Random . November 2019

November 1. I’m too emotional that I can’t wait to visit daddy and some family that I’ve been dreaming lately. Will be there in few hours. 

So good to wake up without thinking of anything. 

My kind of weekend but have to keep going to visit the family. 

Passport renewed. 

It’s quite sad that I don’t even got to say “hi” to the people that I used to be close with. 

Week off from everything that the only consistent thing that I do is reading “The Stand”. 

I’m being OC with people who buy too much stuff that later on we all know that they will never use. 

I like it more here because it keeps me away from all the buzz. It is silent in here. No major stress. 

If a person use a lock feature of a doorknob, respect. It was lock for a reason. 

Stress lately is eating me up. I got one message earlier and convinced myself to be reckless just for today. The result - 13th. 

I FINISHED MY FIRST STEPHEN KING BOOK!!!! Took me 1 1/2 month! Make me interested to watch IT, actually. 

UAAP Finals Game 2 is today and I didn’t have any idea. Hahaha. Congrats Ateneo. 

21 the beginning and the end. 

I can’t wait for the next book for the book club so I can divert my attention to that. 

Joined the third book club discussion. Yay for the first to many. 

Done with a busy week. Next, one of the busiest month. 

Waiting can be so impatient but trying my best to be patient. Patience is a virtue. Hehe

Sale everywhere!!!! So tempting. Lol

Why did I open Zalora. Hahaha 

Thankful. 

On to the next, one of the busiest month of the year. 

Beginner

For a year now, I tried and still trying to somehow control my purchases. My mom is a bit hoarder in life and it also shows on some family members and anyone can’t deny that. Lol. 

After somehow revamping my room last year, I started to try to be a minimalist. I’m not saying that I’m minimalist now since at some point I’m still not qualified to being an extreme minimalist maybe I’m just at a beginner stage or maybe I'm a minimalist on my own little way. Well, being a minimalist doesn't have a rules that you have to follow before claiming to be one. 

I tried to watch some minimalist Youtuber and I’m learning but I don’t agree with some of it. 

I wanted to write about this for a long time now but it just hit me most just recently. Would you ever believe that I’m hating malls now? It’s too crowded for my introvert self and living few steps to a small SM makes our life a little bit easier. Not to mention, online shopping. :)

I went to Baguio and I didn’t bought a souvenir. baby steps

I’ve been to malls but I’m losing appetite to shop for the unnecessary things. If you see me at SM in this town mostly because I just need some refill on my stuff/I need to close my exercise ring/maybe its the time of the week to satisfy my potato corner or Jollibee cravings. 

Mostly I’m at the grocery or Watson. Haha but I’m not buying the unnecessary ones just need my refills. 

I even promised myself that I will not buy another batch of make up until I finished the current ones. 

I don’t know how but if it’s unnecessary, I don’t buy it anymore. I shop online but also if I just need it. Lazada is the way for not to leave the house but still getting some satisfaction on shopping. If I can get it in Lazada then, I’m good but of course you have to know the difference in price or if its worth getting online. If you can’t get it anywhere nearby then buy it online 50 pesos for shipping is somehow same if you will be leaving the house. Might as well shop at the comfort of your own.

I’m proud to say that I can now go to the mall and not buy anything except of course to eat at a different restaurant from time to time. The thing that I do if I’m at the mall check the physical product and read the label and also roam at the grocery just to read label and waste time. Haha. so tita

That somehow even I watch some haul on Youtube, I don’t get jealous because at some point even if it is an investment, I know that at certain moments, they will still forget to use it. 

To just decide if it is needed or not is the number 1 lesson. You have to put that in mind. Mind over matter on how it can work. 

For a while now too, I’m very choosy on what to eat. I’m somehow lessen my unhealthy eating habit. I don’t go to full vegan or what because it’s expensive. I just control the Gong Cha since I made a hack on not to crave it. I stopped Starbucks but of course if friends asked to, I may order differently now. My chips are limited to once a week. I stopped soda years ago same with coffee. 

