Random . November 2025

 

Exactly a month. Not that I’m counting but I also asked for a sign and you delivered. #72

I need to be alone before I burst my anger to you. 

It’s heartbreaking to remember how broken the inside is

Yoga this morning to charge my social battery 

Not everyone is doing it the same way

Dependent on social media today which is actually too much from the usual 

“Us being honest with each other, even when it’s difficult, that’s something I haven’t been able to do in any of these other relationships” - Noah | Nobody Wants This S02E04

How many times I’m heartbroken and no one knew any of them. 

Feels like 2015 all over again. 10 years. Same feelings. Same vibe. Why. Why. Why. 

Brought the kindle just n case

Yay! A win! Congrats, Tams! 

Just like that it’s already November 3rd. 

Sometimes you got to find some things to do so that your mind will not wander

Bad is different from dirty, right

Played a movie thinking that I’ll watch but I slept

“But the world is exhausted and the only wealth we have left is love” - Pillow Thoughts

“Perhaps it’s just easier to smile and pretend everything is fine, rather than admit my heart’s a little swollen from losing something that wasn’t even mine” - Pillow Thoughts

Somehow I’m still craving that conversation. I wonder if we will ever have one again and assuming that there will never be breaks my heart. - 11.5.2025 03:54

Early lunch and no coffee? No problem. Lol

Grown ups acting like kids. When will this end?

That was 2 lousy play in the last minute, UST!!! 

Want to update phone but I’m seeing no reason why I should. Lol

“Where do I go when a lover and a friend becomes a memory and the dead end?” - Pillow Thoughts

If I buy an Android phone, at the end of the day I know that I will still pick up my iPhone. 

Happy Birthday, Dada

Happy Birthday, Sis

Well, don’t ask me about it because I will give you an answer that you might not be able to accept. My number 1 “what if” regarding with that matter

Yeah, hate me for it

I wish I didn’t put my wall down for him. I wish I didn’t give in, but somehow my rule for this is be myself and no regrets on being myself. 11.08.2025

Landers

The amount of tears that no one knew about

Some of the “assuring” words from you echoed in my head while watching the last episode of Nobody Wants This S02

“I like watching planes, take off, fly overhead ad disappear into the clouds. I pretend I’m up there too, on my way to see you” - Pillow Thoughts

“It’s okay to close some doors, hell, it’s even okay to lock them” - Pillow Thoughts

“I dreamed of love and it gave me too many sleepless nights” - Pillow Thoughts

“We are all born with softness, and it’s important to grow into it. Do not let the world turn your heart cold” - Pillow Thoughts

Wasted an hour trying to grab a steal deal but no luck. 11.11.2025

I want to talk to you again and I’m missing you a little extra today. 

A productive night to write

The fuck I forgot to change that! Ugh

“If you love someone, you always see their face” - Joel | The Last Of Us S02E06

I’m back, Araneta. 

White shirt’s playing dirty with their 6th man on the floor. Lol

WE WON?? HOW??? HAHAHA

Work break since I need to write this down. Lol

I should stop watching the last minute of that ball game. Lol

Ex-bestie, a flip phone, the dude n a day beach trip? What. #dream

I should stop experimenting on drinking coffee

Now I’m not sure if it’s just anxiety or caffeine. Maybe both. 

Uninterrupted leg day. 

Noise pollution. Lol

If you are on the same level, there’s no valid competition

I hate waiting for the end game online and that’s one reason why I decided to make the fan account but what if I’m the one need some game update. Lol

YAY ADAMSON!!!!!

Another tattoo session this week? Hmm

1 game day down, 3 more to go. #UAAP

So frustrating when there’s a vehicle parked at the pedestrian lane

Seems that coffee is part of the routine now. 

So far so good for today and tomorrow

Badly missing you a little extra today. #72

surprise? 

That’s why you have to be nice to everyoe

Another win. One more game

The now what? #UAAP

That’s me saying “no” this time and choosing myself. 

Tattoo session, done!!! 

