FYI, I'm a Girl . Butter and Matte Lipsticks

There's no need to mention that NYX is my most favorite brand when it comes to lipsticks just because its so hard to look for a so-good matte finish lipstick in a cheaper price and a cruelty-free product. 

At this post, I mentioned that I don't recommend Butter lipsticks but I posted this because before we judge or write a review about a product be sure that you used it more than once. 

For the past month, I'm a bit tired of pink, orange and red shades and as a reward for some-fucked-up-days (even this are purchased before the Palawan trip), I added some lipsticks to my collection that I've been eyeing ever since. 

(L-R) Licorice, Hunk, Pops, Siren and Aria

I don't think I need to explain a bunch and oh my I don't have swatches to upload!!!! Hahaha!

I drive around the block and I'm not looking to my right

I feel the glass against my cheek and I can't see you in the light

I break my heart around this, break my heart around this pole

Break Your Life Down | Tegan and Sara

UAAP S77 . Finals

Game 1 - MOA Arena - October 4, 2014

credit to the owner of this photo

NU never won against FEU during the elimination so facing each other again is pretty interesting because after playing against ADMU and DLSU during the playoffs and semis, its time to adjust again. 

We won. And we started to feel the 20th championship but maybe it was not our time yet. 

Game 2 - Araneta - October 8, 2014

Being one step behind the championship, the players and us (fans/supporters) might be comfortable with the advantage. I bought tickets online and luckily I got patron tickets and it was 1:4. It was our first time to purchase a ticket more than 350 pesos. It may be the last game why not give it all right.

 Our seats was the best seat but then we didn't win. NU bounced back so hard. They are so hungry for their 2nd championship after 60 years. 

They won. Series was tied at 1-1. We broke a crowd record with 24,896 attendance that ball game alone where we beat the record of one of the San Mig semis/finals game earlier this year. It felt good because people said that this UAAP Finals will never get an audience. After that game, we are all looking for those who said that no one will watch it.

Hello to the former players!! It's so nice to see them supporting FEU. 

credit to the owner of the picture in the middle

credit to the owner of this photo

Game 3 - Araneta - October 15, 2014

One week break. One week of hunting a patron seats again but the 1:1 ticket selling was the most insane thing ever. It was our first time to line up for a UAAP game for hours. I was pissed the whole time because of it but I was trying my best to hide it. I don't want to rant about it because I'm still looking forward to a positive outcome.

But the signs were there, I don't want to entertain it but everything are pointed that way. We knew NU will be the champions. Believe it or not we saw it coming and we are just waiting for it to happen. But that doesn't mean that I don't believe in our team. I was still holding on a thread until I heard the final buzzer. 

No matter what happen we were already part of history. Both teams played 20 games this season, we won against DLSU and ADMU to be in the finals and both team were underdogs. We were there when NU won its 2nd championship after 60 years with 25,118 crowd (yes, we just broke our Game 2 crowd record). 

It wasn't painful unlike 2011 finals but ever since Belo hit that buzzer beater last October 1st, we were so happy and we already accepted that our team can be champions or not. 

So its so funny when most of the people around me were the one who were so angry or bitter to what happened. I shred a tear but that's it. We laugh so hard after the game and we did a mini party outside Araneta. It was a good game and I can't freaking wait for season 78. It was truly an unexpected season where you can't guess who will win in a specific game unlike before. Who would have thought that FEU and NU will be in the Finals and NU, of course grabbed their 2nd championship.

photo from fullcourtfresh (taken during Game 2)

At the end of the day, its still a basketball game, one will win and the other will lose. 

To the graduating players on every team, do what you know is best for you. Basketball doesn't stop here. 

To the players who still have remaining playing years, it can be a year or two but please think about it gazillion times if you wanted to go pro. Some players regret not being able to maximize their playing year in the "best" basketball league in the country. Its still up to you because we are just here to at least give an advice. 

You can't rewind time, you can't go back to this year after 10 years. Think wisely so you will never regret a single decision.

See you all again next season UAAP basketball fans. Oh wait there's Volleyball next month!

Oh its PBA time again!!!!! :) 

My Photographs: UAAP

UAAP S77 . Playoffs | Semis

late post

We didn't get so much attention when this season started but we made it to the Finals. 

