Random . February 2016

Hello February. 

Drinking milk is bad when you have stomach ache. :( 

My alarm clock is too early today. 020216

Thanks for the warning. I know you've been here and done that. :) #27

Hahaha. Chikababes! I miss you so bad! 

I got no problem with that but it seems you have. #02

That dream is so mixed up. 020316

H is so overwhelmed. Thank you. 020416 #21

That dream feels like getting a "go" signal from Karlo. I woke up laughing. You're the best, Pot! Miss you. Thanks for the visit. :) 020516

Haha. I was almost panicking when I woke up at 445am I thought I was still talking to M. It was only just a dream. Good thing I was able to talk to him in the morning. 020516 

Cute guys on series!!! 

Doubts again. / Just one call and everything is fine again. This guy is too much sometimes or should I say always. 

Dinner with Brobabes at Don Day means laughter and fullness. Haha. 

The perks of knowing how to commute and stuff but still MANTRA. Huhubells. 

It should be more than 3 months. 

I'm so used to my morning and night calls. :(

Should I start to detached myself now? 

Loads are killer. Haha. 

Having a limited space to write is challenging and lately, I'm running out of space so I just need to write the highlights. Haha. 

Hi daddy! Thanks for the visit. I miss you. 

Wow. 24 hours. Which way is this headed?. 021116 01:21

I should have another game plan if this will hit 48 hours or 72 hours. Detaching is number one. 

As much as possible I don't want to assume things but is it okay to do it now? 021116

When I'm fucking waiting for Ain't It Fun to play randomly from my phone or at least hear Tyler shouting "Yeah, yeah, yeah" for a text message. 

m a n t r a 

I never thought that I've been telling stories online for the last 7 years. Wow. Digging my Tumblr account. See how I'm trying hard to divert my attention from one topic to another. I'm trying my best. 

And it was 48 hours. 

I just like slow songs this time. 

Going back to my usual mornings. I still wait sometimes. 

Maybe that's the way it has to be. 

Show ended and life goes on. I'll be okay in a week. 

The meaner side is back. 

Paramore live shows are always my therapy. 

Is it weird that I'm trying to listen to Forever The Sickest Kids? 

When you have a friend who knows that something is up. Huhu. Thanks dude. 

I just finished reading To The Stars by Molly McAdams and no major heart ache this time. I was actually surprised that I'm laughing so hard with the "Mother Hens". Haha. Molly McAdams is the only author that I will read a new release ASAP. 

Busy weekend. Just what I needed. 

The first and probably the last time that I will count the hours passed. 65 hours and 9 minutes. 

People should really think twice or thrice before doing something. The cause and effect is to much to handle.

It's hard to explain such things to people who are close minded. I know you do have a point but sometimes it's just pointless. 

I'm trying to remember but I also need to stop expecting. / I should stop expecting even I'm trying to remember. #21

The battle between "what if" and "at least". 

When I can reread everything, I know it already passed and that's a bit scary. 

Dear H, stop being hyper every night and morning. Just stop because it's confusing. 

OMG. I NEED SOME AIR. Hi Bacs! Haha 021416

Tired but all good. 

I want to write something but I'm so confused. 

H, how many times should I remind you to calm down? This is too much already. Please cooperate. :( 

It's too unfair for you if I'll think everything was a lie. 

Dear self, fix yourself. Haha. 

I'm loving my new songs. Shout out to the person who introduced me to FTSK. Haha. 

That's fine with me but it's so funny. Haha. 

That's like the dumbest question ever. It's like asking me why do I use a phone. 

We all have our own opinion but sometimes you should think first before saying it out loud. Your gesture on that video interview says that you think it's a joke that we all should laugh about, you're wrong. Then your gesture on that apology video says you are not sincere and you still stand on what was your opinion. You should just stick to boxing. 

4th week. Thursday. 021816 

It's been a while since I literally typed a whole blog post on a blank slate of blogger not just a copy paste of video link and lyrics or maybe it's the first time because I usually type on my phone. Feel so good. (On Repeat . FTSK)

Okay let's try a movie night. 

I wonder who's behind this excitement of H every morning and night. 

You can still talk to me before Monday. #02

"Maybe it's easier to cry alone" - Annalise Keating HTGAWM S02E11

My room is not as spotless as it is after cleaning but it's a productive day. 

This is the best shuffled Playlist ever. Night Sky, Forever Girl, Tether and then Gun. 

"I'm the secret that you hide" - Night Sky | CHVRCHES 022116

Have a safe flight back out there, Ry. See you again soon. 022216

When I accidentally re-shuffled the so far best Playlist to date. Haha. 

Girls are back! I love that group of people. 

FTSK and CHVRCHES are so opposite to each other but that's they way I like it. (just like me and you. Char!)

Is there any chance that with a shuffled Playlist, we do listen to the same song at the same time? 

That was a brave move when everyone can watch it. I don't know what was the meaning of that dream but hi and I miss you too, best.

