Sunday, December 31, 2023

Random . December 2023


Please be kind. 


My feelings are valid I know that but at the same time, I can’t make it as an excuse to other people because it is not valid. 


Some things are just out of my control. 


I guess there’s no zombie apocalypse happened overnight. 


This is me asking for help 


3 years ago today, I made one of the best decision ever. #lasik 12.01 


Weekend Mcdo craving is real. 


Bleached my undercut and a little some more 


This week my sleep schedule was a mess 


Remembering that dream and trying to figure out the meaning brings tears to me eyes 


CHAMFEUNS - #UAAPCDC2023 


I didn’t checked my rings before removing my watch and I wasn’t able to close my exercise ring. Clearly I’m not on the right track these days 


I can’t tell you everything so I just lie 


I hope one day I will still be able to enjoy the holiday season and this like in general 


I think this is the first time I’m listening to Hayley’s solo project with earphones and it is blowing my mind 


Uninterrupted yoga session but my mind is betraying me 


Such a mess. Everything is behind on the usual schedule and I’m fucked up 


How to survive today


Can I hide forever


I want to watch the game on Wednesday but I know the real struggle of scoring tickets so I’ll just let the idea go and just be #teambahay and give the opportunity to the real fans and hopefully they will be inside the arena. #UPfight 


#UAAP Wednesday is something to look forward until then I’ll just choose to exist despite of everything that stressing me out. 


Can you just compose a reply without asking me? I’m sure you can state the obvious


Eliminating some stress triggers 


It might be the same person but never the same in terms of attitude which can be better or worse 


Uh no, I got problem with balancing today but still a successful workout


I thought I can read while waiting. Looks like it is hard to read poems in public because I may not truly understand it 


The one you thought will fix things also the one who ruined it more. As always you are accountable for all of it. 


Yay! Pencil’s new tip is here and it is working smoothly again. 


Congratulations, UST Lady Tigresses! So happy that I was able to witness your finals journey 


Working while watching an intense Game 3 Finals 


I knew it, Congratulations La Salle! 


DLSU-UP Game 3 even set a new crowd record in Araneta that broke NU-FEU game in 2014. 


When everything comes with a price tag


I don’t like to interact with people who gossip with people they don’t know in public which are also whiners 


When everything you touched now is damaged as fuck 


First weekend without UAAP. 


Taking some rest on a Sunday because I’m aware that I needed that 


It is raining


Finished my 10th book this year! 


I didn’t sleep well or I’m just half asleep the whole time 


Since I think I’m half asleep last night, I’ll just work tonight so I will be so tired in an hour or so 


Schedule ruined so let’s twist it even more


Face your fear they say but what about the triggers of your anxiety?


IG spam as to catch up on some life events this year after not posting anything a whole year. 


Got a notification about the PBA game of San Miguel and Brgy. Ginebra and it’s already at the half of 3rd quarter. So good to see players we watched then at the collegiate but mostly so nice to see TR play again after a while. 


“You don’t feel a sense of any victory when you win because the process is so dehumanizing” - Taylor Swift | Miss Americana 


If you are asking how I can sleep at night, well I actually can’t sleep most nights


I don’t want to cry because that will not solve anything 


“Talk is cheap” Kourtney 


In a very bad state if my insomnia is back and I’m still wide awake at almost 6am 


Somehow years I ago I learned that no one will save you 


Please text because I’m scared of unknown numbers and there’s 3 calling me today and it’s not for a parcel I’m waiting 


Now that I don’t have anything hiding in one of my drawers, I badly need melatonin 


Going to gatherings where your trigger and your bully is also present is basically suicide might as well stay away 


The aftermath of leg day 


Don’t fucking do it. Just don’t. 


And we might not attend all the family gatherings this holiday season. 


As if it is just as easy


Not a day to have my eye checked. Lol 


How people get angry and just go home like nothing happened 


Headache. 


I’m so close on having an attack. I’ll try to calm my nerves


Thankfully no more headache this morning. 


I’m not surprised that you only did it just once or twice 


1 year with my iPhone 14 Plus 


I guess no off days 


SO FUCKING TIRED AND DRAINED


God bless my anxiety and trauma self 


End up attending gatherings. Merry Christmas. 


Too much notification give me anxiety too. 


Birthday is over and as much as I want to reflect on my whole year, we still have things to do. Thankful no matter what with everything 


I’ll be kind to myself and so I’ll just read tonight and do the work tomorrow


Excuse me. I do know what im doing. Wtf for confusing me. 


Wasted a day now im somehow running out of time. Lol


Now what to do. 


When we will be the time where we all have the luxury to rest during end of the year craze. 


Pilates for today before the world kills me 


I will not question anymore if I will survive this year but I will be able to end it on a good note? Maybe not. 


You finished one and here comes another. 


FUCK 


That kind of silence that is deafening. 


2023, thank you for the life lessons and the ocean size of anxiety 

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