At the start of the UAAP S77 we didn't expect so much because this was the post Terrence Romeo and RR Garcia era. Two of the best guard who brought so much noise for the past seasons. Both MVP, known for the unexpected exploding every game, teammates and tandem even though they look like rivals on court, though they somehow connect to each other last year. And I'm done talking about them. Oh and lets give a shout out to Gryann Mendoza too. 

As the pre-season last summer, everyone was already talking about what is the future of FEU without the R and T on MRT (Mike-RR-Terrence). Mike is always the silent guy. He needed to fill in the spot of TR and RR but let me tell you something, there's a huge difference between Mike Tolomia and TR - RR. Don't get me wrong, I'm a huge MRT fan but there's also an invisible barrier to the three of them when they're playing. 

If you're a new Mike Tolomia fan then this is for you and if you already know this then lets just enjoy it once again. 

Mike still needs to improve some things but as I saw him play since his rookie year, I know that he already improved a lot. 

There are a few post maybe a 2-4 under UAAP tag during first and second round so I think I can skip that because I really wanted to talk about the play offs, semis and of course the finals. 

We were back in Manila from Palawan last September 21 and we have a game by then but we decided to skip it because we are already tired and broke from the trip. Fortunately, we won and we got the twice-to-beat advantage against DLSU.

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September 27 - We watched live but DLSU won and our chance to be on the finals was cut short so we need to win one more game against DLSU to be in the finals.

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October 1 - Our game was scheduled to 6pm (PBA style) and good thing I was early because it rained so hard and the traffic was insane compared to an ordinary day. The first game was NU and ADMU its also a do-or-die game and NU was leading (65-63) when the power went off a bit with a 9.3 seconds left. According to the tweets that we read while waiting outside both teams agreed to wait for almost 20 minutes or more so they can fix the tech stuff and the lightning. Alfred Aroga just kill the last play of ADMU by blocking the layup of Kiefer. End of regulation, NU is back in the finals after 44 years.

Some DLSU fans was also cheering for NU for some reasons. While NU celebrates, we are nervous because that do-or-die game will either give us a shot to the finals or we will end up on the third spot.

photo from Gem

When we entered Araneta, I was blown away because our crowd was so huge and it was my first time to witness that kind of audience after we defeated Adamson twice last 2011 to be in the finals. That was the first biggest crowd we had for this season and it was amazing. It all started that day. 

Down to the final minute of the game, both teams are tied at 64. We got the ball possession at the last 24 seconds. Instead of giving you every detail please, just watch the video below. Hats off to Mike Tolomia.

I watched this gazillion times

If you weren't amazed by that shot then I don't see any reason why are you reading this. lol

Belo for 3. We jump. We shred some happy tears. We won. We beat DLSU.

 We are going to the FINALS. 

more photos here

"I think this is the best thing that ever happened to the UAAP, having FEU and NU in the finals" - Coash Nash Racela | FEU

One week.

1 week to be on our normal life. 1 week for them to practice. 

No matter what will be the result of the game next week, Season 77 was very unpredictable, the most memorable semis and of course, The Finals. 

1 more game this season. Game 3. Do-or-die. Win or lose. 

Be brave. - Nicanor Reyes 

Random . September 2014

photo taken by JV #ElNido

Death is really a reminder for the living. 

Feel so good to visit my dad and talk about something but sad too on why are we spending the week here. 

I think I have a few post for this month. 

I don't want to discuss it right now but I totally understand the fact that you need to talk to someone. 

Don't be abusive. Kbye. 

I know, people will not appreciate it but one day the table will turn. 

Please remember how you acted that day because I know, it wasn't the right time to tell you. 

The perks of being insomniac. 

We will never be on the same situation ever.  

I guess some people still didn't learn from the experience of others. 

Hahaha. Don't blame the computer if you are the one using it. 

Don't be too depended on the internet, it's cruel. 

Its always different and I know, I get it. 

You're such a destroyer. You want to change almost everything that they work on just for your name to be mentioned, to be known but I'm not a fan ever since because out of everything you've done it might be a beautiful on the others but will never be for me because I know the hidden story.  

5 months. Basketball, mall, rants, emergencies. One day #mantra. 

Reading books to keep me sane. 

I'm always the one watching from a distance. 

We are just somebody to most people. 

I'm not going to open my facebook for one more week and I'm proud to say that I can live without facebook but I can't live without twitter. Haha. I've been hiding from my friends for a week now just because I can't give them a proper date to hangout. My September is so occupied but we can hangout on October when my trip with Brobabes is over as well as UAAP.  I know most people will never understand but I'm not going to apologies. I have my own reasons. 

