Thursday, April 04, 2024

Pause or End


Fast forward to now, 7 years later
We haven’t talk much like before
For the past year already
I just want to believe that 
COVID fucked us up
Just like how it was for everyone else
And I’m still processing that 
Somehow I lost my alter ego,
My soulmate 
But now, I want to believe that 
You are starting to build
Something for yourself 
That’s why I have to let go
That’s why we have to
Maybe give this a pause 
Or end it 

04.22.2023 04:08

Sunday, March 31, 2024

Random . March 2024

 



Overcompensate 


Dreamland, sometimes you are a weirdo 


Badly need to word vomit so here we go


An uninterrupted yoga after so long


Legs are sore


LANY!!!! 


Baby’s day out for Dynn! Happy 11th month!


Facebook down and people are in panic mode. Lol 


MOA. 03/07/2024 


Bought potpourri for some scent but the next morning my allergies are saying hello. Haha 


Of course after a day of having fun, reality will kick you. 


Word vomit for almost 2 hours with tears and smiles. 


I do sleep like a koala


Haaay. I miss you. #21 03.15.2024 


I was tired because I catch up on work and almost finish by 5am and having such dream makes me just want to go back to dreamland just to get some answers but seems like I will not even getting any. For sure there’s something lies between all of it but I can’t figure it out. #21


I can’t understand people who overshare a lot of things in their life even the topic that I think should be private though it speaks volume about you.


WHY CAN’T YOU JUST KEEP IT TO YOURSELF


THE NORMALCY TO OTHER PEOPLE’S CONVERSATION IS SICKENING 


Finally watch The Eras Tour on Disney+. Question, how many times should I watched it? 


Count down till my first ever vacation this year and it is a very long one. Also, I’m coming home in less than a week.


I haven’t write anything in a week because I’ve been busy and everything is still messed up. 


Buying what I need before I pack tomorrow 


Can anyone remind me how to pack. Haha


Playing The Eras Tour again while packing


I overpacked for a weekend trip what more for almost a week. 


I almost slipped and you may not get the connection but days like this, I’m just thankful that I do workout


You can’t just accuse some people that it wasn’t been taking care off because you weren’t there when they were fighting the biggest mistake


I don’t usually take anyone for granted because I’m always taken for one. I’m just really not that expressive most times because I’m an over-thinker


Oh wow. WTF universe!! 


I do appreciate the gesture and I hope more people will do such thing but the damage has been done. 


One more day and I’m coming home!!!


Less than 24 hours till home!!! 


Doc G!!!! :(


Passed by Heritage Park on our way to the airport and my heart. Hugs, Doc G! 


Airport!!! Now starts my very long vacation. 


I have a 1 hour sleep and I’m just so tired. I just want to sleep on the plane


Palawan, I’m back!! 


Don’t fucking underestimate people who just came from a 16 hour flight. Lol 


Lhea is here too!!! YAY! 


I miss you but now I understand why you are not by my side anymore. #21


SM then walking to Baybay for the sunset! Golden hour indeed. 


Went back to the hotel and I just want to sleep. 


When I’m on the province or on vacation, I sleep just fine and early too!


So tired that I slept at 10pm


Let’s be a tourist in Palawan


Underground River again after 10 years! 


Mangrove then Zipline and that Zipline is no joke! I love it. I wish I got the guts to take a video while it is happening or at least a GoPro but I’m scared. Lol 


Met Lhea after our tour then went straight to visit Tita Bing! 


Out picture on a tile on a restaurant for years have been taken down and I didn’t see it even from time to time I go back. 


Gold Cup! 


Lhea got an emergency so our hang was cut short but I stayed at the cafe for some me-time and to recall what happened the past days. 


Breakfast buffet


Hopia Ube!! 


Chillin’ at Nagtabon Beach - didn’t plan to swim but I came prepared. Lol


Viet Ville! 


Finally bought my mom a pearl that she’s been asking ever since 


Never ending mango shake and I will never get sick of it anyways


Ver De to bring the stuff for the kids! 


Scuba diving - wow just wow. No proof though. Haha! 


Best halo halo in town at Noki Nocs! 


Robinsons that I just realized was too far from our hotel. 


Badjao Seafront Restaurant for dinner and I haven’t been here since 2014 for my very first visit. 


Early drive for Port Barton - island hopping


Starfish and fishes and turtle!! 


Another 3 hour drive back to Puerto


Late dinner at Guni Guni then some gelato before back to the hotel 


Shopping at the souvenir shop then SM for lunch


Ver De hang for some me-time 


Last night at Puerto - dinner at KaLui


Time to pack before checking out and to start the city tour


Bummer that PWRCC is closed and I forgot that it was holiday and they are part of the local government. 


Finally saw a bearcat again in person as well as crocodile and maybe my first time to see a scorpion, giant millipedes and a gecko (tuko). 


Huhu that butterfly who stayed a good minute on baby cupcake somehow sent me a messaged. 


Giant slide at Mitra’s 


Why does it seems that there are fewer goodies at Baker’s this time. 


Dinner at the hotel before airport but I picked up Gem’s pasta sauce first at Ver De while we are waiting for our dinner. 


Airport! 


Finally a time to read my current book on our flight because you can’t see anything from the window seat at night. 


Home by 1am and the dogs are very excited. Missed my girls and I’m hungry. 


A weekend rest before another vacation but that doesn’t mean a rest because I have to work. Lol


The procrastination is so much and I don’t need this but it is happening. 


Why am I not proud of it? Well maybe because of all the ups, down and everything in between. 


Starbucks hang with Jen and Brian and I wish we knew that they wanted to ride a jeepney earlier so we could’ve done it. 


Few more hours to do work and before leaving again in less than 24 hours. 


Priorities before sleeping. Lol

Thursday, March 21, 2024

Tonight





Its raining tonight
And I’m missing you so much these days 
I try to imagine life events with you 
For me to fall asleep
But I just keep awake mostly 
I don’t want to imagine it anymore
I don’t want to be hopeful 
That there’s still chance for us 
I just don’t want to hurt myself anymore 
I don’t want to assume anymore
Its been years of hoping
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting for the perfect time
The perfect moment 
Maybe it doesn’t happen
Because it wasn’t suppose to happen
Maybe its time for me to accept that 
There’s really no chance
Maybe our story really hit the end of it 
I’m in denial and avoiding this for awhile 
Even with so much tears
And with another heartbreak
Maybe its time to accept 
That this is over. 

04.13.2023 02:56