to be close with. 

Week off from everything that the only consistent thing that I do is reading “The Stand”. 

I’m being OC with people who buy too much stuff that later on we all know that they will never use. 

I like it more here because it keeps me away from all the buzz. It is silent in here. No major stress. 

If a person use a lock feature of a doorknob, respect. It was lock for a reason. 

Stress lately is eating me up. I got one message earlier and convinced myself to be reckless just for today. The result - 13th. 

I FINISHED MY FIRST STEPHEN KING BOOK!!!! Took me 1 1/2 month! Make me interested to watch IT, actually. 

UAAP Finals Game 2 is today and I didn’t have any idea. Hahaha. Congrats Ateneo. 

21 the beginning and the end. 

I can’t wait for the next book for the book club so I can divert my attention to that. 

Joined the third book club discussion. Yay for the first to many. 

Done with a busy week. Next, one of the busiest month. 

Waiting can be so impatient but trying my best to be patient. Patience is a virtue. Hehe

Sale everywhere!!!! So tempting. Lol

Why did I open Zalora. Hahaha 

Thankful. 

On to the next, one of the busiest month of the year. 

Random . October 2019

Yet again an impulse buy that make me doubtful. 

Why can they act so relaxed when I panic.

Zombie apocalypse is better to happen than seeing this government slowly kill us. 

Reading a book that was published during the pre-gadget / pre-internet era makes me realized life can be simple.

Another week for my anxious self. 

I don’t want to go with specific just because. 

Don’t dare me because I will not going to “think about it”.

The most stressful year to date. 

Why do people ask me when will I get married? Will they sponsor me for the rest of my life? Lol 

That’s why I gave you an option the other day. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Whoa. That’s worst than mine. 

When you are literally empty inside, you will try your best to claim everything you can just for yourself to have a satisfaction that at least from the outside you look complete. When in reality you're

 inside and out will forever be empty. 

Maybe there will be a time that you will just give up helping a close minded person. 

I wonder if they know.....

I need another tattoo

Daddy was downstairs but it was just a dream. 

Looks like we need another help tonight. 

I still have issue when people decided to leave. Apologize with my facial reaction but I’m happy for you and I feel once again sorry for this country. 

Passport renewed. Where to next?

This mall is already exhausting at just noon on a Friday! 

Decided to watch basketball (alone). I figured if I can’t go to Araneta or MOA most especially with this kind of game schedule, might as well grab the opportunity to watch in Antipolo. If you can’t watch the basketball because of location, the basketball gods will bring it to you. Thankful we won. 

Wow. I really miss watching basketball live but I miss Brobabes the most. 

Sometimes it’s just good to watch people. 

Then maybe its my turn to be pissed with this kind of ordering process at Mcdo. 

Bleachin.

I’ve been craving that fruit shake from Jakarta and I couldn’t re-create it. Lol 

Fake news. Lol. But I wish that I can still do that again this time. 

Just don’t want to talk to anybody probably until this week ends. 

I’m good with the current book that I’m reading, check the reptiles video by night and silently scrolling on Twitter. I’m pretty exhausted. 

Before I dwell on this, I’ll fast forward to what should happen. Gnight. 

Dear self, don’t give up.

Random . September 2019

Starting the ber month the right way. 

Adoring the morning life. 

Mall on a weekend. 

Yep. It just doesn’t looks like it. Hehe. 

Timehop from eight years ago makes me realize that basketball really helped me. 

When we’re out of our own workplace, we are just somebody 

Surprisingly, I’m not into watching series or movies lately. 

Somehow thankful that I don’t need to commute everyday. 

Major anxiety attack. Time to disconnect to people. 

Be realistic. 

A friend show up unannounced reminds me of how life is still simple sometimes. 

This Apple Event brings a little excitement in me right now despite of all the stress this week. 

Now back to my anxiety attack. 

11 years and I can still recall what happened exactly. I miss you always, Papa. 

Torn between watching basketball on Saturday or just stay at home 

Don’t put the burden of your own family to others. 

I just know them by name. 

Don’t make us idiots.

If you think you are wiser, think again. 

If you want a quick change, would you think it will be a long term? What if its just for a short period of time? Will it still be worth it? 

You will never accept my real talk. 