One more week before our much-awaited trip and I know I deserve it and it's a much needed escape from reality shit. Palawan, be nice to me because I'm so looking forward to meet you. :D

6 years; I thought I will never survive without Papa but look at us now still surviving and fighting the battle. I miss you everyday Papa! - 09.11.14

I really like this book series, it feels like I'm a part of their life as well as their group. I want that in my reality.  

A little update, I lost interest on watching 'If I Stay' when it came out but I will watch it later and I didn't re-read it too. Maybe after another book or two, I'll read 'Gone Girl' or maybe not because I'm not planning to watch it ASAP too. I've learned the thing about book-to-movies will never be so perfect as how it happened in my head. 

Same date, different events one feeling. 

Thankful. 

Some of my favorite series will be back this week and next week! I'm so excited!!!! :D 

Hopefully this typhoon will be out of the country tomorrow. Please don't rain on my weekend with Brobabes!!!! 

Oh. I'm testing your patience. Hahaha. 

I can be a third-wheeler but not with you two, it's so sickening. 

I will never repeat a bad experience with the same people at the same place. 

Say whatever you want to say. I really don't care. I'm not angry, I just don't want to talk to you because my reasons are not good enough for you. 

I can't wait to leave on Thursday. -09.16.14

At the end of the day, I can still change my mind. 

Packing lite is so challenging!!! Fingers crossed that I don't have excess baggage! #anxiety 

Palawan!!! :)) 09.18.14

Never in my entire life that I experienced someone like my song choices. Today was different. - 09.19.14

What a trip. Today was amazing despite of the rain. Looking forward for our last day here. Can't believe this trip is almost over. #ElNido - 09.19.14

I don't miss you anymore and I'm happy about it. 

Bye Palawan. I'm gonna miss you like crazy. - 09.21.14

Soon I'll blog about our Palawan trip but I think my head is out of nowhere thinking why our Palawan trip was already over. 

There's a connection but most of the time its just disconnected. Why. #19. 

I like you but I guess it will still be up to you. #19. 

The result of reading too much love story. Reality is so disappointing. 

Its nice to see people experimenting on colors but sometimes its unbearable.

Why do people don't understand that I don't drink most of the time? 

Why? Because I want to give it another chance. 

Here we go again with my mantra. Blah blah blah.  #pakyu

I can eat Japanese food all day.

I win this time.

People will never understand so I will not waste my time explaining and I'm not doing this for you either. 

Not every girl like to talk about sports and that's why Gem and I are friends. We can talk about anything. Just always keep our tummy full we will never have a problem. ;) 

Last week same time, we're waiting for our flight to Palawan and now we're back to reality and all I wanted to do is go to the beach even the weather is so fucked up. -09.25.14

One more play of Franklin then I know I'll be ending up crying so hard right now. 

Maybe I'll do it because I think that will be the first step to hashtag-mantra or maybe it will make me feel normal. I don't know. Its complicated. 

Selfish bastard. 

I still believe things happens for a reason but I still don't know WHY . BLAH . BLAH . BLAH .

I'm your worst nightmare. 

So until when this will happen?

We need them more than a histrionic-narcissistic person. WHY. I will say it if needed. 

Last week, it was our last night in Palawan. 

I will forever speak about Palawan until I don't know when. It felt like a second home out there for some reason and one of them is maybe because I think life there was much simpler that in here. Maybe its just me, because there is so such thing as "simple" or maybe because I was just visiting the place. 

As a sign of missing Palawan, Gem and I almost booked another flight there on the second week of October but we decided not to just because we're broke and the place will never go anywhere. Hopefully, next year again and I hope there will be no typhoon so we can do island hopping. 

I'm not supposed to talk about my Palawan trip but its just so relaxing to talk about it. 

Its hard to fight when there are people playing outside the court. #basketball 

I will just sleep with my thought maybe it will vanish in my dreams. 

PUCHA. I THINK I NEED ANOTHER TATTOO. NEXT MONTH. FINGERS CROSSED. 

PLEASE TELL ME THE NEXT STEP. I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF GUESSING. 

PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHY. 

Another month ended and here comes a new one. 

OCTOBER IS HALLOWEEN MONTH. A NEW MONSTER WILL BE BORN.

