On Repeat . Something To Tell You

Fragile

You are so fragile

I can’t hold you

I can’t even touch you

I can’t kiss you either

That even by looking at you

I’m not sure if you will be destroyed

Maybe even just talking to you

Might break you 

06.17.2022 02:22

Random . January 2024

Happy New Year!

Starting over but it shouldn’t be that way

Just same old shit

Right now I do clearly remember but in a few weeks where I start to wonder probably I forgot all already 

You have no fucking idea

Walking around Cubao

Buying tickets for GomBurZa and then some of the cast appeared at the ticket booth

Laptop is once again fixed

Cramps while walking

Movie date with the dude!

Don’t ask why I really love Gateway Cineplex

Mr. Brian Barcyzk :( 

Cramps

You are slowly fading from my memory #21

Physically tired but my mind is still working

The fuck!

Somehow in this life we need someone that will hold our hands no matter what 

Why am I so tired when I just woke up 

Megamall

I cant really understand the sizing of Crocs

On queue and my number is freaking 21. - 01.12.2024 

Finished my first book for the year that I started last December. - 01.12.2024 

I cringe to hear him saying encouraging words when all I can hear is shouting and anger. 

So good to have transferred photos from my phone to the laptop so I can finally delete 

“But I rather let you go than make you feel like you’ve gotta stay” - Cause You Have To | LANY

Cleaning up my phone! 

When you become the evil you never was but maybe all along you were never an angel. What happened to the realization when you had couple of chance in life 

Happy Birthday, M! 

There’s a phase in my dream that I want to go back on and remember but I can’t. - 01.16.2024 

Watch me as I burn 

You are one hell of a strong one, self. I hope you never give up. 

At the end of the day, I’m still right. 

Heaven gain another angel, RIP Mr. Brian Barczyk 

Hearing your own heartbeat 

So tired and exhausted 

A productive night hopefully tomorrow people will be more kinder 

There are so many reason why I’m choosing to give myself a break in between 

Random number is calling and I answered somehow I was testing myself what will be my reaction. Am I waiting to hear your voice or what #21 

SM Taytay and Robinsons Antipolo 

Food trip Friday 

Paying a week cost of physical and mental tiredness

Dreaming about Hong Kong

When I close my eyes I’m instantly back in dreamland

Somehow I miss seeing people’s life update on Instagram but then my mental health comes first

#dream walking in an airport 

Kindly don’t forward messages from whiners, it’s one of my triggers 

Have some respect since you are not asked to be a witness. Don’t crash into a party that you are not invited.

Another slow book. Need some page turner after this

How not to be rude and be nice all the time

Some days are good other times not really

Seeing you in dreamland makes me want to be there a little longer because maybe I’ll get some answers

All I want to do right now is to escape

Somehow right now I realized why I stopped writing for years

That dream will bugged me for days

Started watching #Lost

Preventing to ruin my Sunday night

Seems one isn’t enough

This online shopping is getting our of hand these days and Crocs is still bugging me. Haha

We all have trauma and but you don’t want to here me whining about it

So hooked on #Lost

Midnight snack that I will for sure regret later

The aftermath that you never saw coming because of your tantrums

Random trip to the mall at the last day of the month. 

On Repeat . Plastic Hearts

On Repeat . HOLY FVCK

Book . Some People Need Killing

 

I listened to a podcast (The Linya-Linya Show) where Patricia became a guest and their topic was this book. I was already seeing it trend but then I was so invested in this after listening to the podcast. 

I immediately wanted to read it but I’m in a middle of another book so I promised myself that this will be my next book. 

I’m so stressed right now and my insomnia is once again terrible so I decided to start reading so I can take my mind elsewhere than my current reality. 

This is the first time I’m reading this kind of genre and I’m actually enjoying it. I never invested reading history books most especially when I was still in school maybe because it was just part of the past that was being repeated over and over again. The difference in this book is that I’m living in this generation and I’m aware of the happenings. 

Slow progress but I’m enjoying it and somehow I do search on Youtube some events that was mentioned. Even searched for the crime scene and some faces of the mentioned ones. 

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Currently on 17% and wow if only these statements were out in public prior to the 2016 election and if only the mainstream media expose that again and again then maybe Duterte didn’t won the presidency.  

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As much as I’m enjoying this book, it also needs to end. 

Though surviving and fighting in this country never ends as long as the system stays the same. 

I thought that it was a slow progress though I’m very much aware that acknowledgment and notes took up lots of pages too due to the fact checking.

The year when Duterte became president I think the year when I also stopped watching the news. It was sickening to hear everyday about the killings and knowing those people are most likely killed by the police and they might not get justice. 

Even being someone that is innocent you can’t deny how these killings gave us real scare. They made killing to be normal and it’s okay. 

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The mistakes that was made by police killing innocent minors also killed their dream. 

Kids witnessing the killing of their parents hopefully can heal from the trauma. 

The families that was affected with the war on drugs hopefully will be healed but never forget what happened. 

I wish they will not turn like the ex-president. 

Some people need killing and it doesn’t just apply in the Philippines 

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If you are looking for something to read please give this book a chance most especially if you are like me who lived the years where Duterte was the President of the Philippines (2016-2022). 

You can’t ignore the facts most especially today where there’s already news article and video that’s published online. 

Got tears on some part most especially on the epilogue.

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Just the other day, a viral photo of someone handling a hard bound of this book to Duterte. 

I wonder if he will read it but will it going to change the outcome? No. 

Will it bring back lives that was taken? Obviously not. 

“The truth was simpler: It takes longer to type a sentence than it does to kill a man”

Some People Need Killing | Patricia Evangelista

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