On Repeat . Six Feet Under

Six Feet Under by Billie Eilish 

                                                                Help, I lost myself again

But I remember you
Don't come back, it won't end well
But I wish you'd tell me too

Our love is six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom
Again?

Retrace my lips
Erase your touch
It's all too much for me
Blow away
Like smoke in air
How can you die carelessly?

Our love is six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom?

They're playing our sound
Laying us down tonight
And all of these clouds
Crying us back to life
But you're cold as a knife

Six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Bloom
Bloom

Again

Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you

Random . April 2021

 

Re-watching Brooklyn Nine Nine

Can people stop complaining. Can everyone just lend a hand to help without crying out loud. Just adjust with the current situation because this time you dont have any choice. 

Don’t wait for the future consequences of having too much complain. You as well have many favors just like them.

Just a little consideration. 

People, if you will rant make sure you have all the evidence to do so. 

Two movies and a documentary

Sorry as much as I want to be out there I also somehow take extra precaution just to be safe and I want to enjoy the no pressure day aka holiday. 

Reading out loud alone is my new thing 

Is it the current book that I’m reading affect my current actions or it’s just this current reality

Movie for tonight 

It takes a lot of effort to be numb. 

I’m starting to question how people decide on things during this pandemic. Although I may not understand it, I just hope that they don’t have regrets. 

I’m playing safe while waiting for this pandemic to end so I can plan things. 

Trying to accomplish one hobby per night. Need to have a rotation

What is another action that is equally the same as a hug 

When you tested positive and still in quarantine, you could ask for help. This is one reason why this virus is spreading and you are not thinking about other people. 

People losing their common sense. Smh 

When you are trying to be independent but you know you will never be because you just can’t. 

If this virus is man-made, did you imagine that it will be affecting billions of people? Have you seen so many or thousands of people in a crowd together? Have you been in a live concert, a festival with thousand of people? This are just few scene that you unconsciously taken away from people, from us. Why did you take it away. I guess you don’t know what fun is. 

People should stop asking why this and why that. I have an answer for all your questions, the pandemic happened. 

This current reality is making me scared but I still have some belief that I stand on. 

Maybe not this time or maybe it is just not for me. Which is which I don’t know. 

It will always be tiring if you are stuck in a middle of a process. It’s so good for other people to have found their end game. 

No matter what you do, how busy you are, how you entertain yourself, anxiety will always get in the way. 

I wish somewhere that I can be able to read your thoughts

I miss hearing your opinions about anything

I will not teach you how to handle your own temper. 

Bleachin’

I’ll finish this book that I’m currently reading right now before I start on a new TV series to watch. I already did a movie, catch up on my TV series, read a book and bleach my hair. Also, catching up on podcasts! 

Whoa my screen time the past week is so bad! Need to lessen it. 

Don’t make a wrong move

Don’t give pressure to people just because of your personal needs. 

Everything is done ahead of time. Thankful for free day. 

Finished another book! I can now start another tv series. 

Catching up on podcast by day then new series by night. Yikes!! 

MOA in my dream with my dude! 

The things I can’t unsee. Lol 

This is why I don’t trust CCTV footage because it can be tampered. 

When no one is asking and questioning but you want to make an issue. 

You know the rules first hand but you’re the one who violates. Great.  

Mom has been requesting movie night all week but I was busy. Watched something tonight even I wanted to finish Season 1 of #PrisonBreak

“The less you know the better” - Michael Scofield #PrisonBreak

IF this is airborne, will we ever breathe fresh air again?

The flip phone era on #PrisonBreak !!!!!! 

I’m almost finish with Season 2 of #PrisonBreak. First 2 season took me only 6 days, 3 days each. 

Unaware but these people should be really aware how big the outside world

Sorry. Not this time. 

Early tomorrow but I forgot that later will be the #AppleEvent

Morning people. I’m not one of them. Lol

I had 2 busy morning prior to weekend and it was really not for me but got to do these things 

Never been this knock out for a while. 

Already on Season 4 of #PrisonBreak 04.24.2021 / Started watching it April 15, 2021

Be careful on what you wish for 

I get it but I know there’s something more and I don’t trust that. 