Someone is back,became a stranger and I’ll let you enjoy being a liker. #72 11.23.2025

Badly wanted to message you or just give a hint about something but I’m controlling myself. 

Than you, DLSU for not giving us a chance. Lol #UAAP

MVPasaol. Just wow. Deserve.  #UAAP

Badly need coffee but this anxiety is already killing me. 

My minimalist self just can’t. Lol

I’m against it so don’t be pushy. 

Becoming the person I didn’t want to be. 11.27.2025 19:17

One of those days that I don’t know what’s next. 

Weekend with the bebe gurl 

Geez I miss doing nothing on a weekend and just being locked up with friends

I was so excited to share it but I can’t start to talk about it then I thought “what’s the point it’s already over” #72

Slow Sunday

That bittersweet feeling of going back home 

Time calculated gone wrong

UAAP S88 . FEU vs DLSU

November 16, 2025 

On my Timehop last year was the last game day of FEU for S87 against UP also little did we all know what will be the plot twist months later.

Anyways, I asked Gem if she’s available but she was not so I'm not sure if I will watch alone but according to schedule this game or the game on Saturday (Nov 22) are my only option to be able to watch a game live. I don't want to regret not watching a single game this season as for tradition already. Since it’s Sunday I was still undecided about watching but also I said it depends on my mood and also on the weather. 

I've been checking online if I can score some patron ticket since it will be DLSU and the second game will be UP that I’m assuming that it will be filled up. The night before last time to check for patron tickets or I’ll check at the venue if there's still available but hello there was few patron tickets available online like just 3 or 4 tickets. I waited some time to check out since I'm still unsure and few minutes later I bought it. I’m watching the game. 

Sunday / game day - I was about to leave then it rain and I don’t want to bring an umbrella so I wasted 30 minutes just waiting for the rain to stop. When I decided to get an umbrella the rain stopped. 

I was hoping to catch the Women’s but I decided to eat first so that took some time too and I went to some usual stores that I checked every time at Gateway so I missed that first 5 minutes of the 1st quarter. I don't really expect a win since the team has been struggling all season probably still adjusting with the changes or it was just they can’t finish strong. 

I came to the point after watching all these years that somehow I can watch games as calm as Sir Mark Molina or Sir Anton Montinola as I thought because that last 2 minutes of the game was insane. I was calm really but my heart is racing silently. 

WE WON? As I asked myself and finally confirming it as I checked the time and everyone on the bench is also celebrating already. I don't have video since I really have no expectations that we will win but WE WIN. A win is still a win and it really depends on how you finish the game. 

I still can’t process it that we won because honestly on both teams they could’ve been some changes on that last seconds of the game. Both teams still got a time out left and as FEU they can risk it but if you are down by just a point, you could have called a time out. Maybe as we all thought that there are still more time but someone should noticed that on the other side of the bench and by not calling that time out and for some reason maybe the basketball gods says this is for FEU. 

This current FEU team, they badly deserve to win a game against the big teams and I'm happy that they were able to get it. It’s just a bonus for me as a supporter and as an alumni. This team can be dangerous the next season as well hopefully no more plot twist that is heartbreaking. 

For Kirby Mongcopa, after losing some years due to his accident I don't think he will let another year or so to not play the game. 

Yes, if Veejay Pre was still in the team it will be another story for FEU but decisions has been made. That chemistry of this champion team from Baby Tams is unbelievable and there might be a missing piece from them but they somehow proved how good they can be without their friend and everyone’s friend, Pre. 

~ 

I also watched the 2nd game with UP and Adamson and as I want for Adamson to win, sorry Coach Nash but we badly need UP to win apparently for our chance to still be able to join the Final Four but still depends on our last two games and to the other games. hehe

Hi, Coach Nash! So nice to see you! Come back already, it’s been 10 years since we won that championship. Lol 

~ 

November 26, 2025 

DLSU won against ADMU and just eliminated FEU and ADMU on a chance for the 4th spot on the Final Four. 

