Sunday, May 31, 2020

Random . May 2020



May, will you be a better one than the previous? 

Doesn’t matter on how it helped you with this current reality, we are all affected anyway. Just don’t forget how it helped you even without this virus. Also remind yourself why you are living that way.

We shouldn’t bring the past back but living that way in the past brought us here in the present.

Why do people trust an unbranded USB drive. 

When I encountered a laptop problem during quarantine. 

I need to read a book but I also want to watch five full season of different TV series. 

I’m trying to recall what was life before quarantine which feels so long ago. I can’t almost remember. 

How naked you need to be in public just to let them know you are empty inside. 

Now that we are somehow over the lockdown period, why do people go back to the usual so fast when we are all just recovering from what we lost. 

I can’t almost relate to the podcast episode that I’m listening that was published earlier this year. 

I don’t want to put some faces on names that you always mention. 

Some people will really rejoice on your failure. 

My frustration over other people is too much. 

For other people they already excepted it as their duty but for some it’s all about the money. I get it we all work for that but sometimes you got to do what you need to do with or without the money.

Why do some people go back to normal as if nothing happened. Our enemy is really just waiting for us to lose our patience. 

Will my anxiety and frustration make me sleep tonight? Who know. Good night. 

Everyone is really returning to the usual normal when we shouldn’t. 

Most people are generous this days and went from losing their patience and frustration. 

I want to do something but I don’t know what it is and it’s already 1 AM. I’m so hype and I’m so screwed.

I wish I am also living on the same village with my friends.

Can all smart phone just have a speaker on the side because it’s much better.

The reason of me not answering a phone call is none of your business. There are a lot of reasons why someone can’t answer a call. Don’t assume. 

Personality over.

Invest in your home or house or just what’s inside of it because you will never know when you will be stuck for a month or two. 

First stop after ECQ will be the dentist. 

It was a productive day that I was able to fix my other hard drive. That was so satisfying.

Good thing I didn’t gave in on buying some unnecessary stuff that I don’t have to think about it right now.

One thing I do when I go out is to observe people, maybe it will be fun to observe the new normal with social distancing and people wearing masks in public.

The only thing that’s preventing me to read a book is the release of Petals for Armor this weekend.

Days are just passing by quickly.

Happy birthday Papa. I miss you so much. 

Now I know why I didn’t like you before when I saw you for the first time.

At this day of quarantine I really wish we have a pool in the house. That is a total dream.

If that wasn’t clear enough for you, I’m not sure how close minded you are. 

I cooked three meals.

There are a lot of things to write but my head is wrapped up on Petals for Armor. 

I am once again preventing to express some feelings but Petals for Armor part three is pure expression. 

I am ignoring writing all of these feelings for a while now. 

The other day I was thinking of what was life before quarantine but now everyone is just like back to normal. Which is a little bit strange. 

So good to spend time with cousins once again. 

Too much distraction on one silent night. 

I’m sorry to give in to upgrade but if I start to think critically, facts can’t hide and I can’t run away from it. 

If it happened a year ago, we can make a way to solve it. If it is happening right now in the middle of a pandemic, I think you should be considerate. 

When I prepare the right words, it just escaped me and I will end up not writing anything at all. 

Made a chocolate chip from scratch. It was almost perfect until I ruined it. Trial and error. 

It pains me when people are frustrated that I can’t do anything about it. 

Its hard to make people understand or look at your own perspective because they also have their own. 

I watched 10 season of The Walking Dead and I think that’s too much to handle

If I decide to be too honest, will you take it all? Will you really understand?

This is also the time where people should accept their previous life decisions. Been there. 

Maybe we fail in such but guess what, maybe we all screwed up. 

Missing the hyper doggies. 

One reason why somehow I’m not being fully affected is that we both know personally that sometimes when you asked, it’s automatically granted. 

What if I quit. 

Dark times. 

It was a though month to write or writers block. 

Anxiety attack

I stress eat today. 

It’s been a while since I ordered something online and now that I have ordered, I can’t wait to get them. Its taking so long. Lol

Took a moment to listen to 26 I think I needed that. 

I almost screwed up. Fck. 



Tuesday, May 19, 2020

On Repeat . Petals for Armor III

Petals for Armor by Hayley Williams



Can it be considered if I have no words for this album? 

There are a lot of very nice reviews about this album and I will be for sure biased as I’m a huge fan of this woman. 

Petals for Armor is one reason why I was able to survive the past month with this pandemic and I will be forever thankful for that. Isn’t it cool that Hayley Williams finally gave in on releasing her own album and it was released in a middle of pandemic. Memorable. 

The last 5 songs are released on May 8th and as we already indulge the first 10 songs, we are very well prepared for the last 5 songs. Hayley released it by part on purpose and after it was released we understand why she did that. It was nice to have something to look forward every week during quarantine. 

So for the last five song, my rank will be 

Crystal Clear
Pure Love
Watch Me While I Bloom
Sugar On The Rim
Taken

Not sure on when will I put the full album maybe soon and it’s going to be a while before I’ll move on from this part. 

Petals for Armor is almost out for a month now. If you haven’t listened, stream it now.


“I won’t give in to the fear” - Crystal Clear 

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Random . April 2020





Hopefully this will be a better month than the last. 

Do you wish to have an invisible cloak in this time a quarantine just to go out?

As much as I want to plan the things that I want to do or what I want to eat or where to go after this quarantine, I just want this to be over so we will all move on and adjust to the new normal / new routine. 

It is already hard to decide when everything was normal what more when everything is literally on hold.

I’m avoiding to watch the news but looks like I still need to be updated for the sake of everyone. 