Been MIA because of #PrisonBreak . Hehe

So fun to see some familiar faces on #PrisonBreak 

Really missing the attitude of a flip phone. #PrisonBreak 

I can’t honestly imagine being stuck for just one episode every week of #PrisonBreak when it was airing. I was so hooked and I can’t stop watching this show. 

These people waste more than just our time. 

Literally a busy week 

Need to lessen my screen time again

From flip phone to screen ones. Oh I didn’t realize that it was 7 or 8 years from Season 4 to Season 5!!! #PrisonBreak

An errand that looks like a competition because you have to get a number to be entertained. 

Miss this kind of conversation! So random. #21

Done with #PrisonBreak in less than 2 weeks. While it tool me a month for #Lucifer

Only these people who lined up early morning know the real struggle and not you who keep on encoding. We also have other things to do so just be nice and kind on explaining. 

It doesn’t mean that I’m just sitting in front of the computer and it’s not tiring at all. It is very tiring and draining as well but some days are better and some are worst. 

It is not less than a physical work. It’s almost just the same

You’re not the only one who got a full plate in front of you 

 Hometown to Antipolo in less than 30 minutes. Let’s go back and forth 3x. 

Ugh. Why don’t give proper instructions ahead. You are wasting so many time. People lined up early just get a number and after waiting for hours you will not be nice and you are the one who is upset. Hello, we both just working on both of our ends. 

This government agency is one if the things that I hate to deal with. Instructions are not explained properly or sometimes it is always changing. Maybe it was just one person. Kindly entertain us in a proper way. 

Errand day. 

Please be surprised as a return of a tiring week just dealing with these people. Up to the next. Don’t rush. Just wait. 

Good thing I’m somehow sneaky. Maybe it is because I always think five steps ahead. 

Pod Sibs Book Club . Get A Life, Chloe Brown (February 2021)

 Get A Life, Chloe Brown by Talia Hibbert 

I’ve been MIA on the book club for a year now since reality is happening and book is not working on distracting me so I stopped reading books. 

This year was a little bit better than the past months so I decided to get back reading and this hobby shouldn’t be stopped for a long period of time again. I checked what was the book that was on the past list from the club and somehow I decided to read this book from last February 2021. 

I gave this 2 stars on good reads although I also like this kind of genre on books it’s just not a good book to read if you are a first time reader or in my case, a returnee.

On the another universe, this can be an adventure and a love story but as far as I can remember there are probably 3 or 4 that checked on her list when she meant “getting a life”. Her condition was exceptional but sometimes it tend not to be bother on some situations and really just camping? Camping was the only far most adventure she got. Getting a life is more than what was just written or maybe that was already an adventure to some. Though in books, the world unpredictable and anything can happen and there are a lot more that what happened in the book. I didn’t expect anything but somehow I wish I was surprised on the latter. 

It was also somehow became, get a sex life, chloe brown. 

To be honest, I was also flipping a lot of pages just because I don’t find it entertaining. 

I think I didn’t highlight anything on this book, oh wait there is one. 

“As long as you cried, you’ll be okay” - Red | Get A Life, Chloe Brown by Talia Hibbert

On Repeat . don't smile at me

don't smile at me by Billie Eilish

Random . March 2021

 

Two for today because I just don’t want to stare at the window just to wait for me to fall asleep. 

One more reason is I just want to feel numb a that I don’t like to feel 2015 all over again

There are those days that I wish someone will just hold me 

The tears of being exhausted staying in 

Why does it feels like it’s a breakup 

I can finally say that I have decent friends

It’s different when you catch up on a TV series with 5 season. It was not as intense as when you watch it when it was released. It was just literally Netflix and Chill. Binge watch just to be occupied 

Killing all my daydream

I almost forgot what it feels like to be outside 

Seeing notes from the past year which I can’t even remember but one thing is for sure, I lived in that moment. For sure next years, I will also forget what I’m feeling today. 

Another day that I’m having anxiety. You don’t have to know but I just want to document it for a reminder. 03.06.2021

11 years ago I was trying to prove someone but I guess it didn’t happen until this day and it will never will. Self love though, makes me realize my worth as well. 

