Random . November 2014

What's the issue? YOU. 

Oh so I'm the next one? Okay, I'll piss your fucking ass. I'm such a rebel. 

You don't want to hear the things that I can say. And I need an audience, a lot of them. 

I guess, I need to prepare for a world war. 

I can't wait for the 23rd. 

TALK TO ME WHEN YOU'RE NOT STONED. 

Reminding myself that there are watchers. 

I can live without a phone. I don't like my blackberry to have bad vibes. 

So thankful for the lessons that I got from my favorite tv series. 

I'm so proud of myself handling all of these. 

That's an option but it's a selfish decision for now. 

Pico de loro was really a nice escape. 

First things first. Always. 

I can't believe that I'm not into rants for the past week. It was just a stress-free week. But tomorrow will be different. Hopefully, I'm prepared. 

I'm not into reading too. What's happening. 

At least, I will not feel so useless this week. I have a goal and its my top priority. Deal with your own bullshits while I'm doing my thing. 

Why will I need a planner for 2015? I don't even have a plan. Hahaha. You just have to go with the flow sometimes. 

"Lost the battle, win the war" - Now | Paramore

I haven't posted my Palawan trip. Maybe I can fix it later. - 11.13.14

We're doing selfish decisions without realizing the selfishness towards other people because we are happy. Maybe there is really a time to separate happy and sad thoughts. - 11.15.14

I'm reading a book now and its bitter-sweet because I realized the reason why I don't like to read. - 11.16.14

I'm not numb. Yes, there are reminders but ... Welcome to my reality, I guess. #sadtruth 

It feels good to finish a book again after almost 2 months and the reason why I'm not into it for the past month was I'm trying to avoid to feel the ache in my heart. It reminds me that I'm not numb after all it also reminds me of that there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel. For my own situation, I don't know when will I see the light at the end of this long tunnel-journey. #UglyLove

I personally believe that my love story is written somewhere and we will have everything at the right time. I just don't like to feel that I'm running out of time which I'm aware of when someone close to my age got married, got pregnant and some of them have families of their own and the worst is when someone ask me if I have a boyfriend or when will I get married. If Miles interval from the past was 6 years, how long is my own interval from the past? Its been 7 years now to date. #UglyLove

I want to have a parter-in-crime, a (I really don't like using the word "best friend" but I'll use it anyway) best friend, a guy who will fight for me, who will comfort me, who will always be there no matter what. I just want to feel love again in a not-family-related-way-of-speaking. My "love happens all the time" tattoo is a reminder everyday despite of losing hope most nights. 

Sometimes, we have to sacrifice for our own happiness but what's the probability that we will get our own soon? Well, I guess we shouldn't expect anything in return. (This is nonsense but I don't like to delete it) 

If we need to correct something it doesn't mean we need to hurt somebody along the way. 

Its all go down to RESPECT. Respecting other people no matter what's your position and profession, treat other people with respect even you don't like a lot of people. 

It doesn't hurt much anymore. I guess, no matter where we were, we should not forget what we had along the way. Its not so bad to look back once. 

There will always be another side.

Too impatient. At some point I can see why it ended. Same personality all with the same shits and I can see the common ground. 

A heart fulfilled with memory will never forget. 

I don't need a permission from anyone so I'll just handle this on my own. I replied because I'm a grown up now and hopefully, its not bullshit after all. Or else I'm going to tell you, "WTF" or "that's bullshit" and I don't like it but somehow I want too. Haha. 

If I wanted to go back to that lifestyle I probably went back to it years ago not after 10 years most especially not after I met my ex-best friend. 

The movie "If I Stay" was amazing but I didn't felt the same feelings that I got when I was reading the book and of course, there were changes. 

Appreciate someone today. :)

I replied because I'm a grown up now. 10 years ago is 10 years ago, you can't change or go back to what happened within those years. The lesson is, make the right decision think about it gazillion times so you will not regret it sooner or later. - 11.21.2014

I learned the hard way. 

Shopping online is my favorite but the waiting game is not. 

I'm really not fan of uploading ASAP. Well, it also depends on my mood. 

This and that. Why they don't. Blah blah blah. I'm aware and I don't care. 

Trying to figure out how to fix my schedule for the week. :|

Nothing can beat a water proof, dust proof camera. That's why I love my TX5. 

I'm not a huge fan of technology because I'm a bit fan of "old school" vibe.

I just read a story that reminds me of why this and that is happening started a month ago and I know and knew that I was and I am doing the right thing. All we need is to move forward. And I like to thank Molly McAdams for the reminders through her stories. Love that woman. #LettingGo 

Past is past. As cliche as it is we have to be reminded every now and then. Whether it was the most perfect times of your life or not, either way you can't go back and you can't bring that to the present. All you have to do is move forward, there will be bad days but that doesn't mean we have to step back much further than where we are now. We don't have the rewind, previous, repeat button in real life neither the fast forward, pause and most especially the stop button. All we have to do is play each day like it was our last day, treat it just how you wanted it to be. One day, we might look back and think if we have list of regrets and if you can't think of anything; that will be the best feeling. We didn't regret anything means we welcome everything in our life even the bullshit part of it. #LettingGo 

Expectation vs. Reality. Good thing there's an alternative. 