"Fill up your lungs with us" - Lungs | CHVRCHES 

Thinking what song was that makes me miss my morning and after lunch calls. 

Just another day that I want to drive to wherever but never mind. :/ 

When I'm feeling pissed with the world I'll just stay away and have an alone time. 

Wow. 1 hour from home to Araneta. Hello holiday and to Gem's last minute text. 0225

I love holidays. There are only few people outside. Hehe. 

What happened? Looks like we are filtered today. Haha. #21

Shetballs. This feeling. 

CSI Cyber changed my perspective about the Internet. Everyone should also watch it but I bet not everyone will learn. 

NCIS never fail to amaze me. Still my overall crime series favorite even a lot of a few new shows makes my jaw drop. 

I really need a new personal laptop this year. 

You are everywhere to me. Srsly #21

Life is all about chances and hope.

This shit is really getting out of hand.

Acceptance is the key.

I will never forget.

20 songs on my current playlist and its making my day. I think I should add one more so it will be 21. lol

I need another 2-3 hours night talk again ... tonight if possible...

Food trip with the kids after a tiring day.

Auto shut down ....

Flashback Friday . Project and Readings

Its "love" month and I just want to share this before this month ends.

I made this video for our group 5 years ago as a project on Current Issue.

~

(I read this quotes at 711 months ago while waiting...)

Love can make even the two most incompatible people in the world fall for each other

Love needs no reason for it to be true. 

Love inspires magic between two people and does not disappear even they've forgotten about it. 

On Repeat . Night Sky

Night Sky by CHVRCHES

[Verse 1:]
I will carry you and give you life
I will cover you and show you the way
It's a sequence that you never learned
It's a lesson I will never forget

I can hear you in the overtones
Just an echo of the promise we made
Change the future, we can travel time
Or make us blind so we can never look back

We can never look back

[Hook:]
I'm the night-sky
I'm the fire in your eyes
And I want you
Now and for all time
I'm the cold heart
I'm the secret that you hide
I'll be listening until you decide

[Verse 2:]
I communicate in simple strings (take your time)
I'm the only one who gave you the truth (speak to me)
Once you leave me you were really gone (far and near)
Give me something to remember you by (always be)
All that's here is what you left behind (majesty)
Slowly moving in the back of my mind (can't forget)
Take a moment to remember me (and our ways)
Make me blind so I don't ever look back

Only in your name
I will ne'er be free

[Hook x2]

On Repeat . Forever The Sickest Kids

Forever the Sickest Kids by Forever The Sickest Kids

I've been so open on listening to music with different genre but some are making me sleepy but it doesn't mean I hate those. I stopped hating some genre since music is one huge part of my life even I don't listen to some it doesn't mean I hate them already but mostly, I'm not into mainstream songs. Most of my friends doesn't even listen to my music and I totally understand that.

I do follow music related account on twitter and I do read some music magazines and I read line up on festivals so I know band names even I don't listen to them. 

Someone (Hi! haha) recommends new music to me his favorite or his kind of music to listen to and I give it a try and now I'm hooked. Although not to everything he listen to but I believe that I can stand his choice of music. Lets see if another recommendation will be on the next On Repeat post. haha but for now, FTSK will do :)

I'm not being sick on my music I just need some new songs so I give Forever The Sickest Kids a try. I've been listening to their 3 albums (Underdog Alma Mater [Deluxe], J.A.C.K. and Forever The Sickest Kids) and the Self Titled is my favorite. I do have a few favorite on the other 2 albums (I will not name it so I can put it on another "On Repeat" post) I haven't listen to their EP but I will give it a try soon, This album makes me smile and happy and I don't know why, I mean yeah, its an upbeat kind of songs but other than that I don't really know why (maybe because of the one who recommends it? haha).

Anyways, here are my favorite lines from each songs and of course I do have some personal favorites and maybe I'll put it on a different On Repeat post because its too addicting or maybe not because I love them all. haha  

Keep On Bringing Me Down - Why does the world as I know it / Keeps on bringing me down (the whole chorus) 

I Guess You Can Say Things Are Getting Pretty Serious - You got in my heart, you got in my head, and I believe everything that you said

Life Of The Party - 'Coz you're the life of the party

Robots & Aliens - Just like my favorite  song, I'll put you on repeat (and the chorus) 

King For A Day - If I was king, king, king for a day / I'd make, make, make you my queen 

Good Life - I want the good life 

Same Dumb Excuse (Nothing To Lose) - I've got nothing to lose but you ...

Bipolar, Baby! - She drives me crazy, all of the time / Bipolar baby, one of a kind

Summer Song - This is the night, we came alive / Into the summer times, state of mind / Fight for the finish line

Forever Girl -  Cause we've got that thing people dream about and see on silver screens / It's undeniable

What Happened To Emotions? (Killing Me) - You're killing me, killing me, killing me slow / And I don't even, don't even, don't even know.

