Random . July 2021

 

Trying to remember my dream but it was a little blurry

Manners. Why always in a rush when it can wait. 

Oh what to expect to people who doesn’t even know what respect is. 

Don’t put some label on me that I have an attitude. Remember what you did first. 

Don’t trust that I’ll watch a movie when I got home unless I already had a nap. Lol 

Never trust a 2 hour movie. Haha

So anxious with this cake situation. Hahaha

Yay. Success with the cake and maybe with it being as a surprise. I was also surprise that it didn’t fit on out refrigerator. Haha! 

Geez. How can you browse Facebook for hours. 

A little hair trim somehow always makes everything a little better even it wasn’t the best haircut. Lol

I miss talking to you. #21

When you can’t even focus on yourself because you have a bigger fish to fry. 

I badly want to swim. 

The day after legwork / leg day. I can feel it now. 

Earlier I was having a bad anxiety and some discomfort because I wonder, why do I think of other people’s problem more than my own. 

July 7 will always be something memorable but maybe not this year. Happy 1 year to my TV though. 

Those selfie pictures as your wallpaper. 

Yesterday wasn’t the day. 

Mentally and emotionally tired. 

Dear self, don’t give up. 

Almost forgot today’s webinar. 

Today could be a good day for a little surprise but I guess it is not the perfect one. I miss you. #21

Fixed some blog post for the next weeks. 

Everyone was making an album during quarantine and they’re releasing it now. My music heart is happy. 

So nostalgic to see photos from 10 years ago

By next month it will also be the 10th year of being into basketball!

2011 was a drastic year for me that’s why 2021 is really something. 

Consistent 2 months of working out. 07.09.2021

Baking is therapeutic.

I’m finally done with #BrooklynNineNine. What to watch next ? 07.10.2021

Catching up with #SWAT. I will still try to read maybe after this latest season. One goal is to read one book this month. 

Badly need to get out or take a mini vacation but it looks like everyone are out already. Not gonna take some risk. 

Same topic for webinar just to clarify some things. 

“Change doesn’t always last.” - SWAT S04E12

“Love is never a burden“ -SWAT S04E12

Sometimes I’m curious what are the problems of other people even though I think their problems are easy to handle but I will never know. Same with me if you think I don’t have problems, think again. 

These car chase episodes on #SWAT are so good! I’m also done catching up on Season 4. Time for #NCISNOLA for the last season. 

I want to blame 2020 and this virus but sometimes I don’t think it is fair. 

Already feels like Friday. Few more days before weekend

“Close your eyes and I’ll sing you a lullaby. Nothing to fear ‘coz I’m right here by your side” - A Dreamer’s Lullaby | Paramita

Why do people loves to compare. 

2 more episodes left for #NCISNOLA 

“Hope is a powerful force” - The Water Man 

Another productive Sunday. 

That last episode of #NeverHaveIEver S02 

Am I back on getting answers randomly? 07.19.2021

Some people will just don't care on what you are going through they just think of themselves and think that they own you. Fyi, you are not the only problem but you are not forgotten. 

Can we all just wait for the process. I myself is already losing some control on this waiting game and it is fucking frustrating already. 

This reality is getting to my nerves and I badly need some escape or some form of long rest days maybe a vacation if that is even possible. 07.19.2021

Everybody hates Monday anyways. 

Thankful for a plot twist on this Monday 

Will never apologies for not replying to you. Lol

Podcast night and a little bit of writing. 

Some people are maybe luckier than me. I’ll just admire and maybe be happy for them from afar. 07.21.2021 16:11

Such a good day and productive

Another two months and counting. #21 

I stopped catching up on my TV series just because I badly need to read one book this month. I also foresee the wave of anxiety that will come with August that’s why I’m saving my TV series as a distraction for that. 07.23.2021 02:06

I started to read a book now. Yay! 

I’m so anxious right now. 07.23.2021 17:37

Nonstop raining. As much as I love raining I think this is already too much. 07.23.2021 23:59

Stay safe everyone. 

Maybe it was just an illusion. #21

“If its out of sight, its out of mind” - Deep (movie)

People like you are the reason why I don’t rely on other people much. Got to do it on my own than asking for others to do it. 

There might be a routine but it changes every single time I want to. 

Always a little more steps ahead of you. 

Collateral damage of your irresponsibility. 

Will they learn now? Maybe not. 

Consistency of good act not just on specific day. 