When everything is contradicting to each other. 

“Living in the moment” - people don’t get this anymore. 

Decided to stay home catch up on some sleep than watch basketball live. 

Much needed rest for this weekend. Doesn’t mean no stress for the rest of the week. 

I’m not surprised that people still misuse social media. I get it you have to rant but its not the right way. 

There’s too much stress in my life that I’m not interested in some social media bullshit. 

Dinner with friends this week and I can’t wait. At least something positive to look forward to. 

For some people being kind isn’t enough. You should give more than what you have for them to see it and for them to admit you are nice. 

I have this super random thought in my head as a response to your request and for sure you will never accept it. 

We won! Finally they find the spark somewhere in this game 😂. I somehow miss watching the game live. 

Online shopping 😅

It was apparently possible to be so exhausted being around with people. The introvert me just want to stay home. 

If it is an emergency better to do something than wait for my reply. 

Trying to do some work done today but government offices are just until 2pm without prior notice. Wtf 

Feeling empty without my bracelet. 

Why do people need to pay too much attention on teleserye even at work that they can watch the highlight online after? Without interruption and its not basketball! 

Whether it is a gift or a curse, maybe both. 

My life is quite boring compare to these people. 

You know it was a good time with friends when you don’t have a single photo. 

When you see that I do it then demand. If not, shut up. 

My anxiety is on a very high level right now. 

Can I just read a book and escape reality. 

This government require you to pay taxes on time but the same government officials always fail to make this country a better place to live in. 

Weekend work mode. 

Random . August 2019

Another mid-year month which is not my friend obviously but will try to survive this. 

I find comfort at a dentist chair

I live in patterns. 

Not into drama today. 

When “Tattooed On My Mind” play on the radio. I know somehow you are checking up on me, Pot! I miss you too! 

Amazed how I was able to write all of it. 

Why can’t people just shut up

“The hurt is good. It means you’re out of that cave.” -Hopper #StrangerThings S03E08

Just done with #iZombie. 

I’m probably going to be emotional for the rest of the week. 

Since I didn’t watched any UAAP game last year, lets give it another try and I’m missing the vibe. 

Surprisingly even on a rainy day, government facilities are full. 

Just distracting myself but wow 8 years. How did I survived. Missing you always, daddy. 

Remembering what happened 8 years ago. 

Then we wait. Smh

You should’ve been better on that editing. Lol

Why do people blame other people for their actions. Why not just look in the mirror and admit to themselves that they made a mistake. 

Just please. Don’t blame other people from doing your own mistake. 

We are already living in an era where negativity is always winning lets just start to help each other by talking so we will be able to solve the problem not by involving other people. (Still the root of all of these, its your own mistake). 

We both know what you did. Just admit that it’s your fault 

I’m tired of people blaming others for their own good. When at the first place you’ve been nothing but nice to them. This rant is getting long. Maybe it deserved a post. 

Be accountable of your own self. 

Lets not put my patience to test. 

When people try to talk to you and your other ear is with AirPod that they can’t notice. I can’t hear you properly. Hahaha 

I started to read again! Thanks to my book club 📚 

Family time. 

Reading this book makes me miss the family that I grew into. 

Thankful that we were trained to be independent. 

When life changed, you have to adjust. Certain circumstances will not adjust for you. 

Don’t teach them to be right on top when they’re just starting. Let them start at the bottom. 

Finished a book! Finally! 

If a film is 2 hours, no doubt I’ll sleep on it. Lol 

Do you really have to mention/comment on certain post on social media of a person when you see them?

For the sake of my anxiety, I have to say no. Nevertheless over the years, I learned to say no. 

What if? 

Been saying no to a lot of things lately. Don’t get me wrong but its also killing me inside but I have reasons. Just asking you to respect it. 

Nah. I know the drill. 

La Union . Day 4

June 9 2019

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Slept at almost 2am or 3am woke up before 10am. The plan to walk on the beach early morning didn't happen. Lol 

Since we weren't able to experience a night life at Flotsam, we decided to had breakfast there instead. I love beach life. 

Last day is usually packing and traveling 

Walk a little on the hot sand after breakfast and took a bath and pack. Ready to say good bye to La Union which was better this time than the first one except for that place where we stayed. Lol. 