Hair Dye-ary . Zombie Style

this post was scheduled to be published before we left for Palawan but I wasn't able to fix it

I'm so bored with my hair for a while now and I don't know what to do with it anymore. I really want to shave a part of it but maybe its not yet the perfect time. 

Its been a year of my side streaks and I'm totally sick of it and I really want to go back to dip-dye. 

Speaking of basketball season, FEU played DLSU for the second round last August 27 and since it was a weekday, Gem and I can't put it on our schedule so we decided not to watch live. 

I make a dare for my self during the first round that I will dye my hair if we beat ADMU but of course we didn't and since its already last week of August, I know that I should make it happen before its too late for basketball season and to the upcoming trip this month. 

I didn't tell it to anybody just because and we won! I didn't expect anything for that game since I saw the previous games of DLSU and even there are wounded players, they still played well but talking about playing good, they did one major mistake during the last play. Miscommunication on the DLSU players gave us the opportunity to win and be on the top spot of the standings. Yes, we made it to the final four because we already have 9 wins. 

That's why its so big for us, for me because it will make a huge difference in the near future. Hehe. 

Back to my hair, there's still this small portion of my side streaks that's still there and I want to chop it because if it will be bleached again, it will be forever frizzy and that's not good. I chopped it and now my hair was messed up. Hahaha. I forgot that it will be different to the other side and I remember when Charlavail told Hayley to chop her hair,so I accepted it no matter what other people will say and its the hair, it will grow again. Now I know the feeling of chopping your own hair Charlavail style. (people dont actually see the difference in my hair they thought it was done in a salon when in reality its just in my bathroom) 

While I was finished cutting the last part of my side streaks, I realized that its just so different have just all black in my head and I'm not used to it anymore and somehow I hate it. Its just so dull, it seems like its so boring and there's no life in it. It will be 2 years by November that I never had just plain black hair and it was amazing. Though I'm still not up to dye my whole head just because I don't want to touch the roots.

Since I need to bleach my hair again, I pig tailed it then I started to bleach (the dirtiest part of dyeing). Good thing there was an extra bleaching kit because the other one was maybe expired because it didn't work to the right side so both side aren't equal. But who cares! Hahaha

I was trying to make the inner part to be green while the outer will be yellow but I guess, I can't achieve whatever I want to do because both of my yellow and green are light colors (Electric Banana and Electric Lizard). I'm still looking forward to have the somehow dark green, I think it was Green Envy but for now when this fades, I'll use a drug store hair dye a Bubble Hair Dye in orange and the Syoss in blonde. Exciting!

Ohhhh BER months!!!!! :))))

Do or die game with DLSU on Wednesday (October 1) 

Taking up our time - Franklin | Paramore

On Repeat . The Only Exception (Reading 2014)

The Only Exception by Paramore

Its been a month since Paramore played at Reading and Leeds and since then, I was already listening to this version of TOE. 

The sound system was down for almost 10 minutes but instead of just doing nothing while waiting, the audience chant "Sing! Sing! Sing!" And boom, an unforgettable version of TOE was born. 

Hayley's voice was magical. 

The Only Exception in Reading (2014)

When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart and I watched

As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore

That she would never let herself forget

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways to make it alone

Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance

And up until now I had sworn to my self that I'm content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well you are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up

Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing

Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

On Repeat . Franklin

Franklin by Paramore

I haven't listen to All We Know Is Falling for a while but Pressure is still part of the recent setlist so I heard it for a few times but when someone mentioned to me that Franklin is always his first Paramore song it takes me back to the feeling why at some point along the way that Franklin will always be my song for this town. Bitter sweet but this town will never be the same for the last 11 years. I still love this place but somewhere there's an invisible barrier building up every year. 

I know somewhere I already posted about Franklin but after all this time, it still touches my heart and somehow breaks it in between. 

Franklin in Anaheim (2007)

Franklin in Parahoy (2014)

Franklin (Audio)

And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all

This place we live, it is not where we belong

And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own

Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

(Everything has changed)

Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all

I won't get used to this, I won't get used to being gone

And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying

Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

(Everything has changed)

Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

Taking up our time

Taking up our time

Taking up our time

It's taking up our time again

Go back, we can't go back at all

It's taking up our time again

Go back, we can't go back at all

It's taking up our time again

Go back, we can't go back at all

It's taking up our time

Taking up our time

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?