Random . September 2016

 Ber month! ❤ 

After months I just realized that it should be "beat" not "bit". Hahaha

It's just Friday? I thought it's already Saturday. Haha. 

Finally! I'm getting out. 

Brobabes ❤ 

When I'm being shitty with the world, I'm questioning a lot of things. 

Atleast I tried. #21

Apparently a tub of ice cream somehow can and still heal me just like a bar of chocolate. But still making sure not to stress eat. Haha. Doesn't mean I'm not going to have some retail therapy soon. Haha. 

Yay! I blogged early and it's already on schedule before the UAAP Opening later. 

Early morning / goodnight call. ❤ 

Need to avoid the Internet so I will not be able to shop online. Haha. 

Should I need to write another violent reaction regarding the 1st game day of UAAP? Haha. It's so interesting to write about it but if I'm not going to I just want to say that, if you are professional you should know how to adjust with different circumstances. The UAAP will not adjust for you leave the drummers alone and do your job as a consultant. 

The fulfilment of having tickets for the first game of FEU. ❤ 

Re-watching Stranger Things makes me fall in love with the 80's. 

Field trip. Haha. / Hi hometown. 

I'm loving New Found Glory lately especially the album of "Coming Home". I have a few favorite I'm not yet sure to put the album on an "On Repeat" post or just my faves though "Too Good To Be" is already on schedule. 

Wasn't able to dye my hair before the game tomorrow. / Busy days but all good. 

Mantraaaaaaaaa. 

Angono to MOA then MOA to Angono. Things I do for friends and basketball. Haha. 

Oh. Anxiety again. 

We didn't win but it's all good. Thankful for basketball. 

My walls are building up once again. Tsk. 

When a person say too much shit behind your back and at the end you still need to be nice to them. 

How to explain a detailed situation to a close minded person? 

There are too many people who are suffering stress that they want all of it gone in their system while you are making yourself stressed while minding other people's lives. There are also too many people who are busy in life and if you're just bored with yours then find something productively good for a lot not the other way around. Go travel and explore. 

People are too bored with their lives. Do you want to exchange with the busy people so they can have even just a day or a week to travel? 

Dreaming of going back to one of my favorite island makes me miss it so much. 

I should've spend time with you 8 years ago. I miss you everyday, Papa. 

Busy days. Just want I needed but first we got to chill. Haha. Basketball again later! :D

Oh for sure you will never notice. 

It's amazing how other people are being curious about my two lines. Haha. 0913

I think ever since 2011, we never missed a game against ADMU. Today will be the first one. 0914

When I'm busy, the words also wants to come out. Haha. I'm going to finish my tasks today then I'll probably write. If the words are still in there later. Haha. 

It's weekend and I wonder why am I feeling great waking up too early then when I checked the time it's already noon. Haha. The lightning in my room is one of my favorite. 

I think whatever music genre you are listening it affect your perspective in life. 

Retail therapy at its finest. Haha. 128!!!

I don't want to deal with your own issues, I can just handle my issues and I don't want to be your bridge for the nth time. 

OMG. Wow. The fan girl in me is awake after seeing those art work. I'm beyond amazed. #21 

There are too many things that is happening in this country and yes we are all affected but we can't just wait on what will be next because we still need to do whatever we have to do for the day. Let us not blame anyone because it all started somewhere years ago and we are the one who are suffering on what have they done. Running a country is also not an easy task we can't just depend on them we also need to start from ourselves somewhere. 

Basketball in the background to keep me sane today. 

Sometimes I question life itself but I think the most important is that you should never ever lie to yourself even some people compare you to others. 

Do I need to get out there again or should I lock myself in? 

Chill, Aiv. Chill. 

I'm stress eating and watching the latest season of NCIS. I'm totally fine. 

Avoiding to write something that will make me emotionally and psychologically draining. 

It's hard to be nice to people when you are having your own issues. That's why I want to avoid them. 

Reading other people's blog/thoughts is making me feel better. It's telling me once again that I'm never alone on having this experience. 

Should I wish not to feel anything about death like Jimmy? #YoureTheWorst S03E04

I somehow wish I'm an extrovert at some point. Well before I thought I am not until I'm hating the crowded places. 

You don't want this to happen but you make it happen. 

I don't want to do it but at the same time I don't want to drag anybody to see the transformation. I guess I have to slowly discover the A game in that phase. 

I should not doubt myself this time. 

I watch too many crime series. 

It hurt to see the other side being so happy while the other isn't and the saddest part was the connection in the middle doesn't even fucking care about any sides other than his own self. 

"Shoot first, ask questions later" doesn't work all the time. 

Ugggghhh. Life. I was almost ready to go to the edge but thankful for my reminder-tattoo for snapping me back to reality. 

One down, who does know on how many to go. 

3 hours video call with the babes and few minutes with the zombie. Haha. 

I still don't get it somehow but it scares the shit out of me. 

That conversation with Gem!!!! 

I'm craving a lot of foods lately. Haha

On Repeat . Cancer

Cancer (Cover) by Twenty One Pilots

I love it and I can't stop listening to this. 

I love MCR I do remember listening to them when Helena was released but I don't know why I stopped when they released Danger Days. They're still on my iPod anyways and I just listened to The Black Parade album the other week.

Even I haven't listened to them for so long, I still love them. 

I think that's the good side of music, that they are not going anywhere we just need to discover new ones (can be new or old) or re-discover the once we used to listen before.

