Random . October 2020

Shit. It’s October. 

Why Fridays feels like Monday. Ugh. 

Been craving for some crime show. Maybe it’s time to watch NCIS NOLA

Watching a love story is a trap. 

Hair dye. We meet again. I think I really need to dye this month since it was Halloween when it all started. 

Some people will never really understand my decisions. 

Trying not to be hooked on true crime documentaries 

Half way done with NCIS NOLA. 

You don’t have to say too much just fucking do it. 

“I may have not walked in your shoes but I’m gonna have your back” - Hannah Khoury S06E17

And I’m done with NCIS NOLA. Just the right time that the last episode of TWD is already released. 

The Walking Dead - binge - watch 

Negan talking about real shit and fucking save the day. 

Btw. The last episode of TWD was worthy. 

I’ve been refusing to write for the past weeks but tonight I’ll try. 

“Will I regret getting a tattoo sched for the next weekend? Lol as if but hopefully this will turn out great. 

Hopefully things will turn up the way it should be for this week. 

I wanted to ask the question because it shouldn’t be a big deal and when I was finally able to, I therefore conclude the true reason. 

I keep myself busy by baking and this is probably the last for a while

Not sure why I’m feeling so anxious most of the time so hopefully everything will be ok. 

I'm slowly going back on planning things.

We both don't know how crazy I can get. So let’s not get there.

Tech distraction again! Apple never disappoint for sure.

A little glitch but so far so good.

There are things that you should decide when you are thinking straight 

I can watch NCIS all day. 

Played Candy Crush again and it’s like a good distraction from browsing social media though my screen time will be so high. 

Why do people always talk shit 

Enough on bleaching, self 

Does being disconnected on social media also disconnects you in real life? Is that the standards right now?

Time to finish my forearm. 💉

Tattoo session is a therapy 

Crossing 2 bullets in my tattoo list

I doubt a lot of things 

I don't like imperfection but at some point being not perfect make sense

Cooked some spaghetti and mom doesn’t like it. Lol

This week went well, on to the next .

And just like that there’s only two episodes of NCIS S17 for me

Oh. We are famous again. 

“It took something from me. It’s what war does. You come home and you're like half a person. The other half of you still back there, where at least it made sense. Where even with the bullets and the blood and the chaos, you knew what mattered. You knew that the guy next to you was willing to die for you and you to him. And you look around and think, it shouldn't take a war to make the world that simple” - Jethro Gibbs NCIS S17E20

I’m trying to think of an alternative but it just pains me that even the alternative is not even possible. 

With or without this current situation, I got so many question on WHY

One promise. Does it means it will just be one time? 

Maybe I’ll start to write again even it comes with tears 

When I forgot the most essential right now which is mask, please know that I’m thinking a lot of things. Oh and I also forgot my phones. 

Was that my ex-bestfriend telling me that everything will be ok? #dream

I hope you still believe in yourself hundred percent even with so much restrictions. 

I badly miss planning trips.

I was already roaming at the mall with a lot of people without face shield and mask. #dream

One classic cartoon at a time

Attention to details

I've been stress eating the past few days

Sometimes, people can't keep up on me if I'm ready

One thing that I miss is traveling and for this month it’s basketball

Kids these days they think they are right. Wait until they meet an accident or a 360 degree life change until they learn

I can't sleep. I'm so anxious for this . 

Still so hesitant to eat outside

Thank you, M. 10.25.2020

When yesterday was a happy one, you got to be on the opposite side today  

Thankful for some stock. I got 2 for the first time tonight

Once again in tears

No excuses for my bad days

My hands being so full will never be a distraction with what I'm feeling right now. 

1 more again tonight. 

Sometimes, I got no sympathy for other people anymore. 

Losing patience.

We all did survive the last few months but for how long we are going to hold on? 

I'm not scared that we are all not going to get back to what was normal but the fact that we are all not sure on how long this will be scares me the most. 

I was so anxious when I started writing “October” look at us now, just a few minutes away from November. 

Fingers crossed on that raffle. 

Hair Dye-ary . 8th Year

For the past years, I haven’t really update my hair dye-ary link. I just get used to having hair dye and a continuous post about it will be boring but one thing I’m sure of, I came a long way back from when I started bleaching my hair in 2012. 

I forgot what made me decide to do hair dye but for sure it was boredom. Lol

I checked and my last post about hair dye was in 2017. That was 3 years ago and I lost track on how many changes happened during that 3 years but I got pictures somewhere on the hard drive and on my Tumblr. 

Why am I writing again about this after 3 years with being consistent on hair dye because this year it’s a little bit of a big deal. 

For the past years, an event or going somewhere to travel or even just the UAAP season are sign to dye or to change color but this year was pretty much what we all didn’t expect. 

The last dye that I did I think was December 2019, I badly wanted to do red so I did it with GDY’s Rock Lobster. Then I just let it fade then right before quarantine I was still able to bleach my roots. That’s it the next bleaching happened last month (September 2020) and I never had the courage to dye my hair crazy colors because everything is just too much at the moment. 

I just give myself a trim which was very useful during lockdown that I do my haircut for years now. Oh and I finally decided to do an undercut since June 2020 and my mom is maintaining the trims when I feel that it’s already long or when it is already on it’s awkward stage. I wish I did it a long time ago!

Back to the dye and my reasons, quarantine went fine I guess but when it was already ber-months and we’re still like this, I know that I don’t have to wait for some major event just to go back with dyeing. Time and day are still moving so fast that the pandemic can’t even take them down. Same with the other things that are cancelled, I'm slowly trying to plan things little by little just because we will never know. 

Why wait for some major event in a pandemic world might as well do it now. 

October 31, 2012 started it all and it’s been 8 years now and as a preparation to my 8th year anniversary, I decided that I should just do it even without events or travel. 

Bleached my hair last month then ordered some hair dye since I realized I don’t have much dye anymore and I really wanted to do green since I miss it already as much as I miss the UAAP season. I’m doing green before end of the month and maybe go with red again for December. 

When I decided that I should go back with dyeing, I honestly realized that I’m somehow incomplete for the past months of not doing it. Maybe it will brighten my vibe as well. 

This is taking a little much preparation since I already started with my leftovers, a light pink and yellow then a little bit of hair care when it fades then it’s green time. I can’t wait. 

I’m also going to try a new brand called iroiro. I’ve been using Manic Panic for years and was able to try Arctic Fox as well. I’m thinking of buying from GDY but international orders are a little bit of a risk as of the moment but I found a Kowabunga on Rainbow Head that is on hand and on sale. Surprisingly it was the first formula of Kowabunga which is no big deal to me since I still have the first formula of Riot!, Rock Lobster and Steal my Sunshine. I was somehow preserving them but I’m going to use them after going green. Let’s do this. 

And I lost count on how many times I already did bleach my hair and last weekend was the last for sure. 

The One Who Always Disagree

 To the one who always disagree but at the same time a true fan, Mom this is for you.

"So this spiral, this is the golden ratio, and it's a mathematical pattern that just repeats itself in nature. In a flower petals, and honey bees and you know, the stars in the galaxy, and in every molecule of our DNA." - Cosima Niehaus | Orphan Black