One reason that I don’t go out much anymore because I know that I might messed it up. I saw this cute bag by a brand and not that expensive but I still have some small bags that I barely use and I don’t even usually use a bag on a daily basis. As long as my jeans have pockets, I’m good to go. (but it was cute and I’m sure I can use that somehow... lol real sturggle ). 

I want to purchase a stationary bike but promised myself that I don’t need an equipment that will eat up space that I might not use on a daily basis. Stretching is a free-equipment exercise same with walking at SM for maybe 30 minutes. 

I don’t go to salon for a haircut (I cut my own hair) or go for my underarm to be waxed since I can also do it myself and a service of it is almost the same price of a waxing kit that will last you longer than just 1 session. Just recently, I finally decide to buy an epilator for my underarm one best decision in life that will last for years as long as you take good care of it. I tried in on legs and it hurts and I don’t like it. I still buy a razor but 3 pieces will last for months. 

So many things to share on how I’m trying to be minimalist in a way that I could. Somehow, I’m saving up with this idea and having the mindset of knowing which is needed and not is a good start. 

I’m still having some impulsive buys from time to time and it always remind me to not do it again. It's hard to teach other people about it but if you want to do it on a possible way that you can just try. 

You don’t need to buy every make up that’s being reviewed on YouTube might as well the things they haul. You don’t have to buy it even it always notify you that they are on sale or they are 50% off. Think of buying things that will be for a long term not just for a satisfaction of buying it and not use it for more that once. 

If you can lessen the unnecessary then good. 

Also, I’m avoiding to use my credit card even I know the importance of its usage sometimes. 



10.2019

UAAP S82 . Basketball

Ahhh. Basketball, how I missed you. 

I’m a UAAP fan even I wasn’t in college yet last year (Season 81), I dare myself to not watch even a single game live. After 7 years of consistently watching, I didn’t watch live for last year. Fast forward to 2019 (Season 82) another year that I almost not able to watch a single game, I broke it yesterday I finally once again watched live. 

I’m on timehop for a year now and since I was in a different state of mind from last year, it once again reminded me on how basketball really helped me 8 years ago. It was a very crucial mid-year for me that I really want to write it all down before but I always refuse to write things out. Mid-year was a real struggle that I somehow missing the past more that even I do upload late (as always) on Facebook before, I was being reminded of the good ones. 

One major thing was watching basketball live. 

I was reminded on how it helped me cope. 

How basketball is a relaxing ambience to me. 

How basketball makes me feel safe. 

From not totally watching live last year, I’m slowly trying to go back to it but it doesn't mean that I will be watching every game of FEU. I just realized lately, that it was our most expensive months that I was thinking on why on earth I wasn’t able to save up before and these memories makes me realize that and I just laugh at the idea of it.

After a rocky first round, a questionable losses, shitty schedule for this season and even hanging from the Final Four spot, I decided last minute to watch live. 

The traffic is horrible everywhere that before I can get to Araneta in an hour, maybe it will take 2 hours now and maybe 3-4 hours to MOA or worst who knows. I can still make time for weekday game but since they added a 10:30am and a 12:30pm this year, no thanks. Haha

Weekend games are somehow not in our favor and on weekends I chose to just locked up myself in the house than get out. 

I was so hesitant when we have a game in Ynares in Antipolo during the first round and since it didn’t permit me to watch too for some personal reason, I let it pass. 

Yesterday it was perfect, it wasn’t raining, it was Saturday and it was once again just in Antipolo that my travel time was just 30 minutes. 

If I can’t watch because of location and time schedule, somehow the basketball gods will make a way to bring basketball closer. Yay. 

Yesterday reminded me to be at the moment though it will never really be just like before if Brobabes weren’t there but as for my self, I needed that. 

I needed that break from the outside world and be surrounded with basketball noise. 

I missed that. 

It was so good to see some familiar faces from afar. 

It was so good to watch live and win.