I was reading some of my previous posts here and I can't imagine how dramatic I was a year ago. I was a bit embarrass because I really don't proof read and still, excitement over grammar. Hahaha. I even typed DLSR instead of DSLR. 

Last year, I learned how to drive and still don't have a permission. #mantra 

When you expect that your week will be like this and that but then weekend is here again and everything turns out differently. It was a good though. 

Ahhh. So thankful for a tiring yesterday that I overslept today. 

I can't avoid for my entire existence but I'm willing to use my ninja moves to avoid you most times. That was the effect/result of your behavior towards me and to the important people around. 

I saw the before, the now and I can't imagine the after effect. For sure that will be insanely 30% good and a 70% bad but you can prove me wrong the same way we can prove you wrong. 

I can watch NCIS all day. 

Photography is addicting! I'm eyeing that 24mm pancake and the nifty-fifty is still on the list! As if I'm always out to shoot. Haha. 

"Don't depend on the past, don't avoid the present and don't overthink the future."

Palawan . Day 4 | Last Day

It was a Sunday. It was a super long day for me. 

I can't believe that it was already time to go back to reality. 

Oh wait before going to the airport, we went to PWRCC ....

where I met new friends ... 

Sadly, Tisoy the bearcat died last October due to infection ... 

don't leave without a picture with a crocodile! :))

It was an amazing trip. 

I was so sad but thankfully there were clouds to witness this time unlike on our way to Palawan.

Gem and I are not talking at all because we didn't ate breakfast so we were forced to buy something on the plane which cost 10x than the original because we are thousands of feet above the sea and some island. 

And after 40 minutes, we're back in Manila. Can't wait to see the family but its also time to go back to reality. 

I will never get tired of saying that it was an amazing trip and so thankful to Gem and of course to her mom and dad for adopting me. Oh and for JV!

Hopefully, next year again (with Keith) or Boracay but they already want outside the country. WHAAAAAAAT. HAHAHA

SHHHHH. don't talk traveling to Gem and Kit because you will talk about Philippines and then Asia and then the US. HAHAHA. Maybe the moon is on the list too. Hahaha. I love my friends. 

Traveling is so lovely because for a few days you will escape the usual routine and then going home will be bitter sweet because its back to the routine again.

My Photographs: Palawan

Appreciate what you witness on the other places because some people just take it for granted. - AEivrynRV

Palawan . Day 3

Our Palawan trip was jam packed since we are just there for a few days. Due to some (un)expected things, Gem convinced me that if we're in Palawan or at least me that I should experience El Nido and the Underground River. We started our last day a bit late because all of us are still tired from the drive from El Nido the day before most especially Gem's brother and he will still our designated driver on this trip to Underground River. We ate lunch first then we headed to our boat that will take us to the other side of the island where the Underground River was located. Gem's mother advised us that there are monkeys who are stealing stuff so we left almost everything in the car and we just brought our cameras so when we realized we somehow need money for our picture from the Underground, it was already late. Maybe we can do it again next time. Haha

Underground was amazing. We had a funny tour guide who jokes a lot and I can't pull out those joke here so visit them so you will know it. Haha. I believe it was one of the things I can't share with you. 

Its almost hard to believe that everything inside was all nature and the tour guide just use their imagination to give description to almost everything that was formed there. It was amazing and be sure to pay a visit there if you're in Palawan its worth it, at least see a different world inside a cave and appreciate nature.

I think it took us 2 hours there I'm not sure because (as always) I wasn't paying attention to time unless its a basketball game. Lol

After Underground River we went to Mitra Ranch and to Bakers Hill where I purchased some pasalubong but since I don't know who to give pasalubongs, I fail in that department as always because you know, its not just to mom and sis it will be to the whole family. Haha. 

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Early that day, we already visit Crocodile Farm and saw some crocodile cuties. Hehe. I met a one day old crocodile which I'll give permission to name after me because he was too comfortable in my hands that he decided to poop while they picture my moment holding him (I really don't know if that's a boy or girl). Lol. 

We didn't saw Surigao the biggest in the center but we saw Julio and he was terrifying because he's huge. I really want to observe them. Next time we will be there for the whole day. Haha. Can't wait! 

After the trip to the Underground, Mitra and to Bakers Hill we went back to Crocodile Farm for an advance birthday celebration of Gem. When we're on our way to Mitra Gem mentioned that UE was leading against NU and I was back from dreamland. We were refreshing twitter every second but unfortunately the signal was busted. Good thing someone mentioned there's a TV on the guard house and we literally ran outside to witness the last seconds of the game. NU won that game. 

The dinner birthday for Gem was unexpected. Haha. Her picture was on a projector! Haha. And there were Lechon, Crocodile Sisig, Suran and a lot more. 

When we got back to their place, its time to pack. :(

My Photographs: Palawan

Palawan . Day 2

Alarm is banging at 3am and then Gem woke me up as if it was a halftime of a basketball game. 

