Random . July 2016

Friends! I need you! Haha. #clingy 

Basketball talks. Yes!!! Haha. 

Conference call with the Brobabes! See you next weekend! :)

Surprise! Haha. Nice plan, sissy! Haha 0703

Should I thank his phone to be dead last night? Haha. 

Will it be so satisfying if I punch you in the face? Haha. 

Nice game, Gilas. 

Wtf was that? Something is not right on that calls and texts. #21

Isolation. 0706

0707 you hold too much good memories. #17

Morning call. ♥ 

2 hours video call with friends. :) 

Go ahead let someone use you. I feel sorry for you. 

Bed weather plus weekend. 

Avoiding to write a rant so I'll just post songs that will speak to what I'm feeling lately. 

That's what trial and error is all about but generally you should consider if it is user-friendly. 

Some stories are not mine to tell. 

Haha! Just because of that? My dad tells me and taught me differently. I don't trust your instinct so yeah I guess I still win. 

Video chat again with friends. :D 

When expectation vs reality hits and it does hurt a bit. #21

Funeral really teaches us a lot of things.

Someone is sober... for a few hours. Lol. I miss you na!  

Oopps. Another one for me. Haha

There can only be one.... co-champion. Lol 

Sissy date and Disney. Haha. 0713

Don't you just love hearing random people talking about you with good memories in it? It's a bit narcissistic but the good out-wasting the bad is the best. The good memories are mostly the gigantic reason why we do miss the people who used to be around. 0714

I may or not reread a book or I'll just read a new one. 

Surprisingly, it is easier this time. The question is, do you want to? 

Something in my mind that I don't want to entertain but I can't stop the words!!! F #21

Can it be bed weather again this weekend? I want to spend time with my bed and pillows. Haha. 

I was about to write something then someone spoke to me and I literally forgot what was I supposed to write. Maybe it wasn't meant to be written. #21 

I wish it is always like today. It's so close on what it is before. 

Trimming my hair. 

Sometimes it's just too painful to see that the others are hurting too. 

Dreams... I miss you three, always. 

Fresh air, I will miss you. 

This kind of book is making me think harder and it takes my mind off on reality. Few more hours on reading then I get to know the killer and finish this book and probably follow up with another book. Currently reading: Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn. 

0717... 10 years ago, you first called me "best friend". Miss you. #17 

Shit! The effect is fucking real. I thought it's just me. Lol. #SharpObjects

One wrong move, everyone will be gone so make your own choice. 

I knew it! #SharpObjects

Oh so nice you asked I was actually thinking if it is today. I think it is, though. 5 years but can be considered 20. Lol 0720

Happy 5th! Hahaha and thank you! 0720 

What if I dye my hair tonight. Hmmm. 0721

6 months. 0721

Brobabes!!! Can't wait to see your faces! Miss you so much. 

I really should go out once a week. Been forgetting the other people on this planet. Lol. 

Late night Internet browsing makes me want to buy everything that I don't probably need so I should stop now. 

Will ask mom for permission before I hit the purchase button. Lol. / Mom said not yet. Okay. Haha

Wrote something new and it may be the saddest poem that I composed. 

New phone just for my TV series. Haha. Will never replace my BlackBerry! 

You guys are feeding my ego like shit crazy and I'm not gonna complain. Haha. 

Someone is making up to me because of the early conversation that we had. I'm somehow hating Makati right now. Hahaha 0730

So what did you get on doing that move?

On Repeat . The One That Got Away

The One That Got Away by Hey Monday

You called me up
You called me up too late
Call me the one that got away
You locked me down
Your locks were made to break
I'd rather die a thousand deaths anyway

I can run
I can fly
You can kiss this thing goodbye
Call me out and cry about the one that got away
I can stand
I can fight
Yeah, I'm breaking us tonight
Call me out and cry about the one that got away

The bed you made
Was never meant for me
You never tried to take my breath away
You lost anyway

I can run
I can fly
You can kiss this thing goodbye
Call me out and cry about the one that got away
I can stand
I can fight
Yeah, I'm breaking us tonight
Call me out and cry about the one that got away

I was at my best, believed in you
That was my worst mistake
So obsessive, too possessive
You'll never change

I can run
I can fly
You can kiss this thing goodbye
Take these words I've never heard
There's nothing left to say
I can stand
I can fight
Yeah, I'm breaking us tonight
Call me out and cry about the one that got away

I can run
I can fly
You can kiss this thing goodbye
Call me out and cry about the one that got away
Call me out and cry about the one that got away

Book . Sharp Objects

Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn

NO SPOILER

I want to try a different genre to read since reality is being cruel and good at the same time that it is already as confusing as f. Love stories and some life related book is not my type lately and since most of my TV series are on break, I have some time to read up in between on listening to music.

Most of my favorite TV series are about crimes and I think I will like some mystery / thrillers on books too.

I'm aware that this book was released 10 years ago and this was the first book of Gillian Flynn and as a reader we should accept the differences of every author.

