Random . October 2021

Hello again, rainy days 

Why I can’t stop scrolling today. I just want some food that I can quickly order even I know that I will not order. Lol. 

Basically, I don’t know what I want to eat lately. Lol

Sometimes we need patterns in life. 

Now I figured out why I was thought to do word search when I was young. Haha

The mystery of #Manifest continues. 

To the 3 guys who attacked M last weekend, I hope you will not do that again to anybody. Good thing he knows how to fight and he will fight you really. 

UAAP, it was as close to reality as it can be but it was just a dream. 

No fun on fixing other people’s phone. Lol

There’s hope. Today was a good one in a very long time. #LabanLeni2022 10.07.2021

Here are the clowns and someone just dig his own grave. #Politics 

This is not a game. That position that you all wanted is not a joke. If you think it is the only way to help, kindly withdraw. If you just file for candidacy because of your party or just self interest, withdraw. That position requires a lot from you and if you haven’t thought of it just because the current one is just chilling, please back off. Don’t waste money for your campaign, use it to help people. We all deserve someone better than the current one. It’s not just about power. Kindly register and vote wisely. #Politics 

I’m a little upset with some things so, I bake. It was so overdue. 

Baked some cookies. 

Ate one whole bag of chips. 

Just cleaning out some left over hair dye. Don’t mind the experimental stage. The lighter hair/blonde days are made for a quick hair dye whenever I want. 

Finished another book even it took be a month and a half. What is commitment. Lol

Why does my cookies are so good. Lol thanks Chef RV! 

The power of blue ruin. 

My hair isn’t a blank canvas for nothing 

Waiting game. I’m so hyped that i want to finish that needs to be done this week. 

Dinner with fam even I’m busy and that shift my mood from unplanned schedule but yeah, I guess it was okay. 

Been craving a lot of food from pizza to pasta, burger and the undying craving of potato corner. Huhu It’s been weeks since and I haven’t had anything yet. Not sure if it’s just my laziness or because of Apple Cider. Lol 

I hate that distraction at night when I have to think about it before I sleep. Why you can’t wait in this reality. Huhu 

Geez people. I keep my socials public for some reason. If you are one of the people who happens to be at the same place where I am on a daily basis, you know where to find me. Don’t be a creep on the other end of this medium. Thank you. 

It was a long day. I’m just done with things that I need to do on Thursday but it’s already 1am of Friday. Few more stuff for Friday but first, sleep. 

I’m just not up to talk to people lately. Just too much to do. 

Burger for dinner but I’m a little unsatisfied maybe we can try again soon. 

Such a weekend distraction. #YOU

I love Ber months but there are a lot of things that need to be done these days. 

I just don’t want to talk to anybody. Feels like everything is wrong. 

Am I trapped in this reality for so long. 

As much as I also want to go back to normal like you all do as of today, what we all been through is no joke. I just don’t want to forget that. 

I’m once again questioning my life decisions. 

Feels like I need some me-time or else I’ll break down soon. 

I’m so anxious right now that I just want my errand trip tomorrow will be a success. It’s been a while and hopefully everything will be okay. 

Still so anxious if I’ll get a number for this errand day. Huhu. Can we speed up the line now so I’ll know. It’s just 7am. 

This anxiety is just building up. Ugghh 

Less anxious now. Whew

I wish Android will release even a limited mini phones that can compete with iPhone mini. Missed the chance with the Samsung s10e which is not worth it by now. 

Errand day wasn’t as successful as I want it to be but there’s progress at least. 

I still want to write but I’m already exhausted. 

Busy day and so many things to do. 

I fucked up my almost perfect excel file that I’m editing. Haha good thing I noticed immediately before it got worse. Haha 

Hello daddy. I miss you. 10.24.2021

Fixing my phone. Should I do the move from Android now? Hmm 

One can’t really keep their mouth shut. Lol

I guess you can’t have it back. It’s my time to do my move. 

Sad that there are people who really judge you for some words you said. 

There are people who really can’t respect others. 

Voting for the right person to win is also a way of picking the future of your kids. 

Busy week and I’ll get all the rest that I can get. 

Whoa. I took too much steps ahead. 

Can’t sleep. Too much thoughts. 

Thankful for a beautiful morning and Grab. 

People and their never ending complains

Thankful for wearing a mask. Saves me a lot from doing irritating facial expressions. Lol 

Jeeptrip after 1 year and 10 months!!! As much as I miss it, I still somehow don’t want to do it regularly. 

So much things done and still a lot to do in 2 days with some adjustments. 

Finally. The Birkenstock that I’ve been eyeing for years. 

Flexibility it is. Hehe. 

I can do it but this is me saying “no”. 

