Dreamland

 How many more dreams before it become real? 

Everything seems so clear. 

You were really there by my side on every single one of them. 

06.19.2021 18:01

Currently Missing

 

Reacting to one IG post then I was hanging out with a friend the next day. Lol 

I miss casually talking to people. 

Talking to friends now includes update on how we deal with this pandemic on our own. Which was a good conversation to start with. 

I don’t usually use Facebook so any post that can be start as a gossip from someone from grade school or high school is a bummer for me.

We can talk about celebrities, current events and some other things but talking about batch mates from school, I can’t keep up to that. Lol I can’t stand gossip. I just can’t. Maybe because I don’t really care about those people much because they are not part of my life. 

Yes to current events and recommendations and life shits in general. 

I miss that.

I miss hanging out to people that I know will not stab me in the back, as well

I miss hanging out with people that I don’t need to explain much of my life choices and what I really do with life which I fucked up on some. Which we all are.

One of my friend will be back home from the UK soon and I can’t wait to hangout with her. Manifesting that Brobabes will be able to be complete this year again. Wishing that everything will be okay by then since there are a lot of happening in the world and the restrictions here is a different story.

Yes, we can still hangout online but hanging out for real is still different.

I miss watching people too. 

I want to travel even just go to the city but there is a part of me that is still somehow scared and I have to think the people around me on a daily basis. 

But despite of that I’m focusing for now on some things that I can control at the moment and it’s like starting from scratch but so far so good. As well as on focusing on myself which is a never ending process. 

Routines can be boring but even we are living with restriction we should know how to spice things up for it not to be boring. 

At the end of the day, I’m so thankful for the music that artist made during this pandemic since it is one of the things that keeps me going. 

As some restriction is easing up, hopefully this is the time that we can go back even slowly to the normal that we used to or to the “new normal” as they call it. Whatever it will be, stay safe and don’t forget that at some point in our lives we all became a germaphobe.  

One Year of Netflix

 

Will anyone believe that we just subscribed on Netflix a year ago? Yes, 2021. We survived the first year of the pandemic (2020) without it which at some point I don’t believe but I have my reason and it was good to watch just any show that is available on the cable. 

The reason why I decided to subscribe on Netflix was, I was talking to my mom about watching movies in the cinema and we came to the price of it where you will pay 200php for the basic cinema and up until who knows the one with special seats and the director’s cinema, etc. That’s when I realized that 550php (as the current rate) will not hurt that much if you have unlimited TV shows and up to 5 accounts that can be shared to family. My aunt agreed to pay half of it as long as they will have access on their TV. Not bad. 

No regrets so far, my mom is now hooked on whatever TV shows she likes and now that she is part of the K-drama bandwagon. She also just stays at home most of the time, I’m happy that she is the one enjoying it the most. 

One reason why I was so hesitant about it is that you can’t really have access to just view the shows that is available but no regrets and if you don’t like it then just cancel.  

I’m really not into much TV shows that I’m more of a music person but I also enjoy it, tbh even they don’t have my number one favorite TV show which is NCIS. Though I already watched a lot and finished some TV series and some documentaries. 

We are satisfied customer but I can still live without it at some point in life. 

Random . February 2022

 

I want to cry but I know that it will not do the work or the change that I needed. 

Sometimes, I just really stopped caring. 

If that’s your reason, it’s pretty lame but I understand. 

Its not everyday that I hear different noises from people that’s why I don’t limit myself to music. Though sometimes it’s also deafening. #Antipolo

Hello its good to be back even it’s a very long one today. Hello to you too, anxiety. #Antipolo 

Wasn’t able to sleep properly thinking about a lot of things. If I don’t need to be early today, I probably took some melatonin last night. 

And then there’s chaos. 

Life can be repetitive you have to make some twist for it not to be boring.

I guess I will not be back in Antipolo for some time. 

Took me while to figure out how to make this easy, all this time it was just right in front of me. Lol

People who are willing to help and I can’t believe that there are people who still understands. Thank you. 

Booster shot. 02.05.2022

Taking the rest day/time that is available. 

Oh wow. Now I regret that burger and I might not eat one for some time. Lol 

Thankful once again for the people who are willing to help. 

Happy Birthday, Dade and Dap! 

Campaign for the election officially started today. 

Fast phase world. 

Don’t be fooled by the hair color. 

Maybe I will stop going to church for awhile, again. 

They don’t like a gruesome movies or series but their opinion tells otherwise. 

I’ve been lazy the whole week. Why. 

Weird dreams. 

Numb. 02.12.2022

Forgiving is not forgetting. #Paramore 

Catching up on my podcast as I work on a Sunday. 

Productive Sunday. 

I’m days away from my free trial of Apple TV, 2 movies tonight before I cancel. 

Friday. 

I’m so over with food ordering from Foodpanda. Lol #stresseating 

After signing a lot of papers, I’m asking myself why did I end up with such signature. I wish I know better. Lol

It’s 2am of a Saturday and I still feel super full. What time will I sleep. #stresseating 

Then I thought of the next tattoos. 

I’m regretting that hot chocolate drink. Lol 

My shoe collection are making a comeback. I’m wearing them one by one everyday. 

When it still feels right. #21 02.19.2022

Yay. Finally I was able to catch up on my podcasts. 

I just start watching #InventingAnna 

And just like that, weekend is almost over. 4 work days and it will be a long weekend.  

One year of Netflix 

02.22.2022

Done with #InventingAnna

Busy bee. I’m forgetting to write. 

Starting to collect something new. 

What a good deal for a Klean Kanteen tumbler. 

Coffee with a friend. Yay. Its been a while. 

I’ve missed talking for so long with a friend. Today was a good day. 

The red flags are real and my instincts are true. 

Busy weekend.

P R I O R I T I E S 

I have trust issues and if you easily trust people, I have nothing against that. 

This new album of Avril 

Oh wow, this month went so fast. 

Told you so 

On Repeat . Love Sux

Space

I'm really trying my best to be a somewhat minimalist as far as I can. As part of growing up and as I'm already out of school for 11 years this year, I want to get rid of a space occupied by papers from college. 

I was planning to get another desk or drawer but then I remember to finally use the space that was just consumed by papers that I don't use anymore. 

I plan to do it maybe a day or two because I originally want to check it one by one but it was a lot. I already got empty boxes and when I was just listening to a webinar, I started to remove them and put it on the boxes. 

I can’t believe that it took me 11 years. Lol but seriously, it's about time. I still have 2 space where I store some old paper bags and one for the my gadgets boxes but I think that will be there to whenever. At least they're inside and not just a clutter that I see daily. 

I'm pretty happy with the result. 

I still want to do a work space but I don't have a proper space anymore. Maybe when I do a major revamp but I doubt that it will happen soon. 

I also declutter some clothes and my shirts are mostly plain now. 

I'm challenging myself to not purchase a bag, shoes and too much clothes this year and not until I should get rid of my current shirts because it's time to replace them. 

Just a little update and a life proof. 

We dont need a "new year" just to start or change something.

 

On Repeat . Wake Up Sunshine

The Less I Know

 I’m over thinking but for now I’ll go to dream land.

When I wake up in the morning I’ll go back to reality, to the usual. 

Nothing will happen if I’m being kept at bay might as well be productive for myself 

And maybe the less I know the better. 

04.18.2021 04:51