Random . September 2014

photo taken by JV #ElNido

Death is really a reminder for the living. 

Feel so good to visit my dad and talk about something but sad too on why are we spending the week here. 

I think I have a few post for this month. 

I don't want to discuss it right now but I totally understand the fact that you need to talk to someone. 

Don't be abusive. Kbye. 

I know, people will not appreciate it but one day the table will turn. 

Please remember how you acted that day because I know, it wasn't the right time to tell you. 

The perks of being insomniac. 

We will never be on the same situation ever.  

I guess some people still didn't learn from the experience of others. 

Hahaha. Don't blame the computer if you are the one using it. 

Don't be too depended on the internet, it's cruel. 

Its always different and I know, I get it. 

You're such a destroyer. You want to change almost everything that they work on just for your name to be mentioned, to be known but I'm not a fan ever since because out of everything you've done it might be a beautiful on the others but will never be for me because I know the hidden story.  

5 months. Basketball, mall, rants, emergencies. One day #mantra. 

Reading books to keep me sane. 

I'm always the one watching from a distance. 

We are just somebody to most people. 

I'm not going to open my facebook for one more week and I'm proud to say that I can live without facebook but I can't live without twitter. Haha. I've been hiding from my friends for a week now just because I can't give them a proper date to hangout. My September is so occupied but we can hangout on October when my trip with Brobabes is over as well as UAAP.  I know most people will never understand but I'm not going to apologies. I have my own reasons. 

One more week before our much-awaited trip and I know I deserve it and it's a much needed escape from reality shit. Palawan, be nice to me because I'm so looking forward to meet you. :D

6 years; I thought I will never survive without Papa but look at us now still surviving and fighting the battle. I miss you everyday Papa! - 09.11.14

I really like this book series, it feels like I'm a part of their life as well as their group. I want that in my reality.  

A little update, I lost interest on watching 'If I Stay' when it came out but I will watch it later and I didn't re-read it too. Maybe after another book or two, I'll read 'Gone Girl' or maybe not because I'm not planning to watch it ASAP too. I've learned the thing about book-to-movies will never be so perfect as how it happened in my head. 

Same date, different events one feeling. 

Thankful. 

Some of my favorite series will be back this week and next week! I'm so excited!!!! :D 

Hopefully this typhoon will be out of the country tomorrow. Please don't rain on my weekend with Brobabes!!!! 

Oh. I'm testing your patience. Hahaha. 

I can be a third-wheeler but not with you two, it's so sickening. 

I will never repeat a bad experience with the same people at the same place. 

Say whatever you want to say. I really don't care. I'm not angry, I just don't want to talk to you because my reasons are not good enough for you. 

I can't wait to leave on Thursday. -09.16.14

At the end of the day, I can still change my mind. 

Packing lite is so challenging!!! Fingers crossed that I don't have excess baggage! #anxiety 

Palawan!!! :)) 09.18.14

Never in my entire life that I experienced someone like my song choices. Today was different. - 09.19.14

What a trip. Today was amazing despite of the rain. Looking forward for our last day here. Can't believe this trip is almost over. #ElNido - 09.19.14

I don't miss you anymore and I'm happy about it. 

Bye Palawan. I'm gonna miss you like crazy. - 09.21.14

Soon I'll blog about our Palawan trip but I think my head is out of nowhere thinking why our Palawan trip was already over. 

There's a connection but most of the time its just disconnected. Why. #19. 

I like you but I guess it will still be up to you. #19. 

The result of reading too much love story. Reality is so disappointing. 

Its nice to see people experimenting on colors but sometimes its unbearable.

Why do people don't understand that I don't drink most of the time? 

Why? Because I want to give it another chance. 

Here we go again with my mantra. Blah blah blah.  #pakyu

I can eat Japanese food all day.

I win this time.

People will never understand so I will not waste my time explaining and I'm not doing this for you either. 

Not every girl like to talk about sports and that's why Gem and I are friends. We can talk about anything. Just always keep our tummy full we will never have a problem. ;) 

Last week same time, we're waiting for our flight to Palawan and now we're back to reality and all I wanted to do is go to the beach even the weather is so fucked up. -09.25.14

One more play of Franklin then I know I'll be ending up crying so hard right now. 