The things that keep me sane are a little bit expensive. 

Two consecutive days of leg work should be followed by two days of arms work. 

Waiting game. 

81% into the book. Yay for achievement this month. 

Raining all week. 

I need the summer heat. 

It doesn’t surprise me anymore

6 years. Hello pot! I miss you so much. 

Done with a book now we back to TV Series. #Bull

What a plot twist for the last day of this month. #21

Luna 2.0

When everything seems so blurry

For being so constant lately 

When I feel so alone. 

03.06.2020

On Repeat . Tala

 Tala by Paramita 

I woke up one morning and “Hiling” was playing on my iPod then I remembered this album. I’m currently just playing random songs and not fully an album while waiting for some album to be released late this month or next month. 

I decided to listen to this album again and it’s been on repeat since then. Don’t get me wrong with some single that I also post  on the “On Repeat” series. 

I have a love and hate relationship with OPM just because it always hit differently. 

As days goes by I remember why I love this album. 

“Hiling” was an ultimate favorite ever since but right now it might be Carousel or A Dreamer’s Lullaby.

 I have the CD of this album and it is not uploaded on Spotify but I found some on Youtube. 

You can check the full album on this link 

1. Takipsilim

2. Carousel (I Miss You)

3. The Indefinite Transition of Perceived Realities

4. Panaginip LAng

5. A Dreamer’s Lullaby

6. Hiling

7. Stillness

8. Tala

9. Waiting For a Sign

10. Porcelain/Sunrise

11. A Dreamer’s Lullaby (Acoustic)

12. The Indefinite Transition of Perceived Realities (Pressured Pleasure Remix) 

Maybe Not

If you forget that’s easy

No memories to treasure 

It’s an easy way out 

It will also leave a hole inside

There might be regrets

But do you care

Or did you even care

Maybe for real, you don’t

03.04.2020 

On Repeat . NDA

 NDA by Billie Eillish 

Did you think I'd show up in a limousine? No
Had to save my money for security
Got a stalker walkin' up and down the street
Says he's Satan and he'd like to meet

I bought a secret house when I was seventeen
Haven't had a party since I got the keys
Had a pretty boy over but he couldn't stay
On his way out, made him sign an NDA

Yeah, I made him sign an NDA
(Once was good enough)
'Cause I don't want him having shit to say

You couldn't save me but you can't let me go
I can crave you but you don't need to know

Thirty under thirty for another year
I can barely go outside, I think I hate it here
Maybe I should think about a new career
Somewhere in Kauai where I can disappear

I've been having fun getting older now
Didn't change my number, made him shut his mouth
At least I gave him something he can cry about
I thought about my future but I want it now
Want it now
(You can't give me up)

You couldn't save me but you can't let me go
I can crave you but you don't need to know

Did I take it too far?
Now I know what you are
You hit me so hard
I saw stars
Think I took it too far
When I sold you my heart
How'd it get so dark?
I saw stars
Stars

Lies in Between

 

Was it all honesty

Or there were lies in between

Did you really let me in

Or somehow I’m still at the door

Not so welcome in your life 

Do I really know you

Maybe not at all 

Maybe I was just assuming 

That I know you 

And just making myself believe 

02.19.2020

On Repeat . Say It First

Say It First by Cassadee Pope

 

On Repeat . What The Stars See

 What The Stars See by Cassadee Pope

Are we really over

Cause I'm a couple glasses in

Can't help but want a little bit of closure

Are you waiting by the phone

Are you out are you at home

Cause I can't stop picturing

What you May or May not be doin

Wish my eyes could shine down on you

I wanna see what the stars see

Are you good are you sad are you missin me

Are you a little bit lonely i wanna know what you're feeling underneath

That midnight moonlight heartbreak sky

Wishin I could read your mind

You left me in the dark and wherever you are I

wanna be

Tonight I wanna see what the stars see

They're so lucky

They know exactly where you are

Whatcha feelin in your heart

And if you're sorry

That you're not with me tonight

And That you ever said goodbye

I wanna see what the stars see

Are you good are you sad are you missin me

Are you a little bit lonely I wanna know what you're feeling underneath

That midnight moonlight heartbreak sky

Wishin I could read your mind

You left me in the dark and wherever you are I wanna be

Tonight I wanna see what the stars see

Are you crying in your car tryin not fall apart

Are you wondering about me too

Or are you throwing em back happy that I'm in the past

Lovin up on someone new