Random . October 2016

Video call will do for now but I miss hanging out with childhood friends until morning in this hometown. 

Another trip to MOA until midnight with bebe gurl. Missing the dude and the chicks. 

Thankful for basketball, as always. 

Sorry friends I wasn't very interesting to talk to earlier. 

Can I escape reality for dream land? 

It amaze me how people still know a very detailed event happened few years back but I also question their reliability. I do remember dates, events, location, names, what happened but with a very detailed shit like how many foot steps I did from point a to b, I don't. 

From a point of view of a commuter, this shouldn't be happening if I'm leaving hometown. 

When people are staring. Haha did I came from outer space? Haha. It's been a while. 

This is why I like Cubao than Ortigas and one reason why I don't usually go home before midnight. 

Exciting game via Twitter. Haha. Congrats, Meralco! 

Time to be creative. :)

This is why you should think very matured and always keep an open mind. (ughh. This is why I don't listen to drama because I think it's too OA.) but yeah, vent it out its helpful. 

Are my series being boring now or I'm just tired? Haha. I keep falling asleep midway the episode. 

Cleaning today was never satisfying as ever. Haha. 1008

People who doesn't follow simple instructions yet they complain too much. 

Know your own shit and don't spread it like Nutella. 

This might take too long as my ideas are overloaded but I need this to be done asap. 

I can write too much rant, life realizations, bunch of questions and analysis about life lately but I wisely choose to stick on my monthly rant. 

Such a good day for basketball fans. I watched 3 games in a row. Haha. That's my version of Sunday Funday if that will pass as one. Lol 

I always cursed when I hear that song playing on my phone. Yay for that unexpected call. :) 1010

Morning call !!!!  :) 1011

Did you hear what you just said? That also apply to your careless moves. 

I just question myself again. I hate when this happen. 

Morning call. Just what I need. ❤ 1012

My own version of come back. 

Don't question the time. You don't know the struggle. 

Fucking hurts not to answer that call. Let's talk later. Miss you. 

There's something about yesterday that make that weird dream about grade school that I just had. I can't remember. 

I never expected that I will feel the same today the feeling when I realized TR will never play his last year for FEU. 

Congrats Ginebra! 

Ughh. I hate this shade of green because its darker compared to Venus Envy I just hoping that it will be good on the fading phase. Haha. 

How do people with rainbow hair wash it without mixing the colors? 

My hair will surely gain some fans today. Lol. 

That theory of yours makes me question some things. But yeah, it's you. #21

Can't wait to see friends tomorrow!!!!! And of course, to watch a basketball game. It's been way too long. 

This is probably the first time that my hair dye stains my skin when sweating and it's been pretty hot in here. 

When I got the driver back. Yess. Haha. Let save the jeeptrip later tonight. 

That "The Yard" experience was... haha. I love observing people but when we are hungry it's always a different story. I enjoyed it most especially that girl who loves to have thousands of pictures that she has been to that place. (I think I'm saving this for one super long post) 

I'm really not into Facebook. 

Writer's block for few months now but I'm making some time to write now because everything is running so fast lately. 

Giving mom some advice on how to pack. Ugghh. I miss traveling. 

I love airport, sometimes. 

Bam. Do I still need to explain further? Haha. 

Why just trust me with this. Avoiding something to happen doesn't need too much evidence for the question "why". 

Dinner with friends! And this traffic will not make me stop to go out of my hometown. 

Taytay, you're such a mess with your traffic management. 

That was such a quick hangout with friends. 

Geez! M!! / Thank you for waking me up but then the amnesia kicks in. Haha. Should I be thankful or be worried?1030 

When a TV series can move you. 

Dreaming of rushing to catch our flight makes me want to rush to our mini adventure. First things first before that. :) 

On Repeat . Million Reasons

Million Reasons by Lady Gaga

You're giving me a million reasons to let you go
You're giving me a million reasons to quit the show
You're givin' me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills
If you could find a dry way, I'd forever be still
But you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare
It's like that I've stopped breathing, but completely aware
'Cause you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

And if you say something that you might even mean
It's hard to even fathom which parts I should believe
'Cause you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Hey, ehh, ehh, eyy
Baby I'm bleedin', bleedin'
Stay, ehh, ehhy
Can't you give me what I'm needin', needin'
Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith
But baby, I just need one good one
Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

When I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one, good one
Tell me that you'll be the good one, good one
Baby, I just need one good one to stay

Social Media Over Reality

Despite of the Tita Mode during that one night at The Yard, one specific moment took all of our attention that makes us laugh and I still can't move on that I need to put all my thoughts in here. Haha

We found a table that was specifically just for one food stall that we already jump into it rather than not having a table. With the hunger plus no table it's hard to bring our mood in the happy place. Putting us outside our comfort zone means one thing, we observe a lot. It's not our crowd, yes but doesn't mean we don't have any idea on what these kind of people are and as who we are, we can totally adjust to different circumstances as long as we have each other. 