Maybe I'll do it because I think that will be the first step to hashtag-mantra or maybe it will make me feel normal. I don't know. Its complicated. 

Selfish bastard. 

I still believe things happens for a reason but I still don't know WHY . BLAH . BLAH . BLAH .

I'm your worst nightmare. 

So until when this will happen?

We need them more than a histrionic-narcissistic person. WHY. I will say it if needed. 

Last week, it was our last night in Palawan. 

I will forever speak about Palawan until I don't know when. It felt like a second home out there for some reason and one of them is maybe because I think life there was much simpler that in here. Maybe its just me, because there is so such thing as "simple" or maybe because I was just visiting the place. 

As a sign of missing Palawan, Gem and I almost booked another flight there on the second week of October but we decided not to just because we're broke and the place will never go anywhere. Hopefully, next year again and I hope there will be no typhoon so we can do island hopping. 

I'm not supposed to talk about my Palawan trip but its just so relaxing to talk about it. 

Its hard to fight when there are people playing outside the court. #basketball 

I will just sleep with my thought maybe it will vanish in my dreams. 

PUCHA. I THINK I NEED ANOTHER TATTOO. NEXT MONTH. FINGERS CROSSED. 

PLEASE TELL ME THE NEXT STEP. I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF GUESSING. 

PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHY. 

Another month ended and here comes a new one. 

OCTOBER IS HALLOWEEN MONTH. A NEW MONSTER WILL BE BORN.

Hair Dye-ary . Zombie Style

this post was scheduled to be published before we left for Palawan but I wasn't able to fix it

I'm so bored with my hair for a while now and I don't know what to do with it anymore. I really want to shave a part of it but maybe its not yet the perfect time. 

Its been a year of my side streaks and I'm totally sick of it and I really want to go back to dip-dye. 

Speaking of basketball season, FEU played DLSU for the second round last August 27 and since it was a weekday, Gem and I can't put it on our schedule so we decided not to watch live. 

I make a dare for my self during the first round that I will dye my hair if we beat ADMU but of course we didn't and since its already last week of August, I know that I should make it happen before its too late for basketball season and to the upcoming trip this month. 

I didn't tell it to anybody just because and we won! I didn't expect anything for that game since I saw the previous games of DLSU and even there are wounded players, they still played well but talking about playing good, they did one major mistake during the last play. Miscommunication on the DLSU players gave us the opportunity to win and be on the top spot of the standings. Yes, we made it to the final four because we already have 9 wins. 

That's why its so big for us, for me because it will make a huge difference in the near future. Hehe. 

Back to my hair, there's still this small portion of my side streaks that's still there and I want to chop it because if it will be bleached again, it will be forever frizzy and that's not good. I chopped it and now my hair was messed up. Hahaha. I forgot that it will be different to the other side and I remember when Charlavail told Hayley to chop her hair,so I accepted it no matter what other people will say and its the hair, it will grow again. Now I know the feeling of chopping your own hair Charlavail style. (people dont actually see the difference in my hair they thought it was done in a salon when in reality its just in my bathroom) 

While I was finished cutting the last part of my side streaks, I realized that its just so different have just all black in my head and I'm not used to it anymore and somehow I hate it. Its just so dull, it seems like its so boring and there's no life in it. It will be 2 years by November that I never had just plain black hair and it was amazing. Though I'm still not up to dye my whole head just because I don't want to touch the roots.

Since I need to bleach my hair again, I pig tailed it then I started to bleach (the dirtiest part of dyeing). Good thing there was an extra bleaching kit because the other one was maybe expired because it didn't work to the right side so both side aren't equal. But who cares! Hahaha

I was trying to make the inner part to be green while the outer will be yellow but I guess, I can't achieve whatever I want to do because both of my yellow and green are light colors (Electric Banana and Electric Lizard). I'm still looking forward to have the somehow dark green, I think it was Green Envy but for now when this fades, I'll use a drug store hair dye a Bubble Hair Dye in orange and the Syoss in blonde. Exciting!

