Random . April 2023

 

Not sure why I find dentist therapeutic. Hehe 

This latest season of You is boring maybe not until the last few episodes. 

Finally, Potato Corner. 

I don’t collect anything these days but feels like just surviving is already so expensive. 

Its raining. 

Sabotage!! Lol

A newborn in the neighborhood. 04.05.2023

Well, you got to change things up from now on. 

Mr. Brian’s video made me cry. 04.07.2023

I can’t finish a movie these days. I’m just so tired. 

Some people experience it and some people haven’t. If you haven’t experience it just be considerate when people tell you that it hurt so bad. It was a major operation and it is not a simple wound that will heal overnight. 

Who will tell her? 

When it comes to other things I’m at the bottom of your list but if it comes to a specific, I’m at the top. Fyi, that’s fucking unfair. 

It’s hard to start from scratch but we got to make it work

Maybe I’m the sacrifice

I thought I’m okay browsing socials again but maybe not yet 

When you become a rebel but then the consequences comes back at you and you have no way out. 

My mind is either elsewhere or just overthinking the reason why I can’t sleep  

I knew there’s something about Aprill 11. In 2017, you sent me cupcake and I got it as a tattoo in 2018. #21 04.11.2023

Before saying life lessons out loud, always say it to yourself first. Practice what you preach. 

Started reading my next book and after 2 chapters I’m questioning my decision about this book, we’ll see. 

Menstrual cramps all night. 

We always have a comment about something and to someone just please look at yourself first. It’s better to say nothing than say it all out and hurt somebody. 

What is the right recipe for this thing? I keep on messing it up and I just want to do the right thing. 

Uncontrollable life events. Hello, anxiety. 

Raining again. Is summer over now? 

I’m missing you a little extra lately. #21

Are we too sentimental that we need to have so much holidays. 

Welcome back to reality and to my little bubble of anxiety. 

Fuck fuck fuck. 

I want to member at a gym just so I can use a treadmill but it’s too expensive. 

Days that seems you can’t fucked up but you did. 

You can’t make mistake or the world will blame you with everything. 

Please kindly trust the process

Some people will trust you, no questions ask but there will be people who will question that and I think there’s no much easy explanation to that. 

A very weird dream. 

Wearing the shirt of my dad 2 days in a row just to bring me some comfort 

I feel numb all over again

There are so many distraction but at the end of the day, you go back to reality which doesn’t change a single thing, it’s just a little escape.

I immediately wanted to go back to dreamland just to see you there

I’m maybe having an anxiety attack that I need to move or talk to somebody. I also want to hide right now or go somewhere far. 

#TheNightAgent is fun with all this chasing but I’m not sure if I will like the ending of this show // well, all good. 

I can’t have a bad day for sure. 

Craving some fast food that I will regret later. 

Maybe because there’s a satisfaction on staying. 

I think there’s still a solution but it will take a while and for sure will make a commotion. 

Maybe I’m avoiding to regret if I will not stay

How I wish my laptop is 100% functioning but it’s not. 

No choice but to get out even it’s freaking hot outside. 04.20.2023

Maybe I need a tight hug. 

I keep going back to dreamland but you’re not there 

Yoga today for my heart. // that was a good workout

Even I think that I can’t handle all the emotions right now, I decided to watch the last season of #ThisIsUs

I hope people will be so appreciative. 

Missing the simplicity of this life. 

… and now the witness

Maybe I have a selective amnesia 

Finally was able to face my own shit. 

I always tie my hair these days. 

Finally, pancake 

I’m so OC with my phone case 

That should be your wake up call but if you change nothing then you don’t know what are the real priorities in your life. 

He’s really such a distraction and my stress reliever but then my reality hits me. 

A somewhat relief aka a quick meeting anywhere

And then there’s my anxiety. 

So tired and sleepy but I’m not finish for today yet. 

Two days long. Time to continue watching #ThisIsUs

First time to receive a ruined pizza via Grab. Huhu and that is our share for family dinner. 

Pizza again today because cravings and now I hate pizza. Lol

So freaking hot.