Music Rules

On Repeat . Breakeven

Breakeven by The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even

Her best days were some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're OK?
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even... no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're OK?
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, ooh
'Cause you left me with no love and honour to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break...
No, it don't break
No, it don't break even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're OK?
(Oh glad you're okay now)
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
(Oh I'm falling, falling)
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even no
Oh, it don't break even no
Oh, it don't break even no

On Repeat . Boulders

Boulders by New Found Glory

I feel locked away
With the weight of the world on my shoulders
Crushing on my head are boulders
Made of lies and dust from all of us

What of the bonds we've made
That have started to fade
We can't control the time
But right now I'll take what I can get out of my life

Medicate me again
So I fall away
Medicate me now
So I fall away

I feel torn between
Two different sides of an opinion
Don't know what state I've been in
Don't believe in trust, for only one of us

What of the progress made
That night we all forgave
It was a thought out crime
But you should take what you can get out of this life

I never said that I didn't need you
Put down your arms
And wrap them both right around me
Right around me

On Repeat . Too Good To Be

Too Good To Be by New Found Glory

I wonder, what life would be like
If my shoulder
Could bare the weight of all this adding up
I feel, the breaking point
It's close enough, it's feeling real again

You have my heart in your hands
You have my heart so don't, don't let it go
Check my pressure
Patch me right up, you're too good to be

It's true, we both make sacrifices
There's proof, it came as no surprise
It boiled up, as we always let it do
We made it through again

You have my heart in your hands
You have my heart so don't don't let it go
Check my pressure
Patch me right up, you're too good to be

Oh, you know you have my heart in your hands
You have my heart so don't, don't let it go
You have my heart in your hands (You have my heart in your hands)
You have my heart so don't, don't let it go
Don't let it go
(So hold on)
Check my pressure
Patch me right up, you're too good to be

You're too good to be

On Repeat . Closer

Closer by The Chainsmokers feat. Halsey

Hey, I was doing just fine before I met you
I drink too much and that's an issue
But I'm Ok
Hey, tell your friends it was nice to meet them
But I hope I never see them again

I know it breaks your heart
Moved to the city in a broke down car
And four years, no calls
Now you're looking pretty in a hotel bar
And I, I, I, I, I can't stop
No, I, I, I, I, I can't stop

So baby pull me closer in the back seat of your Rover
That I know you can't afford
Bite that tattoo on your shoulder
Pull the sheets right off the corner
Of that mattress that you stole
From your roommate back in Boulder
We ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older

You, look as good as the day I met you
I forget just why I left you, I was insane
Stay, and play that Blink-182 song
That we beat to death in Tucson, OK

I know it breaks your heart
Moved to the city in a broke down car
And four years, no call
Now I'm looking pretty in a hotel bar
And I, I, I, I, I can't stop
No, I, I, I, I, I can't stop

So baby pull me closer in the back seat of your Rover
That I know you can't afford
Bite that tattoo on your shoulder
Pull the sheets right off the corner
Of that mattress that you stole
From your roommate back in Boulder
We ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older

So baby pull me closer in the back seat of your Rover
That I know you can't afford
Bite that tattoo on your shoulder
Pull the sheets right off the corner
Of that mattress that you stole
From your roommate back in Boulder
We ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older

We ain't ever getting older
No, we ain't ever getting older

UAAP S79 / LXXIX . Rant

UAAP Season 79 or LXXIX haven't been started but I'm disappointed when I read that there will be no games on the opening date but yeah that's understandable. The most unacceptable is the schedule because I think it wasn't planned enough because there are games that should be the main game but it wasn't. Hopefully second round schedule will be a good one. 

The highly unacceptable is that the school hymn should be sung before the game than the usual which is after the game. Seriously? I will agree 100% if the national anthem should be sang before games but the school hymn? NO.

school hymn first before warm up

What do audience do before the game? Go to restroom, buy snack or still lining up for tickets, waiting for their friends and worst running late because you came from school or work / you were stuck in traffic going to the venue most especially if you came from the north and the venue is MOA then you still look for a parking space or walk from the bus stop to the Arena. 

I haven't read the article on Spin.ph yet when I was able to talk to my friends about it and we are totally against it because we already experienced being late for a game and we fucking love to sing the school hymn whether we sing it first or not. It's even funny when I mentioned on who to sing first are they going to have a toss coin or what, then I even say that maybe it will be another premonition on who will win or lose because they sung the school hymn first. 

Then I read the Spin.ph article that makes me angry. First, the light uniform will sing first then the dark uniform will follow but then the reason on why putting the school hymn first was "We noticed that it might not be the best time because everybody is tired" WTF. Seriously? Yes people tend to leave even before the last buzzer of every game but that doesn't mean that the true / loyal fans / supporters / 6th man will leave before the school hymn and we even respect the other team while singing theirs. Its basketball, its better to miss the first half than missing the second half but having the school hymn before the game.....

Swear it is fulfilling to sing the school hymn after game most especially if you will sing it first.

Running time is also an issue. I think singing the hymn was perfect most especially when the correspondents are mentioning the final score and who was the best player, etc. 

Have you watched a PBA game? Do you think it's fun not singing or doing anything right after the game? When the players are just going straight to dugout? It was pretty boring and watching such games makes me miss the UAAP where we can show how we fully support the school and the team. 

I'm not sure what will happen now every after game but sadly, we can't sing the school hymn. Well I think we can still since there are no violation or penalty about it and maybe it will also depend on the drummers of each team on what will happen after. 

Later UAAP S79 will be officially open and we are excited despite of the changes because there are so many things to look forward to like 5 teams changed their coaches, there will be new batch of rookies, the veterans that we witnessed on previous years, the post-Kiefer Ravena / Von Pessumal / Kevin F3rr3r / Ed Daquioag / Karim Abdul / Mac Belo / Mike Tolomia / Roger Pogoy era.

See you at some FEU games!

"Dare to Dream" 
UAAP Season 79