Went to the bus terminal and it was crazy there on a Sunday. Took us few minutes to decide to go back in Baguio where we can score a bus that will surely take us back in Manila than in La Union where there is just a little hope. Haha. 

Baguio again where there's no bus available but there was. Quick snack before hitting the road back to Manila. 

So next time it should be La Union first then Baguio. Next time. 

Hit the road from Baguio by 6pm

Arrived in Manila by 12am or 1am

Home by 2am. 

What a trip. 

At least I'm fully aware of it now. 


My Photographs: La Union

Baguio - La Union 2019 . Day 3

June 8 2019

Wake up a little late since we have to check out by 12pm and we still have to figure out what bus we will ride that can drop us to Urbiztondo (which I totally forgot what bus was that). 

Disappointment with the choice of place in LA Union (misleading advertising via website). They gave us a room where the aircon doesn't work and we almost didn't get a replacement room. I was so close on booking an Airbnb but we got another room but still, never again on that place. Though it is very near at Flotsam. 

La Union weather is so hot. 

We had late lunch but we separated from the group since they decided to walk on the beach further than what we did. 

After late lunch with Hans we decided to walk to the beach side and it's so far at Flotsam! Haha. I thought it was near but we were wrong but by the time I reached Flotsam, it was already sunset. What a view. Just what I need and just what I went for. 

Went back to our room to rest so we can experience night life in La Union but first stop, Halo-halo de Iloko. I was surprised that the store was close for the next hours since it's full house and it was already 8pm. Good thing we are just there for Halo-halo so we asked the server if we can just stay outside to eat and they let us. 

After a cup of Halo-halo, we went back to San Juan and look for a place that serve Bagnet then went back at our room. We decided to went back late to have drinks at Flotsam but they have an event and it was jam-packed that I can't even breathe. So we look for another place to drink and it was almost 11pm. We found a place with available table and drinks. Yes. Capping our last night in La Union with some good music and drinks. 

Good night. 


My Photographs: La Union

Baguio 2019 . Day 2

June 7 2019

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Went back to Mines View Park since they will replace some souvenir they bought yesterday and of course I will not miss Strawberry Taho and tried Ube Taho too but still Strawberry is the best. 

I'm fascinated with museum but some of my friends are not but prior to this trip I already suggested Ben Cab if they will like it and the put it on our itinerary so it's a go. Took a while to get there and the place was nice, so good to see some good art once again. I was also surprised to see some familiar work there. 

It was past 1pm when we're done at Ben Cab and next on the list is Camp John Hay we were dropped by our cab just at the restaurant near the entrance. We weren't able to spend time there much since it looks like it will rain and Burnham Park is still on the list, must do that before anything else. 

Burnham Park where we watched people who are enjoying the bike and the boat ride, we had a good laugh too. After Burnham we walk to the market for them to buy additional souvenirs and we look for Chona's Delight (a cake) which we found. It was a busy afternoon in Baguio. 

Went back to our Airbnb and rest for a while since we started the day early. 

By 9pm we just want some food and good thing one cab driver suggest this 24hrs restaurant called Good Taste. Not one of us ever heard that before and we just want good food. Not expecting anything but the food there was legit. If you will be in Baguio try some Filipino dish there. It was cheap too. 

After our late dinner we just want to walk back to our Airbnb and we passed to the night market most likely a night ukay-ukay on the road. 

Last night in Baguio! 


My Photographs: Baguio

Baguio 2019 . Day 1

June 6 2019

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Left the house by 12mn and I thought it will be easy to get a jeepney by that time and I'm somehow wrong but I was able to ride one. 

My friends booked a Joybus on Genesis and our time of departure is at 2:30am. It's so perfect that by the time we get to Baguio it will be morning. One full day not wasted. 

I was nervous with long bus ride since I'm not into it but I haven't been throwing up for a while now so I guess traveling is okay. And I know my body now so I know what my capabilities are. 

And after a whole day at work, I'm sure will be sleeping on the bus. 

Joybus was okay since it's safe and pre-booked by everyone unless it wasn't full but there's no stopover. At first I was having a hard time sleeping but I did okay and woke up with a mountain view and a sunrise. I love road trips. 