Obviously it’s a harassment. 

My critical thinking is on vacation. Wait till the comeback. 

This new song from Hayley !!!!!!! #OverYet

This stress caused by other people will end me. Really.

I’ll let you do what you do but when it comes to fixing the things that you failed to do, don’t leave it to me to fix it.

If I ditched one, I usually do it to everyone. 

It’s hard to decide on things if you have limited resources. 

Carbonara was almost a success. 

I shouldn’t be watching a love story but I finished two movies.

Don’t assume that after this lockdown, we will quickly go back to the usual normal. We need some time to adjust.

People in the wrong decisions.

I put Parmesan cheese on everything.

I was supposed to have a scheduled something today that I will for sure end up in Megamall. I dreamed of roaming around the mall and maybe I will be able to schedule to cross out that #2020goal. Got to wait a little bit longer.

I want to include a note or a quote that will strike you into your inner conscience but that will never have an effect.

When you badly want to change the battery even it is still working.

When you wanted transparency but you unconsciously make it more hidden.

Don’t we just miss the hype.

I was living a daily routine before the lockdown and now it was cut into half and got so many time for other stuff.

I’m not sure if “thank you” will make you feel better if you’re so anxious for a month now.

Baking. Lol. Fail. Oh wait. Somehow success. 

Twenty One Pilots once again save me with #LevelOfConcern

So thankful for music. 

For years that I’ve been cutting my hair, I was really doing it in a very wrong way. I got a good tip and end up trimming my hair at 5 AM. 

With all the cooking that I do lately, feels like dad was in me. I miss you daddy and somehow I wish you are with us during this quarantine. 

Cubao, I miss you. 

Raining on Easter. 

If you ever started to question, I suggest to just look in the mirror and ask yourself. 

I think I’ll breakdown soon. 

I just wish people will always keep an open mind most especially during such situation. 

When we were young, we always say we want to be a doctor to help cure the sick people. Right now, it’s just all about the money that so far to the thinking when we were kids. #SadTruth

When you try to show off to people but on the other side of it, there’s harassment. 

This day started as shit and might as well end it the same. 

Maybe the day that I will breakdown. 04.15.2020

When their level of understanding is way much higher than you are. 

Basic and people are already complaining. How we will survive the complicated ones if we are like this. .

I get it, the effect of this lockdown to people like changing temper and understanding but boy I wasn’t prepared for some people's bullshit.

Maybe when I thought I’m already at my worst state, the universe is telling me differently.

Was it worse than the bullying before? Maybe not. Probably there’s few new ones roaming right now.

I’m a believer of talking for better communication but if you’re willing to seek for answer or explanation please do keep an open mind.

A little understanding will not hurt and I also 100% understand the frustration but you could’ve been nicer.

I’m too tired to argue, kids. Let’s talk whenever you’re cool.

I don’t want to be a bitch to all of you.

I cried. It was for being happy, sad, for the frustration, fear and anxiety but it was a good cry. 04.16.2020 

Apple announce the new iPhone SE!!!

Hayley Williams will release a new song later!

Don’t make me upset about something because I might do a retail therapy that I don’t need. :-)

I badly need some hugs, the tightest one.

Why am I at least expecting something like a backlash but if that happened, I’ll be shocked or maybe not that you step down to that level.

A little bit of understanding and patience. Some people don’t even have anything.

Time to face another day and I do expect that you moved on from yesterday. 

Unplanned call end up with talking for almost one hour that I once again laugh. Thank you for the time, M. 04.17.2020

This new song from Hayley!!!

We should be sleeping on a bunk bed in a hostel in La Union tonight. #Chikababes

For now, let us just dream about La Union

Silently wishing for a total lockdown just to escape and to make some thing to stop. Also for this increasing of numbers of positive cases to at least be stable or decrease. 

I really do feel bad but for now I think we should depend on our current reality. #M21 

Should be the last day of a weekend in La Union. I miss the beach. I miss traveling. 

I’m actual thinking of posting something about my previous vacations but I’m still unsure on what are the specifics that I should be and shouldn’t be posting. I’m still in doubt about it. 

2 days in a row for grocery shopping. I love grocery shopping even before this lockdown. 

I don't even care on how I look if I’m just going to the grocery store. 

omg. I'm so happy. Got my supply of eye drops!!! 

Milk tea fix! :)

Here we go with people’s patience

If you weren't able to receive any, it’s a government issue. Welcome to reality. 

I told you that I will never be on your side. I think I made that clear but you make yourself believe differently. 

I feel so overwhelmed with all the connection of these songs! #DeadHorse 

I can’t also imagine what she’s been through all those years. 

4 years ago. Araneta Coliseum. Red Gate. 04.22.2020

This new ATL album is making me smile. 

Don't make this current reality an excuse because even without this crisis, you are already living that way. 

I don't ask for too much. I guess time is really gold. 

Was being defeated naturally is way better than be killed by one? 

If I'm going to lose you for being honest, then I'm going to live with that.

Feel so sorry for people who are hooked up with teleserye for life. Lol not really. 

Two months of quarantine. Two months of my normal life. Few more weeks of anxiety. 

People introducing their self the way that they shouldn’t. You should be recognized by the way you do and not like this. It was so bad. 

I love testing people’s patience. It just show their true color. 

There was a little guilt trip from that but you screwed up yourself. Lol 

I got some facts while you got your attitude. 

Summer nights

People who doesn't have an inch of consideration in life. 

Will it still be my fault if I already warned you?

That's pretty obvious but I will not ask question, you should know what to do. 

I was trying to understand that dream but I could recall it.

People have trust issue and I get that. 

When people make me doubt myself. 

Domino effect.