I will not apologize if we are too observant because Gem and I were born to be one. Haha. Not to mention Gem started all of it and pass it to me later on that night. Haha. We are already on our table waiting for our order when there was this couple seating across our table and the girl was taking selfie. 

Selfie is a must in this generation so that's pretty normal not until, minutes passed by and you are not done yet. Geez how many selfie is required within a day? Seriously? Is there any required numbers of selfie during a day most especially when you are out in one of the most popular places right now? Is there any rule that there should be a gazillion photos taken before and after eating? Gazillion food pictures are more acceptable than gazillion of selfies (group picture is totally a different story). 

So yeah, the girl didn't stop while waiting for her boyfriend who was ordering food and she was just taking photos of herself for maybe 30 minutes. Haha. Friendly advice, if it's against the light you can never do anything about it, you can't capture your face and the background at the same time unless you will settle with a shadow of your head with it. If you will have a never ending selfie mode, get a whole team to do the picture taking. Haha. I was so close to volunteer as her photographer since I had my DSLR that time. Haha. 

Another friendly advice, if you are going to eat like a guy who haven't eaten for weeks, please don't wear something like an off-shoulder romper because it doesn't compliment each other. Haha. Please people, eat according on how you are dressed up. Unless you are at the comfort of your home even you eat like a lion with a very nice long gown, then that's alright but if you are in a public place where there's also a scarcity of tables and seats then it's very inappropriate. 

Scarcity of fabric is so strong in that place too! Haha. 

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Here's the real reason why I titled this post with Social Media Over Reality. 

What I told on the first part was the real deal and it's not just about what we usually see on social media. That girl who got a whole memory of her phone for her selfies that night might posted those on her social media accounts and people who are just seeing it doesn't know on how she did that. I'm telling you, her struggle to get the "perfect" shot is fucking real!! Haha. 

Generally, I discussed this with my friends that some people post a lot on their social media account but the question is, do they really enjoyed their time while taking that photo? What we usually see on their wall are maybe just 20% of the reality. Who knows if they really enjoyed it maybe it's just for show. This applies most especially to the people who we know who they really are outside their social media account. 

I'm happy that my friends and I don't usually update on actual time of hanging out not unless it's very informative you know like updating each other during basketball games or any information that should be spread ASAP. We usually upload everything late another indication that we really did enjoyed our company that night. I'm not gonna lie there are times that we are distracted with the Internet but usually that's just 10% of our hangout moments. Haha. Well that doesn't happen when it's basketball season because there's too much to talk to. 

One problem that I got with those people are, no matter how many their photos on their memory card for a single event they are uploading EVERYTHING. AS IN EVERYTHING. It's 2016 we can just choose few pictures to upload per event in our life. Why am I ranting about it its your life. Haha. Yeah because it's annoying. Haha.

Before we get jealous on whatever they post ask yourself curiously if those people really enjoyed their time when the picture was taken. I think most of the time it's just for show. 

Just enjoy however you are living as long as you're happy and you aren't ruining anybody. And if you are going to share something on the Internet be sure you share whatever that's real because you are fooling yourself more than you are fooling the people who will see it. 

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We can all trick each other on social media.

Such a "Tita"

We actually went out of our comfort zone last weekend after watching basketball and we decided to go to The Yard. 

We wanted to be somewhere new and we almost let go of the idea when we can't find a table and I think they should limit the people who enter their vicinity since it's pretty small for gazillion people. I'm sure they have any idea on what's the capacity of the place, overpopulated is not a good sign in all aspects. 

Although the food was good that I want to try all of it but with no air that's coming through and we all know how hot this country could get, and with limited tables and scattered food stalls, think twice before going. Unless you are early to get good seats that I'm sure you will be able to enjoy every food that you wanted to try or go there on weekdays rather than weekend or maybe there's no difference. 

But if you can really stand being hungry for most of the time rather than the eating time or maybe when you are not too hungry, if you just want to be part of the crowd, if you just want to be "in" then just go. 

It's definitely not our crowd if you ask me because we want a place where we can talk and have a good food and without people walking on the side looking for a table waiting for you to be finish, we want a place where we can all enjoy our own company rather than be bothered with the people walking on every space available. 

I know I'm being OA but seriously overcapacity can be dangerous not just for the business but also for the people who are enjoying their night. I'm sure you have an idea on what's the capacity so everyone who will go there can enjoy their time with their friends without worrying. 

We can totally adjust to that kind of crowd but it's just the wrong place to be. 

We are probably just for coffee shops right now. Haha. 

PS. The scarcity of fabric is so strong in that area and we are not even at the beach side! Haha. 

Mind Your Own

Meeting a lot of people with different personality is pretty normal for all of us but choosing who to be close with is the difference.

Personally, I encountered a lot of people even at some point in life I'm an introvert. Well, this year, I was able to know another side of people that at some point I definitely didn't know existed. I was amazed because I was able to discover that side even though I didn't personally looked for it it just came to me.

