Random . January 2020

Happy New Year! 

This transport system should be fixed. Feel so sorry for everyone who is using it on a daily basis. 

Seafood overload with my dude. 

That Pitch Perfect vomit can be real. Haha

Time to diet. Lol

I should start on this 2020 plans before I start to do some impulsive shopping again. 

Simple things don’t hurt anymore

Whoa. That was alarming. 

When you can like their post on social media but doesn’t even know how to start a conversation personally. Nevertheless, it’s not a proper one if you only have few chosen words. 

Btw, let’s not go that further. From our own experience, you don’t want that to happen to you. 

There are lot of things in the world that can hurt you and contributing to the society isn’t one of it. 

I thought I’m already at my worst not until I heard your nonsense rant. 

Don’t be fooled by a posted photo. 

You haven’t deal with a lot of people yet. 

As a part of new year, I have cleaned my computer files and it feels good. 

2 more weeks. #2020goals 

Oh here you go again. 

From your own words, it makes me want to read between the lines. 

No matter how many people you involve, your personal issues and insecurities will not disappear. 

Being too loud will not make you full inside, you are still empty after all. 

It’s easy to break something that you didn’t even work hard for. 

Bet you can’t sabotage yourself that’s why you just going to ruin someone else. 

26 can still make me cry. 

You’ve been a little too bright lately. 🌙 

Searching online and roam around the mall just to look for a bag. Bought two on eBay since I can’t decide. Lol 

Man vs Nature is real. #Taal 01.12.2020

Never knew someone who is so desperate just for money until you introduce yourself so loud. 

How I wish it’s just as easy as how it was on TV series. 

Natural disaster and daily problems of people are more important than your “reputation”. In this time right now, we should already know what are the most important than just the unnecessarily. 

Patience is a virtue. 

When someone is so desperate for money. 

So sick of politics in all aspects. 

Happy birthday. 01.16.2020

When you are woken up so early just because he was hyped about something. 01.17.2020

Gateway got everything I want. I’ve been looking at Megamall and it wasn’t there. Good thing, I don’t have a credit card. Lol

Cubao. How I missed you. 

Dinner with my dude. 

FEU!!!!! 💚💛 so good to be back with no students. Lol

I don’t get it most of the time but it make sense sometimes. 

Love can be hopeful. 

January 20 and I’m not sure if I’ll survive this year. 

Mind your own shit than comparing to others. 

Defensive is guilty. 

What to do first, read a book or catch up on an 8 episode series. 

Talking to people can be exhausting but I miss talking. 

I haven’t fully processed the album Manic by Halsey and here comes Hayley with Petals for Armor. 

Hands down to Hayley Williams. 

Another 3 weeks. #2020goals

Finally, a time with our one and only bro. Haha. #Brobabes

Cough and cold right now is not a joke. 😷 

So unexpected. RIP Kobe. 

Don't ask questions that I should be the one asking in the first place. 

Officially calling off our out-of-the-country for the summer. 

2 new songs from Hayley. We didn't ask this but you know us. Thank you Ms. Williams! Can't wait for the album and what's next on this era. 

Whenever you can ...

Losing someone in an accident is one thing that we don’t want to happen. 

When it’s someone famous we all mourn but if it’s someone that’s nobody to all of us, we let it pass. 

Losing some family and a friend was heart breaking for me. I’m not sure when but I somehow make sure to hangout with friends even there’s no occasion. Even I’ll be just right there to listen to your rants or we will sit next to each other even without talking. Maybe just watch a movie or whatever that is on TV. 

I like that. 

I enjoyed that. 

It was fulfilling for me. 

I know some people isn’t a fan of “quality time” that its hard for them to understand why we all need it, why he needs it. It wasn’t just for me. 

Tired of explaining it. 

Tired of making my point out of this it 

I tried though. 

I tried to shout it all out still, nothing. 

I know sometime I refuse to see friends because my introvert self doesn’t like to go out. 

I’m also tired making plans with people who always say “I can’t”. 

Tired of making an effort for people who doesn’t even make an effort in return. 

Tired of people who takes time and the people around them for granted. 

I just conclude that they’re not like that and maybe they will never ever change for such because what for, it’s such a waste of their time. 

I just wish them that in the end, they will not regret not making an effort for other people who gave them importance. Hopeful that they will not be late on realizing some simple things. 

Well, some people already had some hard wake-up-call in life and still nothing changed. I guess that’s who they are. Can’t be changed even with their own accident. 

Maybe they just have different perspective about this that hopefully I will be able to understand or not. 

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We are currently living in an era where we don’t usually hug or being expressive with words to all of our friends and family but please just kindly make time for them. 

Spend time with them even just watching TV, sit next to each other even you’re on your phone, eat together, listen to music, watch a movie, walk in the mall, walk on the street, drive somewhere or whatever your trip in life. Just hangout, spend time with them. 

Make it happen because you read this. 
For your own memories. For your own satisfaction, even it’s nonsense for now. 

Make it happen because I wasn’t able to do it with my dad. 