It was an unpredictable season and probably will be carried on the Final Four. We'll see.  

Also, Janrey for MVP?? DESERVE. 

See you on the volleyball season. 

Book . Pillow Thoughts

I only found out after reading Tales from the Cafe that this is a poem book and when I’m cramming just to complete my goal of books for the year, my go to will always be poem books because it’s an easy read. Easy read but still took me almost 2 weeks reading this book maybe because I'm avoiding feelings and being emotional lately because this book made me tear up a lot of times. I highlighted a lot and even took picture of a page if I can relate to it so much most especially with the recent heartbreak.

It’s always inspiring to write when you read other people’s work and when you are getting through something. As much as I'm inspired I'm somehow killing the idea of writing too much in detail because at times it can also be heartbreaking that you have no choice but to move forward just on your own. My photo album is a bunch of screenshot of quotable quotes recently as well. 

It really is a pillow thoughts. 

I can probably write something like this but for sure that will be a mess. 

Rated this 5 stars on Goodreads 

“I’m crying on the bathroom floor and you’ve taken the road I couldn't follow” 

Pillow Thoughts | Courtney Peppernell

 

Book . Tales from the Cafe

I read the first book in 2022 and it took me awhile to have the courage to read the 2nd book because of emotions and feelings. The moment I decided to continue reading it was in August and I thought that I will finish it sooner but I end up reading at the end October due to some distraction the past 2 months. Now that I don't have a distraction anymore, I prefer not holding phone in bed and somehow still trying to pick up the kindle to make some progress with my book shelf. 

Back to the book, well again with the question where you want to go back if given a chance before the coffee gets cold to the present or the future? 

I have a different answer this time and this can change tomorrow or the next day or the next year but for now I want to travel to the future. I somehow already accepted that I can't go back to the past just to change some things, I already have regrets even I was trying to live without regrets. Future is scary and as I’m somehow losing hope with all the negativity and feeling of hopelessness, I just want to see what happened to me in the future maybe 10 years from now? 

Sometimes the only thing that makes me going is because I want to see what it will be after all these years of heartbreak, happiness, disappointments, will there be drastic change to this country or we are just going to be worst than what we have today. At times, it’s not the personal stuff anymore because from a very good environment I’m sure that all of our lives will be affected and everything will follow a good path. 

To see the future is not as scary as I think about right now. 

Time is moving so fast and the way I want to see a lot of things in the future, my coffee will probably be cold as ice already and I’ll probably the next ghost reading a book. 

Unfortunately, going back to the past or going to the future is not possible with our reality, so live in the present always. 

The last story of this book made me cry. 

Rated this 4 stars in Goodreads.

We can never truly see into the hearts of others. 

When people get lost in their own worries, they can be blind to the feelings of those most important to them.

Tales from the Cafe | Toshikazu Kawaguchi 

 

October 12, 2025 . Run As One

 

Originally this was scheduled September 21 then Aw-Asen was on September 22. Unfortunately, there was a rally and a typhoon that weekend. I said yes to it because it was Gem’s birthday even I’m not sure if I can do a back-to-back activity. Lol

As we wait for the reschedule of the run we also reschedule our Aw-Asen and it doesn’t have to be a back-to-back day, thankfully. 

Aw-Asen was October 9 and run was October 12. I thought that I can still have a rest before the 12th since I’m already expecting sore legs after Aw-Asen. Well, legs are still in recovery the day before the 12th. 

I met Gem the night before since I’ll be spending the night with her so we can be near Quirino Grandstand for the early call time. After I arrived at her place we just rest for an hour and did a side trip to Quirino Grandstand and to Rizal Park then end up dinner at Newport. We had 2 hours of sleep before doing 8KM walk. Lol 

I can still run I believe but nursing a sore legs I can’t because I knew that I’ll end up cramping if I push to run that’s why even I was left behind I just kept on my pace because if I slow down I might get more slower and if I run I’ll get cramps. I’m averaging 13 minutes per kilometer and I think it’s still okay for a first timer

We officially started at 5AM and I end at 7AM though I think that the track was 9KM as per Apple Watch. In total I did 10KM that morning alone, 10KM at 7 in the morning. Who is she. Lol 

It was a Girl Scouts activity and since their calendar was full of reschedule, they have another activity that was cancelled and they rescheduled it after the run. Since they still have an activity that was supposed to be on another date, Gem still need to be there until maybe noon and with lack of sleep and me wanting to take a bath and rest, I left early and didn't even wait for her anymore. 

