Random . November 2014

What's the issue? YOU. 

Oh so I'm the next one? Okay, I'll piss your fucking ass. I'm such a rebel. 

You don't want to hear the things that I can say. And I need an audience, a lot of them. 

I guess, I need to prepare for a world war. 

I can't wait for the 23rd. 

TALK TO ME WHEN YOU'RE NOT STONED. 

Reminding myself that there are watchers. 

I can live without a phone. I don't like my blackberry to have bad vibes. 

So thankful for the lessons that I got from my favorite tv series. 

I'm so proud of myself handling all of these. 

That's an option but it's a selfish decision for now. 

Pico de loro was really a nice escape. 

First things first. Always. 

I can't believe that I'm not into rants for the past week. It was just a stress-free week. But tomorrow will be different. Hopefully, I'm prepared. 

I'm not into reading too. What's happening. 

At least, I will not feel so useless this week. I have a goal and its my top priority. Deal with your own bullshits while I'm doing my thing. 

Why will I need a planner for 2015? I don't even have a plan. Hahaha. You just have to go with the flow sometimes. 

"Lost the battle, win the war" - Now | Paramore

I haven't posted my Palawan trip. Maybe I can fix it later. - 11.13.14

We're doing selfish decisions without realizing the selfishness towards other people because we are happy. Maybe there is really a time to separate happy and sad thoughts. - 11.15.14

I'm reading a book now and its bitter-sweet because I realized the reason why I don't like to read. - 11.16.14

I'm not numb. Yes, there are reminders but ... Welcome to my reality, I guess. #sadtruth 

It feels good to finish a book again after almost 2 months and the reason why I'm not into it for the past month was I'm trying to avoid to feel the ache in my heart. It reminds me that I'm not numb after all it also reminds me of that there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel. For my own situation, I don't know when will I see the light at the end of this long tunnel-journey. #UglyLove

I personally believe that my love story is written somewhere and we will have everything at the right time. I just don't like to feel that I'm running out of time which I'm aware of when someone close to my age got married, got pregnant and some of them have families of their own and the worst is when someone ask me if I have a boyfriend or when will I get married. If Miles interval from the past was 6 years, how long is my own interval from the past? Its been 7 years now to date. #UglyLove

I want to have a parter-in-crime, a (I really don't like using the word "best friend" but I'll use it anyway) best friend, a guy who will fight for me, who will comfort me, who will always be there no matter what. I just want to feel love again in a not-family-related-way-of-speaking. My "love happens all the time" tattoo is a reminder everyday despite of losing hope most nights. 

Sometimes, we have to sacrifice for our own happiness but what's the probability that we will get our own soon? Well, I guess we shouldn't expect anything in return. (This is nonsense but I don't like to delete it) 

If we need to correct something it doesn't mean we need to hurt somebody along the way. 

Its all go down to RESPECT. Respecting other people no matter what's your position and profession, treat other people with respect even you don't like a lot of people. 

It doesn't hurt much anymore. I guess, no matter where we were, we should not forget what we had along the way. Its not so bad to look back once. 

There will always be another side.

Too impatient. At some point I can see why it ended. Same personality all with the same shits and I can see the common ground. 

A heart fulfilled with memory will never forget. 

I don't need a permission from anyone so I'll just handle this on my own. I replied because I'm a grown up now and hopefully, its not bullshit after all. Or else I'm going to tell you, "WTF" or "that's bullshit" and I don't like it but somehow I want too. Haha. 

If I wanted to go back to that lifestyle I probably went back to it years ago not after 10 years most especially not after I met my ex-best friend. 

The movie "If I Stay" was amazing but I didn't felt the same feelings that I got when I was reading the book and of course, there were changes. 

Appreciate someone today. :)

I replied because I'm a grown up now. 10 years ago is 10 years ago, you can't change or go back to what happened within those years. The lesson is, make the right decision think about it gazillion times so you will not regret it sooner or later. - 11.21.2014

I learned the hard way. 

Shopping online is my favorite but the waiting game is not. 

I'm really not fan of uploading ASAP. Well, it also depends on my mood. 

This and that. Why they don't. Blah blah blah. I'm aware and I don't care. 

Trying to figure out how to fix my schedule for the week. :|

Nothing can beat a water proof, dust proof camera. That's why I love my TX5. 

I'm not a huge fan of technology because I'm a bit fan of "old school" vibe.

I just read a story that reminds me of why this and that is happening started a month ago and I know and knew that I was and I am doing the right thing. All we need is to move forward. And I like to thank Molly McAdams for the reminders through her stories. Love that woman. #LettingGo 

Past is past. As cliche as it is we have to be reminded every now and then. Whether it was the most perfect times of your life or not, either way you can't go back and you can't bring that to the present. All you have to do is move forward, there will be bad days but that doesn't mean we have to step back much further than where we are now. We don't have the rewind, previous, repeat button in real life neither the fast forward, pause and most especially the stop button. All we have to do is play each day like it was our last day, treat it just how you wanted it to be. One day, we might look back and think if we have list of regrets and if you can't think of anything; that will be the best feeling. We didn't regret anything means we welcome everything in our life even the bullshit part of it. #LettingGo 

Expectation vs. Reality. Good thing there's an alternative. 

I was reading some of my previous posts here and I can't imagine how dramatic I was a year ago. I was a bit embarrass because I really don't proof read and still, excitement over grammar. Hahaha. I even typed DLSR instead of DSLR. 

Last year, I learned how to drive and still don't have a permission. #mantra 

When you expect that your week will be like this and that but then weekend is here again and everything turns out differently. It was a good though. 

Ahhh. So thankful for a tiring yesterday that I overslept today. 

I can't avoid for my entire existence but I'm willing to use my ninja moves to avoid you most times. That was the effect/result of your behavior towards me and to the important people around. 

I saw the before, the now and I can't imagine the after effect. For sure that will be insanely 30% good and a 70% bad but you can prove me wrong the same way we can prove you wrong. 

I can watch NCIS all day. 

Photography is addicting! I'm eyeing that 24mm pancake and the nifty-fifty is still on the list! As if I'm always out to shoot. Haha. 

"Don't depend on the past, don't avoid the present and don't overthink the future."