Question of the day: “Am I wrong?” Well, I know I’m not. 

Basically, all this time you still don’t know how to separate colors and numbers.

Stop looking at other people. Look in the mirror first. 

When you don’t learn and never knew about boundaries. 

Tell your side of the story we both know the real one, anyway. 

Don’t pass to anybody the personal problem that you have. You should know by now that we all have one that can only be fix or faced by our own and not by anybody else. 

On Repeat . Solar Power

Solar Power by Lorde

Hair Dye-ary . Yellow Green

As promised I’m keeping my hair colors alive because why not. 

After a week with Red and Blue faded well, the red did but not the blue and I really like to keep it because there’s something that the blue brought to me. I don’t know what exactly but I love seeing it but I have to retouch since most of my hair aren’t dyed and it’s irritating me.

Steal My Sunshine (Yellow) by GDY is the next in line and I wonder if it will make a huge effect on the faded red but as to hair dye time, red is almost gone. 

I’m really not good with color theory but I remember that if you mix blue and yellow, you will get green. One problem that I encounter with 2 shades on hair it can be mixed up. I experienced this before that’s why I don’t usually do 2-tone or like rainbow hair because it may look bad. 

Blue Ruin by GDY as well is very well-known for it staying forever and the name really fits perfectly because it will ruin you. Haha It will just be there forever that you don’t want to do blue ever again. Haha 

So color theory my blue tips will be green and even with hesitation that the yellow will be ruined by the blue, I still did it. The result, I love it and I question myself why did it took me so long to do this. Well, I did it before but yellow and green together on the same day of dye and wash just really mixed and I didn’t get the result that I wanted. 

Hayley and even Charlavail once had yellow and green. 

I’ve been wanting to do this during UAAP but never got the chance and now that I was able to finally do it, there’s no UAAP yet. Sad. 

This is one of my favorite now and I can think of so many ways to do it again with different style , I can’t wait!  

 

Took me so long to have a picture that will really give justice to the actual result but I think it is very impossible. I can’t explain how Steal My Sunshine looks in real life.

Top photo is with natural light and it really doesn’t do justice on how pretty SMS is. 

Bottom picture is me trying to give justice on what I really see in real life. Haha 

     

 

BROBABES 2021

Ahhh.... I just missed hanging out with friends so much

It was Gem’s birthday when I randomly asked on one of our group chat an update on when we will see each other again. No plans at all and I think it really works well when there is no plan.

Together with my cousin, we recently visit a famous art coffee shop nearby and I sent a photo to the group chat and they loved to go.

We planned to go there that weekend immediately one thing I worry is the weather.

If it was raining it is somehow not worth it as much as it is also so hassle to be in the mountain. 

I'm so anxious prior to that weekend because I keep asking myself "will I really be seeing my friends this weekend?".

And it happened. As much as I want to go somewhere else, I also don't want to be back in the City where there are a lot of people with less distancing for sure. It is still scary as if our cases are going down. 

I have nothing to worry about on where we will go as long as this time we can be able to catch up just like before for hours after not seeing each other for one year and 8 months. 

Since 2011, we never let it happened that long most especially with Gem. I can't remember what was the longest time that we didn't hangout. Maybe a month or two but never a year. 

It was one of the best days this year. Catching up with them, reminiscing the good old days, talking about basketball and how are we missing the UAAP, how in 2015 when we almost fucked up our friendship. Lol How we will always go around MOA just to find a place to eat but always ending on the same restaurant. We missed than really. 

That day was such a breather not just for me but for them too.

No plans yet on when will be the next one but one thing is for sure, it will not happen after a year.

On Repeat . XOXO: From Love & Anxiety In Real Time

XOXO: From Love & Anxiety In Real Time by The Maine

Hair Dye-ary . Red and Blue

Ha. Took me almost a year to do some hair dye-ary post again but here we are. Lol

A little update from a year ago which was after that post, I waited for it to fade then I paused for a moment just because I was able to do my lasik! I was able to dye my hair again the day before Christmas of 2020 and I went with Kowabunga by GDY. That stayed vibrant until February and faded green until April and then I dye with Steal My Sunshine by April which lasted for less than a month. 

I stopped after that and I was just “blonde” again also known as bleached hair. Just plain until I dyed last October 10, 2021. 

It took me a while again because, I started working out daily which I’m not sure if I can accept that it will fade quick with how I take a bath everyday which means shampoo and conditioner everyday. I know that I shouldn’t use shampoo everyday but my scalp can’t take that and I’m not comfortable by doing it like that. 

I waited for my hair to grow so I can retouch the roots and then started to dye again. Unfortunately, I got so busy with reality that I don’t like much attention if I go out doing errands so I postponed it. 