Ohhhh BER months!!!!! :))))

Do or die game with DLSU on Wednesday (October 1) 

Taking up our time - Franklin | Paramore

On Repeat . The Only Exception (Reading 2014)

The Only Exception by Paramore

Its been a month since Paramore played at Reading and Leeds and since then, I was already listening to this version of TOE. 

The sound system was down for almost 10 minutes but instead of just doing nothing while waiting, the audience chant "Sing! Sing! Sing!" And boom, an unforgettable version of TOE was born. 

Hayley's voice was magical. 

The Only Exception in Reading (2014)

When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart and I watched

As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore

That she would never let herself forget

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways to make it alone

Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance

And up until now I had sworn to my self that I'm content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well you are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up

Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing

Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

On Repeat . Franklin

Franklin by Paramore

I haven't listen to All We Know Is Falling for a while but Pressure is still part of the recent setlist so I heard it for a few times but when someone mentioned to me that Franklin is always his first Paramore song it takes me back to the feeling why at some point along the way that Franklin will always be my song for this town. Bitter sweet but this town will never be the same for the last 11 years. I still love this place but somewhere there's an invisible barrier building up every year. 

I know somewhere I already posted about Franklin but after all this time, it still touches my heart and somehow breaks it in between. 

Franklin in Anaheim (2007)

Franklin in Parahoy (2014)

Franklin (Audio)

And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all

This place we live, it is not where we belong

And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own

Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

(Everything has changed)

Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all

I won't get used to this, I won't get used to being gone

And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying

Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

(Everything has changed)

Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?

(Everything has changed)

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

Taking up our time

Taking up our time

Taking up our time

It's taking up our time again

Go back, we can't go back at all

It's taking up our time again

Go back, we can't go back at all

It's taking up our time again

Go back, we can't go back at all

It's taking up our time

Taking up our time

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

  

FYI, I'm a Girl . Eyelashes

Just like any other girls, my eye lash is not long and just so dull on everyday basis. Last year, I already knew about Shu Uemura eyelash curler but as pricey as it is for me, I will just let it pass. 

Recently, I started to watch make-up-related-videos again particularly anything related to lipstick and mascara. I will post my new purchases of lipstick maybe next week or so but now lets talk about lashes. 

My first mascara was a drug store product and it was a local brand Fashion 21 this was when I was just started to get curious about make up (last year) but of course it wasn't that great but as I'm using it everyday I also started to search what is good and as I'm on a budget, I don't like buying bunch of product just to try it out. Instead, I watch YouTube reviews and read some blog posts. 

Here's one disadvantage of make up products, you have to buy it first before you realize if it's good or bad for you or on your skin or you don't like the formula or it doesn't meet your expectation because that product got good reviews but when you use it you realize you two weren't meant to be. 

My second mascara was from NYX and I like it and so far the best thing I tried. Haha. I'm just on my third tube of mascara and I'm just waiting for this Maybelline The Hyper Curl Volum' Express (Waterproof) to dried-up so I can replace it. I don't like it but I just wanted to try it because Maybelline mascaras are so popular. Ok fine, the only thing I don't like in this mascara is its so hard to take it off. Usually, friday is the last day of the week that I put make up on except if I have to go somewhere on a Saturday but that's like once in a blue moon. If I don't have walk on a Saturday, I don't apply mascara usually until Sunday but surprisingly, sometimes until Sunday there's still some mascara on my lashes. Even make up remover, wet tissue and even washing my face every night can't remove the full mascara that I applied and I'm always scared to rub everything off because I'm scared that my eyes will be irritated. Unlike the NYX one, it can easily be removed even just a wet tissue and my lashes are free from mascara after a day and it doesn't smudge too. Its waterproof but at the same time its easy to remove. 

I'm still searching for the next tube that I will purchase so I'm in the hunt and that's why I'm watching some yYouTube videos again. At some point, I was convince that eyelash curler don't do so much work for a Kardashian eyelash but its all about the mascara but my aunt bought this Shu Uemura eyelash curler and I tried it and wow this curler at some point do the work but still at the same time, you need a good mascara. So at the end of the day I think mascara are the one who are responsible for a good looking eyelash and not an expensive eyelash curler. Even eyelash curler hurts sometimes, go for a drug store one just to warm up the eyelashes and let the mascara do the job. 