I also discovered some shitty people this year. I mean I know those kind of people exist but to the extent that I only believe that my crime series are the only one who have those character, this year I discovered it do exist in reality and it is pretty close that I wish I can just do whatever the people on my series can do to those kind of people. Not really to kill them you know but at least give them some bullets of words to kill their shitty personality or at least be awake on reality because I'm pretty much sure that they are having some fantasy that they own the world.

I want to blame the trust issue of some but when we can't go back to years ago, we just need to prevent on how it will not be spreading shit all over the place. The question is if the person doesn't have an open mind then who to call? Most likely its a dead-end.

Maybe you are stalking me online then HELLO! this is for you. YES, YOU!!! If you ever find this blog.

Let me tell you something, you are narcissistic and histrionic at the same time. Well, most people have those but you are over the top.

Inventing and manipulating stories will never ever going to bring you at the top. How did you know old stories when you are just here for a week and now you are spreading it like you know the real deal since 1980s? FYI, we are not in class room anymore when we used to talk about the love story of Jose Rizal that any of us doesn't know what was the real deal.

Being jealous of some people will also not going to bring you somewhere. Mind your own shit. Mind your own business. Mind your own life. Look in the mirror all of us are imperfect before you judge, why not judge yourself first. Analyze yourself if you will be able to benefit a lot in a good way at the end by doing this shitty stuff. Yes it will make you famous but what else are you getting in the end? Nothing. Yes, you will earn nothing. You will just clearly will get nothing for being so shitty.

You will lose all the people around you because you can't be trusted with anything. Hence, they don't even call you friend because you don't earn the title. Maybe some close to you are being shy for the person you have become and they can't stop shaking their heads from disappointments. But of course if there are people sticking by your side when this time comes, be thankful because you are not alone being a shitty one.

My advice? STOP IT.

STOP YOUR ILLUSION
STOP BEING AN INSTANT INVENTOR
STOP BEING MANIPULATIVE
STOP BUILDING YOUR FANTASY

because people are not so dumb that they will believe you.

If you are being like this because you are being treated like shit then make it stop. Its your personal life you should focus on that because that's where you have the total control. You don't need anyone when it comes to your personal issue. You don't need to spread the bad vibes. Make it stop.

In the end, you are the loser of this fantasy of yours. You will not win, you will not succeed because in the future you will be forever hiding for all the things that you've done and you will just going to feel so sorry for your own and when it comes, people will never believe in you anymore.

So I'm telling you now that you should stop while its not yet late to control it.

Make sure that you will not cross anymore boundaries because when you hit what is closer to me, you will never see my army coming. Remember, people are not stupid and there will always be watchers who knows what is the real deal.

Be careful on whatever you are planning because I'm telling you that you will never succeed in a very good way. So better stop it now before its too late to feel so sorry for your own.

Make your self busy by focusing on your own self, on your own issues. Watch teleserye so you will have something to do or separate the coffee, sugar and creamer on a 3-in-1 pack of coffee or whatever that will make you occupied for the rest of your life without shitting others. Geez, I'm curious on how can you sleep at night.

Seriously, there are a lot of things to be busy about rather than inventing and manipulating stories ... Oh wait, I bet you can be a very good writer. Why not shift to that kind of job? You are very promising in that field.

 "Don't wait for you to fall harder to the extent that you can't get back up because people will not reach out to you again"

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If you reached this paragraph then thank you for reading my rant for the day and I know I didn't make anything so clear because I don't want to drop names and I want it to be a general thing since I believe this kind of people exist in your surroundings too.

On Repeat . Moose Blood

I discovered Moose Blood just like any other way that I discover some new band to listen to. Mostly I do hear about them lately from Mariel Loveland of Candy Hearts. When I heard their cover of I Don't Love You from the Rock Sounds' Black Parade, I gave their music a try.

Timely, their album Blush was just released. I listened and I love it then I started digging on who they are, where they're from and what their previous records are. 

All this time, I knew I somehow heard about them before (even before I heard them from Mariel) but I just can't figure it out. As I was researching their previous record, I saw Vail's pictures on Boston/Orlando and on I'll Keep You In Mind, From Time To Time and it kicks in, I heard them from Sam before. She somehow mentioned them on her Tumblr or Instagram that they liked the photo of Vail to be the cover of the album. Maybe I was just busy that I never did some searching by that time. We'll, it's never too late to listen to some new music. 

I only have Boston/Orlando, I'll Keep You In Mind, From Time To Time and Blush on my music list. 

I don't want this post to be super long so maybe some of my favorite will be on a different post. 

Try to listen to them I find their music sweet with a little rock and roll in it. Though they're under EMO on genre, I don't find them EMO maybe because I can still listen to it again and again.

And the way you died
Did it hurt at all?
I think of you that way
Or not at all

Spring | Moose Blood