Then it just happened, decided to clean up my stash of hair dye, empty the jar that contains few colors and here we are. I actually started the other week with a few yellow and platinum but there’s no thrill in there apparently. Haha  

Filing of candidacy for government office was over and since colors are once again big deal to who your bet is, kindly ignore the color of my hair. Lol 

I’m once again experimenting on these colors that I have and damn, I miss this. 

I was blonde for so long and that empty slate needs some color now and there is really something with colors. I love it. 

I’m okay now if it fade quickly or not as long as I can use these hair dye that I bought the past month even though that most of my stash will be ending with yellow, green and blue. 

 

I almost forgot how people react seeing my hair with crazy colors and now I’m just smiling when they liked it under my mask. 

Beside from my tattoos, my hair is also an identity of mine even with mask and face shield. Good thing that I somehow established that pre-pandemic which makes people recognize me these days. 

Keeping my blonde / bleached hair days means I can dye my hair anytime so please, don’t be shocked. Lol I just have some reasons why I keep on delaying it but maybe right now as of typing this, I will try to keep dyeing it until I will be sick with blue since Blue Ruin will never leave for sure. Haha 

I remember that one of my reason beside from working out was the vaccine. I don’t know if it will affect that but my arms was so heavy for weeks after my first dose and now that I’m fully vaccinated and my arms are okay now so I did it, finally. 

There are a lot of things why I delayed the hair dye come back and I’m writing it down right now so by the time I question myself again why it took me so long, I can be reminded. 

For now, it was a left over Rock Lobster and Blue Ruin by GDY. 

Book . The Anthropocene Review

 

I will never be able to know this book if it wasn't because of the interview of John Green with Saab. 

Gave this book 4 stars

Started reading this book August 23 and I just finished it today, October 11,2021.

Took me a while because of reality and so much distraction

I decided to read a non-fiction just because maybe I will be able to accomplish a lot more reading but with how long this took me to finish, maybe I'll read some fiction again or maybe a young adult one.

Even I'm very much aware that the upcoming month will be so much busier than the past ones.

I'll make time for it because I also want to accomplish my goodreads challenge which is 5 books this year where I thought that I will be able to do 10.

At least I read some than nothing though I can't lie that TV is a very strong competition. 

“There is some comfort for me in knowing that life will go on even when we don’t. But I would argue that when our light goes out, it will be Earth’s greatest tragedy, because while I know humans are prone to grandiosity, I also think we are by far the most interesting thing that ever happened on Earth.”

The Anthropocene Review | John Green 

On Repeat . gg bb xx

 gg bb xx by LANY

A Change of Perspective

 

I always want to chase the sunset if I can unfortunately I’m doing work stuff during those hours. I’m satisfied if I got a glimpsed of a sunset sky if I'm lucky which are very minimal. That was during pre-pandemic what more right now.

Sky is my thing, I love seeing fluffy clouds with different shape & sizes from time to time. 

Honestly, there is a way to do it even I'm just here at home but sometimes you really got to go somewhere higher to appreciate it more. it will also be a little escape or breather for a day or maybe for the whole week but in my case, it was a breather for almost two years even it was just for 3 hours. 

Staring at this open sky, being above of almost everyone else, being able to breathe some fresh air with mask or sometimes without is so refreshing. 

I somehow wanted to cry. 

I miss being free. 

Those times when you don't have to worry too much. 

I remember specifically when I felt the same emotion. I was roaming around Marina Bay Sands in Singapore with friends staring at the buildings and when we are on our way back to Santa Fe from Carabao Island in Romblon during sunrise. 

It was unbelievable. 

Those moments were so relaxing. That feeling when you know that even everything is currently so fucked up, you know that everything will eventually be okay.

It was so hard to find the light feeling of our current reality. We know at some point that we will be okay, that everything will eventually be okay even we don't know what will happen on the next hours. 

Being able to escape for a few hours was a need even I thought for a moment that I shouldn't leave.

It was a moment of silence in my head.

It was liberating for the time being.

It was an escape

I know how busy life is down there but we were somewhere higher and it feels like a different world. There was someway of freedom. 

Not sure how everyone is doing in this pandemic most especially if you are living in this country where it feels like we are being left behind by thousands of steps. 

It’s hard to plan things out these days but there are certain things I look forward to. 

I look forward to the day that I might be back in this place or any other place where I can watch the sunset freely without thinking too much things; Random surprises from M are one of them. 

But on a daily basis of this current reality a stressed free weekend are somewhat okay as long as I can get some more sleep than usual.  

Hopefully we can go back on planning things out, when we can finally hangout with friends again, be freely breath without a mask (but personally mask are more welcome to stay than face shield). 

Still, I'm thankful for a lot of things.