I'm looking forward for this trip for so many reasons. Of course it will be my second trip with this bunch of college friends next to the trip in Olongapo for Faith's wedding. Though this is different it's just really a vacation trip with them for the first time ever. 

I'm also excited to be in Baguio that I can remember since the last time was maybe 16 years ago? And I wasn't able to remember it clearly except for the creepy one.

There's so much to look forward to this trip. There's no stress about it too I just have to be with them for the rest of the trip and wherever we can go and whatever we can do. We have plans though and we were able to accomplish it anyway. 

So when we get there it was maybe almost 7am and we ate at KFC and wait until 9am for our check in. 

Baguio is surely over populated and no it wasn't that cold when we were there. I'm just glad that it didn't rain and we were able to see the beauty of it. 

So we rest after checking in and sleep and went out about 3pm. First on the list eat, and I suggested Grumpy Joe and I'm happy that they liked it. You can never go wrong with Grumpy Joe. Luckily it was Thursday, no lines. I wish I saw Ben, Mich and Vera, tho. Haha. 

Next was Mines View Park. I'm really aware on the places but not on where it is and on how it looks like in person since pictures can be deceiving as always. Now I can say that I can remember it already and had a strawberry taho, maybe a first. 

Then they bought pasalubong. Patay. Haha I told my mom prior to the trip that I will not brought pasalubong. Somehow a challenge since I went over during Taiwan trip and I want to change that as well as to challenge myself not even a ref magnet. Lol and I'm happy to announce that I was able to accomplish it. No pasalubong!!

After that we went back to our Airbnb and then out again to SM Baguio though the other part of SM is under renovation. 

Hans just need to bought some thing at SM and I'm surprised that they got really good stuff in there. 

Next on the list is Baguio Brewery. Aiza wanted to try it and we were game for it. Too bad I'm more of a commercial beer than a craft one. No mojito either so just settled for a normal juice. 

We went back to our Airbnb and we bought San Mig Apple just because. Hehe. 

Goodnight Baguio! 


My Photographs: Baguio

Random . July 2019

It's just the 1st day of this month and it's already messing me up or is it because of last month?

Do I just need another break? Because I can't afford one for now. 

Apologies but that's not just what's in my head. 

Woke up with ilysb (live in la) and I'm missing you so much. 

How to deal with this anxiety. 

Gambling on things I'm not sure if it will be in favor on my side. Then I realize some thing that wasn't prevented before.

Call me. Please. 

Another song that fits perfectly right now. 

The Blacklist season finale makes me so excited. / It was so good!

I was just done with The Blacklist and it's perfect because it's Stranger Things time!

Binge watch Stranger Things for straight 7 hours. Had a good laugh and that letter of Hopper. :(

Squeezed a movie before starting with NCIS, my favorite. 

0707 - good thing I didn't felt you 

Why such dream? 

I need another Paramore show. 

Zivaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

Why this kind of dreams lately. 

Why just going on the nearest convenient store makes me anxious. 

This are the reason why I deserve some few days off.

Survived a busy weekend. 

Well, I guess I will do the old-fashioned way and just the right way to do it. 

Spent 2 hours watching a ball pythons to hatch. Probably will check again in a few. They're so cute! 

My insomnia is terrible lately 

Mid-year is really not my jam

Why do people block the hallway. 

Maybe it's okay just to be happy for other people. 

That simple satisfaction after transferring files from my phone to my hard drive. 

You can rant on social media but as impossible as it can be, try not to be specific with names. Better to address it the way it should be and not just the way you wanted.

Emotions can be tricky so let it pass before doing something that you might regret 

I sacrificed tattoo for years, now I might sacrificed some concerts for tattoo

These are the days that I can go on some vacation. 

Welcome back to Manila, LANY. 

L A N Y. </3

Flashback to the time that I almost purchase a LANY ticket last year for their show in Araneta. / Regrets. 

I thought I will be jealous seeing some clips from the 1st of 3 nights of LANY but I was wrong. I might be crying if I was there / if I will be there but it doesn't feel the same and it will never change. 

My anxiety can't handle some waiting game at the moment 

Regrets after spending much on food trip. 

Respect to the people can deal and at least understand my frustrations. 

I might break down after ‎today.