I like the book and the story and I already have a suspect while I was half on reading. It's just that Camille is super detailed on whatever that she is noticing that sometimes I think it shouldn't be mentioned already but yeah, I understand her situation.

I can relate to the small town issues but luckily I think I'm living in a town not as small as Wind Gap is, though sometimes it feels like it.

While on the middle of Camille's bubble thought and her self assessment, I was somehow again overthinking things on my own. Then I realized that I'm not Camille and that's how you know that you are reading a very good book when it can already affect you.

The last few chapters are page turner but I think the revelation should've been told for a few more chapters and maybe as detailed as what is Camille's comment on someone she knows in Wind Gap. The revelation chapters felt just like a huge epilogue, all of it and you know it is ending soon.

By the way, my guess was right.

I did enjoy it and yes, I do recommend this book for a first-time reader of a thriller / mystery just be open minded and be sure for it not to get on your own head.

On to the next: Dark Places

"How do you keep safe when your whole day is as wide and empty as the sky? Anything could happen." - Sharp Objects 

On Repeat . 6 months

6 Months by Hey Monday

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal a heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand.

On Repeat . Slowtown

Slowtown by Twenty One Pilots

Hey, hey, wouldn't it be great, great,
If we could just lay down and wake up in Slowtown,
Today, day, I want to go away, way,
'Cause things are too fast now,
I want to be in Slowtown.

I put my socks on my feet,
Just so that my soul won't fall through my toes,
And I walk through my door,
Just so I don't fall through the floor.

I remember when my brother and other kids from neighboring houses,
Would get together, I'd ride my bike and my brother would ride his,
Put cards in our spokes and make our engine sound like traffic,
When using Pokemon cards, please do not use the holographics,

So bold and fearless in the risks we take,
Laugh in the face of gravity as it's laws we'd break,
On trampolines so high, we reach for the sky, but I,
Do not look up anymore and I don't know why.

I put my socks on my feet,
Just so that my soul won't fall through my toes,
And I walk through my door,
Just so I don't fall through the floor.

[x3:]
We're going too fast, fast, save us.
We're going too fast, fast, save us.
We're going too fast, fast, save us, now.

Walk through my door,
Just so I don't fall through the floor.

Hey, hey, wouldn't it be great, great,
If we could just lay down and wake up in Slowtown,
Just singing.

On Repeat . Forest

Forest by Twenty One Pilots

I don't know why I feed on emotion

There's a stomach inside my brain

I don't wanna be heard

I want to be listened to

Does it bother anyone else

That someone else has your name?

Does it bother anyone else

That someone else has your name, your name?

I scream, you scream, we all scream

'Cause we're terrified of what's around the corner

We stay in place

'Cause we don't want to lose our lives

So let's think of something better.

Down in the forest

We'll sing a chorus

One that everybody knows

Hands held higher,

We'll be on fire

Singing songs that nobody wrote.

My brain has given up

White flags are hoisted

I took some food for thought

It might be poisoned

The stomach in my brain

Throws up onto the page

Does it bother anyone else

That someone else has your name?

Does it bother anyone else

That someone else has your name?

I scream, you scream, we all scream

'Cause we're terrified of what's around the corner

We stay in place

'Cause we don't wanna lose our lives

So let's think of something better.

Down in the forest

We'll sing a chorus

One that everybody knows

Hands held higher,

We'll be on fire

Singing songs that nobody wrote.

Quickly moving towards a storm

Moving forward, torn

Into pieces over reasons

Of what these storms are for

I don't understand why everything I adore

Takes a different form when I squint my eyes

Have you ever done that?

When you squint your eyes

And your eyelashes make it look a little not right

And then when just enough light

Comes from just the right side

And you find you're not who you're supposed to be?

This is not what you're supposed to see

Please, remember me. I am supposed to be

King of a kingdom or swinging on a swing

Something happened to my imagination

This situation's becoming dire

My tree house is on fire

And for some reason I smell gas on my hands

This is not what I had planned

This is not what I had planned.

Down in the forest

We'll sing a chorus

Hands held higher,

We'll be on fire

Singing songs that nobody wrote.

Down in the forest

We'll sing a chorus

One that everybody knows

Hands held higher,

We'll be on fire

Singing songs that nobody wrote.

Hands held higher,

We'll be on fire

Hands held higher,

We'll be on fire

On Repeat . Kitchen Sink

Kitchen Sink by Twenty One Pilots

Nobody thinks what I think,

Nobody dreams when they blink

Think things on the brink of blasphemy

I'm my own shrink

Think things are after me, my catastrophe

At my kitchen sink,

You don't know what that means

Because a kitchen sink to you

Is not a kitchen sink to me, OK friend?

Are you searching for purpose?

Then write something, yeah it might be worthless

Then paint something then, it might be wordless

Pointless curses, nonsense verses

You'll see purpose start to surface

No one else is dealing with your demons

Meaning maybe defeating them

Could be the beginning of your meaning, friend.