M, thank you for recommending FTSK to me! Its so addicting. HAHA 

They say things change with time

But one thing is for sure

It won't be you and I,

you and I.

(Forever Girl)

On Repeat . Divided

Divided by Tegan and Sara

Go downtown to catch the early movie 
The shows are cheaper 
They don't mind if you put your feet up 
She's out on the highway
She's got a homemade sign it says 

Go ahead try to figure out 
What my future looks like
I don't want to live my life like a story 
Always thinkin' I could've been something 
Don't run along side and control me 
Just film away and let me be 

At ease I, I feel fine 
I'll move on, I'll go on 

There's something so divided 
Don't worry about me I'll be fine 
Don't live your life for me or for anyone 
Live your life as if you're one 
Live your life as if you're one 

And find quiet, it's awful quiet 

How can you be mad we just got started? 
I want to shave my head 
Lie in bed all day long 
How can you be mad we just got started?
Live your life as if you're one 
Live your life as if you're one

At ease I, I feel fine 
I'll go on, I'll move on 

Don't live your life like a movie 
Always thinkin' you could've been something
Don't live your life for me or for anyone
You live your life as if you're one 
You live your life as if you're one 
Find quiet it's awful quiet 
Find quiet

Palawan or Another City?

If you will ask me, I'll choose Palawan without second thoughts. 

A friend just telling a story that a friend of her will be visiting Singapore soon and they chose that instead of Palawan because probably they will spend same amount with plane tickets and other things and that's just sad. 

Really? Singapore over Palawan? Tsss. 

I've never been out of this country and sure, I've been dreaming of US, UK, Australia, Singapore, Hong Kong, etc. But even I know that I will be spending the same amount of money, I'll rather visit Palawan first most especially if I haven't been there. Well, I will still choose it even I've been there twice. 

If I want to escape this town/city, I will really chose the province over another busy-city. We used to see buildings every now and then so I'll rather choose Palawan and see the beauty of nature. Yes, traveling to Palawan can be the same as traveling to Singapore but the nature of Palawan is irreplaceable. 

Been there twice and I fall in love every time. 

Traveling is much easier now and as there will be lot of travelers around who also blog, there will always be tips on how you can survive a place/country even on a tight budget. You just have to search. Hehe I can't do a full details of budgeting and places to see but you can always search that and it will lead you to the legit backpackers who blog and tell stories. Try it. 

Visiting another country is surely great but patronizing your own is a must. 

Of course I have plans on visiting a foreign land this year. Fingers crossed to that. 

But seriously, visit Palawan (my home away from home). I'll choose it over Boracay too because, El Nido is love. :)

"You don't need to join the bandwagon, be a trendsetter"

On Repeat . Maybe

Maybe by Candy Hearts 

I really love Mariel / Candy Hearts even I don't listen to them everyday and I just remember playing this song again and wow. This just fit my situation for the past few days with all the happiness and doubts and everything in between. I love it. #21

The way you hold your cigarette

Like it is a habit you're not 

sure you, should hold on to

The way I hold my shoulders low

and wait around for you to call

don't have much, to hold on to

Well, you could hold on to 

me like your bad habits

I will hold on to you 

like you're good for me, 

you could hold on to 

me like your bad habits

you might just prove me wrong, 

But we'll see

I bite my nails but not my tongue

I get nervous and say too much 

I'm trying to be better

To not call you every time I drink

As an excuse to say the things 

You'd never say to me

Well I will hold on

to you like a bad habit

You could hold on like 

I'm someone you'd want

I will hold on to you

like a bad habit

I might just prove you wrong 

but probably not

The way you hold your cigarette

Like it is a habit you're not 

sure you, should hold on to

The way I hold my shoulders low

and wait around for you to call

don't have much, to hold on to

well you could hold on to me like your bad habits

you could hold on like I'm someone you'd want

you could hold on to me like your bad habits

you might just prove me wrong

i might just prove you wrong

but probably not

Do people really change?

I think yes. Most especially if it's been years it may not a one huge change as you see it but I do believe people really change. 

We do change even with the simplest thing because we all have experiences that we realized that it shouldn't happen again. People may still do the same things, hangout at the same place for years but we can't accused them that they haven't been change. 

We still go on in this life everyday even we don't have the same people we had couple of days/months/years ago but it doesn't mean we don't change. If you have been the same person as last year then I think you have a problem. Believe me, I was reading some posts that I published here a year or two ago and I find myself laughing or confused on why I did wrote that and how come I came to use the words that I used and everything. 

I may be speaking from my own but I see people change everyday for some, they took the long process while some take the shortcut but whatever road you take, you can't be the same person than you are yesterday even you are doing the same old shits/hangout with the same crowd at the same place.

Its just up to you if you are going to change for the good or bad. 

Take note of that. You will probably realize it later.

I came up with this post because someone close to me have been told that he haven't change. #M21

"Ignorance is your new best friend" - Ignorance | Paramore