We left for El Nido at 4am. 

It was a good 6 hours drive from Puerto Princesa to El Nido and another 6 hours from El Nido to Puerto Princesa. The road trip was fun because most of the time, Gem and I was asleep or it was just me. Hehe

When we arrived in El Nido, I checked Twitter and boom typhoon Mario was doing his job and in just a snap most places in Manila, Quezon City and near provinces are flooded. First, its weird to watch and hear the news when I'm being far from Manila or to my hometown but good thing schools and universities suspend classes early so I don't need to worry about my sister.

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It was raining in El Nido so island hopping was prohibited because of the current but after lunch time the skies somehow parted, there was a bit of sunshine and no more dark clouds so we were able to go to two islands. Yes, I have a reason why I need to go back to El Nido!

When we were on the boat, no one was talking as if we are all lost on our own thoughts and I was trying to remember everything I'm experiencing right at that moment that I don't see or do in my daily routine. I hope people from El Nido don't take that for granted, that place was amazingly beautiful. What more if I witnessed sunset in there. Every time that I go on a trip, there's always no sunset. Just like when we were in Boracay (2011) it was raining in July. Goal: to capture a beautiful Boracay and El Nido sunset. 

But Gem can't sleep when on our way back to Puerto Princesa because she was keeping our driver (her brother, JV) awake. If only I knew the way maybe I will volunteer to drive but their father was with us too to relieve JV and I know they will not allow me either so I just slept the whole ride back to Puerto Princesa. Hehe then we had Chaolong when we arrived at Puerto Princesa before going home. 

I didn't hold my camera most of the time in El Nido because it was raining but the memories will always be in my heart. 

Its been a week now after that El Nido trip and I'm missing the place so bad! - 09.26.14

DSLR are heavy but I don't like memories to be in a crappy picture just what I have on my iPad. To be honest, using a prime is challenging too. I just bought my 40mm just because what more if it was a 50mm? I'm still planning to buy a nifty-fifty. I also bought my TX5 but she had a seizure when we arrived in El Nido so she was suffering epilepsy since then. I'm planning to buy a GoPro hopefully on December so it will be a good replacement for my TX5. I'm so out of topic right now. I'll continue day 3 maybe tomorrow or the next day.

this was typed almost 2 months ago ... posting late is my forte at some point. lol but seriously, I'll post day 3 and 4 tomorrow or the next day. One post at a time.

My Photographs: Palawan

"I know places we can hide" - I Know Places | Taylor Swift

Palawan . Day 1

Too many first on this trip. We actually planned this trip last year but I don't know why it didn't happen. Haha. January this year, we grab the opportunity to book our trip and save until September and now our trip is over.

Our flight was scheduled at 1550 but of course it got delayed for a good 30 minutes and then our gate changed too. But spending 2 hours of waiting with Gem and Lhea will never be boring what more else this trip. We left Manila on a Thursday afternoon and we left Palawan Sunday noon and I felt that the trip was cut short. I was falling in love with the place. 

It was already late when we arrived so first on the list for that night, dinner at Badjao Seafront. We waited for Gem's mom, dad and brother there since they weren't able to pick us up. We even walked a few to see the beautiful street lights. 

Dinner was good and I assume the view of the sea will be amazing too if we witnessed that.

no food pics because we are all starving. hahaha 

Then sleeping time because we will be leaving for El Nido at 4am.

This trip was already over so my bad if I used a past tense or a present tense as if I'm telling you a story. 

My Photographs: Palawan

There's always another side - AEivrynRV

On Repeat . Lost Stars

Lost Stars by Adam Levine

I've been watching The Voice Season 7 ever since it started because there's no nice show on a Sunday so it was my weekly habit. Upon watching regularly, I'm now having a bit crush on Pharrell and it's amazing to see the different side of Gwen and of course the Adam-Blake-tandem. 

I listen to some particular artist but as part of growing up, I do listen now to almost everything and I'm giving some mainstream music a try. I try to listen to Maroon 5 for a week now and today I don't know how many times I played "Lost Stars". 

This is just one song that totally speaks for itself. We all undergo with finding our meaning in life or in a specific situation. It's like mid-life crisis but it should remind us that all of us have to experience the ups and downs of life or else we are not human anymore.

 Once in our life, we are all lost stars and eventually, we will find our meaning just keep on searching. Don't give up.

Please don't see
Just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasies
Please see me
Reaching out for someone I can't see

Take my hand, let's see where we wake up tomorrow
Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand
I'll be damned, Cupid's demanding back his arrow
So let's get drunk on our tears

And God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season and the lambs are on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?

Who are we?
Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?
Woe is me
If we're not careful turns into reality

But don't you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page, maybe we'll find a brand new ending
Where we're dancing in our tears

And God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season and the lambs are on the run
We're searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?

and I thought I saw you out there crying
and I thought I heard you call my name
and I thought I heard you out there crying
But just the same

And God, give us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season and this lamb is on the run
searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?

And I thought I saw you out there crying
And I thought I heard you call my name
And I thought I heard you out there crying
But are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?
Are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?