Go away [4x]

Leave me alone [7x]

Nobody thinks what you think, no one

Empathy might be on the brink of extinction

They will play a game and say

They know what you're going through

And I tried to come up with an artistic way to say

They don't know you, and neither do I

So here's a prime example of a stand up guy

Who hates what he believes and loves it at the same time

Here's my brother and his head's screwed up

But that's alright.

[Zack:]

Time gains momentum the moment when I'm living in 'em

I'm winning a momentary sinning a moment passing after

A re-beginning moments mending memories

Pretending enemies are frenemies, sending me straight to bending me

My bad behaviour but I bet I could have been a better man

Copy and paste caught me, and copy, better rhymes bother me

The better the rhythm the badder I am but I bet I'll battle with 'em battle

Better I am, Gambling man, better bet I am a gambling man, I am?

Go away [4x]

Leave me alone [4x]

Leave me alone

Don't leave me alone.

Oh [5x]

On Repeat . Heathens

Heathens by Twenty One Pilots

All my friends are heathens, take it slow

Wait for them to ask you who you know

Please don't make any sudden moves

You don't know the half of the abuse

All my friends are heathens, take it slow

Wait for them to ask you who you know

Please don't make any sudden moves

You don't know the half of the abuse

Welcome to the room of people

Who have rooms of people that they loved one day

Docked away

Just because we check the guns at the door

Doesn't mean our brains will change from hand grenades

You're lovin' on the psychopath sitting next to you

You're lovin' on the murderer sitting next to you

You'll think, "How'd I get here, sitting next to you?"

But after all I've said, please don't forget

All my friends are heathens, take it slow

Wait for them to ask you who you know

Please don't make any sudden moves

You don't know the half of the abuse

We don't deal with outsiders very well

They say newcomers have a certain smell

You have trust issues, not to mention

They say they can smell your intentions

You're lovin' on the freakshow sitting next to you

You'll have some weird people sitting next to you

You'll think "How did I get here, sitting next to you?"

But after all I've said, please don't forget

(Watch it, watch it)

All my friends are heathens, take it slow

Wait for them to ask you who you know

Please don't make any sudden moves

You don't know the half of the abuse

All my friends are heathens, take it slow

(Watch it)

Wait for them to ask you who you know

(Watch it)

All my friends are heathens, take it slow

(Watch it)

Wait for them to ask you who you know

(Watch it)

Why'd you come, you knew you should have stayed

(It's blasphemy)

I tried to warn you just to stay away

And now they're outside ready to bust

It looks like you might be one of us

On Repeat . Hiling

Hiling by Paramita

Verse 1:

Nahihirapan na ang aking isip

Nauubusan na ng sasabihin sa iyo..

Nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo sa kin..

Giliw..

Verse 2:

Nalilito ako, nais kong sagipin ang ating

Nalulunod na pag-ibig

Ngunit handa akong palayain ka

Kung ito ang yong hiling

Gaano man kasakit sa akin

Ibibigay sa yo

Ang tanging pakiusap lang

Wag mo akong kalimutan..

Refrain:

Kay rami nang nagdaan

Na pagsubok sa ting pag-ibig

Kakayanin pa kayang mabawi pa

Ang mga nasabi nang masasakit na salita..

Kung ito ang yong hiling

Gaano man kasakit sa akin..

Ibibigay sa yo..

On Repeat . Firewoman

Firewoman by Barbie Almalbis and Kitchie Nadal

Since my laptop was reset last May, I was able to fix my iTunes and found the OPM songs that I have been listening before... So I updated my iPod and then make an OPM playlist and somehow my love for Kitchie was once again alive. Haha She was one of my favorite artist and I used to watch her live on SM Cinema (yes, there are certain shows that are held in SM Cinemas (Megamall). I was even in attendance when this live performance happened. Enjoy! this is one of my favorite song.  

The moon's gone down

I know you're still awake

This heart I've found

I didn't intend to break

Cause I've seen the world from down there

And it wasn't a pretty sight

Now the circle is turning

Are you armed for the fight

Chorus:

I wanna be your firewoman

I'll water down your desire

Because i know this love is a killer

I wanna put out your fire

Apology...hmmn..it's futility

Now, destiny...is not a friend

Not a friend

Cause I've seen the world from down there

And it wasn't a pretty sight

Now the circle is turning

Are you gonna be alright

Chorus:

I wanna be your firewoman

I'll water down your desire

Because i know this love is a killer

I wanna put out your fire

Did you come from danger?

You gave me love for pain

Now you're much more than a stranger

I wanna give you love

But all I have is rain

Chorus:

I wanna be your firewoman

I'll water down your desire

Because i know this love is a killer

I wanna put out your fire

I'm gonna put it out put it out (4x)

I wanna be your firewoman (put it out) (put it out)

I wanna be your firewoman (put it out) (put it out)

I gonna be your firewoman (put it out) (put it out)

I gonna be your firewoman