Mascara are not like lipstick to me, I can buy a bunch of lipstick but I will only use one mascara until it dried-up. My reason is, lipstick have different shades where you can show off your mood of the day or just because you don't want to look so pale but mascara its just for your lashes you can just put it once unlike lipstick where you need re-apply after morning snack, lunch, afternoon snack, coffee break, and dinner. 

I'm confused if I should try another Maybelline or just move on to a Cover Girl or a Face Shop or just go back to NYX. Maybe that's a little difference about Cruelty-free products. 

I'm open to suggestion so if you are reading this and you are willing to share what works best for you let me know. :)

"A woman can be over dressed but never over elegant" - Coco Chanel

Reunited.

August 9, 2014

When we watched the UAAP opening, our next game date feels like forever. This is the only year since 2011 that we lessen watching live because if we watch every game day of FEU we will be so broken forever. Being broke is the number one reason next to saving-for-the-upcoming-trip and so far, out of seven games, we only watched two. 

Lhea wasn't here in Manila during the opening and as we are all saving up and putting basketball on the middle-of-the-list-to-do Gem and I managed to watched only two games live unlike the past seasons when we really make some time to watch when we are facing a strong team but sometimes, Keith watched alone while Lhea sometimes watched with her other group of friends. 

Brobabes happened because of me at some point but really basketball put us together and this day we made another memory on our UAAP moments. Its been 2 years for us and today is not just-watch-basketball-day because UP won. Wuhooo. Yes, I witnessed that. Okay so the real reason was Keith was featured to the O+ advertisement where the UAAP staff will look around for audience who are willing to be seen on the national television flashing their smiles or dance moves. 

Even before, Keith is our selfie boy. He just love taking picture of himself and the O+ is just perfect for him where you will be acting taking a selfie using an O+ phone and then you will show it to the camera and smile and they even mention your name! Haha. O+ is probably the best to not disagree with because with just like that, you get a brand new phone. Whatever the unit or whatever OS it runs its still a BRAND NEW PHONE! Price range is probably $100-$200 so why disagree if they are getting you at the first place? While the other like the Crissa, they're giving one of their shirt to whoever the lucky girl and then there's Mogu Mogu where you will dance with their mascot. 

Actually, there was a history of Keith being seen by the staff. One time he watched a game alone it was the game before this and we are all on our own daily routine when Keith texted all of us that someone asked him for Silverworks to model a bracelet unfortunately, he said he was already an alumni and not a current student and that is a big factor for them so he wasn't able to get it. We all told him that its probably because we weren't there to witness it because it will be so good to capture the behind the scene. Fortunately, I was seated beside him when the staff approach him for the O+. Haha. So I was able to witness the asking part.

At some point we now call our group stage friends. Haha. So unique. From brobabes to stage friends. :D 

Selfie with Selfie Boy :D

It was also a good day to catch up with Doni while waiting for Gem. Aahhhhh I miss our college days. Train buddies. 

Good thing we won against NU that day or else we will blame the appearance of Keith on national television. Hahaha. 

My Photographs: UAAP

Brobabes to Stage Friends 

UAAP S77 . 2nd Round : FEU vs UST

August 23, 2014

Since we've been watching UAAP for years now and pretty much my sister and cousins are in college now, they've been wanting to experience the live basketball action. Due to some Saturday classes, my cousins can't make it even I gave them advance date for the one that we are planning to watch. One time while I was watching on TV, I mentioned to my nephew that I will be watching on the upcoming Saturday and then he said he wanted to watch and I told him to ask permission to his parents. Since he insisted (his parents approved, btw), he came with me and it was fulfilling to see his reaction when he just first saw the arena and then when we got inside. 

His exact reaction was, "Astig! Ang ganda pag sa TV kasi panget". Lol

As an avid watcher of basketball live, I still don't want to stop and I think I'm too far from that since it was somehow, my breather, my life saver, my escape to the bullshit of reality. Especially, now that I liking the idea of PBA and we are somehow supporting some players and teams. 

It feels good to share the experience to other people most especially to my nephew who started to like basketball because of 2K14. Haha.

My Photographs: UAAP

"Don't go cryin' to your mama" - Ain't It Fun | Paramore