Make some effort for someone who doesn’t given an opportunity to do it and for someone who badly wants it to happen but doesn’t have the privilege. 

Jan 28 2020 / 03:03 

On Repeat . Simmer

Simmer by Hayley Williams (Petals for Armor)

Rage is a quiet thing You think that you’ve tamed it But it’s just lying in wait Oh Rage Is it in our veins? Feel it in my face when I least expect it Give in Control There’s so many ways to give in Eyes close Another way to make it to 10 Oh how to draw the line between wrath and mercy? Simmer simmer simmer simmer simmer down Control There’s so many ways to give in Eyes close Another way to make it to 10 Oh how to draw the line between wrath and mercy? Simmer simmer simmer simmer simmer down If I had seen my reflection As something more precious He would’ve never Mmm and if my child needed protection From a fucker like that man I’d sooner gut him Cause nothing cuts like a mother Give in Control There’s so many ways to give in Eyes close Another way to make it to 10 Oh how to draw the line between wrath and mercy? Simmer simmer simmer simmer simmer down Control There’s so many ways to give in Eyes close Another way to make it to 10 Oh how to draw the line between wrath and mercy? Simmer simmer simmer simmer simmer down Wrap yourself in petals Wrap yourself in petals Wrap yourself in petals for armor Petals for armor Give In Control There’s so many ways to give in Eyes close Another way to make it to 10 Oh how to draw the line between wrath and mercy? Simmer simmer simmer simmer simmer down

On Repeat . Manic

Manic by Halsey

I love this. Really. 

Putting it on repeat hours before Hayley drop whatever she is dropping that I want to maximize my time in her before Simmer but definitely one of the albums that I will put on repeat when I need some chill songs even some are really personal and a little bit of something. 

I really love Halsey. Wait it's Ashley!. 

Luna

It was not a normal dream 

But you were there 

He was handling you to me

I’m not sure where you come from 

Probably somewhere up there 

I never forget 

Not sure if I will be able 

To meet you in my lifetime 

Whatever the answer

I got you, always 

12.29.19 19:40

On Repeat . You should be sad

You should be sad by Halsey

[Verse 1]
I wanna start this out and say
I gotta get it off my chest
Got no anger, got no malice
Just a little bit of regret
Know nobody else will tell you
So there's some things I gotta say
Gonna jot it down and then get it out
And then I'll be on my way

[Pre-Chorus]
No, you're not half the man you think that you are
And you can't fill the hole inside of you with money, drugs, and cars
I'm so glad I never ever had a baby with you
'Cause you can't love nothing unless there's something in it for you

[Chorus]
Oh, I feel so sorry, I feel so sad
I tried to help you, it just made you mad
And I had no warning about who you are
I'm just glad I made it out without breaking down
And then ran so fucking far
That you would never ever touch me again
Won't see your alligator tears
'Cause, no, I've had enough of them

[Verse 2]
Let me start this off by saying
I really meant well from the start
Take a broken man right in my hands
And then put back all his parts

[Pre-Chorus]
But you're not half the man you think that you are
And you can't fill the hole inside of you with money, girls, and cars
I'm so glad I never ever had a baby with you
'Cause you can't love nothing unless there's something in it for you

[Chorus]
Oh, I feel so sorry (I feel so sorry)
I feel so sad (I feel so sad)
I tried to help you (I tried to help you)
It just made you mad
And I had no warning (I had no warning)
About who you are (About who you are)
Just glad I made it out without breaking down
Oh, I feel so sorry (I feel so sorry)
I feel so sad (I feel so sad)
I tried to help you (I tried to help you)
It just made you mad
And I had no warning (I had no warning)
About who you are (About who you are)
'Bout who you are

[Bridge]

Hey
Hey
Hey
Hey

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause you're not half the man you think that you are
And you can't fill the hole inside of you with money, drugs, and cars
I'm so glad I never ever had a baby with you
'Cause you can't love nothing unless there's something in it for you

[Outro]
I feel so sad
You should be sad
You should be
You should be sad
You should be
You should be
You should be

Pod Sibs Book Club . A Man Called Ove (Dec 2019)

First thing first, there are so many quotable quotes in this book. 

I love this book. A perfect breather coming from The Stand (lol) but I took a very long break after The Stand that I wasn't able to join the discussion for this book. I spend time catching up on some series and it was a good break. 

When I decided to switch reading on digital than an actual book, I think this was the first book digitally that I got a lot of highlighted lines. 

Pre-digital era, I write quotes on a notebook but now, highlight is the key. 

I didn't really expect so much on this book as long as it is not as long as The Stand.

My favorite scene will be all of the events that prevented him from doing it. Sonja is happy about that too. 

I tried to watch the movie adaptation after but I know that I will just rant on how it is different from the book but I did watch a few scene and movies really ruin my imagination.

Btw, I'm a little bit of an Ove and Sonja. I can't be just Ove or a Sonja. 

"He was a man of black and white.

And she was color. All the color he had"

A Man Called Ove - Fredrik Backman