Joining a fun run is on my bucket list even I don't like running but I love walking and I can walk for hours but imagine the difference. Maybe I can run too but I need to be prepared so I can run straight for 5KM or more. Lol 

Hopefully we can do it again. 

Then I asked myself if we can have a car-free weekend morning too at home town. 

My Photographs: Run As One

October 9, 2025 . Aw-Asen Falls (Day Tour)

 

Another nature trippin’ but this was supposed to be on Gem’s birthday but there was a typhoon that weekend that all original plans were cancelled. We rescheduled and then Gem has to reschedule again and finally we settled on October 9 which was a Wednesday but we left Manila on a Tuesday night. She booked it at Lakbay Gabay and I was a little surprised because I just usually see their posts on socials. 

I can’t wait for this because I’ve seen videos of Aw-Asen Falls I’m just in doubt if I can survive it. Lol. 

We left Manila 11PM of a Tuesday and we were in La Union by 5AM. Had a stop over at this eatery and since we still have maybe an hour or so before starting I decided to eat breakfast. 

At 6AM we transfer to the jeep and it was a crazy ride! We didn’t do the top load because they say someone fell on that already so they stop doing it. I bet they don’t do it the whole ride because it’s almost an hour jeep ride and it is really dangerous but probably fun. 

We are off to start the hike by 7AM and the beginning of the trail is easy not until the stairs come to sight. Lol

They say that it will be an hour hike to the falls or depends on your pace. 

It took us probably an hour but damn my right calf was twitching by the time we saw the top of the falls. I’m always experiencing cramps but this might be the first time I had muscle twitching. I don’t know what to do but I stayed calm and since we had a little down time because the first group was still doing their drone shots. 

We had enough rest before our turn for the drone shot and I just love watching the falls that time while we wait. 

After drone I thought it was done but you can still go down and you will take a rest in there for an hour or so and eat your snack. Also I think the cold water helped in regards to my legs. I was just in awe looking at that falls and really left my phone with Gem because I went a little further from her. That’s one reason why I only got few photos in there. Was it really few? Lol 

Aw-Asen is pretty that I somehow wish that you can have easy access to it but then will it be worth it if you will not do some effort before seeing it? 

Another day that nature shut my brain and it really is pretty. 

Thanks dude for another nature trippin’. 

Also included on the package was a side trip to La Union since it's on the way. All the time we were at Ilocos Sur we donnt have cell service and when we were at the eatery where we had breakfast for lunch, someone messaged Gem that there was an earthquake in La Union. Checking the news and tracking back on where we were the time the earthquake happened, we were on our way back from the falls. It was scary to be nearby or to pass through that area because of what happened in Cebu. It was a magnitude 4.4 still. 

The last time Gem and I were in La Union was in 2017 and we really enjoyed our time in there not until our last day when Gem had a stomach flu. Because of that we never planned to go back in La Union not until Lhea wanted to and we planned it out since it will be a Chikababes trip we already booked our hostel unfortunately, COVID happened.

We were given a short time in La Union and ever since I wanted to try Makai Bowls instead of coffee at El Union also if given more time maybe I want to have some bagnet. lol 

It was a little hard to find Makai Bowls but thankful we found it and oh my it was so good!!! Wish we have that kind of acai bowl in Manila and that definitely the cherry on top of La Union this time. 

Oh wait, I went back in La Union with some college classmates in 2019, totally forgot about that. 

My Photographs: Aw-Asen | La Union