Random . June 2020

June 1st and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to survive this month, again. 

Fear of the unknown is real right now. 

Somethings are out of my control and I can’t do anything about it. 

Someone wants me locked up for a certain time. It was such a good distraction. 

Stress eating 101 

With what is happening in this country and to the world, this is just too much to handle. 

I’m about to watch Westworld S03 and I just watched a S02 recap and I can’t even remember a thing!

What will 2020 looks like in history books? 

Finally decided to catch up on my TV series and for now, Westworld. 

Hopefully my three parcels will arrive today. 

Is it weird that the past few years we are trying to lessen the use of plastic and now we are relying to it as a safety net. Same with trash we are trying to at least recycle but now everything needs to be disposable. 

For now, I just want to survive this week. 

Don’t judge me on who I talked to because I have boundaries to everyone. 

Who knows, you might need them eventually. 

Upgraded my Blackberry to Android and its fun to customize and to usey USB-C but iOS is iOS. Good thing I use both because you can’t have both Android but you can have multiple Apple products. ;)

I can't handle all of this at once

Social media is so toxic especially right now

Baguio and La Union with college friends was a year ago! 

Just look what can a year change

Happy Birthday Karlo! I miss you! 

Got addicted to a game then deleted it the next day. lol

Finishing the second half of #HTGAWM

Samsung is really the competition

When you run away from it and left the people to suffer

Before you react, make sure you are 100% clean 

So freaking hot

SHIT

What a beautiful ending #HTGAWM

So good to sleep with the sound of the rain

I don't really want to be caught in the act where I don't know what to do next especially when I have no other option. 

Can I disappear for the next few days? I really don't know what to do next. This is too much to handle. For real.

Somehow thankful that wearing a mask is a requirement these days. 

I'm wearing pants again after 2 months

I'm aware of a lot of things that you will never know.

Can I just cry until everything to be okay?

Stress eating. again. 

First my laptop now my work pc. What is happening 😭  

No regrets on what was my decision before but what if I gave it up that time? 

So chill even my work pc looks like need some reformat but F*CK. 

I might break down today. 

If I can choose, I’ll just choose the personal attack than this which btw a result of a person being selfish. 

One problem solve more to go. 

I’m already exhausted with everything that I want to get away for who knows how long. 

Stumbled upon old conversation and it’s making me emotional. 

If I can’t voice out my decision I let other people to know why I can’t in a way that they will also see what I see but unfortunately, some people are just plain stupid. 

No need to rush if I have time to spare 

#TheLastDance have us a snippet of what was the world of basketball before and now I’m missing basketball so much. 

It’s not about legacy or reputation anymore. It’s about making the right decision. 

If anyone told us 6 years ago that there will be a pandemic in 2020 that will change out life 100%, of course no one cares let alone believe. Unlike the way we were aware of 2012. 

Watching a travel tv show is making me miss exploring another country. 

Bangkok is still on the bucket list. 

Sometimes you don’t have to gamble everything even you can oversee what is ahead. 

If we are depending on someone or something, consider the reality that comes with life. 

Doesn’t mean you got that dream is that it will be instantly become reality. It’s good to dream and make it to reality but don’t forget the long road you’ll have to take before you get there. 

#WWDC was a nice escape

Simple life, hanging out, birthday, family, friends and sunset. #dream

Personal attacks because on how I treat you and my personality is ok but judging how I decide on things by also depending on situation is not. 

If I can escape right now, I will and you won’t probably find me. 

Takes a lot of courage to get out of bed, to get out of my room let alone be seen by people while they judge. 

Will I survive this week? Not sure. 

Is it possible not to lose myself in this process? In a process where you have to think of others before yourself. 

Did I even made a wrong decision along the way? 

One thing is for sure, I’m not blaming myself. 

It’s been a month since I decided not to. Surprisingly it’s making me emotional. 06.23.2020

People will never try to understand you. Sad truth. 

I have few goals to get through this. 

I’m so close in having panic attack

Let’s try not to ruin some things when I’m on this kind of clumsiness

If I have to do it again I will but there will be differences. 

I somehow wish it was just 8 or 16 and not 24. 

When your own vision isn’t the same as mine. 

There’s nothing wrong on seeking some help. 

Feels like selling half of myself. 

Be careful on what we wish. 

Baguio and school hangs. I’m missing the good old days. 

If not heart burn it is anxiety for real. 

I guess that was too early to be comfortable for the weekend. 

Not sure in what will happen next. I’m so clueless. 

I finally did an undercut

Busy weekend and an unpredictable week ahead. 

That was a little spark of hope

My geek heart is so pumped up to but I think I still need to wait for a proper upgrade

I can be a brat but I choose not to

Prioritizing the social status while you are literally failing in reality. 

I did survive this month. 

6 more months for this year.