It wasn’t the same feels when being in Araneta or in MOA but I’m so proud on my baby steps on going back to the scene. Lets be honest that I somehow know how things work but if you are putting yourself in just watch-mode it was fun. 

I really needed that. 

And the tita and the introvert in me with this kind of traffic lately, I just choose to be at home and thankful that I don’t need to waste most of my time in traveling even the counter part is the most challenging. 

Who knows if I will be able to watch again before this season ends but if it fits my schedule then maybe I will even it will be in MOA. 

10.20.2019

unfortunately, we didn't win against UST (stepladder) but it was a good season of basketball. we may already know what will be the ending of this but, thankful for basketball :) 

On Repeat . The Hype (Berlin)

The Hype by Twenty One Pilots

I got only few words for this version it's just that I love this version I love they rhythm in short, I love this. 

I hope we can have more reimagined version of most of the old songs and I wonder on what will be the result if he did Car Radio, Kitchen Sink and Forest (just to name a few personal favorite). 

On Repeat . Clementine

Clementine by Halsey

I'd like to tell you that my sky's not blue, it's violent rain

And in my world,  the people on the street don't know my name

In my world, I'm seven feet tall

And the boys always call, and the girls do too

Because in my world, I'm constantly, constantly havin' a breakthrough (hmm)

Or a breakdown, or a blackout

Would you make out with me underneath the shelter of the balcony?

'Cause I don't need anyone

I don't need anyone

I just need everyone and then some

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I just need everyone and then some (I just need everyone and then some)

Wish I could see what it's like to be the blood in my veins

Do the insides of all of my fingers still look the same?

And can you feel it too, when I am touchin' you?

And when my hair stands on ends, it's saluting you

The blush in your cheeks says that you bleed like me

And the 808 beat sends your heart to your feet

Left my shoes in the street so you'd carry me

Through a breakdown

Through a breakdown or a blackout

Would you make out with me on the floor of the mezzanine?

'Cause I don't need anyone

I don't need anyone

I just need everyone and then some

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I just need everyone and then some (I just need everyone and then some)

My face is full of spiderwebs, all tender yellow blue

And still with one eye open, well, all I see is you

I left my daydreams at the gate because I just can't take 'em too

Know my heart still has a suitcase, but I still can't take it through

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I just need everyone and then some

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I don't need anyone (I don't need anyone)

I just need everyone and then some (I just need everyone and then some)

I don't need anyone

I don't need anyone

I just need everyone and then some

Oh-mmm, oh-mmm (yep)

On Repeat . Graveyard

Graveyard by Halsey

It's crazy when

The thing you love the most is the detriment

Let that sink in

You can think again

When the hand you wanna hold is a weapon and

You're nothin' but skin

Oh, 'cause I keep diggin' myself down deeper

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

I keep running, I keep running, I keep running

They say I may be making a mistake

I would've followed all the way, no matter how far

I know when you go down all your darkest roads

I would've followed all the way to the graveyard

Oh, 'cause I keep diggin' myself down deeper

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

I keep running when both my feet hurt

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

Oh, when you go down all your darkest roads

I would've followed all the way to the graveyard (no, oh)

You look at me (look at me)

With eyes so dark, don't know how you even see

You push right through me (push right through me)

It's gettin' real

You lock the door, you're drunk at the steering wheel

And I can't conceal

Oh, 'cause I've been diggin' myself down deeper

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

I keep running, I keep running, I keep running

They say I may be making a mistake

I would've followed all the way, no matter how far

I know when you go down all your darkest roads

I would've followed all the way to the graveyard

Oh, 'cause I keep diggin' myself down deeper

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

I keep running when both my feet hurt

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

Oh, when you go down all your darkest roads

I would've followed all the way to the graveyard

Oh, it's funny how

The warning signs can feel like they're butterflies

Oh, 'cause I keep diggin' myself down deeper

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

I keep running when both my feet hurt

I won't stop 'til I get where you are

Oh, when you go down all your darkest roads

I would've followed all the way to the graveyard