Random . July 2018

Starting the month right by charging. Lol. 

Huhu that episode of Abby. :(

Can't believe I already finished NCIS 15. 

Spoiled. Hahaha. 

What a Monday. :D

This week just totally passed by so fast. 

Not sure if I wrote it down before, but now I understand why people can't write down all their thoughts. I'm struggling now, to be honest. 

Everything is so fast. I somehow running out of time to reflect. 

BlackBerry don't leave me. Haha. Promise I'll type more again soon. I somehow rejected to hold my phone more because it is so toxic. 

iPad - 2% / iPhone - 4% will not charge until morning and now quality time with BlackBerry. 

0707 - can't believe it's been 11 years. Hello best, I miss you but I definitely understand now. Hope you're doing great. :)

One reason why I stayed out of Facebook. 

If you want to be a part of the solution, do the right thing. Don't let frustration get in the way. 

Talked to a friend for 3 hours right after I got lots of realization and now I can't even remember it. 

Busy week. 

This month is just slipping again. 

Whoever you are, that was still humiliating someone. 

News told us to prepare for a super typhoon but guess what it didn't pass Manila. They even suspend classes to think it will rain hard. I get the safety first but I also believe that when some major disaster will happen, all of us will not be prepared. 

Small town sickness. 

Frustration. Lol. 

Trust the process even it will take time. Most people don't want to wait. 

So close on buying a twice the price of a ticket. I know the band is worthy live but is it worth to support such pricey tickets?

Makes me want for a hug, when you mention it. 

Emotionally and physically tired. 

When people tell story so loud in public place. Geez. Not everyone is interested. 

Someone asked me a personal question and I think that will not be revealed until further notice. Been visible most of my life in this place and I'll keep that part a little bit private even I want to shout it out loud. 

It's hard to impose something when all of us have different opinions and uncontrollable behavior. 

That's the difference of quality and quantity. Yours is quantity, mine is quality. 

I know I shouldn't support over priced ticket but what can I do? I'm always in panic and having anxiety attack since November 2017. Oh well, I know it will be worth it. 

I watched "Gave Up Tomorrow" and as much as I want to write my thoughts about it, I rather not. It's just too much. 

Too much rain. How come you are all in Philippines right now? :(

I'll be flying out in 3 days and makes me nervous with all the rain. I don't want to be delayed much. First things first, there's a lot of things to do before leaving Thursday. 

That dream was so vivid. Hello best, I miss you too but don't be a creep on my dream. Haha 

Hometown your cute but I'm gonna leave tomorrow. 

Mixed emotions right before leaving. 

The guy really know what to do when I'm freaking out. 

Made it to Palawan. Yay! 

I just don't want to open social media. 

It's just been a day and I'm missing my dogs :(

It's always a different experience when I'm in here. Thankful for the extended family that's just continuing to grow. Yay. :)

Party where there are people from all over this country. 

Leaving Palawan with a happy heart and reality is already haunting me. 

Palawan will always be a home away from home. 

Reality and procrastinating at it's finest. 

Too much to catch up on. 

I just really don't like to talking to you even you are so cute earlier. 

On Repeat . Thru These Tears

Thru These Tears by LANY

This hurts like hell
But I keep telling myself
It's gonna get better
But it's taking forever
I tried to go out
But every time I leave the house
Something reminds me
Of what's now behind me

Everyday I let go
Just a little bit more

In the end I'm gonna be alright
But it might take a hundred sleepless nights
To make the memories of you disappear
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears

Control my thoughts
Convincing myself it's your loss
I really mean it
And I'm starting to believe it

'Cause everyday I let go
Just a little bit more

In the end I'm gonna be alright
But it might take a hundred sleepless nights
To make the memories of you disappear
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears
Out of sight but you're not out of my mind
So it might take somebody else at night
To make it feel like you were never here
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears

You said it was over
But when we got closer
You cried on my shoulder
Goodbye

In the end I'm gonna be alright
But it might take a hundred sleepless nights
To make the memories of you disappear
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears
Out of sight but you're not out of my mind
So it might take somebody else at night
To make it feel like you were never here
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears

Driving home on an empty highway
I thought about you and I hit the brakes
What we had and who we were was so clear
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears

Indonesia 02/2018

Just got the time to do this months later . - 06.21.18

It's so special that I just want to remember the days. It was my first time traveling alone well, the "alone" didn't last long when I met friends. I can't consider that an alone trip already right? though, sometimes it still is. 

Was it worth it? Yes. 

Will I do it again? Yes. 

People might really felt bad after the cancelled show but how will it be bad when it was worth it, when I got a great time in there. 

I'm so lost with words on how was my experience. 

One thing is for sure, I love Jakarta even without experiencing all of it and I love that trip. 

I can't even choose one photo to upload just to reminisce and let anyone know that I really had a great time in there most especially with friends.  

Fingers crossed for hopefully lots of travel this year. 

As cliché as it is, 

we travel not to escape life but for life not to escape us. 

On Repeat . Nico And The Niners

Nico And The Niners by Twenty One Pilots

East is up, I’m fearless when I hear this on the low, East is up, I’m careless when I wear my rebel clothes, East is up, When Bishops come together they will know that, Dema don’t control us, Dema don’t control, East is up. They want to make you forget, They want to make you forget, Save your razorblades now, not yet, Save your razorblades now, not yet. I’m heavy, my Jumpsuit is on steady, I’m lighter when I’m lower, I’m higher when I’m heavy, I’m so high, my Jumpsuit takes me so high, I’m flying from a fire, from Nico and the Niners. What I say when I want to be enough, What a beautiful day for making a break for it, We’ll find a way to pay for it, Maybe from all the money we made razorblade stores, Rent a race horse and force a sponsor, And start a concert, a complete diversion, Start a mob and you can be quite certain, We’ll win but not everyone will get out.

On Repeat . Jumpsuit

Jumpsuit by Twenty One Pilots

I can’t believe how much I hate, Pressures of a new place roll my way, Jumpsuit, Jumpsuit cover me, Jumpsuit, Jumpsuit cover me. I crumble underneath the weight, Pressures of a new place roll my way, Jumpsuit, Jumpsuit cover me. Jumpsuit, Jumpsuit cover me. Spirits in my room, friend or foe? Felt it in my youth, feel it when I’m old, Jumpsuit, Jumpsuit cover me, Dusting off my Jumpsuit. I’ll be right there, But you’ll have to grab my throat and lift me in the air, If you need anyone, I’ll stop my plans, But you’ll have to tie me down and then break both my hands, If you need anyone.

On Repeat . Halfnoise

Been listening to this lately and I don't know why I'm enjoying slow and chill music. 

Part of growing up? lol 

I can't pick a favorite, as always.