Was it a daydream or it’s already a fantasy?

I guess you just really have to take good care of yourself than dictating people to stay at home. Maybe they already went back to the usual normal. 

You don’t have any idea but I just want to let you know even late that it’s been a handful of times where we crammed last minute. 

Will it be just all a dream?

When you doubt if you are already over sharing some of your personal shit, always remember that there are people who are really over sharing everything without them knowing it. 

Action speaks louder than words. A picture can tell a thousand of words. Never ever rely on CCTV it can never tell what you are thinking as of the moment. 

It was so good to be out again but it will take a while for it to happen again. 

If rejecting people comes with protecting myself or just to keep me sane, I’ll do it. 

Busy Saturday for a free Sunday. Why not. 

Barely, I really don’t have time for all the gossip and shit of these people. 

I’ve been watching a series for almost a month and I promise that after watching the five season of Lucifer, I’ll read a book 

It’s been a year since lockdown and some things still hit different this time. 

Some people and things are still taken for granted. 

Being in lockdown still makes me realize all the events, hobbies and places that I’ve attended or been to. Realizing that we can’t still socialize for a little longer. 

Maybe the last few years were taken for granted. 

I don’t want to watch a movie at night then I decided on watching “Billie Eilish: “The World’s a Little Blurry” when I think it will calm me. Dude, I’m so hype after watching that I want to write about a lot of things and do some crazy things and at the same time I shed some tears. Why. So much realizations too! 

I took one tonight just because I just want to sleep and not over think things. 

One of those days that I miss the usual normal, some people, events, hanging out with friends and some places. 

I miss talking to you. I miss the conversations. #M

Currently avoiding being too emotional. 

I have so many issues. Lol

I’m not willing to take a risk just for your own sake. 

25 years. 

Birthday and Anniversary really hit differently every single time. 

It will be remembered but it is also for you to take extra precaution

Hangout with hometown friends

Chill weekend 

Movies are probably one thing why we all survive the past year but watching documentaries about the street hit very different. I’m thinking how was them during this difficult time. Also, that normalcy that was somehow taken for granted. 

One year into this new normal and everything still hit very differently from time to time. 

Just bought some plain dark shirts and now I’m looking for some light shirt on my closet because summer. 

This is one reason why I can’t read because reality is too much. 

Still unsure about this vaccine 

I started reading this week and it’s a very slow progress

Thank you for peeking on my window 

It actually feels like the end of the world. 

Reading this part of the book makes me miss a very long conversations with you

Finished a book! Even it wasn’t the right choice for a reading come back 

As if aging also stop when we needed to stay at home and be locked up

Books and movies are not helping. It makes me miss a lot of things. 

Feels like 10 years will be stolen just like that. 

Sad to report that even with this pandemic and everyone is having some major realization in life, there are still people who doesn’t change. 

Hours

 

Let me cry in front of you

Let me listen to you while you talk

Give me a hug so tight that I can’t breathe

Whisper the words that you want me to remember

Lets just talk for hours just how we usually do

08.05.2019

Sunset

 I don't usually have time to watch or observe the sunset but when I do, I do take pictures.

Sunsets are my jam and I usually missed it because of work but no regrets it's just I'm jealous of people who have photos to post or just to look back or maybe just there on their phone gallery.

It makes me feel good to witness a beautiful cloud formation what more an orange sky or a pink one during sunsets

I miss the beach and just looking out there where the sky meets the sea and there's nothing else in between.

One reason why I ask for sunset photos or even just the sky of different places or just wherever you are. For now that I can't travel. That somehow I wish that I can go to MOA to catch one.

Ahhh.... My love for the sky.

On Repeat . When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?

 When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go? By Billie Eilish 

After watching Billie Eilish: The World’s A Little Blurry, I can’t help to listen to her songs. It’s been a while when I decided to listen to her but didn’t happened. 

After being so addicted to Flowers for Vases, I think it’s time and it didn’t  disappoint.

I’m actually listening to her music and at the same time, watch some videos on YouTube.

Be back, I’ll continue on listening.